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You may copy it, give it away or4re-use it under the terms of the Project Gutenberg License included5with this eBook or online at www.gutenberg.org678Title: Emma910Author: Jane Austen1112Release Date: August, 1994 [Etext #158]13Posting Date: January 21, 201014Last Updated: March 10, 20181516Language: English1718Character set encoding: UTF-81920*** START OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK EMMA ***2122232425Produced by An Anonymous Volunteer262728293031EMMA3233By Jane Austen3435363738VOLUME I39404142CHAPTER I434445Emma Woodhouse, handsome, clever, and rich, with a comfortable home46and happy disposition, seemed to unite some of the best blessings of47existence; and had lived nearly twenty-one years in the world with very48little to distress or vex her.4950She was the youngest of the two daughters of a most affectionate,51indulgent father; and had, in consequence of her sister's marriage, been52mistress of his house from a very early period. Her mother had died53too long ago for her to have more than an indistinct remembrance of54her caresses; and her place had been supplied by an excellent woman as55governess, who had fallen little short of a mother in affection.5657Sixteen years had Miss Taylor been in Mr. Woodhouse's family, less as a58governess than a friend, very fond of both daughters, but particularly59of Emma. Between _them_ it was more the intimacy of sisters. Even before60Miss Taylor had ceased to hold the nominal office of governess, the61mildness of her temper had hardly allowed her to impose any restraint;62and the shadow of authority being now long passed away, they had been63living together as friend and friend very mutually attached, and Emma64doing just what she liked; highly esteeming Miss Taylor's judgment, but65directed chiefly by her own.6667The real evils, indeed, of Emma's situation were the power of having68rather too much her own way, and a disposition to think a little too69well of herself; these were the disadvantages which threatened alloy to70her many enjoyments. The danger, however, was at present so unperceived,71that they did not by any means rank as misfortunes with her.7273Sorrow came--a gentle sorrow--but not at all in the shape of any74disagreeable consciousness.--Miss Taylor married. It was Miss Taylor's75loss which first brought grief. It was on the wedding-day of this76beloved friend that Emma first sat in mournful thought of any77continuance. The wedding over, and the bride-people gone, her father and78herself were left to dine together, with no prospect of a third to cheer79a long evening. Her father composed himself to sleep after dinner, as80usual, and she had then only to sit and think of what she had lost.8182The event had every promise of happiness for her friend. Mr. Weston83was a man of unexceptionable character, easy fortune, suitable age, and84pleasant manners; and there was some satisfaction in considering85with what self-denying, generous friendship she had always wished and86promoted the match; but it was a black morning's work for her. The want87of Miss Taylor would be felt every hour of every day. She recalled her88past kindness--the kindness, the affection of sixteen years--how she had89taught and how she had played with her from five years old--how she had90devoted all her powers to attach and amuse her in health--and how91nursed her through the various illnesses of childhood. A large debt of92gratitude was owing here; but the intercourse of the last seven93years, the equal footing and perfect unreserve which had soon followed94Isabella's marriage, on their being left to each other, was yet a95dearer, tenderer recollection. She had been a friend and companion such96as few possessed: intelligent, well-informed, useful, gentle, knowing97all the ways of the family, interested in all its concerns, and98peculiarly interested in herself, in every pleasure, every scheme of99hers--one to whom she could speak every thought as it arose, and who had100such an affection for her as could never find fault.101102How was she to bear the change?--It was true that her friend was going103only half a mile from them; but Emma was aware that great must be the104difference between a Mrs. Weston, only half a mile from them, and a Miss105Taylor in the house; and with all her advantages, natural and domestic,106she was now in great danger of suffering from intellectual solitude. She107dearly loved her father, but he was no companion for her. He could not108meet her in conversation, rational or playful.109110The evil of the actual disparity in their ages (and Mr. Woodhouse had111not married early) was much increased by his constitution and habits;112for having been a valetudinarian all his life, without activity of113mind or body, he was a much older man in ways than in years; and though114everywhere beloved for the friendliness of his heart and his amiable115temper, his talents could not have recommended him at any time.116117Her sister, though comparatively but little removed by matrimony, being118settled in London, only sixteen miles off, was much beyond her daily119reach; and many a long October and November evening must be struggled120through at Hartfield, before Christmas brought the next visit from121Isabella and her husband, and their little children, to fill the house,122and give her pleasant society again.123124Highbury, the large and populous village, almost amounting to a town,125to which Hartfield, in spite of its separate lawn, and shrubberies, and126name, did really belong, afforded her no equals. The Woodhouses127were first in consequence there. All looked up to them. She had many128acquaintance in the place, for her father was universally civil, but129not one among them who could be accepted in lieu of Miss Taylor for even130half a day. It was a melancholy change; and Emma could not but sigh over131it, and wish for impossible things, till her father awoke, and made it132necessary to be cheerful. His spirits required support. He was a nervous133man, easily depressed; fond of every body that he was used to, and134hating to part with them; hating change of every kind. Matrimony, as the135origin of change, was always disagreeable; and he was by no means yet136reconciled to his own daughter's marrying, nor could ever speak of her137but with compassion, though it had been entirely a match of affection,138when he was now obliged to part with Miss Taylor too; and from his139habits of gentle selfishness, and of being never able to suppose that140other people could feel differently from himself, he was very much141disposed to think Miss Taylor had done as sad a thing for herself as for142them, and would have been a great deal happier if she had spent all the143rest of her life at Hartfield. Emma smiled and chatted as cheerfully144as she could, to keep him from such thoughts; but when tea came, it was145impossible for him not to say exactly as he had said at dinner,146147“Poor Miss Taylor!--I wish she were here again. What a pity it is that148Mr. Weston ever thought of her!”149150“I cannot agree with you, papa; you know I cannot. Mr. Weston is such151a good-humoured, pleasant, excellent man, that he thoroughly deserves152a good wife;--and you would not have had Miss Taylor live with us for153ever, and bear all my odd humours, when she might have a house of her154own?”155156“A house of her own!--But where is the advantage of a house of her own?157This is three times as large.--And you have never any odd humours, my158dear.”159160“How often we shall be going to see them, and they coming to see us!--We161shall be always meeting! _We_ must begin; we must go and pay wedding162visit very soon.”163164“My dear, how am I to get so far? Randalls is such a distance. I could165not walk half so far.”166167“No, papa, nobody thought of your walking. We must go in the carriage,168to be sure.”169170“The carriage! But James will not like to put the horses to for such a171little way;--and where are the poor horses to be while we are paying our172visit?”173174“They are to be put into Mr. Weston's stable, papa. You know we have175settled all that already. We talked it all over with Mr. Weston last176night. And as for James, you may be very sure he will always like going177to Randalls, because of his daughter's being housemaid there. I only178doubt whether he will ever take us anywhere else. That was your doing,179papa. You got Hannah that good place. Nobody thought of Hannah till you180mentioned her--James is so obliged to you!”181182“I am very glad I did think of her. It was very lucky, for I would not183have had poor James think himself slighted upon any account; and I am184sure she will make a very good servant: she is a civil, pretty-spoken185girl; I have a great opinion of her. Whenever I see her, she always186curtseys and asks me how I do, in a very pretty manner; and when you187have had her here to do needlework, I observe she always turns the lock188of the door the right way and never bangs it. I am sure she will be an189excellent servant; and it will be a great comfort to poor Miss Taylor190to have somebody about her that she is used to see. Whenever James goes191over to see his daughter, you know, she will be hearing of us. He will192be able to tell her how we all are.”193194Emma spared no exertions to maintain this happier flow of ideas, and195hoped, by the help of backgammon, to get her father tolerably196through the evening, and be attacked by no regrets but her own. The197backgammon-table was placed; but a visitor immediately afterwards walked198in and made it unnecessary.199200Mr. Knightley, a sensible man about seven or eight-and-thirty, was not201only a very old and intimate friend of the family, but particularly202connected with it, as the elder brother of Isabella's husband. He lived203about a mile from Highbury, was a frequent visitor, and always welcome,204and at this time more welcome than usual, as coming directly from their205mutual connexions in London. He had returned to a late dinner, after206some days' absence, and now walked up to Hartfield to say that all were207well in Brunswick Square. It was a happy circumstance, and animated208Mr. Woodhouse for some time. Mr. Knightley had a cheerful manner, which209always did him good; and his many inquiries after “poor Isabella” and210her children were answered most satisfactorily. When this was over, Mr.211Woodhouse gratefully observed, “It is very kind of you, Mr. Knightley,212to come out at this late hour to call upon us. I am afraid you must have213had a shocking walk.”214215“Not at all, sir. It is a beautiful moonlight night; and so mild that I216must draw back from your great fire.”217218“But you must have found it very damp and dirty. I wish you may not219catch cold.”220221“Dirty, sir! Look at my shoes. Not a speck on them.”222223“Well! that is quite surprising, for we have had a vast deal of rain224here. It rained dreadfully hard for half an hour while we were at225breakfast. I wanted them to put off the wedding.”226227“By the bye--I have not wished you joy. Being pretty well aware of what228sort of joy you must both be feeling, I have been in no hurry with my229congratulations; but I hope it all went off tolerably well. How did you230all behave? Who cried most?”231232“Ah! poor Miss Taylor! 'Tis a sad business.”233234“Poor Mr. and Miss Woodhouse, if you please; but I cannot possibly say235'poor Miss Taylor.' I have a great regard for you and Emma; but when it236comes to the question of dependence or independence!--At any rate, it237must be better to have only one to please than two.”238239“Especially when _one_ of those two is such a fanciful, troublesome240creature!” said Emma playfully. “That is what you have in your head, I241know--and what you would certainly say if my father were not by.”242243“I believe it is very true, my dear, indeed,” said Mr. Woodhouse, with a244sigh. “I am afraid I am sometimes very fanciful and troublesome.”245246“My dearest papa! You do not think I could mean _you_, or suppose Mr.247Knightley to mean _you_. What a horrible idea! Oh no! I meant only248myself. Mr. Knightley loves to find fault with me, you know--in a249joke--it is all a joke. We always say what we like to one another.”250251Mr. Knightley, in fact, was one of the few people who could see faults252in Emma Woodhouse, and the only one who ever told her of them: and253though this was not particularly agreeable to Emma herself, she knew254it would be so much less so to her father, that she would not have him255really suspect such a circumstance as her not being thought perfect by256every body.257258“Emma knows I never flatter her,” said Mr. Knightley, “but I meant no259reflection on any body. Miss Taylor has been used to have two persons260to please; she will now have but one. The chances are that she must be a261gainer.”262263“Well,” said Emma, willing to let it pass--“you want to hear about264the wedding; and I shall be happy to tell you, for we all behaved265charmingly. Every body was punctual, every body in their best looks: not266a tear, and hardly a long face to be seen. Oh no; we all felt that we267were going to be only half a mile apart, and were sure of meeting every268day.”269270“Dear Emma bears every thing so well,” said her father. “But, Mr.271Knightley, she is really very sorry to lose poor Miss Taylor, and I am272sure she _will_ miss her more than she thinks for.”273274Emma turned away her head, divided between tears and smiles. “It275is impossible that Emma should not miss such a companion,” said Mr.276Knightley. “We should not like her so well as we do, sir, if we could277suppose it; but she knows how much the marriage is to Miss Taylor's278advantage; she knows how very acceptable it must be, at Miss Taylor's279time of life, to be settled in a home of her own, and how important to280her to be secure of a comfortable provision, and therefore cannot allow281herself to feel so much pain as pleasure. Every friend of Miss Taylor282must be glad to have her so happily married.”283284“And you have forgotten one matter of joy to me,” said Emma, “and a very285considerable one--that I made the match myself. I made the match, you286know, four years ago; and to have it take place, and be proved in the287right, when so many people said Mr. Weston would never marry again, may288comfort me for any thing.”289290Mr. Knightley shook his head at her. Her father fondly replied, “Ah!291my dear, I wish you would not make matches and foretell things, for292whatever you say always comes to pass. Pray do not make any more293matches.”294295“I promise you to make none for myself, papa; but I must, indeed, for296other people. It is the greatest amusement in the world! And after such297success, you know!--Every body said that Mr. Weston would never marry298again. Oh dear, no! Mr. Weston, who had been a widower so long, and who299seemed so perfectly comfortable without a wife, so constantly occupied300either in his business in town or among his friends here, always301acceptable wherever he went, always cheerful--Mr. Weston need not spend302a single evening in the year alone if he did not like it. Oh no! Mr.303Weston certainly would never marry again. Some people even talked of a304promise to his wife on her deathbed, and others of the son and the305uncle not letting him. All manner of solemn nonsense was talked on the306subject, but I believed none of it.307308“Ever since the day--about four years ago--that Miss Taylor and I met309with him in Broadway Lane, when, because it began to drizzle, he darted310away with so much gallantry, and borrowed two umbrellas for us from311Farmer Mitchell's, I made up my mind on the subject. I planned the match312from that hour; and when such success has blessed me in this instance,313dear papa, you cannot think that I shall leave off match-making.”314315“I do not understand what you mean by 'success,'” said Mr. Knightley.316“Success supposes endeavour. Your time has been properly and delicately317spent, if you have been endeavouring for the last four years to bring318about this marriage. A worthy employment for a young lady's mind! But319if, which I rather imagine, your making the match, as you call it, means320only your planning it, your saying to yourself one idle day, 'I think it321would be a very good thing for Miss Taylor if Mr. Weston were to marry322her,' and saying it again to yourself every now and then afterwards, why323do you talk of success? Where is your merit? What are you proud of? You324made a lucky guess; and _that_ is all that can be said.”325326“And have you never known the pleasure and triumph of a lucky guess?--I327pity you.--I thought you cleverer--for, depend upon it a lucky guess is328never merely luck. There is always some talent in it. And as to my329poor word 'success,' which you quarrel with, I do not know that I am so330entirely without any claim to it. You have drawn two pretty pictures;331but I think there may be a third--a something between the do-nothing and332the do-all. If I had not promoted Mr. Weston's visits here, and given333many little encouragements, and smoothed many little matters, it might334not have come to any thing after all. I think you must know Hartfield335enough to comprehend that.”336337“A straightforward, open-hearted man like Weston, and a rational,338unaffected woman like Miss Taylor, may be safely left to manage their339own concerns. You are more likely to have done harm to yourself, than340good to them, by interference.”341342“Emma never thinks of herself, if she can do good to others,” rejoined343Mr. Woodhouse, understanding but in part. “But, my dear, pray do not344make any more matches; they are silly things, and break up one's family345circle grievously.”346347“Only one more, papa; only for Mr. Elton. Poor Mr. Elton! You like Mr.348Elton, papa,--I must look about for a wife for him. There is nobody in349Highbury who deserves him--and he has been here a whole year, and has350fitted up his house so comfortably, that it would be a shame to have him351single any longer--and I thought when he was joining their hands to-day,352he looked so very much as if he would like to have the same kind office353done for him! I think very well of Mr. Elton, and this is the only way I354have of doing him a service.”355356“Mr. Elton is a very pretty young man, to be sure, and a very good young357man, and I have a great regard for him. But if you want to shew him any358attention, my dear, ask him to come and dine with us some day. That will359be a much better thing. I dare say Mr. Knightley will be so kind as to360meet him.”361362“With a great deal of pleasure, sir, at any time,” said Mr. Knightley,363laughing, “and I agree with you entirely, that it will be a much better364thing. Invite him to dinner, Emma, and help him to the best of the fish365and the chicken, but leave him to chuse his own wife. Depend upon it, a366man of six or seven-and-twenty can take care of himself.”367368369370CHAPTER II371372373Mr. Weston was a native of Highbury, and born of a respectable family,374which for the last two or three generations had been rising into375gentility and property. He had received a good education, but, on376succeeding early in life to a small independence, had become indisposed377for any of the more homely pursuits in which his brothers were engaged,378and had satisfied an active, cheerful mind and social temper by entering379into the militia of his county, then embodied.380381Captain Weston was a general favourite; and when the chances of his382military life had introduced him to Miss Churchill, of a great Yorkshire383family, and Miss Churchill fell in love with him, nobody was surprized,384except her brother and his wife, who had never seen him, and who were385full of pride and importance, which the connexion would offend.386387Miss Churchill, however, being of age, and with the full command of her388fortune--though her fortune bore no proportion to the family-estate--was389not to be dissuaded from the marriage, and it took place, to the390infinite mortification of Mr. and Mrs. Churchill, who threw her off with391due decorum. It was an unsuitable connexion, and did not produce much392happiness. Mrs. Weston ought to have found more in it, for she had a393husband whose warm heart and sweet temper made him think every thing due394to her in return for the great goodness of being in love with him;395but though she had one sort of spirit, she had not the best. She had396resolution enough to pursue her own will in spite of her brother,397but not enough to refrain from unreasonable regrets at that brother's398unreasonable anger, nor from missing the luxuries of her former home.399They lived beyond their income, but still it was nothing in comparison400of Enscombe: she did not cease to love her husband, but she wanted at401once to be the wife of Captain Weston, and Miss Churchill of Enscombe.402403Captain Weston, who had been considered, especially by the Churchills,404as making such an amazing match, was proved to have much the worst of405the bargain; for when his wife died, after a three years' marriage, he406was rather a poorer man than at first, and with a child to maintain.407From the expense of the child, however, he was soon relieved. The boy408had, with the additional softening claim of a lingering illness of his409mother's, been the means of a sort of reconciliation; and Mr. and Mrs.410Churchill, having no children of their own, nor any other young creature411of equal kindred to care for, offered to take the whole charge of the412little Frank soon after her decease. Some scruples and some reluctance413the widower-father may be supposed to have felt; but as they were414overcome by other considerations, the child was given up to the care and415the wealth of the Churchills, and he had only his own comfort to seek,416and his own situation to improve as he could.417418A complete change of life became desirable. He quitted the militia and419engaged in trade, having brothers already established in a good way in420London, which afforded him a favourable opening. It was a concern which421brought just employment enough. He had still a small house in Highbury,422where most of his leisure days were spent; and between useful occupation423and the pleasures of society, the next eighteen or twenty years of his424life passed cheerfully away. He had, by that time, realised an easy425competence--enough to secure the purchase of a little estate adjoining426Highbury, which he had always longed for--enough to marry a woman as427portionless even as Miss Taylor, and to live according to the wishes of428his own friendly and social disposition.429430It was now some time since Miss Taylor had begun to influence his431schemes; but as it was not the tyrannic influence of youth on youth,432it had not shaken his determination of never settling till he could433purchase Randalls, and the sale of Randalls was long looked forward to;434but he had gone steadily on, with these objects in view, till they were435accomplished. He had made his fortune, bought his house, and obtained436his wife; and was beginning a new period of existence, with every437probability of greater happiness than in any yet passed through. He had438never been an unhappy man; his own temper had secured him from that,439even in his first marriage; but his second must shew him how delightful440a well-judging and truly amiable woman could be, and must give him the441pleasantest proof of its being a great deal better to choose than to be442chosen, to excite gratitude than to feel it.443444He had only himself to please in his choice: his fortune was his own;445for as to Frank, it was more than being tacitly brought up as his446uncle's heir, it had become so avowed an adoption as to have him assume447the name of Churchill on coming of age. It was most unlikely, therefore,448that he should ever want his father's assistance. His father had no449apprehension of it. The aunt was a capricious woman, and governed her450husband entirely; but it was not in Mr. Weston's nature to imagine that451any caprice could be strong enough to affect one so dear, and, as he452believed, so deservedly dear. He saw his son every year in London, and453was proud of him; and his fond report of him as a very fine young man454had made Highbury feel a sort of pride in him too. He was looked on as455sufficiently belonging to the place to make his merits and prospects a456kind of common concern.457458Mr. Frank Churchill was one of the boasts of Highbury, and a lively459curiosity to see him prevailed, though the compliment was so little460returned that he had never been there in his life. His coming to visit461his father had been often talked of but never achieved.462463Now, upon his father's marriage, it was very generally proposed, as a464most proper attention, that the visit should take place. There was not a465dissentient voice on the subject, either when Mrs. Perry drank tea with466Mrs. and Miss Bates, or when Mrs. and Miss Bates returned the visit. Now467was the time for Mr. Frank Churchill to come among them; and the hope468strengthened when it was understood that he had written to his new469mother on the occasion. For a few days, every morning visit in Highbury470included some mention of the handsome letter Mrs. Weston had received.471“I suppose you have heard of the handsome letter Mr. Frank Churchill472has written to Mrs. Weston? I understand it was a very handsome letter,473indeed. Mr. Woodhouse told me of it. Mr. Woodhouse saw the letter, and474he says he never saw such a handsome letter in his life.”475476It was, indeed, a highly prized letter. Mrs. Weston had, of course,477formed a very favourable idea of the young man; and such a pleasing478attention was an irresistible proof of his great good sense, and a most479welcome addition to every source and every expression of congratulation480which her marriage had already secured. She felt herself a most481fortunate woman; and she had lived long enough to know how fortunate482she might well be thought, where the only regret was for a partial483separation from friends whose friendship for her had never cooled, and484who could ill bear to part with her.485486She knew that at times she must be missed; and could not think, without487pain, of Emma's losing a single pleasure, or suffering an hour's ennui,488from the want of her companionableness: but dear Emma was of no feeble489character; she was more equal to her situation than most girls would490have been, and had sense, and energy, and spirits that might be hoped491would bear her well and happily through its little difficulties and492privations. And then there was such comfort in the very easy distance of493Randalls from Hartfield, so convenient for even solitary female walking,494and in Mr. Weston's disposition and circumstances, which would make the495approaching season no hindrance to their spending half the evenings in496the week together.497498Her situation was altogether the subject of hours of gratitude to Mrs.499Weston, and of moments only of regret; and her satisfaction--her more500than satisfaction--her cheerful enjoyment, was so just and so apparent,501that Emma, well as she knew her father, was sometimes taken by surprize502at his being still able to pity 'poor Miss Taylor,' when they left her503at Randalls in the centre of every domestic comfort, or saw her go away504in the evening attended by her pleasant husband to a carriage of her505own. But never did she go without Mr. Woodhouse's giving a gentle sigh,506and saying, “Ah, poor Miss Taylor! She would be very glad to stay.”507508There was no recovering Miss Taylor--nor much likelihood of ceasing to509pity her; but a few weeks brought some alleviation to Mr. Woodhouse.510The compliments of his neighbours were over; he was no longer teased by511being wished joy of so sorrowful an event; and the wedding-cake, which512had been a great distress to him, was all eat up. His own stomach513could bear nothing rich, and he could never believe other people to be514different from himself. What was unwholesome to him he regarded as unfit515for any body; and he had, therefore, earnestly tried to dissuade them516from having any wedding-cake at all, and when that proved vain, as517earnestly tried to prevent any body's eating it. He had been at the518pains of consulting Mr. Perry, the apothecary, on the subject. Mr. Perry519was an intelligent, gentlemanlike man, whose frequent visits were one520of the comforts of Mr. Woodhouse's life; and upon being applied to, he521could not but acknowledge (though it seemed rather against the bias522of inclination) that wedding-cake might certainly disagree with523many--perhaps with most people, unless taken moderately. With such an524opinion, in confirmation of his own, Mr. Woodhouse hoped to influence525every visitor of the newly married pair; but still the cake was eaten;526and there was no rest for his benevolent nerves till it was all gone.527528There was a strange rumour in Highbury of all the little Perrys being529seen with a slice of Mrs. Weston's wedding-cake in their hands: but Mr.530Woodhouse would never believe it.531532533534CHAPTER III535536537Mr. Woodhouse was fond of society in his own way. He liked very much to538have his friends come and see him; and from various united causes, from539his long residence at Hartfield, and his good nature, from his fortune,540his house, and his daughter, he could command the visits of his541own little circle, in a great measure, as he liked. He had not much542intercourse with any families beyond that circle; his horror of late543hours, and large dinner-parties, made him unfit for any acquaintance but544such as would visit him on his own terms. Fortunately for him, Highbury,545including Randalls in the same parish, and Donwell Abbey in the parish546adjoining, the seat of Mr. Knightley, comprehended many such. Not547unfrequently, through Emma's persuasion, he had some of the chosen and548the best to dine with him: but evening parties were what he preferred;549and, unless he fancied himself at any time unequal to company, there550was scarcely an evening in the week in which Emma could not make up a551card-table for him.552553Real, long-standing regard brought the Westons and Mr. Knightley; and by554Mr. Elton, a young man living alone without liking it, the privilege555of exchanging any vacant evening of his own blank solitude for the556elegancies and society of Mr. Woodhouse's drawing-room, and the smiles557of his lovely daughter, was in no danger of being thrown away.558559After these came a second set; among the most come-at-able of whom were560Mrs. and Miss Bates, and Mrs. Goddard, three ladies almost always at561the service of an invitation from Hartfield, and who were fetched and562carried home so often, that Mr. Woodhouse thought it no hardship for563either James or the horses. Had it taken place only once a year, it564would have been a grievance.565566Mrs. Bates, the widow of a former vicar of Highbury, was a very old567lady, almost past every thing but tea and quadrille. She lived with her568single daughter in a very small way, and was considered with all the569regard and respect which a harmless old lady, under such untoward570circumstances, can excite. Her daughter enjoyed a most uncommon degree571of popularity for a woman neither young, handsome, rich, nor married.572Miss Bates stood in the very worst predicament in the world for having573much of the public favour; and she had no intellectual superiority to574make atonement to herself, or frighten those who might hate her into575outward respect. She had never boasted either beauty or cleverness. Her576youth had passed without distinction, and her middle of life was devoted577to the care of a failing mother, and the endeavour to make a small578income go as far as possible. And yet she was a happy woman, and a woman579whom no one named without good-will. It was her own universal good-will580and contented temper which worked such wonders. She loved every body,581was interested in every body's happiness, quicksighted to every body's582merits; thought herself a most fortunate creature, and surrounded with583blessings in such an excellent mother, and so many good neighbours584and friends, and a home that wanted for nothing. The simplicity and585cheerfulness of her nature, her contented and grateful spirit, were a586recommendation to every body, and a mine of felicity to herself. She was587a great talker upon little matters, which exactly suited Mr. Woodhouse,588full of trivial communications and harmless gossip.589590Mrs. Goddard was the mistress of a School--not of a seminary, or an591establishment, or any thing which professed, in long sentences of592refined nonsense, to combine liberal acquirements with elegant morality,593upon new principles and new systems--and where young ladies for enormous594pay might be screwed out of health and into vanity--but a real,595honest, old-fashioned Boarding-school, where a reasonable quantity of596accomplishments were sold at a reasonable price, and where girls might597be sent to be out of the way, and scramble themselves into a little598education, without any danger of coming back prodigies. Mrs. Goddard's599school was in high repute--and very deservedly; for Highbury was600reckoned a particularly healthy spot: she had an ample house and garden,601gave the children plenty of wholesome food, let them run about a great602deal in the summer, and in winter dressed their chilblains with her own603hands. It was no wonder that a train of twenty young couple now walked604after her to church. She was a plain, motherly kind of woman, who605had worked hard in her youth, and now thought herself entitled to the606occasional holiday of a tea-visit; and having formerly owed much to Mr.607Woodhouse's kindness, felt his particular claim on her to leave her neat608parlour, hung round with fancy-work, whenever she could, and win or lose609a few sixpences by his fireside.610611These were the ladies whom Emma found herself very frequently able to612collect; and happy was she, for her father's sake, in the power; though,613as far as she was herself concerned, it was no remedy for the absence of614Mrs. Weston. She was delighted to see her father look comfortable, and615very much pleased with herself for contriving things so well; but the616quiet prosings of three such women made her feel that every evening so617spent was indeed one of the long evenings she had fearfully anticipated.618619As she sat one morning, looking forward to exactly such a close of the620present day, a note was brought from Mrs. Goddard, requesting, in most621respectful terms, to be allowed to bring Miss Smith with her; a most622welcome request: for Miss Smith was a girl of seventeen, whom Emma knew623very well by sight, and had long felt an interest in, on account of624her beauty. A very gracious invitation was returned, and the evening no625longer dreaded by the fair mistress of the mansion.626627Harriet Smith was the natural daughter of somebody. Somebody had placed628her, several years back, at Mrs. Goddard's school, and somebody629had lately raised her from the condition of scholar to that of630parlour-boarder. This was all that was generally known of her history.631She had no visible friends but what had been acquired at Highbury, and632was now just returned from a long visit in the country to some young633ladies who had been at school there with her.634635She was a very pretty girl, and her beauty happened to be of a sort636which Emma particularly admired. She was short, plump, and fair, with a637fine bloom, blue eyes, light hair, regular features, and a look of great638sweetness, and, before the end of the evening, Emma was as much pleased639with her manners as her person, and quite determined to continue the640acquaintance.641642She was not struck by any thing remarkably clever in Miss Smith's643conversation, but she found her altogether very engaging--not644inconveniently shy, not unwilling to talk--and yet so far from pushing,645shewing so proper and becoming a deference, seeming so pleasantly646grateful for being admitted to Hartfield, and so artlessly impressed647by the appearance of every thing in so superior a style to what she had648been used to, that she must have good sense, and deserve encouragement.649Encouragement should be given. Those soft blue eyes, and all those650natural graces, should not be wasted on the inferior society of Highbury651and its connexions. The acquaintance she had already formed were652unworthy of her. The friends from whom she had just parted, though very653good sort of people, must be doing her harm. They were a family of the654name of Martin, whom Emma well knew by character, as renting a large655farm of Mr. Knightley, and residing in the parish of Donwell--very656creditably, she believed--she knew Mr. Knightley thought highly of657them--but they must be coarse and unpolished, and very unfit to be the658intimates of a girl who wanted only a little more knowledge and elegance659to be quite perfect. _She_ would notice her; she would improve her; she660would detach her from her bad acquaintance, and introduce her into good661society; she would form her opinions and her manners. It would be an662interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking; highly becoming her663own situation in life, her leisure, and powers.664665She was so busy in admiring those soft blue eyes, in talking and666listening, and forming all these schemes in the in-betweens, that the667evening flew away at a very unusual rate; and the supper-table, which668always closed such parties, and for which she had been used to sit and669watch the due time, was all set out and ready, and moved forwards to the670fire, before she was aware. With an alacrity beyond the common impulse671of a spirit which yet was never indifferent to the credit of doing every672thing well and attentively, with the real good-will of a mind delighted673with its own ideas, did she then do all the honours of the meal, and674help and recommend the minced chicken and scalloped oysters, with an675urgency which she knew would be acceptable to the early hours and civil676scruples of their guests.677678Upon such occasions poor Mr. Woodhouse's feelings were in sad warfare.679He loved to have the cloth laid, because it had been the fashion of his680youth, but his conviction of suppers being very unwholesome made him681rather sorry to see any thing put on it; and while his hospitality would682have welcomed his visitors to every thing, his care for their health683made him grieve that they would eat.684685Such another small basin of thin gruel as his own was all that he could,686with thorough self-approbation, recommend; though he might constrain687himself, while the ladies were comfortably clearing the nicer things, to688say:689690“Mrs. Bates, let me propose your venturing on one of these eggs. An egg691boiled very soft is not unwholesome. Serle understands boiling an egg692better than any body. I would not recommend an egg boiled by any body693else; but you need not be afraid, they are very small, you see--one of694our small eggs will not hurt you. Miss Bates, let Emma help you to a695_little_ bit of tart--a _very_ little bit. Ours are all apple-tarts. You696need not be afraid of unwholesome preserves here. I do not advise the697custard. Mrs. Goddard, what say you to _half_ a glass of wine? A698_small_ half-glass, put into a tumbler of water? I do not think it could699disagree with you.”700701Emma allowed her father to talk--but supplied her visitors in a much702more satisfactory style, and on the present evening had particular703pleasure in sending them away happy. The happiness of Miss Smith was704quite equal to her intentions. Miss Woodhouse was so great a personage705in Highbury, that the prospect of the introduction had given as much706panic as pleasure; but the humble, grateful little girl went off with707highly gratified feelings, delighted with the affability with which Miss708Woodhouse had treated her all the evening, and actually shaken hands709with her at last!710711712713CHAPTER IV714715716Harriet Smith's intimacy at Hartfield was soon a settled thing. Quick717and decided in her ways, Emma lost no time in inviting, encouraging, and718telling her to come very often; and as their acquaintance increased, so719did their satisfaction in each other. As a walking companion, Emma had720very early foreseen how useful she might find her. In that respect721Mrs. Weston's loss had been important. Her father never went beyond the722shrubbery, where two divisions of the ground sufficed him for his long723walk, or his short, as the year varied; and since Mrs. Weston's marriage724her exercise had been too much confined. She had ventured once alone to725Randalls, but it was not pleasant; and a Harriet Smith, therefore,726one whom she could summon at any time to a walk, would be a valuable727addition to her privileges. But in every respect, as she saw more of728her, she approved her, and was confirmed in all her kind designs.729730Harriet certainly was not clever, but she had a sweet, docile, grateful731disposition, was totally free from conceit, and only desiring to be732guided by any one she looked up to. Her early attachment to herself733was very amiable; and her inclination for good company, and power of734appreciating what was elegant and clever, shewed that there was no735want of taste, though strength of understanding must not be expected.736Altogether she was quite convinced of Harriet Smith's being exactly the737young friend she wanted--exactly the something which her home required.738Such a friend as Mrs. Weston was out of the question. Two such could739never be granted. Two such she did not want. It was quite a different740sort of thing, a sentiment distinct and independent. Mrs. Weston was the741object of a regard which had its basis in gratitude and esteem. Harriet742would be loved as one to whom she could be useful. For Mrs. Weston there743was nothing to be done; for Harriet every thing.744745Her first attempts at usefulness were in an endeavour to find out who746were the parents, but Harriet could not tell. She was ready to tell747every thing in her power, but on this subject questions were vain. Emma748was obliged to fancy what she liked--but she could never believe that in749the same situation _she_ should not have discovered the truth. Harriet750had no penetration. She had been satisfied to hear and believe just what751Mrs. Goddard chose to tell her; and looked no farther.752753Mrs. Goddard, and the teachers, and the girls and the affairs of754the school in general, formed naturally a great part of the755conversation--and but for her acquaintance with the Martins of756Abbey-Mill Farm, it must have been the whole. But the Martins occupied757her thoughts a good deal; she had spent two very happy months with them,758and now loved to talk of the pleasures of her visit, and describe759the many comforts and wonders of the place. Emma encouraged her760talkativeness--amused by such a picture of another set of beings,761and enjoying the youthful simplicity which could speak with so much762exultation of Mrs. Martin's having “_two_ parlours, two very good763parlours, indeed; one of them quite as large as Mrs. Goddard's764drawing-room; and of her having an upper maid who had lived765five-and-twenty years with her; and of their having eight cows, two of766them Alderneys, and one a little Welch cow, a very pretty little Welch767cow indeed; and of Mrs. Martin's saying as she was so fond of it,768it should be called _her_ cow; and of their having a very handsome769summer-house in their garden, where some day next year they were all to770drink tea:--a very handsome summer-house, large enough to hold a dozen771people.”772773For some time she was amused, without thinking beyond the immediate774cause; but as she came to understand the family better, other feelings775arose. She had taken up a wrong idea, fancying it was a mother and776daughter, a son and son's wife, who all lived together; but when it777appeared that the Mr. Martin, who bore a part in the narrative, and was778always mentioned with approbation for his great good-nature in doing779something or other, was a single man; that there was no young Mrs.780Martin, no wife in the case; she did suspect danger to her poor little781friend from all this hospitality and kindness, and that, if she were not782taken care of, she might be required to sink herself forever.783784With this inspiriting notion, her questions increased in number and785meaning; and she particularly led Harriet to talk more of Mr. Martin,786and there was evidently no dislike to it. Harriet was very ready to787speak of the share he had had in their moonlight walks and merry evening788games; and dwelt a good deal upon his being so very good-humoured and789obliging. He had gone three miles round one day in order to bring her790some walnuts, because she had said how fond she was of them, and in791every thing else he was so very obliging. He had his shepherd's son into792the parlour one night on purpose to sing to her. She was very fond793of singing. He could sing a little himself. She believed he was very794clever, and understood every thing. He had a very fine flock, and, while795she was with them, he had been bid more for his wool than any body in796the country. She believed every body spoke well of him. His mother and797sisters were very fond of him. Mrs. Martin had told her one day (and798there was a blush as she said it,) that it was impossible for any body799to be a better son, and therefore she was sure, whenever he married, he800would make a good husband. Not that she _wanted_ him to marry. She was801in no hurry at all.802803“Well done, Mrs. Martin!” thought Emma. “You know what you are about.”804805“And when she had come away, Mrs. Martin was so very kind as to send806Mrs. Goddard a beautiful goose--the finest goose Mrs. Goddard had ever807seen. Mrs. Goddard had dressed it on a Sunday, and asked all the three808teachers, Miss Nash, and Miss Prince, and Miss Richardson, to sup with809her.”810811“Mr. Martin, I suppose, is not a man of information beyond the line of812his own business? He does not read?”813814“Oh yes!--that is, no--I do not know--but I believe he has read a815good deal--but not what you would think any thing of. He reads the816Agricultural Reports, and some other books that lay in one of the window817seats--but he reads all _them_ to himself. But sometimes of an evening,818before we went to cards, he would read something aloud out of the819Elegant Extracts, very entertaining. And I know he has read the Vicar of820Wakefield. He never read the Romance of the Forest, nor The Children of821the Abbey. He had never heard of such books before I mentioned them, but822he is determined to get them now as soon as ever he can.”823824The next question was--825826“What sort of looking man is Mr. Martin?”827828“Oh! not handsome--not at all handsome. I thought him very plain at829first, but I do not think him so plain now. One does not, you know,830after a time. But did you never see him? He is in Highbury every now and831then, and he is sure to ride through every week in his way to Kingston.832He has passed you very often.”833834“That may be, and I may have seen him fifty times, but without having835any idea of his name. A young farmer, whether on horseback or on foot,836is the very last sort of person to raise my curiosity. The yeomanry are837precisely the order of people with whom I feel I can have nothing to do.838A degree or two lower, and a creditable appearance might interest me;839I might hope to be useful to their families in some way or other. But840a farmer can need none of my help, and is, therefore, in one sense, as841much above my notice as in every other he is below it.”842843“To be sure. Oh yes! It is not likely you should ever have observed him;844but he knows you very well indeed--I mean by sight.”845846“I have no doubt of his being a very respectable young man. I know,847indeed, that he is so, and, as such, wish him well. What do you imagine848his age to be?”849850“He was four-and-twenty the 8th of last June, and my birthday is the85123rd just a fortnight and a day's difference--which is very odd.”852853“Only four-and-twenty. That is too young to settle. His mother is854perfectly right not to be in a hurry. They seem very comfortable as they855are, and if she were to take any pains to marry him, she would probably856repent it. Six years hence, if he could meet with a good sort of young857woman in the same rank as his own, with a little money, it might be very858desirable.”859860“Six years hence! Dear Miss Woodhouse, he would be thirty years old!”861862“Well, and that is as early as most men can afford to marry, who are not863born to an independence. Mr. Martin, I imagine, has his fortune entirely864to make--cannot be at all beforehand with the world. Whatever money he865might come into when his father died, whatever his share of the family866property, it is, I dare say, all afloat, all employed in his stock, and867so forth; and though, with diligence and good luck, he may be rich in868time, it is next to impossible that he should have realised any thing869yet.”870871“To be sure, so it is. But they live very comfortably. They have no872indoors man, else they do not want for any thing; and Mrs. Martin talks873of taking a boy another year.”874875“I wish you may not get into a scrape, Harriet, whenever he does876marry;--I mean, as to being acquainted with his wife--for though his877sisters, from a superior education, are not to be altogether objected878to, it does not follow that he might marry any body at all fit for you879to notice. The misfortune of your birth ought to make you particularly880careful as to your associates. There can be no doubt of your being a881gentleman's daughter, and you must support your claim to that station by882every thing within your own power, or there will be plenty of people who883would take pleasure in degrading you.”884885“Yes, to be sure, I suppose there are. But while I visit at Hartfield,886and you are so kind to me, Miss Woodhouse, I am not afraid of what any887body can do.”888889“You understand the force of influence pretty well, Harriet; but I would890have you so firmly established in good society, as to be independent891even of Hartfield and Miss Woodhouse. I want to see you permanently892well connected, and to that end it will be advisable to have as few odd893acquaintance as may be; and, therefore, I say that if you should still894be in this country when Mr. Martin marries, I wish you may not be drawn895in by your intimacy with the sisters, to be acquainted with the wife,896who will probably be some mere farmer's daughter, without education.”897898“To be sure. Yes. Not that I think Mr. Martin would ever marry any body899but what had had some education--and been very well brought up. However,900I do not mean to set up my opinion against yours--and I am sure I shall901not wish for the acquaintance of his wife. I shall always have a great902regard for the Miss Martins, especially Elizabeth, and should be very903sorry to give them up, for they are quite as well educated as me. But904if he marries a very ignorant, vulgar woman, certainly I had better not905visit her, if I can help it.”906907Emma watched her through the fluctuations of this speech, and saw no908alarming symptoms of love. The young man had been the first admirer, but909she trusted there was no other hold, and that there would be no serious910difficulty, on Harriet's side, to oppose any friendly arrangement of her911own.912913They met Mr. Martin the very next day, as they were walking on the914Donwell road. He was on foot, and after looking very respectfully at915her, looked with most unfeigned satisfaction at her companion. Emma was916not sorry to have such an opportunity of survey; and walking a few917yards forward, while they talked together, soon made her quick eye918sufficiently acquainted with Mr. Robert Martin. His appearance was very919neat, and he looked like a sensible young man, but his person had no920other advantage; and when he came to be contrasted with gentlemen,921she thought he must lose all the ground he had gained in Harriet's922inclination. Harriet was not insensible of manner; she had voluntarily923noticed her father's gentleness with admiration as well as wonder. Mr.924Martin looked as if he did not know what manner was.925926They remained but a few minutes together, as Miss Woodhouse must not be927kept waiting; and Harriet then came running to her with a smiling face,928and in a flutter of spirits, which Miss Woodhouse hoped very soon to929compose.930931“Only think of our happening to meet him!--How very odd! It was quite932a chance, he said, that he had not gone round by Randalls. He did not933think we ever walked this road. He thought we walked towards Randalls934most days. He has not been able to get the Romance of the Forest yet.935He was so busy the last time he was at Kingston that he quite forgot it,936but he goes again to-morrow. So very odd we should happen to meet! Well,937Miss Woodhouse, is he like what you expected? What do you think of him?938Do you think him so very plain?”939940“He is very plain, undoubtedly--remarkably plain:--but that is nothing941compared with his entire want of gentility. I had no right to expect942much, and I did not expect much; but I had no idea that he could be so943very clownish, so totally without air. I had imagined him, I confess, a944degree or two nearer gentility.”945946“To be sure,” said Harriet, in a mortified voice, “he is not so genteel947as real gentlemen.”948949“I think, Harriet, since your acquaintance with us, you have been950repeatedly in the company of some such very real gentlemen, that you951must yourself be struck with the difference in Mr. Martin. At Hartfield,952you have had very good specimens of well educated, well bred men. I953should be surprized if, after seeing them, you could be in company954with Mr. Martin again without perceiving him to be a very inferior955creature--and rather wondering at yourself for having ever thought him956at all agreeable before. Do not you begin to feel that now? Were not957you struck? I am sure you must have been struck by his awkward look and958abrupt manner, and the uncouthness of a voice which I heard to be wholly959unmodulated as I stood here.”960961“Certainly, he is not like Mr. Knightley. He has not such a fine air and962way of walking as Mr. Knightley. I see the difference plain enough. But963Mr. Knightley is so very fine a man!”964965“Mr. Knightley's air is so remarkably good that it is not fair to966compare Mr. Martin with _him_. You might not see one in a hundred with967_gentleman_ so plainly written as in Mr. Knightley. But he is not the968only gentleman you have been lately used to. What say you to Mr. Weston969and Mr. Elton? Compare Mr. Martin with either of _them_. Compare their970manner of carrying themselves; of walking; of speaking; of being silent.971You must see the difference.”972973“Oh yes!--there is a great difference. But Mr. Weston is almost an old974man. Mr. Weston must be between forty and fifty.”975976“Which makes his good manners the more valuable. The older a person977grows, Harriet, the more important it is that their manners should not978be bad; the more glaring and disgusting any loudness, or coarseness, or979awkwardness becomes. What is passable in youth is detestable in later980age. Mr. Martin is now awkward and abrupt; what will he be at Mr.981Weston's time of life?”982983“There is no saying, indeed,” replied Harriet rather solemnly.984985“But there may be pretty good guessing. He will be a completely gross,986vulgar farmer, totally inattentive to appearances, and thinking of987nothing but profit and loss.”988989“Will he, indeed? That will be very bad.”990991“How much his business engrosses him already is very plain from the992circumstance of his forgetting to inquire for the book you recommended.993He was a great deal too full of the market to think of any thing994else--which is just as it should be, for a thriving man. What has he to995do with books? And I have no doubt that he _will_ thrive, and be a very996rich man in time--and his being illiterate and coarse need not disturb997_us_.”998999“I wonder he did not remember the book”--was all Harriet's answer, and1000spoken with a degree of grave displeasure which Emma thought might be1001safely left to itself. She, therefore, said no more for some time. Her1002next beginning was,10031004“In one respect, perhaps, Mr. Elton's manners are superior to Mr.1005Knightley's or Mr. Weston's. They have more gentleness. They might be1006more safely held up as a pattern. There is an openness, a quickness,1007almost a bluntness in Mr. Weston, which every body likes in _him_,1008because there is so much good-humour with it--but that would not do to1009be copied. Neither would Mr. Knightley's downright, decided, commanding1010sort of manner, though it suits _him_ very well; his figure, and look,1011and situation in life seem to allow it; but if any young man were to set1012about copying him, he would not be sufferable. On the contrary, I think1013a young man might be very safely recommended to take Mr. Elton as a1014model. Mr. Elton is good-humoured, cheerful, obliging, and gentle.1015He seems to me to be grown particularly gentle of late. I do not know1016whether he has any design of ingratiating himself with either of us,1017Harriet, by additional softness, but it strikes me that his manners are1018softer than they used to be. If he means any thing, it must be to please1019you. Did not I tell you what he said of you the other day?”10201021She then repeated some warm personal praise which she had drawn from Mr.1022Elton, and now did full justice to; and Harriet blushed and smiled, and1023said she had always thought Mr. Elton very agreeable.10241025Mr. Elton was the very person fixed on by Emma for driving the young1026farmer out of Harriet's head. She thought it would be an excellent1027match; and only too palpably desirable, natural, and probable, for her1028to have much merit in planning it. She feared it was what every body1029else must think of and predict. It was not likely, however, that any1030body should have equalled her in the date of the plan, as it had1031entered her brain during the very first evening of Harriet's coming to1032Hartfield. The longer she considered it, the greater was her sense1033of its expediency. Mr. Elton's situation was most suitable, quite the1034gentleman himself, and without low connexions; at the same time, not of1035any family that could fairly object to the doubtful birth of Harriet.1036He had a comfortable home for her, and Emma imagined a very sufficient1037income; for though the vicarage of Highbury was not large, he was known1038to have some independent property; and she thought very highly of him1039as a good-humoured, well-meaning, respectable young man, without any1040deficiency of useful understanding or knowledge of the world.10411042She had already satisfied herself that he thought Harriet a beautiful1043girl, which she trusted, with such frequent meetings at Hartfield, was1044foundation enough on his side; and on Harriet's there could be little1045doubt that the idea of being preferred by him would have all the usual1046weight and efficacy. And he was really a very pleasing young man, a1047young man whom any woman not fastidious might like. He was reckoned very1048handsome; his person much admired in general, though not by her,1049there being a want of elegance of feature which she could not dispense1050with:--but the girl who could be gratified by a Robert Martin's riding1051about the country to get walnuts for her might very well be conquered by1052Mr. Elton's admiration.1053105410551056CHAPTER V105710581059“I do not know what your opinion may be, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr.1060Knightley, “of this great intimacy between Emma and Harriet Smith, but I1061think it a bad thing.”10621063“A bad thing! Do you really think it a bad thing?--why so?”10641065“I think they will neither of them do the other any good.”10661067“You surprize me! Emma must do Harriet good: and by supplying her with a1068new object of interest, Harriet may be said to do Emma good. I have been1069seeing their intimacy with the greatest pleasure. How very differently1070we feel!--Not think they will do each other any good! This will1071certainly be the beginning of one of our quarrels about Emma, Mr.1072Knightley.”10731074“Perhaps you think I am come on purpose to quarrel with you, knowing1075Weston to be out, and that you must still fight your own battle.”10761077“Mr. Weston would undoubtedly support me, if he were here, for he thinks1078exactly as I do on the subject. We were speaking of it only yesterday,1079and agreeing how fortunate it was for Emma, that there should be such a1080girl in Highbury for her to associate with. Mr. Knightley, I shall not1081allow you to be a fair judge in this case. You are so much used to live1082alone, that you do not know the value of a companion; and, perhaps no1083man can be a good judge of the comfort a woman feels in the society of1084one of her own sex, after being used to it all her life. I can imagine1085your objection to Harriet Smith. She is not the superior young woman1086which Emma's friend ought to be. But on the other hand, as Emma wants1087to see her better informed, it will be an inducement to her to read more1088herself. They will read together. She means it, I know.”10891090“Emma has been meaning to read more ever since she was twelve years old.1091I have seen a great many lists of her drawing-up at various times of1092books that she meant to read regularly through--and very good lists1093they were--very well chosen, and very neatly arranged--sometimes1094alphabetically, and sometimes by some other rule. The list she drew1095up when only fourteen--I remember thinking it did her judgment so much1096credit, that I preserved it some time; and I dare say she may have made1097out a very good list now. But I have done with expecting any course of1098steady reading from Emma. She will never submit to any thing1099requiring industry and patience, and a subjection of the fancy to the1100understanding. Where Miss Taylor failed to stimulate, I may safely1101affirm that Harriet Smith will do nothing.--You never could persuade her1102to read half so much as you wished.--You know you could not.”11031104“I dare say,” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “that I thought so1105_then_;--but since we have parted, I can never remember Emma's omitting1106to do any thing I wished.”11071108“There is hardly any desiring to refresh such a memory as _that_,”--said1109Mr. Knightley, feelingly; and for a moment or two he had done. “But I,”1110he soon added, “who have had no such charm thrown over my senses, must1111still see, hear, and remember. Emma is spoiled by being the cleverest1112of her family. At ten years old, she had the misfortune of being able to1113answer questions which puzzled her sister at seventeen. She was always1114quick and assured: Isabella slow and diffident. And ever since she1115was twelve, Emma has been mistress of the house and of you all. In her1116mother she lost the only person able to cope with her. She inherits her1117mother's talents, and must have been under subjection to her.”11181119“I should have been sorry, Mr. Knightley, to be dependent on _your_1120recommendation, had I quitted Mr. Woodhouse's family and wanted another1121situation; I do not think you would have spoken a good word for me to1122any body. I am sure you always thought me unfit for the office I held.”11231124“Yes,” said he, smiling. “You are better placed _here_; very fit for a1125wife, but not at all for a governess. But you were preparing yourself to1126be an excellent wife all the time you were at Hartfield. You might1127not give Emma such a complete education as your powers would seem to1128promise; but you were receiving a very good education from _her_, on the1129very material matrimonial point of submitting your own will, and doing1130as you were bid; and if Weston had asked me to recommend him a wife, I1131should certainly have named Miss Taylor.”11321133“Thank you. There will be very little merit in making a good wife to1134such a man as Mr. Weston.”11351136“Why, to own the truth, I am afraid you are rather thrown away, and that1137with every disposition to bear, there will be nothing to be borne. We1138will not despair, however. Weston may grow cross from the wantonness of1139comfort, or his son may plague him.”11401141“I hope not _that_.--It is not likely. No, Mr. Knightley, do not1142foretell vexation from that quarter.”11431144“Not I, indeed. I only name possibilities. I do not pretend to Emma's1145genius for foretelling and guessing. I hope, with all my heart, the1146young man may be a Weston in merit, and a Churchill in fortune.--But1147Harriet Smith--I have not half done about Harriet Smith. I think her the1148very worst sort of companion that Emma could possibly have. She knows1149nothing herself, and looks upon Emma as knowing every thing. She is a1150flatterer in all her ways; and so much the worse, because undesigned.1151Her ignorance is hourly flattery. How can Emma imagine she has any1152thing to learn herself, while Harriet is presenting such a delightful1153inferiority? And as for Harriet, I will venture to say that _she_ cannot1154gain by the acquaintance. Hartfield will only put her out of conceit1155with all the other places she belongs to. She will grow just refined1156enough to be uncomfortable with those among whom birth and circumstances1157have placed her home. I am much mistaken if Emma's doctrines give any1158strength of mind, or tend at all to make a girl adapt herself rationally1159to the varieties of her situation in life.--They only give a little1160polish.”11611162“I either depend more upon Emma's good sense than you do, or am more1163anxious for her present comfort; for I cannot lament the acquaintance.1164How well she looked last night!”11651166“Oh! you would rather talk of her person than her mind, would you? Very1167well; I shall not attempt to deny Emma's being pretty.”11681169“Pretty! say beautiful rather. Can you imagine any thing nearer perfect1170beauty than Emma altogether--face and figure?”11711172“I do not know what I could imagine, but I confess that I have seldom1173seen a face or figure more pleasing to me than hers. But I am a partial1174old friend.”11751176“Such an eye!--the true hazle eye--and so brilliant! regular features,1177open countenance, with a complexion! oh! what a bloom of full health,1178and such a pretty height and size; such a firm and upright figure!1179There is health, not merely in her bloom, but in her air, her head, her1180glance. One hears sometimes of a child being 'the picture of health;'1181now, Emma always gives me the idea of being the complete picture of1182grown-up health. She is loveliness itself. Mr. Knightley, is not she?”11831184“I have not a fault to find with her person,” he replied. “I think her1185all you describe. I love to look at her; and I will add this praise,1186that I do not think her personally vain. Considering how very handsome1187she is, she appears to be little occupied with it; her vanity lies1188another way. Mrs. Weston, I am not to be talked out of my dislike of1189Harriet Smith, or my dread of its doing them both harm.”11901191“And I, Mr. Knightley, am equally stout in my confidence of its not1192doing them any harm. With all dear Emma's little faults, she is an1193excellent creature. Where shall we see a better daughter, or a kinder1194sister, or a truer friend? No, no; she has qualities which may be1195trusted; she will never lead any one really wrong; she will make no1196lasting blunder; where Emma errs once, she is in the right a hundred1197times.”11981199“Very well; I will not plague you any more. Emma shall be an angel, and1200I will keep my spleen to myself till Christmas brings John and Isabella.1201John loves Emma with a reasonable and therefore not a blind affection,1202and Isabella always thinks as he does; except when he is not quite1203frightened enough about the children. I am sure of having their opinions1204with me.”12051206“I know that you all love her really too well to be unjust or unkind;1207but excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if I take the liberty (I consider myself,1208you know, as having somewhat of the privilege of speech that Emma's1209mother might have had) the liberty of hinting that I do not think any1210possible good can arise from Harriet Smith's intimacy being made a1211matter of much discussion among you. Pray excuse me; but supposing any1212little inconvenience may be apprehended from the intimacy, it cannot be1213expected that Emma, accountable to nobody but her father, who perfectly1214approves the acquaintance, should put an end to it, so long as it is a1215source of pleasure to herself. It has been so many years my province to1216give advice, that you cannot be surprized, Mr. Knightley, at this little1217remains of office.”12181219“Not at all,” cried he; “I am much obliged to you for it. It is very1220good advice, and it shall have a better fate than your advice has often1221found; for it shall be attended to.”12221223“Mrs. John Knightley is easily alarmed, and might be made unhappy about1224her sister.”12251226“Be satisfied,” said he, “I will not raise any outcry. I will keep my1227ill-humour to myself. I have a very sincere interest in Emma. Isabella1228does not seem more my sister; has never excited a greater interest;1229perhaps hardly so great. There is an anxiety, a curiosity in what one1230feels for Emma. I wonder what will become of her!”12311232“So do I,” said Mrs. Weston gently, “very much.”12331234“She always declares she will never marry, which, of course, means just1235nothing at all. But I have no idea that she has yet ever seen a man she1236cared for. It would not be a bad thing for her to be very much in love1237with a proper object. I should like to see Emma in love, and in some1238doubt of a return; it would do her good. But there is nobody hereabouts1239to attach her; and she goes so seldom from home.”12401241“There does, indeed, seem as little to tempt her to break her resolution1242at present,” said Mrs. Weston, “as can well be; and while she is so1243happy at Hartfield, I cannot wish her to be forming any attachment which1244would be creating such difficulties on poor Mr. Woodhouse's account. I1245do not recommend matrimony at present to Emma, though I mean no slight1246to the state, I assure you.”12471248Part of her meaning was to conceal some favourite thoughts of her own1249and Mr. Weston's on the subject, as much as possible. There were wishes1250at Randalls respecting Emma's destiny, but it was not desirable to1251have them suspected; and the quiet transition which Mr. Knightley soon1252afterwards made to “What does Weston think of the weather; shall we have1253rain?” convinced her that he had nothing more to say or surmise about1254Hartfield.1255125612571258CHAPTER VI125912601261Emma could not feel a doubt of having given Harriet's fancy a proper1262direction and raised the gratitude of her young vanity to a very good1263purpose, for she found her decidedly more sensible than before of Mr.1264Elton's being a remarkably handsome man, with most agreeable manners;1265and as she had no hesitation in following up the assurance of his1266admiration by agreeable hints, she was soon pretty confident of creating1267as much liking on Harriet's side, as there could be any occasion for.1268She was quite convinced of Mr. Elton's being in the fairest way of1269falling in love, if not in love already. She had no scruple with regard1270to him. He talked of Harriet, and praised her so warmly, that she could1271not suppose any thing wanting which a little time would not add. His1272perception of the striking improvement of Harriet's manner, since her1273introduction at Hartfield, was not one of the least agreeable proofs of1274his growing attachment.12751276“You have given Miss Smith all that she required,” said he; “you have1277made her graceful and easy. She was a beautiful creature when she1278came to you, but, in my opinion, the attractions you have added are1279infinitely superior to what she received from nature.”12801281“I am glad you think I have been useful to her; but Harriet only wanted1282drawing out, and receiving a few, very few hints. She had all the1283natural grace of sweetness of temper and artlessness in herself. I have1284done very little.”12851286“If it were admissible to contradict a lady,” said the gallant Mr.1287Elton--12881289“I have perhaps given her a little more decision of character, have1290taught her to think on points which had not fallen in her way before.”12911292“Exactly so; that is what principally strikes me. So much superadded1293decision of character! Skilful has been the hand!”12941295“Great has been the pleasure, I am sure. I never met with a disposition1296more truly amiable.”12971298“I have no doubt of it.” And it was spoken with a sort of sighing1299animation, which had a vast deal of the lover. She was not less pleased1300another day with the manner in which he seconded a sudden wish of hers,1301to have Harriet's picture.13021303“Did you ever have your likeness taken, Harriet?” said she: “did you1304ever sit for your picture?”13051306Harriet was on the point of leaving the room, and only stopt to say,1307with a very interesting naivete,13081309“Oh! dear, no, never.”13101311No sooner was she out of sight, than Emma exclaimed,13121313“What an exquisite possession a good picture of her would be! I would1314give any money for it. I almost long to attempt her likeness myself.1315You do not know it I dare say, but two or three years ago I had a great1316passion for taking likenesses, and attempted several of my friends, and1317was thought to have a tolerable eye in general. But from one cause or1318another, I gave it up in disgust. But really, I could almost venture,1319if Harriet would sit to me. It would be such a delight to have her1320picture!”13211322“Let me entreat you,” cried Mr. Elton; “it would indeed be a delight!1323Let me entreat you, Miss Woodhouse, to exercise so charming a talent1324in favour of your friend. I know what your drawings are. How could1325you suppose me ignorant? Is not this room rich in specimens of your1326landscapes and flowers; and has not Mrs. Weston some inimitable1327figure-pieces in her drawing-room, at Randalls?”13281329Yes, good man!--thought Emma--but what has all that to do with taking1330likenesses? You know nothing of drawing. Don't pretend to be in raptures1331about mine. Keep your raptures for Harriet's face. “Well, if you give me1332such kind encouragement, Mr. Elton, I believe I shall try what I can do.1333Harriet's features are very delicate, which makes a likeness difficult;1334and yet there is a peculiarity in the shape of the eye and the lines1335about the mouth which one ought to catch.”13361337“Exactly so--The shape of the eye and the lines about the mouth--I have1338not a doubt of your success. Pray, pray attempt it. As you will do it,1339it will indeed, to use your own words, be an exquisite possession.”13401341“But I am afraid, Mr. Elton, Harriet will not like to sit. She thinks1342so little of her own beauty. Did not you observe her manner of answering1343me? How completely it meant, 'why should my picture be drawn?'”13441345“Oh! yes, I observed it, I assure you. It was not lost on me. But still1346I cannot imagine she would not be persuaded.”13471348Harriet was soon back again, and the proposal almost immediately made;1349and she had no scruples which could stand many minutes against the1350earnest pressing of both the others. Emma wished to go to work directly,1351and therefore produced the portfolio containing her various attempts at1352portraits, for not one of them had ever been finished, that they might1353decide together on the best size for Harriet. Her many beginnings were1354displayed. Miniatures, half-lengths, whole-lengths, pencil, crayon, and1355water-colours had been all tried in turn. She had always wanted to do1356every thing, and had made more progress both in drawing and music than1357many might have done with so little labour as she would ever submit to.1358She played and sang;--and drew in almost every style; but steadiness1359had always been wanting; and in nothing had she approached the degree of1360excellence which she would have been glad to command, and ought not to1361have failed of. She was not much deceived as to her own skill either1362as an artist or a musician, but she was not unwilling to have others1363deceived, or sorry to know her reputation for accomplishment often1364higher than it deserved.13651366There was merit in every drawing--in the least finished, perhaps the1367most; her style was spirited; but had there been much less, or had there1368been ten times more, the delight and admiration of her two companions1369would have been the same. They were both in ecstasies. A likeness1370pleases every body; and Miss Woodhouse's performances must be capital.13711372“No great variety of faces for you,” said Emma. “I had only my own1373family to study from. There is my father--another of my father--but the1374idea of sitting for his picture made him so nervous, that I could only1375take him by stealth; neither of them very like therefore. Mrs. Weston1376again, and again, and again, you see. Dear Mrs. Weston! always my1377kindest friend on every occasion. She would sit whenever I asked her.1378There is my sister; and really quite her own little elegant figure!--and1379the face not unlike. I should have made a good likeness of her, if she1380would have sat longer, but she was in such a hurry to have me draw1381her four children that she would not be quiet. Then, here come all my1382attempts at three of those four children;--there they are, Henry and1383John and Bella, from one end of the sheet to the other, and any one of1384them might do for any one of the rest. She was so eager to have them1385drawn that I could not refuse; but there is no making children of three1386or four years old stand still you know; nor can it be very easy to take1387any likeness of them, beyond the air and complexion, unless they are1388coarser featured than any of mama's children ever were. Here is my1389sketch of the fourth, who was a baby. I took him as he was sleeping on1390the sofa, and it is as strong a likeness of his cockade as you would1391wish to see. He had nestled down his head most conveniently. That's very1392like. I am rather proud of little George. The corner of the sofa is very1393good. Then here is my last,”--unclosing a pretty sketch of a gentleman1394in small size, whole-length--“my last and my best--my brother, Mr. John1395Knightley.--This did not want much of being finished, when I put it away1396in a pet, and vowed I would never take another likeness. I could not1397help being provoked; for after all my pains, and when I had really made1398a very good likeness of it--(Mrs. Weston and I were quite agreed in1399thinking it _very_ like)--only too handsome--too flattering--but1400that was a fault on the right side”--after all this, came poor dear1401Isabella's cold approbation of--“Yes, it was a little like--but to be1402sure it did not do him justice. We had had a great deal of trouble1403in persuading him to sit at all. It was made a great favour of; and1404altogether it was more than I could bear; and so I never would finish1405it, to have it apologised over as an unfavourable likeness, to every1406morning visitor in Brunswick Square;--and, as I said, I did then1407forswear ever drawing any body again. But for Harriet's sake, or rather1408for my own, and as there are no husbands and wives in the case _at_1409_present_, I will break my resolution now.”14101411Mr. Elton seemed very properly struck and delighted by the idea, and was1412repeating, “No husbands and wives in the case at present indeed, as1413you observe. Exactly so. No husbands and wives,” with so interesting a1414consciousness, that Emma began to consider whether she had not better1415leave them together at once. But as she wanted to be drawing, the1416declaration must wait a little longer.14171418She had soon fixed on the size and sort of portrait. It was to be1419a whole-length in water-colours, like Mr. John Knightley's, and was1420destined, if she could please herself, to hold a very honourable station1421over the mantelpiece.14221423The sitting began; and Harriet, smiling and blushing, and afraid of not1424keeping her attitude and countenance, presented a very sweet mixture of1425youthful expression to the steady eyes of the artist. But there was no1426doing any thing, with Mr. Elton fidgeting behind her and watching every1427touch. She gave him credit for stationing himself where he might gaze1428and gaze again without offence; but was really obliged to put an end to1429it, and request him to place himself elsewhere. It then occurred to her1430to employ him in reading.14311432“If he would be so good as to read to them, it would be a kindness1433indeed! It would amuse away the difficulties of her part, and lessen the1434irksomeness of Miss Smith's.”14351436Mr. Elton was only too happy. Harriet listened, and Emma drew in peace.1437She must allow him to be still frequently coming to look; any thing less1438would certainly have been too little in a lover; and he was ready at the1439smallest intermission of the pencil, to jump up and see the progress,1440and be charmed.--There was no being displeased with such an encourager,1441for his admiration made him discern a likeness almost before it1442was possible. She could not respect his eye, but his love and his1443complaisance were unexceptionable.14441445The sitting was altogether very satisfactory; she was quite enough1446pleased with the first day's sketch to wish to go on. There was no want1447of likeness, she had been fortunate in the attitude, and as she meant1448to throw in a little improvement to the figure, to give a little more1449height, and considerably more elegance, she had great confidence of1450its being in every way a pretty drawing at last, and of its filling1451its destined place with credit to them both--a standing memorial of the1452beauty of one, the skill of the other, and the friendship of both;1453with as many other agreeable associations as Mr. Elton's very promising1454attachment was likely to add.14551456Harriet was to sit again the next day; and Mr. Elton, just as he ought,1457entreated for the permission of attending and reading to them again.14581459“By all means. We shall be most happy to consider you as one of the1460party.”14611462The same civilities and courtesies, the same success and satisfaction,1463took place on the morrow, and accompanied the whole progress of the1464picture, which was rapid and happy. Every body who saw it was pleased,1465but Mr. Elton was in continual raptures, and defended it through every1466criticism.14671468“Miss Woodhouse has given her friend the only beauty she1469wanted,”--observed Mrs. Weston to him--not in the least suspecting that1470she was addressing a lover.--“The expression of the eye is most correct,1471but Miss Smith has not those eyebrows and eyelashes. It is the fault of1472her face that she has them not.”14731474“Do you think so?” replied he. “I cannot agree with you. It appears1475to me a most perfect resemblance in every feature. I never saw such a1476likeness in my life. We must allow for the effect of shade, you know.”14771478“You have made her too tall, Emma,” said Mr. Knightley.14791480Emma knew that she had, but would not own it; and Mr. Elton warmly1481added,14821483“Oh no! certainly not too tall; not in the least too tall. Consider, she1484is sitting down--which naturally presents a different--which in short1485gives exactly the idea--and the proportions must be preserved, you know.1486Proportions, fore-shortening.--Oh no! it gives one exactly the idea of1487such a height as Miss Smith's. Exactly so indeed!”14881489“It is very pretty,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “So prettily done! Just as your1490drawings always are, my dear. I do not know any body who draws so well1491as you do. The only thing I do not thoroughly like is, that she seems1492to be sitting out of doors, with only a little shawl over her1493shoulders--and it makes one think she must catch cold.”14941495“But, my dear papa, it is supposed to be summer; a warm day in summer.1496Look at the tree.”14971498“But it is never safe to sit out of doors, my dear.”14991500“You, sir, may say any thing,” cried Mr. Elton, “but I must confess that1501I regard it as a most happy thought, the placing of Miss Smith out of1502doors; and the tree is touched with such inimitable spirit! Any other1503situation would have been much less in character. The naivete of Miss1504Smith's manners--and altogether--Oh, it is most admirable! I cannot keep1505my eyes from it. I never saw such a likeness.”15061507The next thing wanted was to get the picture framed; and here were a few1508difficulties. It must be done directly; it must be done in London; the1509order must go through the hands of some intelligent person whose taste1510could be depended on; and Isabella, the usual doer of all commissions,1511must not be applied to, because it was December, and Mr. Woodhouse1512could not bear the idea of her stirring out of her house in the fogs of1513December. But no sooner was the distress known to Mr. Elton, than it1514was removed. His gallantry was always on the alert. “Might he be trusted1515with the commission, what infinite pleasure should he have in executing1516it! he could ride to London at any time. It was impossible to say how1517much he should be gratified by being employed on such an errand.”15181519“He was too good!--she could not endure the thought!--she would not give1520him such a troublesome office for the world,”--brought on the desired1521repetition of entreaties and assurances,--and a very few minutes settled1522the business.15231524Mr. Elton was to take the drawing to London, chuse the frame, and give1525the directions; and Emma thought she could so pack it as to ensure its1526safety without much incommoding him, while he seemed mostly fearful of1527not being incommoded enough.15281529“What a precious deposit!” said he with a tender sigh, as he received1530it.15311532“This man is almost too gallant to be in love,” thought Emma. “I should1533say so, but that I suppose there may be a hundred different ways of1534being in love. He is an excellent young man, and will suit Harriet1535exactly; it will be an 'Exactly so,' as he says himself; but he does1536sigh and languish, and study for compliments rather more than I could1537endure as a principal. I come in for a pretty good share as a second.1538But it is his gratitude on Harriet's account.”1539154015411542CHAPTER VII154315441545The very day of Mr. Elton's going to London produced a fresh occasion1546for Emma's services towards her friend. Harriet had been at Hartfield,1547as usual, soon after breakfast; and, after a time, had gone home to1548return again to dinner: she returned, and sooner than had been1549talked of, and with an agitated, hurried look, announcing something1550extraordinary to have happened which she was longing to tell. Half a1551minute brought it all out. She had heard, as soon as she got back to1552Mrs. Goddard's, that Mr. Martin had been there an hour before, and1553finding she was not at home, nor particularly expected, had left a1554little parcel for her from one of his sisters, and gone away; and on1555opening this parcel, she had actually found, besides the two songs which1556she had lent Elizabeth to copy, a letter to herself; and this letter was1557from him, from Mr. Martin, and contained a direct proposal of marriage.1558“Who could have thought it? She was so surprized she did not know what1559to do. Yes, quite a proposal of marriage; and a very good letter,1560at least she thought so. And he wrote as if he really loved her very1561much--but she did not know--and so, she was come as fast as she could to1562ask Miss Woodhouse what she should do.--” Emma was half-ashamed of her1563friend for seeming so pleased and so doubtful.15641565“Upon my word,” she cried, “the young man is determined not to lose any1566thing for want of asking. He will connect himself well if he can.”15671568“Will you read the letter?” cried Harriet. “Pray do. I'd rather you1569would.”15701571Emma was not sorry to be pressed. She read, and was surprized. The style1572of the letter was much above her expectation. There were not merely no1573grammatical errors, but as a composition it would not have disgraced a1574gentleman; the language, though plain, was strong and unaffected, and1575the sentiments it conveyed very much to the credit of the writer. It was1576short, but expressed good sense, warm attachment, liberality, propriety,1577even delicacy of feeling. She paused over it, while Harriet stood1578anxiously watching for her opinion, with a “Well, well,” and was at last1579forced to add, “Is it a good letter? or is it too short?”15801581“Yes, indeed, a very good letter,” replied Emma rather slowly--“so1582good a letter, Harriet, that every thing considered, I think one of his1583sisters must have helped him. I can hardly imagine the young man whom1584I saw talking with you the other day could express himself so well, if1585left quite to his own powers, and yet it is not the style of a woman;1586no, certainly, it is too strong and concise; not diffuse enough for a1587woman. No doubt he is a sensible man, and I suppose may have a natural1588talent for--thinks strongly and clearly--and when he takes a pen in1589hand, his thoughts naturally find proper words. It is so with some men.1590Yes, I understand the sort of mind. Vigorous, decided, with sentiments1591to a certain point, not coarse. A better written letter, Harriet1592(returning it,) than I had expected.”15931594“Well,” said the still waiting Harriet;--“well--and--and what shall I1595do?”15961597“What shall you do! In what respect? Do you mean with regard to this1598letter?”15991600“Yes.”16011602“But what are you in doubt of? You must answer it of course--and1603speedily.”16041605“Yes. But what shall I say? Dear Miss Woodhouse, do advise me.”16061607“Oh no, no! the letter had much better be all your own. You will express1608yourself very properly, I am sure. There is no danger of your not1609being intelligible, which is the first thing. Your meaning must be1610unequivocal; no doubts or demurs: and such expressions of gratitude1611and concern for the pain you are inflicting as propriety requires, will1612present themselves unbidden to _your_ mind, I am persuaded. You need1613not be prompted to write with the appearance of sorrow for his1614disappointment.”16151616“You think I ought to refuse him then,” said Harriet, looking down.16171618“Ought to refuse him! My dear Harriet, what do you mean? Are you in any1619doubt as to that? I thought--but I beg your pardon, perhaps I have been1620under a mistake. I certainly have been misunderstanding you, if you feel1621in doubt as to the _purport_ of your answer. I had imagined you were1622consulting me only as to the wording of it.”16231624Harriet was silent. With a little reserve of manner, Emma continued:16251626“You mean to return a favourable answer, I collect.”16271628“No, I do not; that is, I do not mean--What shall I do? What would you1629advise me to do? Pray, dear Miss Woodhouse, tell me what I ought to do.”16301631“I shall not give you any advice, Harriet. I will have nothing to do1632with it. This is a point which you must settle with your feelings.”16331634“I had no notion that he liked me so very much,” said Harriet,1635contemplating the letter. For a little while Emma persevered in her1636silence; but beginning to apprehend the bewitching flattery of that1637letter might be too powerful, she thought it best to say,16381639“I lay it down as a general rule, Harriet, that if a woman _doubts_ as1640to whether she should accept a man or not, she certainly ought to refuse1641him. If she can hesitate as to 'Yes,' she ought to say 'No' directly.1642It is not a state to be safely entered into with doubtful feelings, with1643half a heart. I thought it my duty as a friend, and older than yourself,1644to say thus much to you. But do not imagine that I want to influence1645you.”16461647“Oh! no, I am sure you are a great deal too kind to--but if you would1648just advise me what I had best do--No, no, I do not mean that--As1649you say, one's mind ought to be quite made up--One should not be1650hesitating--It is a very serious thing.--It will be safer to say 'No,'1651perhaps.--Do you think I had better say 'No?'”16521653“Not for the world,” said Emma, smiling graciously, “would I advise you1654either way. You must be the best judge of your own happiness. If you1655prefer Mr. Martin to every other person; if you think him the most1656agreeable man you have ever been in company with, why should you1657hesitate? You blush, Harriet.--Does any body else occur to you at1658this moment under such a definition? Harriet, Harriet, do not deceive1659yourself; do not be run away with by gratitude and compassion. At this1660moment whom are you thinking of?”16611662The symptoms were favourable.--Instead of answering, Harriet turned away1663confused, and stood thoughtfully by the fire; and though the letter was1664still in her hand, it was now mechanically twisted about without regard.1665Emma waited the result with impatience, but not without strong hopes. At1666last, with some hesitation, Harriet said--16671668“Miss Woodhouse, as you will not give me your opinion, I must do as well1669as I can by myself; and I have now quite determined, and really almost1670made up my mind--to refuse Mr. Martin. Do you think I am right?”16711672“Perfectly, perfectly right, my dearest Harriet; you are doing just1673what you ought. While you were at all in suspense I kept my feelings to1674myself, but now that you are so completely decided I have no hesitation1675in approving. Dear Harriet, I give myself joy of this. It would1676have grieved me to lose your acquaintance, which must have been the1677consequence of your marrying Mr. Martin. While you were in the smallest1678degree wavering, I said nothing about it, because I would not influence;1679but it would have been the loss of a friend to me. I could not have1680visited Mrs. Robert Martin, of Abbey-Mill Farm. Now I am secure of you1681for ever.”16821683Harriet had not surmised her own danger, but the idea of it struck her1684forcibly.16851686“You could not have visited me!” she cried, looking aghast. “No, to be1687sure you could not; but I never thought of that before. That would have1688been too dreadful!--What an escape!--Dear Miss Woodhouse, I would not1689give up the pleasure and honour of being intimate with you for any thing1690in the world.”16911692“Indeed, Harriet, it would have been a severe pang to lose you; but it1693must have been. You would have thrown yourself out of all good society.1694I must have given you up.”16951696“Dear me!--How should I ever have borne it! It would have killed me1697never to come to Hartfield any more!”16981699“Dear affectionate creature!--_You_ banished to Abbey-Mill Farm!--_You_1700confined to the society of the illiterate and vulgar all your life! I1701wonder how the young man could have the assurance to ask it. He must1702have a pretty good opinion of himself.”17031704“I do not think he is conceited either, in general,” said Harriet, her1705conscience opposing such censure; “at least, he is very good natured,1706and I shall always feel much obliged to him, and have a great regard1707for--but that is quite a different thing from--and you know, though1708he may like me, it does not follow that I should--and certainly I must1709confess that since my visiting here I have seen people--and if one comes1710to compare them, person and manners, there is no comparison at all,1711_one_ is so very handsome and agreeable. However, I do really think Mr.1712Martin a very amiable young man, and have a great opinion of him; and1713his being so much attached to me--and his writing such a letter--but as1714to leaving you, it is what I would not do upon any consideration.”17151716“Thank you, thank you, my own sweet little friend. We will not be1717parted. A woman is not to marry a man merely because she is asked, or1718because he is attached to her, and can write a tolerable letter.”17191720“Oh no;--and it is but a short letter too.”17211722Emma felt the bad taste of her friend, but let it pass with a “very1723true; and it would be a small consolation to her, for the clownish1724manner which might be offending her every hour of the day, to know that1725her husband could write a good letter.”17261727“Oh! yes, very. Nobody cares for a letter; the thing is, to be always1728happy with pleasant companions. I am quite determined to refuse him. But1729how shall I do? What shall I say?”17301731Emma assured her there would be no difficulty in the answer, and advised1732its being written directly, which was agreed to, in the hope of her1733assistance; and though Emma continued to protest against any assistance1734being wanted, it was in fact given in the formation of every sentence.1735The looking over his letter again, in replying to it, had such a1736softening tendency, that it was particularly necessary to brace her up1737with a few decisive expressions; and she was so very much concerned at1738the idea of making him unhappy, and thought so much of what his mother1739and sisters would think and say, and was so anxious that they should not1740fancy her ungrateful, that Emma believed if the young man had come in1741her way at that moment, he would have been accepted after all.17421743This letter, however, was written, and sealed, and sent. The business1744was finished, and Harriet safe. She was rather low all the evening, but1745Emma could allow for her amiable regrets, and sometimes relieved them by1746speaking of her own affection, sometimes by bringing forward the idea of1747Mr. Elton.17481749“I shall never be invited to Abbey-Mill again,” was said in rather a1750sorrowful tone.17511752“Nor, if you were, could I ever bear to part with you, my Harriet. You1753are a great deal too necessary at Hartfield to be spared to Abbey-Mill.”17541755“And I am sure I should never want to go there; for I am never happy but1756at Hartfield.”17571758Some time afterwards it was, “I think Mrs. Goddard would be very much1759surprized if she knew what had happened. I am sure Miss Nash would--for1760Miss Nash thinks her own sister very well married, and it is only a1761linen-draper.”17621763“One should be sorry to see greater pride or refinement in the teacher1764of a school, Harriet. I dare say Miss Nash would envy you such an1765opportunity as this of being married. Even this conquest would appear1766valuable in her eyes. As to any thing superior for you, I suppose she1767is quite in the dark. The attentions of a certain person can hardly be1768among the tittle-tattle of Highbury yet. Hitherto I fancy you and I1769are the only people to whom his looks and manners have explained1770themselves.”17711772Harriet blushed and smiled, and said something about wondering that1773people should like her so much. The idea of Mr. Elton was certainly1774cheering; but still, after a time, she was tender-hearted again towards1775the rejected Mr. Martin.17761777“Now he has got my letter,” said she softly. “I wonder what they are all1778doing--whether his sisters know--if he is unhappy, they will be unhappy1779too. I hope he will not mind it so very much.”17801781“Let us think of those among our absent friends who are more cheerfully1782employed,” cried Emma. “At this moment, perhaps, Mr. Elton is shewing1783your picture to his mother and sisters, telling how much more beautiful1784is the original, and after being asked for it five or six times,1785allowing them to hear your name, your own dear name.”17861787“My picture!--But he has left my picture in Bond-street.”17881789“Has he so!--Then I know nothing of Mr. Elton. No, my dear little modest1790Harriet, depend upon it the picture will not be in Bond-street till1791just before he mounts his horse to-morrow. It is his companion all this1792evening, his solace, his delight. It opens his designs to his family,1793it introduces you among them, it diffuses through the party those1794pleasantest feelings of our nature, eager curiosity and warm1795prepossession. How cheerful, how animated, how suspicious, how busy1796their imaginations all are!”17971798Harriet smiled again, and her smiles grew stronger.1799180018011802CHAPTER VIII180318041805Harriet slept at Hartfield that night. For some weeks past she had been1806spending more than half her time there, and gradually getting to have1807a bed-room appropriated to herself; and Emma judged it best in every1808respect, safest and kindest, to keep her with them as much as possible1809just at present. She was obliged to go the next morning for an hour or1810two to Mrs. Goddard's, but it was then to be settled that she should1811return to Hartfield, to make a regular visit of some days.18121813While she was gone, Mr. Knightley called, and sat some time with Mr.1814Woodhouse and Emma, till Mr. Woodhouse, who had previously made up his1815mind to walk out, was persuaded by his daughter not to defer it, and was1816induced by the entreaties of both, though against the scruples of his1817own civility, to leave Mr. Knightley for that purpose. Mr. Knightley,1818who had nothing of ceremony about him, was offering by his short,1819decided answers, an amusing contrast to the protracted apologies and1820civil hesitations of the other.18211822“Well, I believe, if you will excuse me, Mr. Knightley, if you will not1823consider me as doing a very rude thing, I shall take Emma's advice and1824go out for a quarter of an hour. As the sun is out, I believe I had1825better take my three turns while I can. I treat you without ceremony,1826Mr. Knightley. We invalids think we are privileged people.”18271828“My dear sir, do not make a stranger of me.”18291830“I leave an excellent substitute in my daughter. Emma will be happy to1831entertain you. And therefore I think I will beg your excuse and take my1832three turns--my winter walk.”18331834“You cannot do better, sir.”18351836“I would ask for the pleasure of your company, Mr. Knightley, but I am a1837very slow walker, and my pace would be tedious to you; and, besides, you1838have another long walk before you, to Donwell Abbey.”18391840“Thank you, sir, thank you; I am going this moment myself; and I think1841the sooner _you_ go the better. I will fetch your greatcoat and open the1842garden door for you.”18431844Mr. Woodhouse at last was off; but Mr. Knightley, instead of being1845immediately off likewise, sat down again, seemingly inclined for more1846chat. He began speaking of Harriet, and speaking of her with more1847voluntary praise than Emma had ever heard before.18481849“I cannot rate her beauty as you do,” said he; “but she is a1850pretty little creature, and I am inclined to think very well of her1851disposition. Her character depends upon those she is with; but in good1852hands she will turn out a valuable woman.”18531854“I am glad you think so; and the good hands, I hope, may not be1855wanting.”18561857“Come,” said he, “you are anxious for a compliment, so I will tell you1858that you have improved her. You have cured her of her school-girl's1859giggle; she really does you credit.”18601861“Thank you. I should be mortified indeed if I did not believe I had been1862of some use; but it is not every body who will bestow praise where they1863may. _You_ do not often overpower me with it.”18641865“You are expecting her again, you say, this morning?”18661867“Almost every moment. She has been gone longer already than she1868intended.”18691870“Something has happened to delay her; some visitors perhaps.”18711872“Highbury gossips!--Tiresome wretches!”18731874“Harriet may not consider every body tiresome that you would.”18751876Emma knew this was too true for contradiction, and therefore said1877nothing. He presently added, with a smile,18781879“I do not pretend to fix on times or places, but I must tell you that1880I have good reason to believe your little friend will soon hear of1881something to her advantage.”18821883“Indeed! how so? of what sort?”18841885“A very serious sort, I assure you;” still smiling.18861887“Very serious! I can think of but one thing--Who is in love with her?1888Who makes you their confidant?”18891890Emma was more than half in hopes of Mr. Elton's having dropt a hint.1891Mr. Knightley was a sort of general friend and adviser, and she knew Mr.1892Elton looked up to him.18931894“I have reason to think,” he replied, “that Harriet Smith will soon have1895an offer of marriage, and from a most unexceptionable quarter:--Robert1896Martin is the man. Her visit to Abbey-Mill, this summer, seems to have1897done his business. He is desperately in love and means to marry her.”18981899“He is very obliging,” said Emma; “but is he sure that Harriet means to1900marry him?”19011902“Well, well, means to make her an offer then. Will that do? He came to1903the Abbey two evenings ago, on purpose to consult me about it. He knows1904I have a thorough regard for him and all his family, and, I believe,1905considers me as one of his best friends. He came to ask me whether1906I thought it would be imprudent in him to settle so early; whether1907I thought her too young: in short, whether I approved his choice1908altogether; having some apprehension perhaps of her being considered1909(especially since _your_ making so much of her) as in a line of society1910above him. I was very much pleased with all that he said. I never hear1911better sense from any one than Robert Martin. He always speaks to the1912purpose; open, straightforward, and very well judging. He told me every1913thing; his circumstances and plans, and what they all proposed doing in1914the event of his marriage. He is an excellent young man, both as son and1915brother. I had no hesitation in advising him to marry. He proved to me1916that he could afford it; and that being the case, I was convinced he1917could not do better. I praised the fair lady too, and altogether sent1918him away very happy. If he had never esteemed my opinion before, he1919would have thought highly of me then; and, I dare say, left the house1920thinking me the best friend and counsellor man ever had. This happened1921the night before last. Now, as we may fairly suppose, he would not allow1922much time to pass before he spoke to the lady, and as he does not appear1923to have spoken yesterday, it is not unlikely that he should be at Mrs.1924Goddard's to-day; and she may be detained by a visitor, without thinking1925him at all a tiresome wretch.”19261927“Pray, Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, who had been smiling to herself1928through a great part of this speech, “how do you know that Mr. Martin1929did not speak yesterday?”19301931“Certainly,” replied he, surprized, “I do not absolutely know it; but it1932may be inferred. Was not she the whole day with you?”19331934“Come,” said she, “I will tell you something, in return for what1935you have told me. He did speak yesterday--that is, he wrote, and was1936refused.”19371938This was obliged to be repeated before it could be believed; and Mr.1939Knightley actually looked red with surprize and displeasure, as he stood1940up, in tall indignation, and said,19411942“Then she is a greater simpleton than I ever believed her. What is the1943foolish girl about?”19441945“Oh! to be sure,” cried Emma, “it is always incomprehensible to a man1946that a woman should ever refuse an offer of marriage. A man always1947imagines a woman to be ready for any body who asks her.”19481949“Nonsense! a man does not imagine any such thing. But what is the1950meaning of this? Harriet Smith refuse Robert Martin? madness, if it is1951so; but I hope you are mistaken.”19521953“I saw her answer!--nothing could be clearer.”19541955“You saw her answer!--you wrote her answer too. Emma, this is your1956doing. You persuaded her to refuse him.”19571958“And if I did, (which, however, I am far from allowing) I should not1959feel that I had done wrong. Mr. Martin is a very respectable young man,1960but I cannot admit him to be Harriet's equal; and am rather surprized1961indeed that he should have ventured to address her. By your account, he1962does seem to have had some scruples. It is a pity that they were ever1963got over.”19641965“Not Harriet's equal!” exclaimed Mr. Knightley loudly and warmly; and1966with calmer asperity, added, a few moments afterwards, “No, he is1967not her equal indeed, for he is as much her superior in sense as in1968situation. Emma, your infatuation about that girl blinds you. What are1969Harriet Smith's claims, either of birth, nature or education, to any1970connexion higher than Robert Martin? She is the natural daughter of1971nobody knows whom, with probably no settled provision at all, and1972certainly no respectable relations. She is known only as parlour-boarder1973at a common school. She is not a sensible girl, nor a girl of any1974information. She has been taught nothing useful, and is too young and1975too simple to have acquired any thing herself. At her age she can have1976no experience, and with her little wit, is not very likely ever to have1977any that can avail her. She is pretty, and she is good tempered, and1978that is all. My only scruple in advising the match was on his account,1979as being beneath his deserts, and a bad connexion for him. I felt that,1980as to fortune, in all probability he might do much better; and that as1981to a rational companion or useful helpmate, he could not do worse. But I1982could not reason so to a man in love, and was willing to trust to there1983being no harm in her, to her having that sort of disposition, which, in1984good hands, like his, might be easily led aright and turn out very well.1985The advantage of the match I felt to be all on her side; and had not the1986smallest doubt (nor have I now) that there would be a general cry-out1987upon her extreme good luck. Even _your_ satisfaction I made sure of.1988It crossed my mind immediately that you would not regret your friend's1989leaving Highbury, for the sake of her being settled so well. I remember1990saying to myself, 'Even Emma, with all her partiality for Harriet, will1991think this a good match.'”19921993“I cannot help wondering at your knowing so little of Emma as to say any1994such thing. What! think a farmer, (and with all his sense and all his1995merit Mr. Martin is nothing more,) a good match for my intimate friend!1996Not regret her leaving Highbury for the sake of marrying a man whom1997I could never admit as an acquaintance of my own! I wonder you should1998think it possible for me to have such feelings. I assure you mine are1999very different. I must think your statement by no means fair. You are2000not just to Harriet's claims. They would be estimated very differently2001by others as well as myself; Mr. Martin may be the richest of the two,2002but he is undoubtedly her inferior as to rank in society.--The sphere in2003which she moves is much above his.--It would be a degradation.”20042005“A degradation to illegitimacy and ignorance, to be married to a2006respectable, intelligent gentleman-farmer!”20072008“As to the circumstances of her birth, though in a legal sense she may2009be called Nobody, it will not hold in common sense. She is not to pay2010for the offence of others, by being held below the level of those with2011whom she is brought up.--There can scarcely be a doubt that her father2012is a gentleman--and a gentleman of fortune.--Her allowance is2013very liberal; nothing has ever been grudged for her improvement or2014comfort.--That she is a gentleman's daughter, is indubitable to me; that2015she associates with gentlemen's daughters, no one, I apprehend, will2016deny.--She is superior to Mr. Robert Martin.”20172018“Whoever might be her parents,” said Mr. Knightley, “whoever may have2019had the charge of her, it does not appear to have been any part of2020their plan to introduce her into what you would call good society. After2021receiving a very indifferent education she is left in Mrs. Goddard's2022hands to shift as she can;--to move, in short, in Mrs. Goddard's line,2023to have Mrs. Goddard's acquaintance. Her friends evidently thought2024this good enough for her; and it _was_ good enough. She desired nothing2025better herself. Till you chose to turn her into a friend, her mind had2026no distaste for her own set, nor any ambition beyond it. She was as2027happy as possible with the Martins in the summer. She had no sense of2028superiority then. If she has it now, you have given it. You have been no2029friend to Harriet Smith, Emma. Robert Martin would never have proceeded2030so far, if he had not felt persuaded of her not being disinclined to2031him. I know him well. He has too much real feeling to address any2032woman on the haphazard of selfish passion. And as to conceit, he is2033the farthest from it of any man I know. Depend upon it he had2034encouragement.”20352036It was most convenient to Emma not to make a direct reply to this2037assertion; she chose rather to take up her own line of the subject2038again.20392040“You are a very warm friend to Mr. Martin; but, as I said before,2041are unjust to Harriet. Harriet's claims to marry well are not so2042contemptible as you represent them. She is not a clever girl, but she2043has better sense than you are aware of, and does not deserve to have her2044understanding spoken of so slightingly. Waiving that point, however, and2045supposing her to be, as you describe her, only pretty and good-natured,2046let me tell you, that in the degree she possesses them, they are not2047trivial recommendations to the world in general, for she is, in fact, a2048beautiful girl, and must be thought so by ninety-nine people out of an2049hundred; and till it appears that men are much more philosophic on the2050subject of beauty than they are generally supposed; till they do fall2051in love with well-informed minds instead of handsome faces, a girl, with2052such loveliness as Harriet, has a certainty of being admired and sought2053after, of having the power of chusing from among many, consequently a2054claim to be nice. Her good-nature, too, is not so very slight a claim,2055comprehending, as it does, real, thorough sweetness of temper and2056manner, a very humble opinion of herself, and a great readiness to2057be pleased with other people. I am very much mistaken if your sex in2058general would not think such beauty, and such temper, the highest claims2059a woman could possess.”20602061“Upon my word, Emma, to hear you abusing the reason you have, is almost2062enough to make me think so too. Better be without sense, than misapply2063it as you do.”20642065“To be sure!” cried she playfully. “I know _that_ is the feeling of2066you all. I know that such a girl as Harriet is exactly what every2067man delights in--what at once bewitches his senses and satisfies his2068judgment. Oh! Harriet may pick and chuse. Were you, yourself, ever to2069marry, she is the very woman for you. And is she, at seventeen, just2070entering into life, just beginning to be known, to be wondered at2071because she does not accept the first offer she receives? No--pray let2072her have time to look about her.”20732074“I have always thought it a very foolish intimacy,” said Mr. Knightley2075presently, “though I have kept my thoughts to myself; but I now perceive2076that it will be a very unfortunate one for Harriet. You will puff her up2077with such ideas of her own beauty, and of what she has a claim to, that,2078in a little while, nobody within her reach will be good enough for her.2079Vanity working on a weak head, produces every sort of mischief. Nothing2080so easy as for a young lady to raise her expectations too high. Miss2081Harriet Smith may not find offers of marriage flow in so fast, though2082she is a very pretty girl. Men of sense, whatever you may chuse to2083say, do not want silly wives. Men of family would not be very fond of2084connecting themselves with a girl of such obscurity--and most prudent2085men would be afraid of the inconvenience and disgrace they might be2086involved in, when the mystery of her parentage came to be revealed. Let2087her marry Robert Martin, and she is safe, respectable, and happy for2088ever; but if you encourage her to expect to marry greatly, and teach her2089to be satisfied with nothing less than a man of consequence and large2090fortune, she may be a parlour-boarder at Mrs. Goddard's all the rest2091of her life--or, at least, (for Harriet Smith is a girl who will marry2092somebody or other,) till she grow desperate, and is glad to catch at the2093old writing-master's son.”20942095“We think so very differently on this point, Mr. Knightley, that there2096can be no use in canvassing it. We shall only be making each other more2097angry. But as to my _letting_ her marry Robert Martin, it is impossible;2098she has refused him, and so decidedly, I think, as must prevent any2099second application. She must abide by the evil of having refused him,2100whatever it may be; and as to the refusal itself, I will not pretend to2101say that I might not influence her a little; but I assure you there2102was very little for me or for any body to do. His appearance is so much2103against him, and his manner so bad, that if she ever were disposed to2104favour him, she is not now. I can imagine, that before she had seen2105any body superior, she might tolerate him. He was the brother of her2106friends, and he took pains to please her; and altogether, having seen2107nobody better (that must have been his great assistant) she might not,2108while she was at Abbey-Mill, find him disagreeable. But the case2109is altered now. She knows now what gentlemen are; and nothing but a2110gentleman in education and manner has any chance with Harriet.”21112112“Nonsense, errant nonsense, as ever was talked!” cried Mr.2113Knightley.--“Robert Martin's manners have sense, sincerity, and2114good-humour to recommend them; and his mind has more true gentility than2115Harriet Smith could understand.”21162117Emma made no answer, and tried to look cheerfully unconcerned, but was2118really feeling uncomfortable and wanting him very much to be gone. She2119did not repent what she had done; she still thought herself a better2120judge of such a point of female right and refinement than he could be;2121but yet she had a sort of habitual respect for his judgment in general,2122which made her dislike having it so loudly against her; and to have him2123sitting just opposite to her in angry state, was very disagreeable.2124Some minutes passed in this unpleasant silence, with only one attempt2125on Emma's side to talk of the weather, but he made no answer. He was2126thinking. The result of his thoughts appeared at last in these words.21272128“Robert Martin has no great loss--if he can but think so; and I hope it2129will not be long before he does. Your views for Harriet are best known2130to yourself; but as you make no secret of your love of match-making, it2131is fair to suppose that views, and plans, and projects you have;--and as2132a friend I shall just hint to you that if Elton is the man, I think it2133will be all labour in vain.”21342135Emma laughed and disclaimed. He continued,21362137“Depend upon it, Elton will not do. Elton is a very good sort of man,2138and a very respectable vicar of Highbury, but not at all likely to make2139an imprudent match. He knows the value of a good income as well as any2140body. Elton may talk sentimentally, but he will act rationally. He is2141as well acquainted with his own claims, as you can be with Harriet's.2142He knows that he is a very handsome young man, and a great favourite2143wherever he goes; and from his general way of talking in unreserved2144moments, when there are only men present, I am convinced that he does2145not mean to throw himself away. I have heard him speak with great2146animation of a large family of young ladies that his sisters are2147intimate with, who have all twenty thousand pounds apiece.”21482149“I am very much obliged to you,” said Emma, laughing again. “If I had2150set my heart on Mr. Elton's marrying Harriet, it would have been very2151kind to open my eyes; but at present I only want to keep Harriet to2152myself. I have done with match-making indeed. I could never hope to2153equal my own doings at Randalls. I shall leave off while I am well.”21542155“Good morning to you,”--said he, rising and walking off abruptly. He was2156very much vexed. He felt the disappointment of the young man, and was2157mortified to have been the means of promoting it, by the sanction he had2158given; and the part which he was persuaded Emma had taken in the affair,2159was provoking him exceedingly.21602161Emma remained in a state of vexation too; but there was more2162indistinctness in the causes of her's, than in his. She did not always2163feel so absolutely satisfied with herself, so entirely convinced that2164her opinions were right and her adversary's wrong, as Mr. Knightley. He2165walked off in more complete self-approbation than he left for her. She2166was not so materially cast down, however, but that a little time and2167the return of Harriet were very adequate restoratives. Harriet's staying2168away so long was beginning to make her uneasy. The possibility of the2169young man's coming to Mrs. Goddard's that morning, and meeting with2170Harriet and pleading his own cause, gave alarming ideas. The dread2171of such a failure after all became the prominent uneasiness; and when2172Harriet appeared, and in very good spirits, and without having any2173such reason to give for her long absence, she felt a satisfaction which2174settled her with her own mind, and convinced her, that let Mr.2175Knightley think or say what he would, she had done nothing which woman's2176friendship and woman's feelings would not justify.21772178He had frightened her a little about Mr. Elton; but when she considered2179that Mr. Knightley could not have observed him as she had done, neither2180with the interest, nor (she must be allowed to tell herself, in spite of2181Mr. Knightley's pretensions) with the skill of such an observer on such2182a question as herself, that he had spoken it hastily and in anger, she2183was able to believe, that he had rather said what he wished resentfully2184to be true, than what he knew any thing about. He certainly might have2185heard Mr. Elton speak with more unreserve than she had ever done, and2186Mr. Elton might not be of an imprudent, inconsiderate disposition as to2187money matters; he might naturally be rather attentive than otherwise2188to them; but then, Mr. Knightley did not make due allowance for the2189influence of a strong passion at war with all interested motives. Mr.2190Knightley saw no such passion, and of course thought nothing of its2191effects; but she saw too much of it to feel a doubt of its overcoming2192any hesitations that a reasonable prudence might originally suggest; and2193more than a reasonable, becoming degree of prudence, she was very sure2194did not belong to Mr. Elton.21952196Harriet's cheerful look and manner established hers: she came back, not2197to think of Mr. Martin, but to talk of Mr. Elton. Miss Nash had been2198telling her something, which she repeated immediately with great2199delight. Mr. Perry had been to Mrs. Goddard's to attend a sick child,2200and Miss Nash had seen him, and he had told Miss Nash, that as he was2201coming back yesterday from Clayton Park, he had met Mr. Elton, and2202found to his great surprize, that Mr. Elton was actually on his road2203to London, and not meaning to return till the morrow, though it was the2204whist-club night, which he had been never known to miss before; and Mr.2205Perry had remonstrated with him about it, and told him how shabby it2206was in him, their best player, to absent himself, and tried very much to2207persuade him to put off his journey only one day; but it would not2208do; Mr. Elton had been determined to go on, and had said in a _very_2209_particular_ way indeed, that he was going on business which he would2210not put off for any inducement in the world; and something about a2211very enviable commission, and being the bearer of something exceedingly2212precious. Mr. Perry could not quite understand him, but he was very sure2213there must be a _lady_ in the case, and he told him so; and Mr. Elton2214only looked very conscious and smiling, and rode off in great spirits.2215Miss Nash had told her all this, and had talked a great deal more about2216Mr. Elton; and said, looking so very significantly at her, “that she did2217not pretend to understand what his business might be, but she only2218knew that any woman whom Mr. Elton could prefer, she should think the2219luckiest woman in the world; for, beyond a doubt, Mr. Elton had not his2220equal for beauty or agreeableness.”2221222222232224CHAPTER IX222522262227Mr. Knightley might quarrel with her, but Emma could not quarrel with2228herself. He was so much displeased, that it was longer than usual before2229he came to Hartfield again; and when they did meet, his grave looks2230shewed that she was not forgiven. She was sorry, but could not repent.2231On the contrary, her plans and proceedings were more and more justified2232and endeared to her by the general appearances of the next few days.22332234The Picture, elegantly framed, came safely to hand soon after Mr.2235Elton's return, and being hung over the mantelpiece of the common2236sitting-room, he got up to look at it, and sighed out his half sentences2237of admiration just as he ought; and as for Harriet's feelings, they were2238visibly forming themselves into as strong and steady an attachment as2239her youth and sort of mind admitted. Emma was soon perfectly satisfied2240of Mr. Martin's being no otherwise remembered, than as he furnished a2241contrast with Mr. Elton, of the utmost advantage to the latter.22422243Her views of improving her little friend's mind, by a great deal of2244useful reading and conversation, had never yet led to more than a few2245first chapters, and the intention of going on to-morrow. It was much2246easier to chat than to study; much pleasanter to let her imagination2247range and work at Harriet's fortune, than to be labouring to enlarge2248her comprehension or exercise it on sober facts; and the only literary2249pursuit which engaged Harriet at present, the only mental provision she2250was making for the evening of life, was the collecting and transcribing2251all the riddles of every sort that she could meet with, into a thin2252quarto of hot-pressed paper, made up by her friend, and ornamented with2253ciphers and trophies.22542255In this age of literature, such collections on a very grand scale are2256not uncommon. Miss Nash, head-teacher at Mrs. Goddard's, had written out2257at least three hundred; and Harriet, who had taken the first hint of it2258from her, hoped, with Miss Woodhouse's help, to get a great many more.2259Emma assisted with her invention, memory and taste; and as Harriet wrote2260a very pretty hand, it was likely to be an arrangement of the first2261order, in form as well as quantity.22622263Mr. Woodhouse was almost as much interested in the business as the2264girls, and tried very often to recollect something worth their putting2265in. “So many clever riddles as there used to be when he was young--he2266wondered he could not remember them! but he hoped he should in time.”2267And it always ended in “Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.”22682269His good friend Perry, too, whom he had spoken to on the subject,2270did not at present recollect any thing of the riddle kind; but he2271had desired Perry to be upon the watch, and as he went about so much,2272something, he thought, might come from that quarter.22732274It was by no means his daughter's wish that the intellects of Highbury2275in general should be put under requisition. Mr. Elton was the only one2276whose assistance she asked. He was invited to contribute any really good2277enigmas, charades, or conundrums that he might recollect; and she had2278the pleasure of seeing him most intently at work with his recollections;2279and at the same time, as she could perceive, most earnestly careful that2280nothing ungallant, nothing that did not breathe a compliment to the2281sex should pass his lips. They owed to him their two or three politest2282puzzles; and the joy and exultation with which at last he recalled, and2283rather sentimentally recited, that well-known charade,22842285My first doth affliction denote,2286Which my second is destin'd to feel2287And my whole is the best antidote2288That affliction to soften and heal.--22892290made her quite sorry to acknowledge that they had transcribed it some2291pages ago already.22922293“Why will not you write one yourself for us, Mr. Elton?” said she; “that2294is the only security for its freshness; and nothing could be easier to2295you.”22962297“Oh no! he had never written, hardly ever, any thing of the kind in his2298life. The stupidest fellow! He was afraid not even Miss Woodhouse”--he2299stopt a moment--“or Miss Smith could inspire him.”23002301The very next day however produced some proof of inspiration. He2302called for a few moments, just to leave a piece of paper on the table2303containing, as he said, a charade, which a friend of his had addressed2304to a young lady, the object of his admiration, but which, from his2305manner, Emma was immediately convinced must be his own.23062307“I do not offer it for Miss Smith's collection,” said he. “Being my2308friend's, I have no right to expose it in any degree to the public eye,2309but perhaps you may not dislike looking at it.”23102311The speech was more to Emma than to Harriet, which Emma could2312understand. There was deep consciousness about him, and he found2313it easier to meet her eye than her friend's. He was gone the next2314moment:--after another moment's pause,23152316“Take it,” said Emma, smiling, and pushing the paper towards2317Harriet--“it is for you. Take your own.”23182319But Harriet was in a tremor, and could not touch it; and Emma, never2320loth to be first, was obliged to examine it herself.23212322To Miss--23232324CHARADE.23252326My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,2327Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.2328Another view of man, my second brings,2329Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!23302331But ah! united, what reverse we have!2332Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown;2333Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,2334And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.23352336Thy ready wit the word will soon supply,2337May its approval beam in that soft eye!23382339She cast her eye over it, pondered, caught the meaning, read it through2340again to be quite certain, and quite mistress of the lines, and then2341passing it to Harriet, sat happily smiling, and saying to herself, while2342Harriet was puzzling over the paper in all the confusion of hope and2343dulness, “Very well, Mr. Elton, very well indeed. I have read worse2344charades. _Courtship_--a very good hint. I give you credit for it. This2345is feeling your way. This is saying very plainly--'Pray, Miss Smith,2346give me leave to pay my addresses to you. Approve my charade and my2347intentions in the same glance.'23482349May its approval beam in that soft eye!23502351Harriet exactly. Soft is the very word for her eye--of all epithets, the2352justest that could be given.23532354Thy ready wit the word will soon supply.23552356Humph--Harriet's ready wit! All the better. A man must be very much in2357love, indeed, to describe her so. Ah! Mr. Knightley, I wish you had the2358benefit of this; I think this would convince you. For once in your life2359you would be obliged to own yourself mistaken. An excellent charade2360indeed! and very much to the purpose. Things must come to a crisis soon2361now.”23622363She was obliged to break off from these very pleasant observations,2364which were otherwise of a sort to run into great length, by the2365eagerness of Harriet's wondering questions.23662367“What can it be, Miss Woodhouse?--what can it be? I have not an idea--I2368cannot guess it in the least. What can it possibly be? Do try to find2369it out, Miss Woodhouse. Do help me. I never saw any thing so hard. Is it2370kingdom? I wonder who the friend was--and who could be the young lady.2371Do you think it is a good one? Can it be woman?23722373And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.23742375Can it be Neptune?23762377Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!23782379Or a trident? or a mermaid? or a shark? Oh, no! shark is only one2380syllable. It must be very clever, or he would not have brought it. Oh!2381Miss Woodhouse, do you think we shall ever find it out?”23822383“Mermaids and sharks! Nonsense! My dear Harriet, what are you thinking2384of? Where would be the use of his bringing us a charade made by a friend2385upon a mermaid or a shark? Give me the paper and listen.23862387For Miss ------, read Miss Smith.23882389My first displays the wealth and pomp of kings,2390Lords of the earth! their luxury and ease.23912392That is _court_.23932394Another view of man, my second brings;2395Behold him there, the monarch of the seas!23962397That is _ship_;--plain as it can be.--Now for the cream.23982399But ah! united, (_courtship_, you know,) what reverse we have!2400Man's boasted power and freedom, all are flown.2401Lord of the earth and sea, he bends a slave,2402And woman, lovely woman, reigns alone.24032404A very proper compliment!--and then follows the application, which2405I think, my dear Harriet, you cannot find much difficulty in2406comprehending. Read it in comfort to yourself. There can be no doubt of2407its being written for you and to you.”24082409Harriet could not long resist so delightful a persuasion. She read2410the concluding lines, and was all flutter and happiness. She could not2411speak. But she was not wanted to speak. It was enough for her to feel.2412Emma spoke for her.24132414“There is so pointed, and so particular a meaning in this compliment,”2415said she, “that I cannot have a doubt as to Mr. Elton's intentions. You2416are his object--and you will soon receive the completest proof of it. I2417thought it must be so. I thought I could not be so deceived; but now, it2418is clear; the state of his mind is as clear and decided, as my wishes on2419the subject have been ever since I knew you. Yes, Harriet, just so long2420have I been wanting the very circumstance to happen that has happened.2421I could never tell whether an attachment between you and Mr. Elton were2422most desirable or most natural. Its probability and its eligibility have2423really so equalled each other! I am very happy. I congratulate you, my2424dear Harriet, with all my heart. This is an attachment which a woman may2425well feel pride in creating. This is a connexion which offers nothing2426but good. It will give you every thing that you want--consideration,2427independence, a proper home--it will fix you in the centre of all your2428real friends, close to Hartfield and to me, and confirm our intimacy2429for ever. This, Harriet, is an alliance which can never raise a blush in2430either of us.”24312432“Dear Miss Woodhouse!”--and “Dear Miss Woodhouse,” was all that Harriet,2433with many tender embraces could articulate at first; but when they did2434arrive at something more like conversation, it was sufficiently clear to2435her friend that she saw, felt, anticipated, and remembered just as she2436ought. Mr. Elton's superiority had very ample acknowledgment.24372438“Whatever you say is always right,” cried Harriet, “and therefore I2439suppose, and believe, and hope it must be so; but otherwise I could not2440have imagined it. It is so much beyond any thing I deserve. Mr. Elton,2441who might marry any body! There cannot be two opinions about _him_. He2442is so very superior. Only think of those sweet verses--'To Miss ------.'2443Dear me, how clever!--Could it really be meant for me?”24442445“I cannot make a question, or listen to a question about that. It is a2446certainty. Receive it on my judgment. It is a sort of prologue to2447the play, a motto to the chapter; and will be soon followed by2448matter-of-fact prose.”24492450“It is a sort of thing which nobody could have expected. I am sure,2451a month ago, I had no more idea myself!--The strangest things do take2452place!”24532454“When Miss Smiths and Mr. Eltons get acquainted--they do indeed--and2455really it is strange; it is out of the common course that what is so2456evidently, so palpably desirable--what courts the pre-arrangement of2457other people, should so immediately shape itself into the proper form.2458You and Mr. Elton are by situation called together; you belong to one2459another by every circumstance of your respective homes. Your marrying2460will be equal to the match at Randalls. There does seem to be a2461something in the air of Hartfield which gives love exactly the right2462direction, and sends it into the very channel where it ought to flow.24632464The course of true love never did run smooth--24652466A Hartfield edition of Shakespeare would have a long note on that2467passage.”24682469“That Mr. Elton should really be in love with me,--me, of all people,2470who did not know him, to speak to him, at Michaelmas! And he, the very2471handsomest man that ever was, and a man that every body looks up to,2472quite like Mr. Knightley! His company so sought after, that every body2473says he need not eat a single meal by himself if he does not chuse it;2474that he has more invitations than there are days in the week. And so2475excellent in the Church! Miss Nash has put down all the texts he has2476ever preached from since he came to Highbury. Dear me! When I look back2477to the first time I saw him! How little did I think!--The two Abbots and2478I ran into the front room and peeped through the blind when we heard he2479was going by, and Miss Nash came and scolded us away, and staid to look2480through herself; however, she called me back presently, and let me2481look too, which was very good-natured. And how beautiful we thought he2482looked! He was arm-in-arm with Mr. Cole.”24832484“This is an alliance which, whoever--whatever your friends may be, must2485be agreeable to them, provided at least they have common sense; and we2486are not to be addressing our conduct to fools. If they are anxious to2487see you _happily_ married, here is a man whose amiable character gives2488every assurance of it;--if they wish to have you settled in the same2489country and circle which they have chosen to place you in, here it will2490be accomplished; and if their only object is that you should, in the2491common phrase, be _well_ married, here is the comfortable fortune, the2492respectable establishment, the rise in the world which must satisfy2493them.”24942495“Yes, very true. How nicely you talk; I love to hear you. You understand2496every thing. You and Mr. Elton are one as clever as the other. This2497charade!--If I had studied a twelvemonth, I could never have made any2498thing like it.”24992500“I thought he meant to try his skill, by his manner of declining it2501yesterday.”25022503“I do think it is, without exception, the best charade I ever read.”25042505“I never read one more to the purpose, certainly.”25062507“It is as long again as almost all we have had before.”25082509“I do not consider its length as particularly in its favour. Such things2510in general cannot be too short.”25112512Harriet was too intent on the lines to hear. The most satisfactory2513comparisons were rising in her mind.25142515“It is one thing,” said she, presently--her cheeks in a glow--“to have2516very good sense in a common way, like every body else, and if there is2517any thing to say, to sit down and write a letter, and say just what you2518must, in a short way; and another, to write verses and charades like2519this.”25202521Emma could not have desired a more spirited rejection of Mr. Martin's2522prose.25232524“Such sweet lines!” continued Harriet--“these two last!--But how shall I2525ever be able to return the paper, or say I have found it out?--Oh! Miss2526Woodhouse, what can we do about that?”25272528“Leave it to me. You do nothing. He will be here this evening, I dare2529say, and then I will give it him back, and some nonsense or other will2530pass between us, and you shall not be committed.--Your soft eyes shall2531chuse their own time for beaming. Trust to me.”25322533“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what a pity that I must not write this beautiful2534charade into my book! I am sure I have not got one half so good.”25352536“Leave out the two last lines, and there is no reason why you should not2537write it into your book.”25382539“Oh! but those two lines are”--25402541--“The best of all. Granted;--for private enjoyment; and for private2542enjoyment keep them. They are not at all the less written you know,2543because you divide them. The couplet does not cease to be, nor does its2544meaning change. But take it away, and all _appropriation_ ceases, and a2545very pretty gallant charade remains, fit for any collection. Depend upon2546it, he would not like to have his charade slighted, much better than his2547passion. A poet in love must be encouraged in both capacities, or2548neither. Give me the book, I will write it down, and then there can be2549no possible reflection on you.”25502551Harriet submitted, though her mind could hardly separate the parts,2552so as to feel quite sure that her friend were not writing down a2553declaration of love. It seemed too precious an offering for any degree2554of publicity.25552556“I shall never let that book go out of my own hands,” said she.25572558“Very well,” replied Emma; “a most natural feeling; and the longer it2559lasts, the better I shall be pleased. But here is my father coming: you2560will not object to my reading the charade to him. It will be giving him2561so much pleasure! He loves any thing of the sort, and especially any2562thing that pays woman a compliment. He has the tenderest spirit of2563gallantry towards us all!--You must let me read it to him.”25642565Harriet looked grave.25662567“My dear Harriet, you must not refine too much upon this charade.--You2568will betray your feelings improperly, if you are too conscious and too2569quick, and appear to affix more meaning, or even quite all the meaning2570which may be affixed to it. Do not be overpowered by such a little2571tribute of admiration. If he had been anxious for secrecy, he would not2572have left the paper while I was by; but he rather pushed it towards me2573than towards you. Do not let us be too solemn on the business. He has2574encouragement enough to proceed, without our sighing out our souls over2575this charade.”25762577“Oh! no--I hope I shall not be ridiculous about it. Do as you please.”25782579Mr. Woodhouse came in, and very soon led to the subject again, by the2580recurrence of his very frequent inquiry of “Well, my dears, how does2581your book go on?--Have you got any thing fresh?”25822583“Yes, papa; we have something to read you, something quite fresh. A2584piece of paper was found on the table this morning--(dropt, we suppose,2585by a fairy)--containing a very pretty charade, and we have just copied2586it in.”25872588She read it to him, just as he liked to have any thing read, slowly and2589distinctly, and two or three times over, with explanations of every2590part as she proceeded--and he was very much pleased, and, as she had2591foreseen, especially struck with the complimentary conclusion.25922593“Aye, that's very just, indeed, that's very properly said. Very true.2594'Woman, lovely woman.' It is such a pretty charade, my dear, that I2595can easily guess what fairy brought it.--Nobody could have written so2596prettily, but you, Emma.”25972598Emma only nodded, and smiled.--After a little thinking, and a very2599tender sigh, he added,26002601“Ah! it is no difficulty to see who you take after! Your dear mother2602was so clever at all those things! If I had but her memory! But I can2603remember nothing;--not even that particular riddle which you have2604heard me mention; I can only recollect the first stanza; and there are2605several.26062607Kitty, a fair but frozen maid,2608Kindled a flame I yet deplore,2609The hood-wink'd boy I called to aid,2610Though of his near approach afraid,2611So fatal to my suit before.26122613And that is all that I can recollect of it--but it is very clever all2614the way through. But I think, my dear, you said you had got it.”26152616“Yes, papa, it is written out in our second page. We copied it from the2617Elegant Extracts. It was Garrick's, you know.”26182619“Aye, very true.--I wish I could recollect more of it.26202621Kitty, a fair but frozen maid.26222623The name makes me think of poor Isabella; for she was very near being2624christened Catherine after her grandmama. I hope we shall have her here2625next week. Have you thought, my dear, where you shall put her--and what2626room there will be for the children?”26272628“Oh! yes--she will have her own room, of course; the room she always2629has;--and there is the nursery for the children,--just as usual, you2630know. Why should there be any change?”26312632“I do not know, my dear--but it is so long since she was here!--not2633since last Easter, and then only for a few days.--Mr. John Knightley's2634being a lawyer is very inconvenient.--Poor Isabella!--she is sadly taken2635away from us all!--and how sorry she will be when she comes, not to see2636Miss Taylor here!”26372638“She will not be surprized, papa, at least.”26392640“I do not know, my dear. I am sure I was very much surprized when I2641first heard she was going to be married.”26422643“We must ask Mr. and Mrs. Weston to dine with us, while Isabella is2644here.”26452646“Yes, my dear, if there is time.--But--(in a very depressed tone)--she2647is coming for only one week. There will not be time for any thing.”26482649“It is unfortunate that they cannot stay longer--but it seems a case of2650necessity. Mr. John Knightley must be in town again on the 28th, and we2651ought to be thankful, papa, that we are to have the whole of the time2652they can give to the country, that two or three days are not to be taken2653out for the Abbey. Mr. Knightley promises to give up his claim this2654Christmas--though you know it is longer since they were with him, than2655with us.”26562657“It would be very hard, indeed, my dear, if poor Isabella were to be2658anywhere but at Hartfield.”26592660Mr. Woodhouse could never allow for Mr. Knightley's claims on his2661brother, or any body's claims on Isabella, except his own. He sat musing2662a little while, and then said,26632664“But I do not see why poor Isabella should be obliged to go back so2665soon, though he does. I think, Emma, I shall try and persuade her to2666stay longer with us. She and the children might stay very well.”26672668“Ah! papa--that is what you never have been able to accomplish, and I2669do not think you ever will. Isabella cannot bear to stay behind her2670husband.”26712672This was too true for contradiction. Unwelcome as it was, Mr. Woodhouse2673could only give a submissive sigh; and as Emma saw his spirits affected2674by the idea of his daughter's attachment to her husband, she immediately2675led to such a branch of the subject as must raise them.26762677“Harriet must give us as much of her company as she can while my brother2678and sister are here. I am sure she will be pleased with the children.2679We are very proud of the children, are not we, papa? I wonder which she2680will think the handsomest, Henry or John?”26812682“Aye, I wonder which she will. Poor little dears, how glad they will be2683to come. They are very fond of being at Hartfield, Harriet.”26842685“I dare say they are, sir. I am sure I do not know who is not.”26862687“Henry is a fine boy, but John is very like his mama. Henry is the2688eldest, he was named after me, not after his father. John, the second,2689is named after his father. Some people are surprized, I believe, that2690the eldest was not, but Isabella would have him called Henry, which I2691thought very pretty of her. And he is a very clever boy, indeed. They2692are all remarkably clever; and they have so many pretty ways. They will2693come and stand by my chair, and say, 'Grandpapa, can you give me a bit2694of string?' and once Henry asked me for a knife, but I told him knives2695were only made for grandpapas. I think their father is too rough with2696them very often.”26972698“He appears rough to you,” said Emma, “because you are so very gentle2699yourself; but if you could compare him with other papas, you would not2700think him rough. He wishes his boys to be active and hardy; and if2701they misbehave, can give them a sharp word now and then; but he is an2702affectionate father--certainly Mr. John Knightley is an affectionate2703father. The children are all fond of him.”27042705“And then their uncle comes in, and tosses them up to the ceiling in a2706very frightful way!”27072708“But they like it, papa; there is nothing they like so much. It is such2709enjoyment to them, that if their uncle did not lay down the rule of2710their taking turns, whichever began would never give way to the other.”27112712“Well, I cannot understand it.”27132714“That is the case with us all, papa. One half of the world cannot2715understand the pleasures of the other.”27162717Later in the morning, and just as the girls were going to separate2718in preparation for the regular four o'clock dinner, the hero of this2719inimitable charade walked in again. Harriet turned away; but Emma could2720receive him with the usual smile, and her quick eye soon discerned in2721his the consciousness of having made a push--of having thrown a die;2722and she imagined he was come to see how it might turn up. His ostensible2723reason, however, was to ask whether Mr. Woodhouse's party could be made2724up in the evening without him, or whether he should be in the smallest2725degree necessary at Hartfield. If he were, every thing else must give2726way; but otherwise his friend Cole had been saying so much about his2727dining with him--had made such a point of it, that he had promised him2728conditionally to come.27292730Emma thanked him, but could not allow of his disappointing his friend2731on their account; her father was sure of his rubber. He re-urged--she2732re-declined; and he seemed then about to make his bow, when taking the2733paper from the table, she returned it--27342735“Oh! here is the charade you were so obliging as to leave with us; thank2736you for the sight of it. We admired it so much, that I have ventured2737to write it into Miss Smith's collection. Your friend will not take it2738amiss I hope. Of course I have not transcribed beyond the first eight2739lines.”27402741Mr. Elton certainly did not very well know what to say. He looked rather2742doubtingly--rather confused; said something about “honour,”--glanced at2743Emma and at Harriet, and then seeing the book open on the table, took2744it up, and examined it very attentively. With the view of passing off an2745awkward moment, Emma smilingly said,27462747“You must make my apologies to your friend; but so good a charade2748must not be confined to one or two. He may be sure of every woman's2749approbation while he writes with such gallantry.”27502751“I have no hesitation in saying,” replied Mr. Elton, though hesitating2752a good deal while he spoke; “I have no hesitation in saying--at least2753if my friend feels at all as _I_ do--I have not the smallest doubt that,2754could he see his little effusion honoured as _I_ see it, (looking at the2755book again, and replacing it on the table), he would consider it as the2756proudest moment of his life.”27572758After this speech he was gone as soon as possible. Emma could not think2759it too soon; for with all his good and agreeable qualities, there was2760a sort of parade in his speeches which was very apt to incline her to2761laugh. She ran away to indulge the inclination, leaving the tender and2762the sublime of pleasure to Harriet's share.2763276427652766CHAPTER X276727682769Though now the middle of December, there had yet been no weather to2770prevent the young ladies from tolerably regular exercise; and on the2771morrow, Emma had a charitable visit to pay to a poor sick family, who2772lived a little way out of Highbury.27732774Their road to this detached cottage was down Vicarage Lane, a lane2775leading at right angles from the broad, though irregular, main street of2776the place; and, as may be inferred, containing the blessed abode of Mr.2777Elton. A few inferior dwellings were first to be passed, and then, about2778a quarter of a mile down the lane rose the Vicarage, an old and not2779very good house, almost as close to the road as it could be. It had2780no advantage of situation; but had been very much smartened up by the2781present proprietor; and, such as it was, there could be no possibility2782of the two friends passing it without a slackened pace and observing2783eyes.--Emma's remark was--27842785“There it is. There go you and your riddle-book one of these2786days.”--Harriet's was--27872788“Oh, what a sweet house!--How very beautiful!--There are the yellow2789curtains that Miss Nash admires so much.”27902791“I do not often walk this way _now_,” said Emma, as they proceeded, “but2792_then_ there will be an inducement, and I shall gradually get intimately2793acquainted with all the hedges, gates, pools and pollards of this part2794of Highbury.”27952796Harriet, she found, had never in her life been inside the Vicarage,2797and her curiosity to see it was so extreme, that, considering exteriors2798and probabilities, Emma could only class it, as a proof of love, with2799Mr. Elton's seeing ready wit in her.28002801“I wish we could contrive it,” said she; “but I cannot think of any2802tolerable pretence for going in;--no servant that I want to inquire2803about of his housekeeper--no message from my father.”28042805She pondered, but could think of nothing. After a mutual silence of some2806minutes, Harriet thus began again--28072808“I do so wonder, Miss Woodhouse, that you should not be married, or2809going to be married! so charming as you are!”--28102811Emma laughed, and replied,28122813“My being charming, Harriet, is not quite enough to induce me to marry;2814I must find other people charming--one other person at least. And I2815am not only, not going to be married, at present, but have very little2816intention of ever marrying at all.”28172818“Ah!--so you say; but I cannot believe it.”28192820“I must see somebody very superior to any one I have seen yet, to be2821tempted; Mr. Elton, you know, (recollecting herself,) is out of the2822question: and I do _not_ wish to see any such person. I would rather not2823be tempted. I cannot really change for the better. If I were to marry, I2824must expect to repent it.”28252826“Dear me!--it is so odd to hear a woman talk so!”--28272828“I have none of the usual inducements of women to marry. Were I to fall2829in love, indeed, it would be a different thing! but I never have been in2830love; it is not my way, or my nature; and I do not think I ever shall.2831And, without love, I am sure I should be a fool to change such a2832situation as mine. Fortune I do not want; employment I do not want;2833consequence I do not want: I believe few married women are half as much2834mistress of their husband's house as I am of Hartfield; and never, never2835could I expect to be so truly beloved and important; so always first and2836always right in any man's eyes as I am in my father's.”28372838“But then, to be an old maid at last, like Miss Bates!”28392840“That is as formidable an image as you could present, Harriet; and if2841I thought I should ever be like Miss Bates! so silly--so satisfied--so2842smiling--so prosing--so undistinguishing and unfastidious--and so apt2843to tell every thing relative to every body about me, I would marry2844to-morrow. But between _us_, I am convinced there never can be any2845likeness, except in being unmarried.”28462847“But still, you will be an old maid! and that's so dreadful!”28482849“Never mind, Harriet, I shall not be a poor old maid; and it is poverty2850only which makes celibacy contemptible to a generous public! A single2851woman, with a very narrow income, must be a ridiculous, disagreeable old2852maid! the proper sport of boys and girls, but a single woman, of good2853fortune, is always respectable, and may be as sensible and pleasant2854as any body else. And the distinction is not quite so much against the2855candour and common sense of the world as appears at first; for a very2856narrow income has a tendency to contract the mind, and sour the temper.2857Those who can barely live, and who live perforce in a very small, and2858generally very inferior, society, may well be illiberal and cross. This2859does not apply, however, to Miss Bates; she is only too good natured and2860too silly to suit me; but, in general, she is very much to the taste2861of every body, though single and though poor. Poverty certainly has not2862contracted her mind: I really believe, if she had only a shilling in the2863world, she would be very likely to give away sixpence of it; and nobody2864is afraid of her: that is a great charm.”28652866“Dear me! but what shall you do? how shall you employ yourself when you2867grow old?”28682869“If I know myself, Harriet, mine is an active, busy mind, with a great2870many independent resources; and I do not perceive why I should be more2871in want of employment at forty or fifty than one-and-twenty. Woman's2872usual occupations of hand and mind will be as open to me then as they2873are now; or with no important variation. If I draw less, I shall read2874more; if I give up music, I shall take to carpet-work. And as for2875objects of interest, objects for the affections, which is in truth the2876great point of inferiority, the want of which is really the great evil2877to be avoided in _not_ marrying, I shall be very well off, with all the2878children of a sister I love so much, to care about. There will be enough2879of them, in all probability, to supply every sort of sensation that2880declining life can need. There will be enough for every hope and every2881fear; and though my attachment to none can equal that of a parent, it2882suits my ideas of comfort better than what is warmer and blinder. My2883nephews and nieces!--I shall often have a niece with me.”28842885“Do you know Miss Bates's niece? That is, I know you must have seen her2886a hundred times--but are you acquainted?”28872888“Oh! yes; we are always forced to be acquainted whenever she comes to2889Highbury. By the bye, _that_ is almost enough to put one out of conceit2890with a niece. Heaven forbid! at least, that I should ever bore people2891half so much about all the Knightleys together, as she does about Jane2892Fairfax. One is sick of the very name of Jane Fairfax. Every letter from2893her is read forty times over; her compliments to all friends go round2894and round again; and if she does but send her aunt the pattern of a2895stomacher, or knit a pair of garters for her grandmother, one hears of2896nothing else for a month. I wish Jane Fairfax very well; but she tires2897me to death.”28982899They were now approaching the cottage, and all idle topics were2900superseded. Emma was very compassionate; and the distresses of the poor2901were as sure of relief from her personal attention and kindness, her2902counsel and her patience, as from her purse. She understood their ways,2903could allow for their ignorance and their temptations, had no romantic2904expectations of extraordinary virtue from those for whom education had2905done so little; entered into their troubles with ready sympathy, and2906always gave her assistance with as much intelligence as good-will. In2907the present instance, it was sickness and poverty together which she2908came to visit; and after remaining there as long as she could give2909comfort or advice, she quitted the cottage with such an impression of2910the scene as made her say to Harriet, as they walked away,29112912“These are the sights, Harriet, to do one good. How trifling they make2913every thing else appear!--I feel now as if I could think of nothing but2914these poor creatures all the rest of the day; and yet, who can say how2915soon it may all vanish from my mind?”29162917“Very true,” said Harriet. “Poor creatures! one can think of nothing2918else.”29192920“And really, I do not think the impression will soon be over,” said2921Emma, as she crossed the low hedge, and tottering footstep which ended2922the narrow, slippery path through the cottage garden, and brought them2923into the lane again. “I do not think it will,” stopping to look once2924more at all the outward wretchedness of the place, and recall the still2925greater within.29262927“Oh! dear, no,” said her companion.29282929They walked on. The lane made a slight bend; and when that bend was2930passed, Mr. Elton was immediately in sight; and so near as to give Emma2931time only to say farther,29322933“Ah! Harriet, here comes a very sudden trial of our stability in good2934thoughts. Well, (smiling,) I hope it may be allowed that if compassion2935has produced exertion and relief to the sufferers, it has done all that2936is truly important. If we feel for the wretched, enough to do all we can2937for them, the rest is empty sympathy, only distressing to ourselves.”29382939Harriet could just answer, “Oh! dear, yes,” before the gentleman joined2940them. The wants and sufferings of the poor family, however, were the2941first subject on meeting. He had been going to call on them. His visit2942he would now defer; but they had a very interesting parley about2943what could be done and should be done. Mr. Elton then turned back to2944accompany them.29452946“To fall in with each other on such an errand as this,” thought Emma;2947“to meet in a charitable scheme; this will bring a great increase2948of love on each side. I should not wonder if it were to bring on the2949declaration. It must, if I were not here. I wish I were anywhere else.”29502951Anxious to separate herself from them as far as she could, she soon2952afterwards took possession of a narrow footpath, a little raised on one2953side of the lane, leaving them together in the main road. But she had2954not been there two minutes when she found that Harriet's habits of2955dependence and imitation were bringing her up too, and that, in short,2956they would both be soon after her. This would not do; she immediately2957stopped, under pretence of having some alteration to make in the lacing2958of her half-boot, and stooping down in complete occupation of the2959footpath, begged them to have the goodness to walk on, and she would2960follow in half a minute. They did as they were desired; and by the time2961she judged it reasonable to have done with her boot, she had the comfort2962of farther delay in her power, being overtaken by a child from the2963cottage, setting out, according to orders, with her pitcher, to fetch2964broth from Hartfield. To walk by the side of this child, and talk to2965and question her, was the most natural thing in the world, or would have2966been the most natural, had she been acting just then without design;2967and by this means the others were still able to keep ahead, without2968any obligation of waiting for her. She gained on them, however,2969involuntarily: the child's pace was quick, and theirs rather slow;2970and she was the more concerned at it, from their being evidently in2971a conversation which interested them. Mr. Elton was speaking with2972animation, Harriet listening with a very pleased attention; and Emma,2973having sent the child on, was beginning to think how she might draw back2974a little more, when they both looked around, and she was obliged to join2975them.29762977Mr. Elton was still talking, still engaged in some interesting detail;2978and Emma experienced some disappointment when she found that he was only2979giving his fair companion an account of the yesterday's party at his2980friend Cole's, and that she was come in herself for the Stilton cheese,2981the north Wiltshire, the butter, the celery, the beet-root, and all the2982dessert.29832984“This would soon have led to something better, of course,” was her2985consoling reflection; “any thing interests between those who love; and2986any thing will serve as introduction to what is near the heart. If I2987could but have kept longer away!”29882989They now walked on together quietly, till within view of the vicarage2990pales, when a sudden resolution, of at least getting Harriet into the2991house, made her again find something very much amiss about her boot, and2992fall behind to arrange it once more. She then broke the lace off short,2993and dexterously throwing it into a ditch, was presently obliged to2994entreat them to stop, and acknowledged her inability to put herself to2995rights so as to be able to walk home in tolerable comfort.29962997“Part of my lace is gone,” said she, “and I do not know how I am to2998contrive. I really am a most troublesome companion to you both, but I2999hope I am not often so ill-equipped. Mr. Elton, I must beg leave to stop3000at your house, and ask your housekeeper for a bit of ribband or string,3001or any thing just to keep my boot on.”30023003Mr. Elton looked all happiness at this proposition; and nothing could3004exceed his alertness and attention in conducting them into his house and3005endeavouring to make every thing appear to advantage. The room they were3006taken into was the one he chiefly occupied, and looking forwards; behind3007it was another with which it immediately communicated; the door between3008them was open, and Emma passed into it with the housekeeper to receive3009her assistance in the most comfortable manner. She was obliged to leave3010the door ajar as she found it; but she fully intended that Mr. Elton3011should close it. It was not closed, however, it still remained ajar; but3012by engaging the housekeeper in incessant conversation, she hoped to make3013it practicable for him to chuse his own subject in the adjoining3014room. For ten minutes she could hear nothing but herself. It could be3015protracted no longer. She was then obliged to be finished, and make her3016appearance.30173018The lovers were standing together at one of the windows. It had a most3019favourable aspect; and, for half a minute, Emma felt the glory of having3020schemed successfully. But it would not do; he had not come to the point.3021He had been most agreeable, most delightful; he had told Harriet that3022he had seen them go by, and had purposely followed them; other little3023gallantries and allusions had been dropt, but nothing serious.30243025“Cautious, very cautious,” thought Emma; “he advances inch by inch, and3026will hazard nothing till he believes himself secure.”30273028Still, however, though every thing had not been accomplished by her3029ingenious device, she could not but flatter herself that it had been3030the occasion of much present enjoyment to both, and must be leading them3031forward to the great event.3032303330343035CHAPTER XI303630373038Mr. Elton must now be left to himself. It was no longer in Emma's power3039to superintend his happiness or quicken his measures. The coming of her3040sister's family was so very near at hand, that first in anticipation,3041and then in reality, it became henceforth her prime object of interest;3042and during the ten days of their stay at Hartfield it was not to be3043expected--she did not herself expect--that any thing beyond occasional,3044fortuitous assistance could be afforded by her to the lovers. They might3045advance rapidly if they would, however; they must advance somehow or3046other whether they would or no. She hardly wished to have more leisure3047for them. There are people, who the more you do for them, the less they3048will do for themselves.30493050Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley, from having been longer than usual absent3051from Surry, were exciting of course rather more than the usual interest.3052Till this year, every long vacation since their marriage had been3053divided between Hartfield and Donwell Abbey; but all the holidays of3054this autumn had been given to sea-bathing for the children, and it was3055therefore many months since they had been seen in a regular way by their3056Surry connexions, or seen at all by Mr. Woodhouse, who could not be3057induced to get so far as London, even for poor Isabella's sake; and3058who consequently was now most nervously and apprehensively happy in3059forestalling this too short visit.30603061He thought much of the evils of the journey for her, and not a little3062of the fatigues of his own horses and coachman who were to bring some3063of the party the last half of the way; but his alarms were needless;3064the sixteen miles being happily accomplished, and Mr. and Mrs. John3065Knightley, their five children, and a competent number of nursery-maids,3066all reaching Hartfield in safety. The bustle and joy of such an arrival,3067the many to be talked to, welcomed, encouraged, and variously dispersed3068and disposed of, produced a noise and confusion which his nerves could3069not have borne under any other cause, nor have endured much longer even3070for this; but the ways of Hartfield and the feelings of her father3071were so respected by Mrs. John Knightley, that in spite of maternal3072solicitude for the immediate enjoyment of her little ones, and for their3073having instantly all the liberty and attendance, all the eating and3074drinking, and sleeping and playing, which they could possibly wish for,3075without the smallest delay, the children were never allowed to be long3076a disturbance to him, either in themselves or in any restless attendance3077on them.30783079Mrs. John Knightley was a pretty, elegant little woman, of gentle, quiet3080manners, and a disposition remarkably amiable and affectionate; wrapt3081up in her family; a devoted wife, a doating mother, and so tenderly3082attached to her father and sister that, but for these higher ties, a3083warmer love might have seemed impossible. She could never see a fault3084in any of them. She was not a woman of strong understanding or any3085quickness; and with this resemblance of her father, she inherited also3086much of his constitution; was delicate in her own health, over-careful3087of that of her children, had many fears and many nerves, and was as fond3088of her own Mr. Wingfield in town as her father could be of Mr. Perry.3089They were alike too, in a general benevolence of temper, and a strong3090habit of regard for every old acquaintance.30913092Mr. John Knightley was a tall, gentleman-like, and very clever man;3093rising in his profession, domestic, and respectable in his private3094character; but with reserved manners which prevented his being generally3095pleasing; and capable of being sometimes out of humour. He was not an3096ill-tempered man, not so often unreasonably cross as to deserve such a3097reproach; but his temper was not his great perfection; and, indeed, with3098such a worshipping wife, it was hardly possible that any natural defects3099in it should not be increased. The extreme sweetness of her temper3100must hurt his. He had all the clearness and quickness of mind which she3101wanted, and he could sometimes act an ungracious, or say a severe thing.31023103He was not a great favourite with his fair sister-in-law. Nothing wrong3104in him escaped her. She was quick in feeling the little injuries to3105Isabella, which Isabella never felt herself. Perhaps she might have3106passed over more had his manners been flattering to Isabella's sister,3107but they were only those of a calmly kind brother and friend, without3108praise and without blindness; but hardly any degree of personal3109compliment could have made her regardless of that greatest fault of3110all in her eyes which he sometimes fell into, the want of respectful3111forbearance towards her father. There he had not always the patience3112that could have been wished. Mr. Woodhouse's peculiarities and3113fidgetiness were sometimes provoking him to a rational remonstrance or3114sharp retort equally ill-bestowed. It did not often happen; for Mr. John3115Knightley had really a great regard for his father-in-law, and generally3116a strong sense of what was due to him; but it was too often for Emma's3117charity, especially as there was all the pain of apprehension frequently3118to be endured, though the offence came not. The beginning, however, of3119every visit displayed none but the properest feelings, and this being of3120necessity so short might be hoped to pass away in unsullied cordiality.3121They had not been long seated and composed when Mr. Woodhouse, with a3122melancholy shake of the head and a sigh, called his daughter's attention3123to the sad change at Hartfield since she had been there last.31243125“Ah, my dear,” said he, “poor Miss Taylor--It is a grievous business.”31263127“Oh yes, sir,” cried she with ready sympathy, “how you must miss her!3128And dear Emma, too!--What a dreadful loss to you both!--I have been so3129grieved for you.--I could not imagine how you could possibly do without3130her.--It is a sad change indeed.--But I hope she is pretty well, sir.”31313132“Pretty well, my dear--I hope--pretty well.--I do not know but that the3133place agrees with her tolerably.”31343135Mr. John Knightley here asked Emma quietly whether there were any doubts3136of the air of Randalls.31373138“Oh! no--none in the least. I never saw Mrs. Weston better in my3139life--never looking so well. Papa is only speaking his own regret.”31403141“Very much to the honour of both,” was the handsome reply.31423143“And do you see her, sir, tolerably often?” asked Isabella in the3144plaintive tone which just suited her father.31453146Mr. Woodhouse hesitated.--“Not near so often, my dear, as I could wish.”31473148“Oh! papa, we have missed seeing them but one entire day since they3149married. Either in the morning or evening of every day, excepting one,3150have we seen either Mr. Weston or Mrs. Weston, and generally both,3151either at Randalls or here--and as you may suppose, Isabella, most3152frequently here. They are very, very kind in their visits. Mr. Weston3153is really as kind as herself. Papa, if you speak in that melancholy way,3154you will be giving Isabella a false idea of us all. Every body must be3155aware that Miss Taylor must be missed, but every body ought also to be3156assured that Mr. and Mrs. Weston do really prevent our missing her by3157any means to the extent we ourselves anticipated--which is the exact3158truth.”31593160“Just as it should be,” said Mr. John Knightley, “and just as I hoped3161it was from your letters. Her wish of shewing you attention could not be3162doubted, and his being a disengaged and social man makes it all easy. I3163have been always telling you, my love, that I had no idea of the change3164being so very material to Hartfield as you apprehended; and now you have3165Emma's account, I hope you will be satisfied.”31663167“Why, to be sure,” said Mr. Woodhouse--“yes, certainly--I cannot3168deny that Mrs. Weston, poor Mrs. Weston, does come and see us pretty3169often--but then--she is always obliged to go away again.”31703171“It would be very hard upon Mr. Weston if she did not, papa.--You quite3172forget poor Mr. Weston.”31733174“I think, indeed,” said John Knightley pleasantly, “that Mr. Weston has3175some little claim. You and I, Emma, will venture to take the part of the3176poor husband. I, being a husband, and you not being a wife, the claims3177of the man may very likely strike us with equal force. As for Isabella,3178she has been married long enough to see the convenience of putting all3179the Mr. Westons aside as much as she can.”31803181“Me, my love,” cried his wife, hearing and understanding only in part.--3182“Are you talking about me?--I am sure nobody ought to be, or can be, a3183greater advocate for matrimony than I am; and if it had not been for3184the misery of her leaving Hartfield, I should never have thought of Miss3185Taylor but as the most fortunate woman in the world; and as to slighting3186Mr. Weston, that excellent Mr. Weston, I think there is nothing he does3187not deserve. I believe he is one of the very best-tempered men that ever3188existed. Excepting yourself and your brother, I do not know his equal3189for temper. I shall never forget his flying Henry's kite for him that3190very windy day last Easter--and ever since his particular kindness last3191September twelvemonth in writing that note, at twelve o'clock at night,3192on purpose to assure me that there was no scarlet fever at Cobham, I3193have been convinced there could not be a more feeling heart nor a better3194man in existence.--If any body can deserve him, it must be Miss Taylor.”31953196“Where is the young man?” said John Knightley. “Has he been here on this3197occasion--or has he not?”31983199“He has not been here yet,” replied Emma. “There was a strong3200expectation of his coming soon after the marriage, but it ended in3201nothing; and I have not heard him mentioned lately.”32023203“But you should tell them of the letter, my dear,” said her father.3204“He wrote a letter to poor Mrs. Weston, to congratulate her, and a very3205proper, handsome letter it was. She shewed it to me. I thought it very3206well done of him indeed. Whether it was his own idea you know, one3207cannot tell. He is but young, and his uncle, perhaps--”32083209“My dear papa, he is three-and-twenty. You forget how time passes.”32103211“Three-and-twenty!--is he indeed?--Well, I could not have thought3212it--and he was but two years old when he lost his poor mother! Well,3213time does fly indeed!--and my memory is very bad. However, it was an3214exceeding good, pretty letter, and gave Mr. and Mrs. Weston a great deal3215of pleasure. I remember it was written from Weymouth, and dated Sept.321628th--and began, 'My dear Madam,' but I forget how it went on; and it3217was signed 'F. C. Weston Churchill.'--I remember that perfectly.”32183219“How very pleasing and proper of him!” cried the good-hearted Mrs. John3220Knightley. “I have no doubt of his being a most amiable young man. But3221how sad it is that he should not live at home with his father! There is3222something so shocking in a child's being taken away from his parents and3223natural home! I never could comprehend how Mr. Weston could part with3224him. To give up one's child! I really never could think well of any body3225who proposed such a thing to any body else.”32263227“Nobody ever did think well of the Churchills, I fancy,” observed Mr.3228John Knightley coolly. “But you need not imagine Mr. Weston to have felt3229what you would feel in giving up Henry or John. Mr. Weston is rather3230an easy, cheerful-tempered man, than a man of strong feelings; he takes3231things as he finds them, and makes enjoyment of them somehow or other,3232depending, I suspect, much more upon what is called society for his3233comforts, that is, upon the power of eating and drinking, and playing3234whist with his neighbours five times a week, than upon family affection,3235or any thing that home affords.”32363237Emma could not like what bordered on a reflection on Mr. Weston, and had3238half a mind to take it up; but she struggled, and let it pass. She3239would keep the peace if possible; and there was something honourable and3240valuable in the strong domestic habits, the all-sufficiency of home to3241himself, whence resulted her brother's disposition to look down on3242the common rate of social intercourse, and those to whom it was3243important.--It had a high claim to forbearance.3244324532463247CHAPTER XII324832493250Mr. Knightley was to dine with them--rather against the inclination of3251Mr. Woodhouse, who did not like that any one should share with him in3252Isabella's first day. Emma's sense of right however had decided it;3253and besides the consideration of what was due to each brother, she had3254particular pleasure, from the circumstance of the late disagreement3255between Mr. Knightley and herself, in procuring him the proper3256invitation.32573258She hoped they might now become friends again. She thought it was time3259to make up. Making-up indeed would not do. _She_ certainly had not been3260in the wrong, and _he_ would never own that he had. Concession must be3261out of the question; but it was time to appear to forget that they had3262ever quarrelled; and she hoped it might rather assist the restoration of3263friendship, that when he came into the room she had one of the children3264with her--the youngest, a nice little girl about eight months old, who3265was now making her first visit to Hartfield, and very happy to be danced3266about in her aunt's arms. It did assist; for though he began with grave3267looks and short questions, he was soon led on to talk of them all in3268the usual way, and to take the child out of her arms with all the3269unceremoniousness of perfect amity. Emma felt they were friends again;3270and the conviction giving her at first great satisfaction, and then3271a little sauciness, she could not help saying, as he was admiring the3272baby,32733274“What a comfort it is, that we think alike about our nephews and nieces.3275As to men and women, our opinions are sometimes very different; but with3276regard to these children, I observe we never disagree.”32773278“If you were as much guided by nature in your estimate of men and women,3279and as little under the power of fancy and whim in your dealings with3280them, as you are where these children are concerned, we might always3281think alike.”32823283“To be sure--our discordancies must always arise from my being in the3284wrong.”32853286“Yes,” said he, smiling--“and reason good. I was sixteen years old when3287you were born.”32883289“A material difference then,” she replied--“and no doubt you were much3290my superior in judgment at that period of our lives; but does not the3291lapse of one-and-twenty years bring our understandings a good deal3292nearer?”32933294“Yes--a good deal _nearer_.”32953296“But still, not near enough to give me a chance of being right, if we3297think differently.”32983299“I have still the advantage of you by sixteen years' experience, and by3300not being a pretty young woman and a spoiled child. Come, my dear Emma,3301let us be friends, and say no more about it. Tell your aunt, little3302Emma, that she ought to set you a better example than to be renewing old3303grievances, and that if she were not wrong before, she is now.”33043305“That's true,” she cried--“very true. Little Emma, grow up a better3306woman than your aunt. Be infinitely cleverer and not half so conceited.3307Now, Mr. Knightley, a word or two more, and I have done. As far as good3308intentions went, we were _both_ right, and I must say that no effects on3309my side of the argument have yet proved wrong. I only want to know that3310Mr. Martin is not very, very bitterly disappointed.”33113312“A man cannot be more so,” was his short, full answer.33133314“Ah!--Indeed I am very sorry.--Come, shake hands with me.”33153316This had just taken place and with great cordiality, when John Knightley3317made his appearance, and “How d'ye do, George?” and “John, how are3318you?” succeeded in the true English style, burying under a calmness that3319seemed all but indifference, the real attachment which would have led3320either of them, if requisite, to do every thing for the good of the3321other.33223323The evening was quiet and conversable, as Mr. Woodhouse declined cards3324entirely for the sake of comfortable talk with his dear Isabella, and3325the little party made two natural divisions; on one side he and his3326daughter; on the other the two Mr. Knightleys; their subjects totally3327distinct, or very rarely mixing--and Emma only occasionally joining in3328one or the other.33293330The brothers talked of their own concerns and pursuits, but principally3331of those of the elder, whose temper was by much the most communicative,3332and who was always the greater talker. As a magistrate, he had generally3333some point of law to consult John about, or, at least, some curious3334anecdote to give; and as a farmer, as keeping in hand the home-farm at3335Donwell, he had to tell what every field was to bear next year, and to3336give all such local information as could not fail of being interesting3337to a brother whose home it had equally been the longest part of his3338life, and whose attachments were strong. The plan of a drain, the change3339of a fence, the felling of a tree, and the destination of every acre for3340wheat, turnips, or spring corn, was entered into with as much equality3341of interest by John, as his cooler manners rendered possible; and if his3342willing brother ever left him any thing to inquire about, his inquiries3343even approached a tone of eagerness.33443345While they were thus comfortably occupied, Mr. Woodhouse was enjoying a3346full flow of happy regrets and fearful affection with his daughter.33473348“My poor dear Isabella,” said he, fondly taking her hand, and3349interrupting, for a few moments, her busy labours for some one of her3350five children--“How long it is, how terribly long since you were here!3351And how tired you must be after your journey! You must go to bed early,3352my dear--and I recommend a little gruel to you before you go.--You and3353I will have a nice basin of gruel together. My dear Emma, suppose we all3354have a little gruel.”33553356Emma could not suppose any such thing, knowing as she did, that both the3357Mr. Knightleys were as unpersuadable on that article as herself;--and3358two basins only were ordered. After a little more discourse in praise of3359gruel, with some wondering at its not being taken every evening by every3360body, he proceeded to say, with an air of grave reflection,33613362“It was an awkward business, my dear, your spending the autumn at South3363End instead of coming here. I never had much opinion of the sea air.”33643365“Mr. Wingfield most strenuously recommended it, sir--or we should not3366have gone. He recommended it for all the children, but particularly for3367the weakness in little Bella's throat,--both sea air and bathing.”33683369“Ah! my dear, but Perry had many doubts about the sea doing her any3370good; and as to myself, I have been long perfectly convinced, though3371perhaps I never told you so before, that the sea is very rarely of use3372to any body. I am sure it almost killed me once.”33733374“Come, come,” cried Emma, feeling this to be an unsafe subject, “I must3375beg you not to talk of the sea. It makes me envious and miserable;--I3376who have never seen it! South End is prohibited, if you please. My dear3377Isabella, I have not heard you make one inquiry about Mr. Perry yet; and3378he never forgets you.”33793380“Oh! good Mr. Perry--how is he, sir?”33813382“Why, pretty well; but not quite well. Poor Perry is bilious, and he has3383not time to take care of himself--he tells me he has not time to take3384care of himself--which is very sad--but he is always wanted all round3385the country. I suppose there is not a man in such practice anywhere. But3386then there is not so clever a man any where.”33873388“And Mrs. Perry and the children, how are they? do the children grow?3389I have a great regard for Mr. Perry. I hope he will be calling soon. He3390will be so pleased to see my little ones.”33913392“I hope he will be here to-morrow, for I have a question or two to ask3393him about myself of some consequence. And, my dear, whenever he comes,3394you had better let him look at little Bella's throat.”33953396“Oh! my dear sir, her throat is so much better that I have hardly any3397uneasiness about it. Either bathing has been of the greatest service to3398her, or else it is to be attributed to an excellent embrocation of Mr.3399Wingfield's, which we have been applying at times ever since August.”34003401“It is not very likely, my dear, that bathing should have been of use3402to her--and if I had known you were wanting an embrocation, I would have3403spoken to--34043405“You seem to me to have forgotten Mrs. and Miss Bates,” said Emma, “I3406have not heard one inquiry after them.”34073408“Oh! the good Bateses--I am quite ashamed of myself--but you mention3409them in most of your letters. I hope they are quite well. Good old Mrs.3410Bates--I will call upon her to-morrow, and take my children.--They3411are always so pleased to see my children.--And that excellent Miss3412Bates!--such thorough worthy people!--How are they, sir?”34133414“Why, pretty well, my dear, upon the whole. But poor Mrs. Bates had a3415bad cold about a month ago.”34163417“How sorry I am! But colds were never so prevalent as they have been3418this autumn. Mr. Wingfield told me that he has never known them more3419general or heavy--except when it has been quite an influenza.”34203421“That has been a good deal the case, my dear; but not to the degree you3422mention. Perry says that colds have been very general, but not so heavy3423as he has very often known them in November. Perry does not call it3424altogether a sickly season.”34253426“No, I do not know that Mr. Wingfield considers it _very_ sickly3427except--34283429“Ah! my poor dear child, the truth is, that in London it is always3430a sickly season. Nobody is healthy in London, nobody can be. It is a3431dreadful thing to have you forced to live there! so far off!--and the3432air so bad!”34333434“No, indeed--_we_ are not at all in a bad air. Our part of London is3435very superior to most others!--You must not confound us with London3436in general, my dear sir. The neighbourhood of Brunswick Square is very3437different from almost all the rest. We are so very airy! I should be3438unwilling, I own, to live in any other part of the town;--there is3439hardly any other that I could be satisfied to have my children in:3440but _we_ are so remarkably airy!--Mr. Wingfield thinks the vicinity of3441Brunswick Square decidedly the most favourable as to air.”34423443“Ah! my dear, it is not like Hartfield. You make the best of it--but3444after you have been a week at Hartfield, you are all of you different3445creatures; you do not look like the same. Now I cannot say, that I think3446you are any of you looking well at present.”34473448“I am sorry to hear you say so, sir; but I assure you, excepting those3449little nervous head-aches and palpitations which I am never entirely3450free from anywhere, I am quite well myself; and if the children were3451rather pale before they went to bed, it was only because they were a3452little more tired than usual, from their journey and the happiness of3453coming. I hope you will think better of their looks to-morrow; for I3454assure you Mr. Wingfield told me, that he did not believe he had ever3455sent us off altogether, in such good case. I trust, at least, that3456you do not think Mr. Knightley looking ill,” turning her eyes with3457affectionate anxiety towards her husband.34583459“Middling, my dear; I cannot compliment you. I think Mr. John Knightley3460very far from looking well.”34613462“What is the matter, sir?--Did you speak to me?” cried Mr. John3463Knightley, hearing his own name.34643465“I am sorry to find, my love, that my father does not think you looking3466well--but I hope it is only from being a little fatigued. I could have3467wished, however, as you know, that you had seen Mr. Wingfield before you3468left home.”34693470“My dear Isabella,”--exclaimed he hastily--“pray do not concern yourself3471about my looks. Be satisfied with doctoring and coddling yourself and3472the children, and let me look as I chuse.”34733474“I did not thoroughly understand what you were telling your brother,”3475cried Emma, “about your friend Mr. Graham's intending to have a bailiff3476from Scotland, to look after his new estate. What will it answer? Will3477not the old prejudice be too strong?”34783479And she talked in this way so long and successfully that, when forced to3480give her attention again to her father and sister, she had nothing3481worse to hear than Isabella's kind inquiry after Jane Fairfax; and Jane3482Fairfax, though no great favourite with her in general, she was at that3483moment very happy to assist in praising.34843485“That sweet, amiable Jane Fairfax!” said Mrs. John Knightley.--“It3486is so long since I have seen her, except now and then for a moment3487accidentally in town! What happiness it must be to her good old3488grandmother and excellent aunt, when she comes to visit them! I always3489regret excessively on dear Emma's account that she cannot be more at3490Highbury; but now their daughter is married, I suppose Colonel and Mrs.3491Campbell will not be able to part with her at all. She would be such a3492delightful companion for Emma.”34933494Mr. Woodhouse agreed to it all, but added,34953496“Our little friend Harriet Smith, however, is just such another pretty3497kind of young person. You will like Harriet. Emma could not have a3498better companion than Harriet.”34993500“I am most happy to hear it--but only Jane Fairfax one knows to be so3501very accomplished and superior!--and exactly Emma's age.”35023503This topic was discussed very happily, and others succeeded of similar3504moment, and passed away with similar harmony; but the evening did not3505close without a little return of agitation. The gruel came and supplied3506a great deal to be said--much praise and many comments--undoubting3507decision of its wholesomeness for every constitution, and pretty3508severe Philippics upon the many houses where it was never met with3509tolerably;--but, unfortunately, among the failures which the daughter3510had to instance, the most recent, and therefore most prominent, was in3511her own cook at South End, a young woman hired for the time, who never3512had been able to understand what she meant by a basin of nice smooth3513gruel, thin, but not too thin. Often as she had wished for and ordered3514it, she had never been able to get any thing tolerable. Here was a3515dangerous opening.35163517“Ah!” said Mr. Woodhouse, shaking his head and fixing his eyes on her3518with tender concern.--The ejaculation in Emma's ear expressed, “Ah!3519there is no end of the sad consequences of your going to South End. It3520does not bear talking of.” And for a little while she hoped he would not3521talk of it, and that a silent rumination might suffice to restore him to3522the relish of his own smooth gruel. After an interval of some minutes,3523however, he began with,35243525“I shall always be very sorry that you went to the sea this autumn,3526instead of coming here.”35273528“But why should you be sorry, sir?--I assure you, it did the children a3529great deal of good.”35303531“And, moreover, if you must go to the sea, it had better not have been3532to South End. South End is an unhealthy place. Perry was surprized to3533hear you had fixed upon South End.”35343535“I know there is such an idea with many people, but indeed it is quite3536a mistake, sir.--We all had our health perfectly well there, never3537found the least inconvenience from the mud; and Mr. Wingfield says it is3538entirely a mistake to suppose the place unhealthy; and I am sure he may3539be depended on, for he thoroughly understands the nature of the air, and3540his own brother and family have been there repeatedly.”35413542“You should have gone to Cromer, my dear, if you went anywhere.--Perry3543was a week at Cromer once, and he holds it to be the best of all the3544sea-bathing places. A fine open sea, he says, and very pure air. And, by3545what I understand, you might have had lodgings there quite away from3546the sea--a quarter of a mile off--very comfortable. You should have3547consulted Perry.”35483549“But, my dear sir, the difference of the journey;--only consider how3550great it would have been.--An hundred miles, perhaps, instead of forty.”35513552“Ah! my dear, as Perry says, where health is at stake, nothing else3553should be considered; and if one is to travel, there is not much to3554chuse between forty miles and an hundred.--Better not move at all,3555better stay in London altogether than travel forty miles to get into3556a worse air. This is just what Perry said. It seemed to him a very3557ill-judged measure.”35583559Emma's attempts to stop her father had been vain; and when he3560had reached such a point as this, she could not wonder at her3561brother-in-law's breaking out.35623563“Mr. Perry,” said he, in a voice of very strong displeasure, “would do3564as well to keep his opinion till it is asked for. Why does he make it3565any business of his, to wonder at what I do?--at my taking my family to3566one part of the coast or another?--I may be allowed, I hope, the use of3567my judgment as well as Mr. Perry.--I want his directions no more than3568his drugs.” He paused--and growing cooler in a moment, added, with only3569sarcastic dryness, “If Mr. Perry can tell me how to convey a wife and3570five children a distance of an hundred and thirty miles with no greater3571expense or inconvenience than a distance of forty, I should be as3572willing to prefer Cromer to South End as he could himself.”35733574“True, true,” cried Mr. Knightley, with most ready interposition--“very3575true. That's a consideration indeed.--But John, as to what I was telling3576you of my idea of moving the path to Langham, of turning it more to the3577right that it may not cut through the home meadows, I cannot conceive3578any difficulty. I should not attempt it, if it were to be the means of3579inconvenience to the Highbury people, but if you call to mind exactly3580the present line of the path.... The only way of proving it, however,3581will be to turn to our maps. I shall see you at the Abbey to-morrow3582morning I hope, and then we will look them over, and you shall give me3583your opinion.”35843585Mr. Woodhouse was rather agitated by such harsh reflections on his3586friend Perry, to whom he had, in fact, though unconsciously, been3587attributing many of his own feelings and expressions;--but the soothing3588attentions of his daughters gradually removed the present evil, and3589the immediate alertness of one brother, and better recollections of the3590other, prevented any renewal of it.3591359235933594CHAPTER XIII359535963597There could hardly be a happier creature in the world than Mrs. John3598Knightley, in this short visit to Hartfield, going about every morning3599among her old acquaintance with her five children, and talking over what3600she had done every evening with her father and sister. She had nothing3601to wish otherwise, but that the days did not pass so swiftly. It was a3602delightful visit;--perfect, in being much too short.36033604In general their evenings were less engaged with friends than their3605mornings; but one complete dinner engagement, and out of the house too,3606there was no avoiding, though at Christmas. Mr. Weston would take no3607denial; they must all dine at Randalls one day;--even Mr. Woodhouse was3608persuaded to think it a possible thing in preference to a division of3609the party.36103611How they were all to be conveyed, he would have made a difficulty if he3612could, but as his son and daughter's carriage and horses were actually3613at Hartfield, he was not able to make more than a simple question on3614that head; it hardly amounted to a doubt; nor did it occupy Emma long3615to convince him that they might in one of the carriages find room for3616Harriet also.36173618Harriet, Mr. Elton, and Mr. Knightley, their own especial set, were the3619only persons invited to meet them;--the hours were to be early, as3620well as the numbers few; Mr. Woodhouse's habits and inclination being3621consulted in every thing.36223623The evening before this great event (for it was a very great event that3624Mr. Woodhouse should dine out, on the 24th of December) had been spent3625by Harriet at Hartfield, and she had gone home so much indisposed with3626a cold, that, but for her own earnest wish of being nursed by Mrs.3627Goddard, Emma could not have allowed her to leave the house. Emma called3628on her the next day, and found her doom already signed with regard to3629Randalls. She was very feverish and had a bad sore throat: Mrs. Goddard3630was full of care and affection, Mr. Perry was talked of, and Harriet3631herself was too ill and low to resist the authority which excluded her3632from this delightful engagement, though she could not speak of her loss3633without many tears.36343635Emma sat with her as long as she could, to attend her in Mrs. Goddard's3636unavoidable absences, and raise her spirits by representing how much Mr.3637Elton's would be depressed when he knew her state; and left her at last3638tolerably comfortable, in the sweet dependence of his having a most3639comfortless visit, and of their all missing her very much. She had not3640advanced many yards from Mrs. Goddard's door, when she was met by Mr.3641Elton himself, evidently coming towards it, and as they walked on slowly3642together in conversation about the invalid--of whom he, on the rumour3643of considerable illness, had been going to inquire, that he might3644carry some report of her to Hartfield--they were overtaken by Mr. John3645Knightley returning from the daily visit to Donwell, with his two eldest3646boys, whose healthy, glowing faces shewed all the benefit of a country3647run, and seemed to ensure a quick despatch of the roast mutton and rice3648pudding they were hastening home for. They joined company and3649proceeded together. Emma was just describing the nature of her friend's3650complaint;--“a throat very much inflamed, with a great deal of heat3651about her, a quick, low pulse, &c. and she was sorry to find from Mrs.3652Goddard that Harriet was liable to very bad sore-throats, and had often3653alarmed her with them.” Mr. Elton looked all alarm on the occasion, as3654he exclaimed,36553656“A sore-throat!--I hope not infectious. I hope not of a putrid3657infectious sort. Has Perry seen her? Indeed you should take care of3658yourself as well as of your friend. Let me entreat you to run no risks.3659Why does not Perry see her?”36603661Emma, who was not really at all frightened herself, tranquillised this3662excess of apprehension by assurances of Mrs. Goddard's experience and3663care; but as there must still remain a degree of uneasiness which she3664could not wish to reason away, which she would rather feed and assist3665than not, she added soon afterwards--as if quite another subject,36663667“It is so cold, so very cold--and looks and feels so very much like3668snow, that if it were to any other place or with any other party, I3669should really try not to go out to-day--and dissuade my father from3670venturing; but as he has made up his mind, and does not seem to feel the3671cold himself, I do not like to interfere, as I know it would be so great3672a disappointment to Mr. and Mrs. Weston. But, upon my word, Mr. Elton,3673in your case, I should certainly excuse myself. You appear to me a3674little hoarse already, and when you consider what demand of voice and3675what fatigues to-morrow will bring, I think it would be no more than3676common prudence to stay at home and take care of yourself to-night.”36773678Mr. Elton looked as if he did not very well know what answer to make;3679which was exactly the case; for though very much gratified by the kind3680care of such a fair lady, and not liking to resist any advice of her's,3681he had not really the least inclination to give up the visit;--but Emma,3682too eager and busy in her own previous conceptions and views to hear him3683impartially, or see him with clear vision, was very well satisfied with3684his muttering acknowledgment of its being “very cold, certainly very3685cold,” and walked on, rejoicing in having extricated him from Randalls,3686and secured him the power of sending to inquire after Harriet every hour3687of the evening.36883689“You do quite right,” said she;--“we will make your apologies to Mr. and3690Mrs. Weston.”36913692But hardly had she so spoken, when she found her brother was civilly3693offering a seat in his carriage, if the weather were Mr. Elton's only3694objection, and Mr. Elton actually accepting the offer with much prompt3695satisfaction. It was a done thing; Mr. Elton was to go, and never had3696his broad handsome face expressed more pleasure than at this moment;3697never had his smile been stronger, nor his eyes more exulting than when3698he next looked at her.36993700“Well,” said she to herself, “this is most strange!--After I had got3701him off so well, to chuse to go into company, and leave Harriet ill3702behind!--Most strange indeed!--But there is, I believe, in many men,3703especially single men, such an inclination--such a passion for dining3704out--a dinner engagement is so high in the class of their pleasures,3705their employments, their dignities, almost their duties, that any3706thing gives way to it--and this must be the case with Mr. Elton; a most3707valuable, amiable, pleasing young man undoubtedly, and very much in love3708with Harriet; but still, he cannot refuse an invitation, he must dine3709out wherever he is asked. What a strange thing love is! he can see ready3710wit in Harriet, but will not dine alone for her.”37113712Soon afterwards Mr. Elton quitted them, and she could not but do him3713the justice of feeling that there was a great deal of sentiment in his3714manner of naming Harriet at parting; in the tone of his voice while3715assuring her that he should call at Mrs. Goddard's for news of her fair3716friend, the last thing before he prepared for the happiness of meeting3717her again, when he hoped to be able to give a better report; and3718he sighed and smiled himself off in a way that left the balance of3719approbation much in his favour.37203721After a few minutes of entire silence between them, John Knightley began3722with--37233724“I never in my life saw a man more intent on being agreeable than Mr.3725Elton. It is downright labour to him where ladies are concerned. With3726men he can be rational and unaffected, but when he has ladies to please,3727every feature works.”37283729“Mr. Elton's manners are not perfect,” replied Emma; “but where there is3730a wish to please, one ought to overlook, and one does overlook a great3731deal. Where a man does his best with only moderate powers, he will3732have the advantage over negligent superiority. There is such perfect3733good-temper and good-will in Mr. Elton as one cannot but value.”37343735“Yes,” said Mr. John Knightley presently, with some slyness, “he seems3736to have a great deal of good-will towards you.”37373738“Me!” she replied with a smile of astonishment, “are you imagining me to3739be Mr. Elton's object?”37403741“Such an imagination has crossed me, I own, Emma; and if it never3742occurred to you before, you may as well take it into consideration now.”37433744“Mr. Elton in love with me!--What an idea!”37453746“I do not say it is so; but you will do well to consider whether it3747is so or not, and to regulate your behaviour accordingly. I think your3748manners to him encouraging. I speak as a friend, Emma. You had better3749look about you, and ascertain what you do, and what you mean to do.”37503751“I thank you; but I assure you you are quite mistaken. Mr. Elton and3752I are very good friends, and nothing more;” and she walked on, amusing3753herself in the consideration of the blunders which often arise from a3754partial knowledge of circumstances, of the mistakes which people of high3755pretensions to judgment are for ever falling into; and not very well3756pleased with her brother for imagining her blind and ignorant, and in3757want of counsel. He said no more.37583759Mr. Woodhouse had so completely made up his mind to the visit, that in3760spite of the increasing coldness, he seemed to have no idea of shrinking3761from it, and set forward at last most punctually with his eldest3762daughter in his own carriage, with less apparent consciousness of the3763weather than either of the others; too full of the wonder of his own3764going, and the pleasure it was to afford at Randalls to see that it was3765cold, and too well wrapt up to feel it. The cold, however, was severe;3766and by the time the second carriage was in motion, a few flakes of snow3767were finding their way down, and the sky had the appearance of being so3768overcharged as to want only a milder air to produce a very white world3769in a very short time.37703771Emma soon saw that her companion was not in the happiest humour. The3772preparing and the going abroad in such weather, with the sacrifice of3773his children after dinner, were evils, were disagreeables at least,3774which Mr. John Knightley did not by any means like; he anticipated3775nothing in the visit that could be at all worth the purchase; and the3776whole of their drive to the vicarage was spent by him in expressing his3777discontent.37783779“A man,” said he, “must have a very good opinion of himself when he asks3780people to leave their own fireside, and encounter such a day as3781this, for the sake of coming to see him. He must think himself a most3782agreeable fellow; I could not do such a thing. It is the greatest3783absurdity--Actually snowing at this moment!--The folly of not allowing3784people to be comfortable at home--and the folly of people's not staying3785comfortably at home when they can! If we were obliged to go out such3786an evening as this, by any call of duty or business, what a hardship we3787should deem it;--and here are we, probably with rather thinner clothing3788than usual, setting forward voluntarily, without excuse, in defiance of3789the voice of nature, which tells man, in every thing given to his view3790or his feelings, to stay at home himself, and keep all under shelter3791that he can;--here are we setting forward to spend five dull hours in3792another man's house, with nothing to say or to hear that was not said3793and heard yesterday, and may not be said and heard again to-morrow.3794Going in dismal weather, to return probably in worse;--four horses and3795four servants taken out for nothing but to convey five idle, shivering3796creatures into colder rooms and worse company than they might have had3797at home.”37983799Emma did not find herself equal to give the pleased assent, which no3800doubt he was in the habit of receiving, to emulate the “Very true,3801my love,” which must have been usually administered by his travelling3802companion; but she had resolution enough to refrain from making3803any answer at all. She could not be complying, she dreaded being3804quarrelsome; her heroism reached only to silence. She allowed him to3805talk, and arranged the glasses, and wrapped herself up, without opening3806her lips.38073808They arrived, the carriage turned, the step was let down, and Mr. Elton,3809spruce, black, and smiling, was with them instantly. Emma thought with3810pleasure of some change of subject. Mr. Elton was all obligation and3811cheerfulness; he was so very cheerful in his civilities indeed, that she3812began to think he must have received a different account of Harriet from3813what had reached her. She had sent while dressing, and the answer had3814been, “Much the same--not better.”38153816“_My_ report from Mrs. Goddard's,” said she presently, “was not so3817pleasant as I had hoped--'Not better' was _my_ answer.”38183819His face lengthened immediately; and his voice was the voice of3820sentiment as he answered.38213822“Oh! no--I am grieved to find--I was on the point of telling you that3823when I called at Mrs. Goddard's door, which I did the very last thing3824before I returned to dress, I was told that Miss Smith was not better,3825by no means better, rather worse. Very much grieved and concerned--I3826had flattered myself that she must be better after such a cordial as I3827knew had been given her in the morning.”38283829Emma smiled and answered--“My visit was of use to the nervous part of3830her complaint, I hope; but not even I can charm away a sore throat;3831it is a most severe cold indeed. Mr. Perry has been with her, as you3832probably heard.”38333834“Yes--I imagined--that is--I did not--”38353836“He has been used to her in these complaints, and I hope to-morrow3837morning will bring us both a more comfortable report. But it is3838impossible not to feel uneasiness. Such a sad loss to our party to-day!”38393840“Dreadful!--Exactly so, indeed.--She will be missed every moment.”38413842This was very proper; the sigh which accompanied it was really3843estimable; but it should have lasted longer. Emma was rather in dismay3844when only half a minute afterwards he began to speak of other things,3845and in a voice of the greatest alacrity and enjoyment.38463847“What an excellent device,” said he, “the use of a sheepskin for3848carriages. How very comfortable they make it;--impossible to feel cold3849with such precautions. The contrivances of modern days indeed have3850rendered a gentleman's carriage perfectly complete. One is so fenced3851and guarded from the weather, that not a breath of air can find its way3852unpermitted. Weather becomes absolutely of no consequence. It is a very3853cold afternoon--but in this carriage we know nothing of the matter.--Ha!3854snows a little I see.”38553856“Yes,” said John Knightley, “and I think we shall have a good deal of3857it.”38583859“Christmas weather,” observed Mr. Elton. “Quite seasonable; and3860extremely fortunate we may think ourselves that it did not begin3861yesterday, and prevent this day's party, which it might very possibly3862have done, for Mr. Woodhouse would hardly have ventured had there been3863much snow on the ground; but now it is of no consequence. This is quite3864the season indeed for friendly meetings. At Christmas every body invites3865their friends about them, and people think little of even the worst3866weather. I was snowed up at a friend's house once for a week. Nothing3867could be pleasanter. I went for only one night, and could not get away3868till that very day se'nnight.”38693870Mr. John Knightley looked as if he did not comprehend the pleasure, but3871said only, coolly,38723873“I cannot wish to be snowed up a week at Randalls.”38743875At another time Emma might have been amused, but she was too much3876astonished now at Mr. Elton's spirits for other feelings. Harriet seemed3877quite forgotten in the expectation of a pleasant party.38783879“We are sure of excellent fires,” continued he, “and every thing in the3880greatest comfort. Charming people, Mr. and Mrs. Weston;--Mrs. Weston3881indeed is much beyond praise, and he is exactly what one values, so3882hospitable, and so fond of society;--it will be a small party, but where3883small parties are select, they are perhaps the most agreeable of any.3884Mr. Weston's dining-room does not accommodate more than ten comfortably;3885and for my part, I would rather, under such circumstances, fall short by3886two than exceed by two. I think you will agree with me, (turning with3887a soft air to Emma,) I think I shall certainly have your approbation,3888though Mr. Knightley perhaps, from being used to the large parties of3889London, may not quite enter into our feelings.”38903891“I know nothing of the large parties of London, sir--I never dine with3892any body.”38933894“Indeed! (in a tone of wonder and pity,) I had no idea that the law had3895been so great a slavery. Well, sir, the time must come when you will3896be paid for all this, when you will have little labour and great3897enjoyment.”38983899“My first enjoyment,” replied John Knightley, as they passed through the3900sweep-gate, “will be to find myself safe at Hartfield again.”3901390239033904CHAPTER XIV390539063907Some change of countenance was necessary for each gentleman as they3908walked into Mrs. Weston's drawing-room;--Mr. Elton must compose his3909joyous looks, and Mr. John Knightley disperse his ill-humour. Mr.3910Elton must smile less, and Mr. John Knightley more, to fit them for the3911place.--Emma only might be as nature prompted, and shew herself just as3912happy as she was. To her it was real enjoyment to be with the Westons.3913Mr. Weston was a great favourite, and there was not a creature in the3914world to whom she spoke with such unreserve, as to his wife; not any3915one, to whom she related with such conviction of being listened to and3916understood, of being always interesting and always intelligible, the3917little affairs, arrangements, perplexities, and pleasures of her father3918and herself. She could tell nothing of Hartfield, in which Mrs. Weston3919had not a lively concern; and half an hour's uninterrupted communication3920of all those little matters on which the daily happiness of private life3921depends, was one of the first gratifications of each.39223923This was a pleasure which perhaps the whole day's visit might not3924afford, which certainly did not belong to the present half-hour; but the3925very sight of Mrs. Weston, her smile, her touch, her voice was grateful3926to Emma, and she determined to think as little as possible of Mr.3927Elton's oddities, or of any thing else unpleasant, and enjoy all that3928was enjoyable to the utmost.39293930The misfortune of Harriet's cold had been pretty well gone through3931before her arrival. Mr. Woodhouse had been safely seated long enough3932to give the history of it, besides all the history of his own and3933Isabella's coming, and of Emma's being to follow, and had indeed just3934got to the end of his satisfaction that James should come and see his3935daughter, when the others appeared, and Mrs. Weston, who had been almost3936wholly engrossed by her attentions to him, was able to turn away and3937welcome her dear Emma.39383939Emma's project of forgetting Mr. Elton for a while made her rather sorry3940to find, when they had all taken their places, that he was close to her.3941The difficulty was great of driving his strange insensibility towards3942Harriet, from her mind, while he not only sat at her elbow, but3943was continually obtruding his happy countenance on her notice, and3944solicitously addressing her upon every occasion. Instead of forgetting3945him, his behaviour was such that she could not avoid the internal3946suggestion of “Can it really be as my brother imagined? can it be3947possible for this man to be beginning to transfer his affections from3948Harriet to me?--Absurd and insufferable!”--Yet he would be so anxious3949for her being perfectly warm, would be so interested about her father,3950and so delighted with Mrs. Weston; and at last would begin admiring her3951drawings with so much zeal and so little knowledge as seemed terribly3952like a would-be lover, and made it some effort with her to preserve her3953good manners. For her own sake she could not be rude; and for Harriet's,3954in the hope that all would yet turn out right, she was even positively3955civil; but it was an effort; especially as something was going on3956amongst the others, in the most overpowering period of Mr. Elton's3957nonsense, which she particularly wished to listen to. She heard enough3958to know that Mr. Weston was giving some information about his son; she3959heard the words “my son,” and “Frank,” and “my son,” repeated several3960times over; and, from a few other half-syllables very much suspected3961that he was announcing an early visit from his son; but before she could3962quiet Mr. Elton, the subject was so completely past that any reviving3963question from her would have been awkward.39643965Now, it so happened that in spite of Emma's resolution of never3966marrying, there was something in the name, in the idea of Mr.3967Frank Churchill, which always interested her. She had frequently3968thought--especially since his father's marriage with Miss Taylor--that3969if she _were_ to marry, he was the very person to suit her in age,3970character and condition. He seemed by this connexion between the3971families, quite to belong to her. She could not but suppose it to be3972a match that every body who knew them must think of. That Mr. and Mrs.3973Weston did think of it, she was very strongly persuaded; and though3974not meaning to be induced by him, or by any body else, to give up a3975situation which she believed more replete with good than any she could3976change it for, she had a great curiosity to see him, a decided intention3977of finding him pleasant, of being liked by him to a certain degree, and3978a sort of pleasure in the idea of their being coupled in their friends'3979imaginations.39803981With such sensations, Mr. Elton's civilities were dreadfully ill-timed;3982but she had the comfort of appearing very polite, while feeling very3983cross--and of thinking that the rest of the visit could not possibly3984pass without bringing forward the same information again, or the3985substance of it, from the open-hearted Mr. Weston.--So it proved;--for3986when happily released from Mr. Elton, and seated by Mr. Weston,3987at dinner, he made use of the very first interval in the cares of3988hospitality, the very first leisure from the saddle of mutton, to say to3989her,39903991“We want only two more to be just the right number. I should like to see3992two more here,--your pretty little friend, Miss Smith, and my son--and3993then I should say we were quite complete. I believe you did not hear me3994telling the others in the drawing-room that we are expecting Frank.3995I had a letter from him this morning, and he will be with us within a3996fortnight.”39973998Emma spoke with a very proper degree of pleasure; and fully assented to3999his proposition of Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Smith making their party4000quite complete.40014002“He has been wanting to come to us,” continued Mr. Weston, “ever since4003September: every letter has been full of it; but he cannot command his4004own time. He has those to please who must be pleased, and who (between4005ourselves) are sometimes to be pleased only by a good many sacrifices.4006But now I have no doubt of seeing him here about the second week in4007January.”40084009“What a very great pleasure it will be to you! and Mrs. Weston is so4010anxious to be acquainted with him, that she must be almost as happy as4011yourself.”40124013“Yes, she would be, but that she thinks there will be another put-off.4014She does not depend upon his coming so much as I do: but she does not4015know the parties so well as I do. The case, you see, is--(but this is4016quite between ourselves: I did not mention a syllable of it in the other4017room. There are secrets in all families, you know)--The case is, that a4018party of friends are invited to pay a visit at Enscombe in January; and4019that Frank's coming depends upon their being put off. If they are not4020put off, he cannot stir. But I know they will, because it is a family4021that a certain lady, of some consequence, at Enscombe, has a particular4022dislike to: and though it is thought necessary to invite them once in4023two or three years, they always are put off when it comes to the point.4024I have not the smallest doubt of the issue. I am as confident of seeing4025Frank here before the middle of January, as I am of being here myself:4026but your good friend there (nodding towards the upper end of the table)4027has so few vagaries herself, and has been so little used to them at4028Hartfield, that she cannot calculate on their effects, as I have been4029long in the practice of doing.”40304031“I am sorry there should be any thing like doubt in the case,” replied4032Emma; “but am disposed to side with you, Mr. Weston. If you think he4033will come, I shall think so too; for you know Enscombe.”40344035“Yes--I have some right to that knowledge; though I have never been at4036the place in my life.--She is an odd woman!--But I never allow myself4037to speak ill of her, on Frank's account; for I do believe her to be very4038fond of him. I used to think she was not capable of being fond of4039any body, except herself: but she has always been kind to him (in her4040way--allowing for little whims and caprices, and expecting every thing4041to be as she likes). And it is no small credit, in my opinion, to him,4042that he should excite such an affection; for, though I would not say4043it to any body else, she has no more heart than a stone to people in4044general; and the devil of a temper.”40454046Emma liked the subject so well, that she began upon it, to Mrs. Weston,4047very soon after their moving into the drawing-room: wishing her joy--yet4048observing, that she knew the first meeting must be rather alarming.--4049Mrs. Weston agreed to it; but added, that she should be very glad to be4050secure of undergoing the anxiety of a first meeting at the time talked4051of: “for I cannot depend upon his coming. I cannot be so sanguine as4052Mr. Weston. I am very much afraid that it will all end in nothing. Mr.4053Weston, I dare say, has been telling you exactly how the matter stands?”40544055“Yes--it seems to depend upon nothing but the ill-humour of Mrs.4056Churchill, which I imagine to be the most certain thing in the world.”40574058“My Emma!” replied Mrs. Weston, smiling, “what is the certainty4059of caprice?” Then turning to Isabella, who had not been attending4060before--“You must know, my dear Mrs. Knightley, that we are by no means4061so sure of seeing Mr. Frank Churchill, in my opinion, as his father4062thinks. It depends entirely upon his aunt's spirits and pleasure; in4063short, upon her temper. To you--to my two daughters--I may venture on4064the truth. Mrs. Churchill rules at Enscombe, and is a very odd-tempered4065woman; and his coming now, depends upon her being willing to spare him.”40664067“Oh, Mrs. Churchill; every body knows Mrs. Churchill,” replied Isabella:4068“and I am sure I never think of that poor young man without the greatest4069compassion. To be constantly living with an ill-tempered person, must4070be dreadful. It is what we happily have never known any thing of; but4071it must be a life of misery. What a blessing, that she never had any4072children! Poor little creatures, how unhappy she would have made them!”40734074Emma wished she had been alone with Mrs. Weston. She should then have4075heard more: Mrs. Weston would speak to her, with a degree of unreserve4076which she would not hazard with Isabella; and, she really believed,4077would scarcely try to conceal any thing relative to the Churchills4078from her, excepting those views on the young man, of which her own4079imagination had already given her such instinctive knowledge. But at4080present there was nothing more to be said. Mr. Woodhouse very soon4081followed them into the drawing-room. To be sitting long after4082dinner, was a confinement that he could not endure. Neither wine nor4083conversation was any thing to him; and gladly did he move to those with4084whom he was always comfortable.40854086While he talked to Isabella, however, Emma found an opportunity of4087saying,40884089“And so you do not consider this visit from your son as by any means4090certain. I am sorry for it. The introduction must be unpleasant,4091whenever it takes place; and the sooner it could be over, the better.”40924093“Yes; and every delay makes one more apprehensive of other delays. Even4094if this family, the Braithwaites, are put off, I am still afraid that4095some excuse may be found for disappointing us. I cannot bear to imagine4096any reluctance on his side; but I am sure there is a great wish on4097the Churchills' to keep him to themselves. There is jealousy. They4098are jealous even of his regard for his father. In short, I can feel no4099dependence on his coming, and I wish Mr. Weston were less sanguine.”41004101“He ought to come,” said Emma. “If he could stay only a couple of days,4102he ought to come; and one can hardly conceive a young man's not having4103it in his power to do as much as that. A young _woman_, if she fall into4104bad hands, may be teased, and kept at a distance from those she wants4105to be with; but one cannot comprehend a young _man_'s being under such4106restraint, as not to be able to spend a week with his father, if he4107likes it.”41084109“One ought to be at Enscombe, and know the ways of the family, before4110one decides upon what he can do,” replied Mrs. Weston. “One ought to4111use the same caution, perhaps, in judging of the conduct of any one4112individual of any one family; but Enscombe, I believe, certainly must4113not be judged by general rules: _she_ is so very unreasonable; and every4114thing gives way to her.”41154116“But she is so fond of the nephew: he is so very great a favourite. Now,4117according to my idea of Mrs. Churchill, it would be most natural, that4118while she makes no sacrifice for the comfort of the husband, to whom she4119owes every thing, while she exercises incessant caprice towards _him_,4120she should frequently be governed by the nephew, to whom she owes4121nothing at all.”41224123“My dearest Emma, do not pretend, with your sweet temper, to understand4124a bad one, or to lay down rules for it: you must let it go its own way.4125I have no doubt of his having, at times, considerable influence; but it4126may be perfectly impossible for him to know beforehand _when_ it will4127be.”41284129Emma listened, and then coolly said, “I shall not be satisfied, unless4130he comes.”41314132“He may have a great deal of influence on some points,” continued Mrs.4133Weston, “and on others, very little: and among those, on which she is4134beyond his reach, it is but too likely, may be this very circumstance of4135his coming away from them to visit us.”4136413741384139CHAPTER XV414041414142Mr. Woodhouse was soon ready for his tea; and when he had drank his4143tea he was quite ready to go home; and it was as much as his three4144companions could do, to entertain away his notice of the lateness of4145the hour, before the other gentlemen appeared. Mr. Weston was chatty and4146convivial, and no friend to early separations of any sort; but at last4147the drawing-room party did receive an augmentation. Mr. Elton, in very4148good spirits, was one of the first to walk in. Mrs. Weston and Emma4149were sitting together on a sofa. He joined them immediately, and, with4150scarcely an invitation, seated himself between them.41514152Emma, in good spirits too, from the amusement afforded her mind by4153the expectation of Mr. Frank Churchill, was willing to forget his late4154improprieties, and be as well satisfied with him as before, and on his4155making Harriet his very first subject, was ready to listen with most4156friendly smiles.41574158He professed himself extremely anxious about her fair friend--her fair,4159lovely, amiable friend. “Did she know?--had she heard any thing about4160her, since their being at Randalls?--he felt much anxiety--he must4161confess that the nature of her complaint alarmed him considerably.”4162And in this style he talked on for some time very properly, not much4163attending to any answer, but altogether sufficiently awake to the terror4164of a bad sore throat; and Emma was quite in charity with him.41654166But at last there seemed a perverse turn; it seemed all at once as if he4167were more afraid of its being a bad sore throat on her account, than on4168Harriet's--more anxious that she should escape the infection, than4169that there should be no infection in the complaint. He began with great4170earnestness to entreat her to refrain from visiting the sick-chamber4171again, for the present--to entreat her to _promise_ _him_ not to venture4172into such hazard till he had seen Mr. Perry and learnt his opinion; and4173though she tried to laugh it off and bring the subject back into its4174proper course, there was no putting an end to his extreme solicitude4175about her. She was vexed. It did appear--there was no concealing4176it--exactly like the pretence of being in love with her, instead of4177Harriet; an inconstancy, if real, the most contemptible and abominable!4178and she had difficulty in behaving with temper. He turned to Mrs. Weston4179to implore her assistance, “Would not she give him her support?--would4180not she add her persuasions to his, to induce Miss Woodhouse not to go4181to Mrs. Goddard's till it were certain that Miss Smith's disorder had4182no infection? He could not be satisfied without a promise--would not she4183give him her influence in procuring it?”41844185“So scrupulous for others,” he continued, “and yet so careless for4186herself! She wanted me to nurse my cold by staying at home to-day, and4187yet will not promise to avoid the danger of catching an ulcerated sore4188throat herself. Is this fair, Mrs. Weston?--Judge between us. Have not I4189some right to complain? I am sure of your kind support and aid.”41904191Emma saw Mrs. Weston's surprize, and felt that it must be great, at an4192address which, in words and manner, was assuming to himself the right of4193first interest in her; and as for herself, she was too much provoked and4194offended to have the power of directly saying any thing to the purpose.4195She could only give him a look; but it was such a look as she thought4196must restore him to his senses, and then left the sofa, removing to a4197seat by her sister, and giving her all her attention.41984199She had not time to know how Mr. Elton took the reproof, so rapidly did4200another subject succeed; for Mr. John Knightley now came into the room4201from examining the weather, and opened on them all with the information4202of the ground being covered with snow, and of its still snowing4203fast, with a strong drifting wind; concluding with these words to Mr.4204Woodhouse:42054206“This will prove a spirited beginning of your winter engagements,4207sir. Something new for your coachman and horses to be making their way4208through a storm of snow.”42094210Poor Mr. Woodhouse was silent from consternation; but every body else4211had something to say; every body was either surprized or not surprized,4212and had some question to ask, or some comfort to offer. Mrs. Weston4213and Emma tried earnestly to cheer him and turn his attention from his4214son-in-law, who was pursuing his triumph rather unfeelingly.42154216“I admired your resolution very much, sir,” said he, “in venturing out4217in such weather, for of course you saw there would be snow very soon.4218Every body must have seen the snow coming on. I admired your spirit; and4219I dare say we shall get home very well. Another hour or two's snow can4220hardly make the road impassable; and we are two carriages; if one is4221blown over in the bleak part of the common field there will be the other4222at hand. I dare say we shall be all safe at Hartfield before midnight.”42234224Mr. Weston, with triumph of a different sort, was confessing that he4225had known it to be snowing some time, but had not said a word, lest4226it should make Mr. Woodhouse uncomfortable, and be an excuse for his4227hurrying away. As to there being any quantity of snow fallen or likely4228to fall to impede their return, that was a mere joke; he was afraid they4229would find no difficulty. He wished the road might be impassable, that4230he might be able to keep them all at Randalls; and with the utmost4231good-will was sure that accommodation might be found for every body,4232calling on his wife to agree with him, that with a little contrivance,4233every body might be lodged, which she hardly knew how to do, from the4234consciousness of there being but two spare rooms in the house.42354236“What is to be done, my dear Emma?--what is to be done?” was Mr.4237Woodhouse's first exclamation, and all that he could say for some4238time. To her he looked for comfort; and her assurances of safety, her4239representation of the excellence of the horses, and of James, and of4240their having so many friends about them, revived him a little.42414242His eldest daughter's alarm was equal to his own. The horror of being4243blocked up at Randalls, while her children were at Hartfield, was full4244in her imagination; and fancying the road to be now just passable for4245adventurous people, but in a state that admitted no delay, she was eager4246to have it settled, that her father and Emma should remain at Randalls,4247while she and her husband set forward instantly through all the possible4248accumulations of drifted snow that might impede them.42494250“You had better order the carriage directly, my love,” said she; “I dare4251say we shall be able to get along, if we set off directly; and if we4252do come to any thing very bad, I can get out and walk. I am not at all4253afraid. I should not mind walking half the way. I could change my shoes,4254you know, the moment I got home; and it is not the sort of thing that4255gives me cold.”42564257“Indeed!” replied he. “Then, my dear Isabella, it is the most4258extraordinary sort of thing in the world, for in general every thing4259does give you cold. Walk home!--you are prettily shod for walking home,4260I dare say. It will be bad enough for the horses.”42614262Isabella turned to Mrs. Weston for her approbation of the plan. Mrs.4263Weston could only approve. Isabella then went to Emma; but Emma could4264not so entirely give up the hope of their being all able to get away;4265and they were still discussing the point, when Mr. Knightley, who had4266left the room immediately after his brother's first report of the snow,4267came back again, and told them that he had been out of doors to examine,4268and could answer for there not being the smallest difficulty in their4269getting home, whenever they liked it, either now or an hour hence. He4270had gone beyond the sweep--some way along the Highbury road--the snow4271was nowhere above half an inch deep--in many places hardly enough to4272whiten the ground; a very few flakes were falling at present, but the4273clouds were parting, and there was every appearance of its being soon4274over. He had seen the coachmen, and they both agreed with him in there4275being nothing to apprehend.42764277To Isabella, the relief of such tidings was very great, and they were4278scarcely less acceptable to Emma on her father's account, who4279was immediately set as much at ease on the subject as his nervous4280constitution allowed; but the alarm that had been raised could not be4281appeased so as to admit of any comfort for him while he continued at4282Randalls. He was satisfied of there being no present danger in returning4283home, but no assurances could convince him that it was safe to stay; and4284while the others were variously urging and recommending, Mr. Knightley4285and Emma settled it in a few brief sentences: thus--42864287“Your father will not be easy; why do not you go?”42884289“I am ready, if the others are.”42904291“Shall I ring the bell?”42924293“Yes, do.”42944295And the bell was rung, and the carriages spoken for. A few minutes more,4296and Emma hoped to see one troublesome companion deposited in his own4297house, to get sober and cool, and the other recover his temper and4298happiness when this visit of hardship were over.42994300The carriage came: and Mr. Woodhouse, always the first object on such4301occasions, was carefully attended to his own by Mr. Knightley and Mr.4302Weston; but not all that either could say could prevent some renewal4303of alarm at the sight of the snow which had actually fallen, and the4304discovery of a much darker night than he had been prepared for. “He was4305afraid they should have a very bad drive. He was afraid poor Isabella4306would not like it. And there would be poor Emma in the carriage behind.4307He did not know what they had best do. They must keep as much together4308as they could;” and James was talked to, and given a charge to go very4309slow and wait for the other carriage.43104311Isabella stept in after her father; John Knightley, forgetting that he4312did not belong to their party, stept in after his wife very naturally;4313so that Emma found, on being escorted and followed into the second4314carriage by Mr. Elton, that the door was to be lawfully shut on them,4315and that they were to have a tete-a-tete drive. It would not have been4316the awkwardness of a moment, it would have been rather a pleasure,4317previous to the suspicions of this very day; she could have talked to4318him of Harriet, and the three-quarters of a mile would have seemed but4319one. But now, she would rather it had not happened. She believed he had4320been drinking too much of Mr. Weston's good wine, and felt sure that he4321would want to be talking nonsense.43224323To restrain him as much as might be, by her own manners, she was4324immediately preparing to speak with exquisite calmness and gravity of4325the weather and the night; but scarcely had she begun, scarcely had they4326passed the sweep-gate and joined the other carriage, than she found her4327subject cut up--her hand seized--her attention demanded, and Mr. Elton4328actually making violent love to her: availing himself of the precious4329opportunity, declaring sentiments which must be already well known,4330hoping--fearing--adoring--ready to die if she refused him; but4331flattering himself that his ardent attachment and unequalled love and4332unexampled passion could not fail of having some effect, and in short,4333very much resolved on being seriously accepted as soon as possible. It4334really was so. Without scruple--without apology--without much apparent4335diffidence, Mr. Elton, the lover of Harriet, was professing himself4336_her_ lover. She tried to stop him; but vainly; he would go on, and say4337it all. Angry as she was, the thought of the moment made her resolve to4338restrain herself when she did speak. She felt that half this folly must4339be drunkenness, and therefore could hope that it might belong only to4340the passing hour. Accordingly, with a mixture of the serious and the4341playful, which she hoped would best suit his half and half state, she4342replied,43434344“I am very much astonished, Mr. Elton. This to _me_! you forget4345yourself--you take me for my friend--any message to Miss Smith I shall4346be happy to deliver; but no more of this to _me_, if you please.”43474348“Miss Smith!--message to Miss Smith!--What could she possibly4349mean!”--And he repeated her words with such assurance of accent, such4350boastful pretence of amazement, that she could not help replying with4351quickness,43524353“Mr. Elton, this is the most extraordinary conduct! and I can account4354for it only in one way; you are not yourself, or you could not speak4355either to me, or of Harriet, in such a manner. Command yourself enough4356to say no more, and I will endeavour to forget it.”43574358But Mr. Elton had only drunk wine enough to elevate his spirits, not at4359all to confuse his intellects. He perfectly knew his own meaning; and4360having warmly protested against her suspicion as most injurious, and4361slightly touched upon his respect for Miss Smith as her friend,--but4362acknowledging his wonder that Miss Smith should be mentioned at all,--he4363resumed the subject of his own passion, and was very urgent for a4364favourable answer.43654366As she thought less of his inebriety, she thought more of his4367inconstancy and presumption; and with fewer struggles for politeness,4368replied,43694370“It is impossible for me to doubt any longer. You have made yourself4371too clear. Mr. Elton, my astonishment is much beyond any thing I can4372express. After such behaviour, as I have witnessed during the last4373month, to Miss Smith--such attentions as I have been in the daily4374habit of observing--to be addressing me in this manner--this is an4375unsteadiness of character, indeed, which I had not supposed possible!4376Believe me, sir, I am far, very far, from gratified in being the object4377of such professions.”43784379“Good Heaven!” cried Mr. Elton, “what can be the meaning of this?--Miss4380Smith!--I never thought of Miss Smith in the whole course of my4381existence--never paid her any attentions, but as your friend: never4382cared whether she were dead or alive, but as your friend. If she4383has fancied otherwise, her own wishes have misled her, and I am very4384sorry--extremely sorry--But, Miss Smith, indeed!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse!4385who can think of Miss Smith, when Miss Woodhouse is near! No, upon my4386honour, there is no unsteadiness of character. I have thought only of4387you. I protest against having paid the smallest attention to any one4388else. Every thing that I have said or done, for many weeks past, has4389been with the sole view of marking my adoration of yourself. You4390cannot really, seriously, doubt it. No!--(in an accent meant to be4391insinuating)--I am sure you have seen and understood me.”43924393It would be impossible to say what Emma felt, on hearing this--which4394of all her unpleasant sensations was uppermost. She was too completely4395overpowered to be immediately able to reply: and two moments of silence4396being ample encouragement for Mr. Elton's sanguine state of mind, he4397tried to take her hand again, as he joyously exclaimed--43984399“Charming Miss Woodhouse! allow me to interpret this interesting4400silence. It confesses that you have long understood me.”44014402“No, sir,” cried Emma, “it confesses no such thing. So far from having4403long understood you, I have been in a most complete error with respect4404to your views, till this moment. As to myself, I am very sorry that you4405should have been giving way to any feelings--Nothing could be farther4406from my wishes--your attachment to my friend Harriet--your pursuit of4407her, (pursuit, it appeared,) gave me great pleasure, and I have been4408very earnestly wishing you success: but had I supposed that she were not4409your attraction to Hartfield, I should certainly have thought you judged4410ill in making your visits so frequent. Am I to believe that you have4411never sought to recommend yourself particularly to Miss Smith?--that you4412have never thought seriously of her?”44134414“Never, madam,” cried he, affronted in his turn: “never, I assure you.4415_I_ think seriously of Miss Smith!--Miss Smith is a very good sort of4416girl; and I should be happy to see her respectably settled. I wish4417her extremely well: and, no doubt, there are men who might not object4418to--Every body has their level: but as for myself, I am not, I think,4419quite so much at a loss. I need not so totally despair of an equal4420alliance, as to be addressing myself to Miss Smith!--No, madam, my4421visits to Hartfield have been for yourself only; and the encouragement I4422received--”44234424“Encouragement!--I give you encouragement!--Sir, you have been entirely4425mistaken in supposing it. I have seen you only as the admirer of my4426friend. In no other light could you have been more to me than a common4427acquaintance. I am exceedingly sorry: but it is well that the mistake4428ends where it does. Had the same behaviour continued, Miss Smith might4429have been led into a misconception of your views; not being aware,4430probably, any more than myself, of the very great inequality which you4431are so sensible of. But, as it is, the disappointment is single, and, I4432trust, will not be lasting. I have no thoughts of matrimony at present.”44334434He was too angry to say another word; her manner too decided to invite4435supplication; and in this state of swelling resentment, and mutually4436deep mortification, they had to continue together a few minutes longer,4437for the fears of Mr. Woodhouse had confined them to a foot-pace. If4438there had not been so much anger, there would have been desperate4439awkwardness; but their straightforward emotions left no room for the4440little zigzags of embarrassment. Without knowing when the carriage4441turned into Vicarage Lane, or when it stopped, they found themselves,4442all at once, at the door of his house; and he was out before another4443syllable passed.--Emma then felt it indispensable to wish him a good4444night. The compliment was just returned, coldly and proudly; and, under4445indescribable irritation of spirits, she was then conveyed to Hartfield.44464447There she was welcomed, with the utmost delight, by her father, who4448had been trembling for the dangers of a solitary drive from Vicarage4449Lane--turning a corner which he could never bear to think of--and in4450strange hands--a mere common coachman--no James; and there it seemed as4451if her return only were wanted to make every thing go well: for Mr.4452John Knightley, ashamed of his ill-humour, was now all kindness and4453attention; and so particularly solicitous for the comfort of her4454father, as to seem--if not quite ready to join him in a basin of4455gruel--perfectly sensible of its being exceedingly wholesome; and the4456day was concluding in peace and comfort to all their little party,4457except herself.--But her mind had never been in such perturbation; and4458it needed a very strong effort to appear attentive and cheerful till the4459usual hour of separating allowed her the relief of quiet reflection.4460446144624463CHAPTER XVI446444654466The hair was curled, and the maid sent away, and Emma sat down to think4467and be miserable.--It was a wretched business indeed!--Such an overthrow4468of every thing she had been wishing for!--Such a development of every4469thing most unwelcome!--Such a blow for Harriet!--that was the worst4470of all. Every part of it brought pain and humiliation, of some sort or4471other; but, compared with the evil to Harriet, all was light; and4472she would gladly have submitted to feel yet more mistaken--more in4473error--more disgraced by mis-judgment, than she actually was, could the4474effects of her blunders have been confined to herself.44754476“If I had not persuaded Harriet into liking the man, I could have4477borne any thing. He might have doubled his presumption to me--but poor4478Harriet!”44794480How she could have been so deceived!--He protested that he had never4481thought seriously of Harriet--never! She looked back as well as4482she could; but it was all confusion. She had taken up the idea, she4483supposed, and made every thing bend to it. His manners, however, must4484have been unmarked, wavering, dubious, or she could not have been so4485misled.44864487The picture!--How eager he had been about the picture!--and the4488charade!--and an hundred other circumstances;--how clearly they had4489seemed to point at Harriet. To be sure, the charade, with its “ready4490wit”--but then the “soft eyes”--in fact it suited neither; it was4491a jumble without taste or truth. Who could have seen through such4492thick-headed nonsense?44934494Certainly she had often, especially of late, thought his manners to4495herself unnecessarily gallant; but it had passed as his way, as a mere4496error of judgment, of knowledge, of taste, as one proof among others4497that he had not always lived in the best society, that with all the4498gentleness of his address, true elegance was sometimes wanting; but,4499till this very day, she had never, for an instant, suspected it to mean4500any thing but grateful respect to her as Harriet's friend.45014502To Mr. John Knightley was she indebted for her first idea on the4503subject, for the first start of its possibility. There was no denying4504that those brothers had penetration. She remembered what Mr. Knightley4505had once said to her about Mr. Elton, the caution he had given,4506the conviction he had professed that Mr. Elton would never marry4507indiscreetly; and blushed to think how much truer a knowledge of his4508character had been there shewn than any she had reached herself. It4509was dreadfully mortifying; but Mr. Elton was proving himself, in many4510respects, the very reverse of what she had meant and believed him;4511proud, assuming, conceited; very full of his own claims, and little4512concerned about the feelings of others.45134514Contrary to the usual course of things, Mr. Elton's wanting to pay his4515addresses to her had sunk him in her opinion. His professions and his4516proposals did him no service. She thought nothing of his attachment,4517and was insulted by his hopes. He wanted to marry well, and having the4518arrogance to raise his eyes to her, pretended to be in love; but she was4519perfectly easy as to his not suffering any disappointment that need be4520cared for. There had been no real affection either in his language or4521manners. Sighs and fine words had been given in abundance; but she could4522hardly devise any set of expressions, or fancy any tone of voice, less4523allied with real love. She need not trouble herself to pity him. He4524only wanted to aggrandise and enrich himself; and if Miss Woodhouse4525of Hartfield, the heiress of thirty thousand pounds, were not quite so4526easily obtained as he had fancied, he would soon try for Miss Somebody4527else with twenty, or with ten.45284529But--that he should talk of encouragement, should consider her as aware4530of his views, accepting his attentions, meaning (in short), to marry4531him!--should suppose himself her equal in connexion or mind!--look down4532upon her friend, so well understanding the gradations of rank below4533him, and be so blind to what rose above, as to fancy himself shewing no4534presumption in addressing her!--It was most provoking.45354536Perhaps it was not fair to expect him to feel how very much he was her4537inferior in talent, and all the elegancies of mind. The very want of4538such equality might prevent his perception of it; but he must know that4539in fortune and consequence she was greatly his superior. He must4540know that the Woodhouses had been settled for several generations at4541Hartfield, the younger branch of a very ancient family--and that the4542Eltons were nobody. The landed property of Hartfield certainly was4543inconsiderable, being but a sort of notch in the Donwell Abbey estate,4544to which all the rest of Highbury belonged; but their fortune, from4545other sources, was such as to make them scarcely secondary to Donwell4546Abbey itself, in every other kind of consequence; and the Woodhouses had4547long held a high place in the consideration of the neighbourhood which4548Mr. Elton had first entered not two years ago, to make his way as he4549could, without any alliances but in trade, or any thing to recommend him4550to notice but his situation and his civility.--But he had fancied her4551in love with him; that evidently must have been his dependence; and4552after raving a little about the seeming incongruity of gentle manners4553and a conceited head, Emma was obliged in common honesty to stop4554and admit that her own behaviour to him had been so complaisant and4555obliging, so full of courtesy and attention, as (supposing her real4556motive unperceived) might warrant a man of ordinary observation and4557delicacy, like Mr. Elton, in fancying himself a very decided favourite.4558If _she_ had so misinterpreted his feelings, she had little right to4559wonder that _he_, with self-interest to blind him, should have mistaken4560hers.45614562The first error and the worst lay at her door. It was foolish, it was4563wrong, to take so active a part in bringing any two people together. It4564was adventuring too far, assuming too much, making light of what4565ought to be serious, a trick of what ought to be simple. She was quite4566concerned and ashamed, and resolved to do such things no more.45674568“Here have I,” said she, “actually talked poor Harriet into being very4569much attached to this man. She might never have thought of him but for4570me; and certainly never would have thought of him with hope, if I had4571not assured her of his attachment, for she is as modest and humble as I4572used to think him. Oh! that I had been satisfied with persuading her not4573to accept young Martin. There I was quite right. That was well done4574of me; but there I should have stopped, and left the rest to time and4575chance. I was introducing her into good company, and giving her the4576opportunity of pleasing some one worth having; I ought not to have4577attempted more. But now, poor girl, her peace is cut up for some time.4578I have been but half a friend to her; and if she were _not_ to feel this4579disappointment so very much, I am sure I have not an idea of any body4580else who would be at all desirable for her;--William Coxe--Oh! no, I4581could not endure William Coxe--a pert young lawyer.”45824583She stopt to blush and laugh at her own relapse, and then resumed a more4584serious, more dispiriting cogitation upon what had been, and might be,4585and must be. The distressing explanation she had to make to Harriet, and4586all that poor Harriet would be suffering, with the awkwardness of4587future meetings, the difficulties of continuing or discontinuing the4588acquaintance, of subduing feelings, concealing resentment, and avoiding4589eclat, were enough to occupy her in most unmirthful reflections some4590time longer, and she went to bed at last with nothing settled but the4591conviction of her having blundered most dreadfully.45924593To youth and natural cheerfulness like Emma's, though under temporary4594gloom at night, the return of day will hardly fail to bring return of4595spirits. The youth and cheerfulness of morning are in happy analogy,4596and of powerful operation; and if the distress be not poignant enough4597to keep the eyes unclosed, they will be sure to open to sensations of4598softened pain and brighter hope.45994600Emma got up on the morrow more disposed for comfort than she had gone4601to bed, more ready to see alleviations of the evil before her, and to4602depend on getting tolerably out of it.46034604It was a great consolation that Mr. Elton should not be really in4605love with her, or so particularly amiable as to make it shocking to4606disappoint him--that Harriet's nature should not be of that superior4607sort in which the feelings are most acute and retentive--and that there4608could be no necessity for any body's knowing what had passed except the4609three principals, and especially for her father's being given a moment's4610uneasiness about it.46114612These were very cheering thoughts; and the sight of a great deal of snow4613on the ground did her further service, for any thing was welcome that4614might justify their all three being quite asunder at present.46154616The weather was most favourable for her; though Christmas Day, she4617could not go to church. Mr. Woodhouse would have been miserable had his4618daughter attempted it, and she was therefore safe from either exciting4619or receiving unpleasant and most unsuitable ideas. The ground covered4620with snow, and the atmosphere in that unsettled state between frost and4621thaw, which is of all others the most unfriendly for exercise, every4622morning beginning in rain or snow, and every evening setting in to4623freeze, she was for many days a most honourable prisoner. No intercourse4624with Harriet possible but by note; no church for her on Sunday any4625more than on Christmas Day; and no need to find excuses for Mr. Elton's4626absenting himself.46274628It was weather which might fairly confine every body at home; and though4629she hoped and believed him to be really taking comfort in some society4630or other, it was very pleasant to have her father so well satisfied with4631his being all alone in his own house, too wise to stir out; and to4632hear him say to Mr. Knightley, whom no weather could keep entirely from4633them,--46344635“Ah! Mr. Knightley, why do not you stay at home like poor Mr. Elton?”46364637These days of confinement would have been, but for her private4638perplexities, remarkably comfortable, as such seclusion exactly suited4639her brother, whose feelings must always be of great importance to4640his companions; and he had, besides, so thoroughly cleared off his4641ill-humour at Randalls, that his amiableness never failed him during the4642rest of his stay at Hartfield. He was always agreeable and obliging,4643and speaking pleasantly of every body. But with all the hopes of4644cheerfulness, and all the present comfort of delay, there was still such4645an evil hanging over her in the hour of explanation with Harriet, as4646made it impossible for Emma to be ever perfectly at ease.4647464846494650CHAPTER XVII465146524653Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were not detained long at Hartfield. The4654weather soon improved enough for those to move who must move; and Mr.4655Woodhouse having, as usual, tried to persuade his daughter to stay4656behind with all her children, was obliged to see the whole party4657set off, and return to his lamentations over the destiny of poor4658Isabella;--which poor Isabella, passing her life with those she doated4659on, full of their merits, blind to their faults, and always innocently4660busy, might have been a model of right feminine happiness.46614662The evening of the very day on which they went brought a note from Mr.4663Elton to Mr. Woodhouse, a long, civil, ceremonious note, to say, with4664Mr. Elton's best compliments, “that he was proposing to leave Highbury4665the following morning in his way to Bath; where, in compliance with4666the pressing entreaties of some friends, he had engaged to spend a few4667weeks, and very much regretted the impossibility he was under, from4668various circumstances of weather and business, of taking a personal4669leave of Mr. Woodhouse, of whose friendly civilities he should ever4670retain a grateful sense--and had Mr. Woodhouse any commands, should be4671happy to attend to them.”46724673Emma was most agreeably surprized.--Mr. Elton's absence just at this4674time was the very thing to be desired. She admired him for contriving4675it, though not able to give him much credit for the manner in which it4676was announced. Resentment could not have been more plainly spoken than4677in a civility to her father, from which she was so pointedly excluded.4678She had not even a share in his opening compliments.--Her name was not4679mentioned;--and there was so striking a change in all this, and such an4680ill-judged solemnity of leave-taking in his graceful acknowledgments, as4681she thought, at first, could not escape her father's suspicion.46824683It did, however.--Her father was quite taken up with the surprize of so4684sudden a journey, and his fears that Mr. Elton might never get safely to4685the end of it, and saw nothing extraordinary in his language. It was a4686very useful note, for it supplied them with fresh matter for thought4687and conversation during the rest of their lonely evening. Mr. Woodhouse4688talked over his alarms, and Emma was in spirits to persuade them away4689with all her usual promptitude.46904691She now resolved to keep Harriet no longer in the dark. She had reason4692to believe her nearly recovered from her cold, and it was desirable that4693she should have as much time as possible for getting the better of4694her other complaint before the gentleman's return. She went to Mrs.4695Goddard's accordingly the very next day, to undergo the necessary4696penance of communication; and a severe one it was.--She had to destroy4697all the hopes which she had been so industriously feeding--to appear in4698the ungracious character of the one preferred--and acknowledge herself4699grossly mistaken and mis-judging in all her ideas on one subject, all4700her observations, all her convictions, all her prophecies for the last4701six weeks.47024703The confession completely renewed her first shame--and the sight of4704Harriet's tears made her think that she should never be in charity with4705herself again.47064707Harriet bore the intelligence very well--blaming nobody--and in every4708thing testifying such an ingenuousness of disposition and lowly opinion4709of herself, as must appear with particular advantage at that moment to4710her friend.47114712Emma was in the humour to value simplicity and modesty to the utmost;4713and all that was amiable, all that ought to be attaching, seemed on4714Harriet's side, not her own. Harriet did not consider herself as having4715any thing to complain of. The affection of such a man as Mr. Elton4716would have been too great a distinction.--She never could have deserved4717him--and nobody but so partial and kind a friend as Miss Woodhouse would4718have thought it possible.47194720Her tears fell abundantly--but her grief was so truly artless, that4721no dignity could have made it more respectable in Emma's eyes--and4722she listened to her and tried to console her with all her heart and4723understanding--really for the time convinced that Harriet was the4724superior creature of the two--and that to resemble her would be more for4725her own welfare and happiness than all that genius or intelligence could4726do.47274728It was rather too late in the day to set about being simple-minded and4729ignorant; but she left her with every previous resolution confirmed of4730being humble and discreet, and repressing imagination all the rest of4731her life. Her second duty now, inferior only to her father's claims, was4732to promote Harriet's comfort, and endeavour to prove her own affection4733in some better method than by match-making. She got her to Hartfield,4734and shewed her the most unvarying kindness, striving to occupy and4735amuse her, and by books and conversation, to drive Mr. Elton from her4736thoughts.47374738Time, she knew, must be allowed for this being thoroughly done; and4739she could suppose herself but an indifferent judge of such matters in4740general, and very inadequate to sympathise in an attachment to Mr. Elton4741in particular; but it seemed to her reasonable that at Harriet's age,4742and with the entire extinction of all hope, such a progress might be4743made towards a state of composure by the time of Mr. Elton's return, as4744to allow them all to meet again in the common routine of acquaintance,4745without any danger of betraying sentiments or increasing them.47464747Harriet did think him all perfection, and maintained the non-existence4748of any body equal to him in person or goodness--and did, in truth,4749prove herself more resolutely in love than Emma had foreseen; but yet4750it appeared to her so natural, so inevitable to strive against an4751inclination of that sort _unrequited_, that she could not comprehend its4752continuing very long in equal force.47534754If Mr. Elton, on his return, made his own indifference as evident and4755indubitable as she could not doubt he would anxiously do, she could not4756imagine Harriet's persisting to place her happiness in the sight or the4757recollection of him.47584759Their being fixed, so absolutely fixed, in the same place, was bad for4760each, for all three. Not one of them had the power of removal, or of4761effecting any material change of society. They must encounter each4762other, and make the best of it.47634764Harriet was farther unfortunate in the tone of her companions at Mrs.4765Goddard's; Mr. Elton being the adoration of all the teachers and great4766girls in the school; and it must be at Hartfield only that she could4767have any chance of hearing him spoken of with cooling moderation or4768repellent truth. Where the wound had been given, there must the cure be4769found if anywhere; and Emma felt that, till she saw her in the way of4770cure, there could be no true peace for herself.4771477247734774CHAPTER XVIII477547764777Mr. Frank Churchill did not come. When the time proposed drew near, Mrs.4778Weston's fears were justified in the arrival of a letter of excuse. For4779the present, he could not be spared, to his “very great mortification4780and regret; but still he looked forward with the hope of coming to4781Randalls at no distant period.”47824783Mrs. Weston was exceedingly disappointed--much more disappointed, in4784fact, than her husband, though her dependence on seeing the young man4785had been so much more sober: but a sanguine temper, though for ever4786expecting more good than occurs, does not always pay for its hopes by4787any proportionate depression. It soon flies over the present failure,4788and begins to hope again. For half an hour Mr. Weston was surprized and4789sorry; but then he began to perceive that Frank's coming two or three4790months later would be a much better plan; better time of year;4791better weather; and that he would be able, without any doubt, to stay4792considerably longer with them than if he had come sooner.47934794These feelings rapidly restored his comfort, while Mrs. Weston, of4795a more apprehensive disposition, foresaw nothing but a repetition of4796excuses and delays; and after all her concern for what her husband was4797to suffer, suffered a great deal more herself.47984799Emma was not at this time in a state of spirits to care really about Mr.4800Frank Churchill's not coming, except as a disappointment at Randalls.4801The acquaintance at present had no charm for her. She wanted, rather, to4802be quiet, and out of temptation; but still, as it was desirable that she4803should appear, in general, like her usual self, she took care to express4804as much interest in the circumstance, and enter as warmly into Mr.4805and Mrs. Weston's disappointment, as might naturally belong to their4806friendship.48074808She was the first to announce it to Mr. Knightley; and exclaimed quite4809as much as was necessary, (or, being acting a part, perhaps rather4810more,) at the conduct of the Churchills, in keeping him away. She then4811proceeded to say a good deal more than she felt, of the advantage of4812such an addition to their confined society in Surry; the pleasure of4813looking at somebody new; the gala-day to Highbury entire, which the4814sight of him would have made; and ending with reflections on the4815Churchills again, found herself directly involved in a disagreement4816with Mr. Knightley; and, to her great amusement, perceived that she was4817taking the other side of the question from her real opinion, and making4818use of Mrs. Weston's arguments against herself.48194820“The Churchills are very likely in fault,” said Mr. Knightley, coolly;4821“but I dare say he might come if he would.”48224823“I do not know why you should say so. He wishes exceedingly to come; but4824his uncle and aunt will not spare him.”48254826“I cannot believe that he has not the power of coming, if he made a4827point of it. It is too unlikely, for me to believe it without proof.”48284829“How odd you are! What has Mr. Frank Churchill done, to make you suppose4830him such an unnatural creature?”48314832“I am not supposing him at all an unnatural creature, in suspecting that4833he may have learnt to be above his connexions, and to care very little4834for any thing but his own pleasure, from living with those who have4835always set him the example of it. It is a great deal more natural than4836one could wish, that a young man, brought up by those who are proud,4837luxurious, and selfish, should be proud, luxurious, and selfish too. If4838Frank Churchill had wanted to see his father, he would have contrived it4839between September and January. A man at his age--what is he?--three or4840four-and-twenty--cannot be without the means of doing as much as that.4841It is impossible.”48424843“That's easily said, and easily felt by you, who have always been your4844own master. You are the worst judge in the world, Mr. Knightley, of the4845difficulties of dependence. You do not know what it is to have tempers4846to manage.”48474848“It is not to be conceived that a man of three or four-and-twenty4849should not have liberty of mind or limb to that amount. He cannot want4850money--he cannot want leisure. We know, on the contrary, that he has so4851much of both, that he is glad to get rid of them at the idlest haunts in4852the kingdom. We hear of him for ever at some watering-place or other. A4853little while ago, he was at Weymouth. This proves that he can leave the4854Churchills.”48554856“Yes, sometimes he can.”48574858“And those times are whenever he thinks it worth his while; whenever4859there is any temptation of pleasure.”48604861“It is very unfair to judge of any body's conduct, without an intimate4862knowledge of their situation. Nobody, who has not been in the interior4863of a family, can say what the difficulties of any individual of that4864family may be. We ought to be acquainted with Enscombe, and with Mrs.4865Churchill's temper, before we pretend to decide upon what her nephew4866can do. He may, at times, be able to do a great deal more than he can at4867others.”48684869“There is one thing, Emma, which a man can always do, if he chuses, and4870that is, his duty; not by manoeuvring and finessing, but by vigour and4871resolution. It is Frank Churchill's duty to pay this attention to his4872father. He knows it to be so, by his promises and messages; but if he4873wished to do it, it might be done. A man who felt rightly would say at4874once, simply and resolutely, to Mrs. Churchill--'Every sacrifice of4875mere pleasure you will always find me ready to make to your convenience;4876but I must go and see my father immediately. I know he would be hurt by4877my failing in such a mark of respect to him on the present occasion.4878I shall, therefore, set off to-morrow.'--If he would say so to her4879at once, in the tone of decision becoming a man, there would be no4880opposition made to his going.”48814882“No,” said Emma, laughing; “but perhaps there might be some made to his4883coming back again. Such language for a young man entirely dependent, to4884use!--Nobody but you, Mr. Knightley, would imagine it possible. But you4885have not an idea of what is requisite in situations directly opposite to4886your own. Mr. Frank Churchill to be making such a speech as that to4887the uncle and aunt, who have brought him up, and are to provide for4888him!--Standing up in the middle of the room, I suppose, and speaking as4889loud as he could!--How can you imagine such conduct practicable?”48904891“Depend upon it, Emma, a sensible man would find no difficulty in it. He4892would feel himself in the right; and the declaration--made, of course,4893as a man of sense would make it, in a proper manner--would do him more4894good, raise him higher, fix his interest stronger with the people he4895depended on, than all that a line of shifts and expedients can ever do.4896Respect would be added to affection. They would feel that they could4897trust him; that the nephew who had done rightly by his father, would do4898rightly by them; for they know, as well as he does, as well as all the4899world must know, that he ought to pay this visit to his father; and4900while meanly exerting their power to delay it, are in their hearts not4901thinking the better of him for submitting to their whims. Respect for4902right conduct is felt by every body. If he would act in this sort of4903manner, on principle, consistently, regularly, their little minds would4904bend to his.”49054906“I rather doubt that. You are very fond of bending little minds; but4907where little minds belong to rich people in authority, I think they have4908a knack of swelling out, till they are quite as unmanageable as great4909ones. I can imagine, that if you, as you are, Mr. Knightley, were to be4910transported and placed all at once in Mr. Frank Churchill's situation,4911you would be able to say and do just what you have been recommending for4912him; and it might have a very good effect. The Churchills might not have4913a word to say in return; but then, you would have no habits of early4914obedience and long observance to break through. To him who has, it might4915not be so easy to burst forth at once into perfect independence, and set4916all their claims on his gratitude and regard at nought. He may have as4917strong a sense of what would be right, as you can have, without being so4918equal, under particular circumstances, to act up to it.”49194920“Then it would not be so strong a sense. If it failed to produce equal4921exertion, it could not be an equal conviction.”49224923“Oh, the difference of situation and habit! I wish you would try to4924understand what an amiable young man may be likely to feel in directly4925opposing those, whom as child and boy he has been looking up to all his4926life.”49274928“Our amiable young man is a very weak young man, if this be the first4929occasion of his carrying through a resolution to do right against the4930will of others. It ought to have been a habit with him by this time, of4931following his duty, instead of consulting expediency. I can allow for4932the fears of the child, but not of the man. As he became rational, he4933ought to have roused himself and shaken off all that was unworthy in4934their authority. He ought to have opposed the first attempt on their4935side to make him slight his father. Had he begun as he ought, there4936would have been no difficulty now.”49374938“We shall never agree about him,” cried Emma; “but that is nothing4939extraordinary. I have not the least idea of his being a weak young man:4940I feel sure that he is not. Mr. Weston would not be blind to folly,4941though in his own son; but he is very likely to have a more yielding,4942complying, mild disposition than would suit your notions of man's4943perfection. I dare say he has; and though it may cut him off from some4944advantages, it will secure him many others.”49454946“Yes; all the advantages of sitting still when he ought to move, and4947of leading a life of mere idle pleasure, and fancying himself extremely4948expert in finding excuses for it. He can sit down and write a fine4949flourishing letter, full of professions and falsehoods, and persuade4950himself that he has hit upon the very best method in the world of4951preserving peace at home and preventing his father's having any right to4952complain. His letters disgust me.”49534954“Your feelings are singular. They seem to satisfy every body else.”49554956“I suspect they do not satisfy Mrs. Weston. They hardly can satisfy4957a woman of her good sense and quick feelings: standing in a mother's4958place, but without a mother's affection to blind her. It is on her4959account that attention to Randalls is doubly due, and she must doubly4960feel the omission. Had she been a person of consequence herself, he4961would have come I dare say; and it would not have signified whether4962he did or no. Can you think your friend behindhand in these sort of4963considerations? Do you suppose she does not often say all this to4964herself? No, Emma, your amiable young man can be amiable only in French,4965not in English. He may be very 'amiable,' have very good manners, and be4966very agreeable; but he can have no English delicacy towards the feelings4967of other people: nothing really amiable about him.”49684969“You seem determined to think ill of him.”49704971“Me!--not at all,” replied Mr. Knightley, rather displeased; “I do not4972want to think ill of him. I should be as ready to acknowledge his merits4973as any other man; but I hear of none, except what are merely personal;4974that he is well-grown and good-looking, with smooth, plausible manners.”49754976“Well, if he have nothing else to recommend him, he will be a treasure4977at Highbury. We do not often look upon fine young men, well-bred and4978agreeable. We must not be nice and ask for all the virtues into the4979bargain. Cannot you imagine, Mr. Knightley, what a _sensation_ his4980coming will produce? There will be but one subject throughout the4981parishes of Donwell and Highbury; but one interest--one object of4982curiosity; it will be all Mr. Frank Churchill; we shall think and speak4983of nobody else.”49844985“You will excuse my being so much over-powered. If I find him4986conversable, I shall be glad of his acquaintance; but if he is only a4987chattering coxcomb, he will not occupy much of my time or thoughts.”49884989“My idea of him is, that he can adapt his conversation to the taste of4990every body, and has the power as well as the wish of being universally4991agreeable. To you, he will talk of farming; to me, of drawing or music;4992and so on to every body, having that general information on all subjects4993which will enable him to follow the lead, or take the lead, just as4994propriety may require, and to speak extremely well on each; that is my4995idea of him.”49964997“And mine,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “is, that if he turn out any4998thing like it, he will be the most insufferable fellow breathing! What!4999at three-and-twenty to be the king of his company--the great man--the5000practised politician, who is to read every body's character, and make5001every body's talents conduce to the display of his own superiority; to5002be dispensing his flatteries around, that he may make all appear like5003fools compared with himself! My dear Emma, your own good sense could not5004endure such a puppy when it came to the point.”50055006“I will say no more about him,” cried Emma, “you turn every thing to5007evil. We are both prejudiced; you against, I for him; and we have no5008chance of agreeing till he is really here.”50095010“Prejudiced! I am not prejudiced.”50115012“But I am very much, and without being at all ashamed of it. My love for5013Mr. and Mrs. Weston gives me a decided prejudice in his favour.”50145015“He is a person I never think of from one month's end to another,” said5016Mr. Knightley, with a degree of vexation, which made Emma immediately5017talk of something else, though she could not comprehend why he should be5018angry.50195020To take a dislike to a young man, only because he appeared to be of a5021different disposition from himself, was unworthy the real liberality of5022mind which she was always used to acknowledge in him; for with all the5023high opinion of himself, which she had often laid to his charge, she had5024never before for a moment supposed it could make him unjust to the merit5025of another.50265027502850295030VOLUME II5031503250335034CHAPTER I503550365037Emma and Harriet had been walking together one morning, and, in Emma's5038opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for that day. She could5039not think that Harriet's solace or her own sins required more; and5040she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they5041returned;--but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded,5042and after speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and5043receiving no other answer than a very plaintive--“Mr. Elton is so good5044to the poor!” she found something else must be done.50455046They were just approaching the house where lived Mrs. and Miss Bates.5047She determined to call upon them and seek safety in numbers. There was5048always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and Miss Bates5049loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very few5050who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in5051that respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of5052their scanty comforts.50535054She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley and some from her own heart,5055as to her deficiency--but none were equal to counteract the persuasion5056of its being very disagreeable,--a waste of time--tiresome women--and5057all the horror of being in danger of falling in with the second-rate and5058third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever, and therefore5059she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden resolution of not5060passing their door without going in--observing, as she proposed it to5061Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they were just now quite5062safe from any letter from Jane Fairfax.50635064The house belonged to people in business. Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied5065the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very moderate-sized apartment,5066which was every thing to them, the visitors were most cordially and even5067gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her knitting was5068seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up her place to5069Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter, almost ready5070to overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for their visit,5071solicitude for their shoes, anxious inquiries after Mr. Woodhouse's5072health, cheerful communications about her mother's, and sweet-cake from5073the beaufet--“Mrs. Cole had just been there, just called in for ten5074minutes, and had been so good as to sit an hour with them, and _she_ had5075taken a piece of cake and been so kind as to say she liked it very much;5076and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse and Miss Smith would do them5077the favour to eat a piece too.”50785079The mention of the Coles was sure to be followed by that of Mr. Elton.5080There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole had heard from Mr. Elton5081since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they must have the5082letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much5083he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he went,5084and how full the Master of the Ceremonies' ball had been; and she went5085through it very well, with all the interest and all the commendation5086that could be requisite, and always putting forward to prevent Harriet's5087being obliged to say a word.50885089This she had been prepared for when she entered the house; but meant,5090having once talked him handsomely over, to be no farther incommoded by5091any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all the Mistresses5092and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not been5093prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was actually5094hurried off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last abruptly to5095the Coles, to usher in a letter from her niece.50965097“Oh! yes--Mr. Elton, I understand--certainly as to dancing--Mrs. Cole5098was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was--Mrs. Cole was so5099kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as5100she came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a5101favourite there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how to5102shew her kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much5103as any body can. And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying,5104'I know you cannot have heard from Jane lately, because it is not her5105time for writing;' and when I immediately said, 'But indeed we have, we5106had a letter this very morning,' I do not know that I ever saw any body5107more surprized. 'Have you, upon your honour?' said she; 'well, that is5108quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.'”51095110Emma's politeness was at hand directly, to say, with smiling interest--51115112“Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately? I am extremely happy. I5113hope she is well?”51145115“Thank you. You are so kind!” replied the happily deceived aunt, while5116eagerly hunting for the letter.--“Oh! here it is. I was sure it could5117not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see, without being5118aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very lately5119that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs.5120Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my mother, for5121it is such a pleasure to her--a letter from Jane--that she can never5122hear it often enough; so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is,5123only just under my huswife--and since you are so kind as to wish to hear5124what she says;--but, first of all, I really must, in justice to5125Jane, apologise for her writing so short a letter--only two pages you5126see--hardly two--and in general she fills the whole paper and crosses5127half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well. She often5128says, when the letter is first opened, 'Well, Hetty, now I think5129you will be put to it to make out all that checker-work'--don't you,5130ma'am?--And then I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to make it out5131herself, if she had nobody to do it for her--every word of it--I am sure5132she would pore over it till she had made out every word. And, indeed,5133though my mother's eyes are not so good as they were, she can see5134amazingly well still, thank God! with the help of spectacles. It is such5135a blessing! My mother's are really very good indeed. Jane often says,5136when she is here, 'I am sure, grandmama, you must have had very strong5137eyes to see as you do--and so much fine work as you have done too!--I5138only wish my eyes may last me as well.'”51395140All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss Bates to stop for breath;5141and Emma said something very civil about the excellence of Miss5142Fairfax's handwriting.51435144“You are extremely kind,” replied Miss Bates, highly gratified; “you who5145are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself. I am sure there is5146nobody's praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss Woodhouse's.5147My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know. Ma'am,”5148addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging to say5149about Jane's handwriting?”51505151And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own silly compliment repeated5152twice over before the good old lady could comprehend it. She was5153pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming very5154rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax's letter, and had almost5155resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss5156Bates turned to her again and seized her attention.51575158“My mother's deafness is very trifling you see--just nothing at all. By5159only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or three times over,5160she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it is very5161remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.5162Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at all5163deafer than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at my5164mother's time of life--and it really is full two years, you know, since5165she was here. We never were so long without seeing her before, and as5166I was telling Mrs. Cole, we shall hardly know how to make enough of her5167now.”51685169“Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?”51705171“Oh yes; next week.”51725173“Indeed!--that must be a very great pleasure.”51745175“Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next week. Every body is so5176surprized; and every body says the same obliging things. I am sure she5177will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be to see5178her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel5179Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So very5180good of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh5181yes, Friday or Saturday next. That is what she writes about. That is5182the reason of her writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in the5183common course, we should not have heard from her before next Tuesday or5184Wednesday.”51855186“Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could be little chance of my5187hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day.”51885189“So obliging of you! No, we should not have heard, if it had not been5190for this particular circumstance, of her being to come here so soon. My5191mother is so delighted!--for she is to be three months with us at5192least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have the5193pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the Campbells are5194going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father and mother to come5195over and see her directly. They had not intended to go over till the5196summer, but she is so impatient to see them again--for till she married,5197last October, she was never away from them so much as a week, which must5198make it very strange to be in different kingdoms, I was going to say,5199but however different countries, and so she wrote a very urgent letter5200to her mother--or her father, I declare I do not know which it was, but5201we shall see presently in Jane's letter--wrote in Mr. Dixon's name as5202well as her own, to press their coming over directly, and they would5203give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back to their country5204seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy. Jane has heard a great5205deal of its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean--I do not know that she ever5206heard about it from any body else; but it was very natural, you know,5207that he should like to speak of his own place while he was paying his5208addresses--and as Jane used to be very often walking out with them--for5209Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very particular about their daughter's5210not walking out often with only Mr. Dixon, for which I do not at all5211blame them; of course she heard every thing he might be telling Miss5212Campbell about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us word5213that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he had5214taken himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man, I believe. Jane5215was quite longing to go to Ireland, from his account of things.”52165217At this moment, an ingenious and animating suspicion entering Emma's5218brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr. Dixon, and the5219not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of farther5220discovery,52215222“You must feel it very fortunate that Miss Fairfax should be allowed to5223come to you at such a time. Considering the very particular friendship5224between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have expected her to be5225excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”52265227“Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing that we have always been5228rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have her at such a5229distance from us, for months together--not able to come if any thing was5230to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They want5231her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and Mrs.5232Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or pressing5233than their _joint_ invitation, Jane says, as you will hear presently;5234Mr. Dixon does not seem in the least backward in any attention. He is5235a most charming young man. Ever since the service he rendered Jane at5236Weymouth, when they were out in that party on the water, and she, by the5237sudden whirling round of something or other among the sails, would have5238been dashed into the sea at once, and actually was all but gone, if he5239had not, with the greatest presence of mind, caught hold of her habit--5240(I can never think of it without trembling!)--But ever since we had the5241history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”52425243“But, in spite of all her friends' urgency, and her own wish of seeing5244Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to you and Mrs. Bates?”52455246“Yes--entirely her own doing, entirely her own choice; and Colonel5247and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what they should5248recommend; and indeed they particularly _wish_ her to try her native5249air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately.”52505251“I am concerned to hear of it. I think they judge wisely. But Mrs.5252Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I understand, has5253no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means, to be5254compared with Miss Fairfax.”52555256“Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such things--but certainly not.5257There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell always was absolutely5258plain--but extremely elegant and amiable.”52595260“Yes, that of course.”52615262“Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long ago as the 7th of November,5263(as I am going to read to you,) and has never been well since. A long5264time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never mentioned5265it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so5266considerate!--But however, she is so far from well, that her kind5267friends the Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air5268that always agrees with her; and they have no doubt that three or four5269months at Highbury will entirely cure her--and it is certainly a great5270deal better that she should come here, than go to Ireland, if she is5271unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we should do.”52725273“It appears to me the most desirable arrangement in the world.”52745275“And so she is to come to us next Friday or Saturday, and the Campbells5276leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday following--as you will5277find from Jane's letter. So sudden!--You may guess, dear Miss Woodhouse,5278what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the drawback of5279her illness--but I am afraid we must expect to see her grown thin, and5280looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to5281me, as to that. I always make a point of reading Jane's letters through5282to myself first, before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for5283fear of there being any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me5284to do it, so I always do: and so I began to-day with my usual caution;5285but no sooner did I come to the mention of her being unwell, than I5286burst out, quite frightened, with 'Bless me! poor Jane is ill!'--which5287my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly, and was sadly alarmed5288at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so bad as I had5289fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her, that she does5290not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I could be so off my5291guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call in Mr. Perry. The5292expense shall not be thought of; and though he is so liberal, and so5293fond of Jane that I dare say he would not mean to charge any thing for5294attendance, we could not suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and5295family to maintain, and is not to be giving away his time. Well, now I5296have just given you a hint of what Jane writes about, we will turn to5297her letter, and I am sure she tells her own story a great deal better5298than I can tell it for her.”52995300“I am afraid we must be running away,” said Emma, glancing at Harriet,5301and beginning to rise--“My father will be expecting us. I had no5302intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five minutes,5303when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not5304pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so5305pleasantly detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates good5306morning.”53075308And not all that could be urged to detain her succeeded. She regained5309the street--happy in this, that though much had been forced on her5310against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole substance of5311Jane Fairfax's letter, she had been able to escape the letter itself.5312531353145315CHAPTER II531653175318Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of Mrs. Bates's youngest5319daughter.53205321The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the ----regiment of infantry,5322and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and pleasure, hope5323and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the melancholy5324remembrance of him dying in action abroad--of his widow sinking under5325consumption and grief soon afterwards--and this girl.53265327By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when at three years old, on5328losing her mother, she became the property, the charge, the consolation,5329the foundling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed every5330probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being taught5331only what very limited means could command, and growing up with no5332advantages of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what5333nature had given her in a pleasing person, good understanding, and5334warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.53355336But the compassionate feelings of a friend of her father gave a change5337to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had very highly regarded5338Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young man; and5339farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a severe5340camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were claims which5341he did not learn to overlook, though some years passed away from the5342death of poor Fairfax, before his own return to England put any thing in5343his power. When he did return, he sought out the child and took notice5344of her. He was a married man, with only one living child, a girl, about5345Jane's age: and Jane became their guest, paying them long visits and5346growing a favourite with all; and before she was nine years old, his5347daughter's great fondness for her, and his own wish of being a real5348friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel Campbell of undertaking5349the whole charge of her education. It was accepted; and from that period5350Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell's family, and had lived with them5351entirely, only visiting her grandmother from time to time.53525353The plan was that she should be brought up for educating others; the5354very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her father making5355independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of Colonel5356Campbell's power; for though his income, by pay and appointments, was5357handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all his daughter's;5358but, by giving her an education, he hoped to be supplying the means of5359respectable subsistence hereafter.53605361Such was Jane Fairfax's history. She had fallen into good hands, known5362nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been given an excellent5363education. Living constantly with right-minded and well-informed people,5364her heart and understanding had received every advantage of discipline5365and culture; and Colonel Campbell's residence being in London, every5366lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the attendance of5367first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy5368of all that friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was,5369as far as such an early age can be qualified for the care of children,5370fully competent to the office of instruction herself; but she was too5371much beloved to be parted with. Neither father nor mother could promote,5372and the daughter could not endure it. The evil day was put off. It was5373easy to decide that she was still too young; and Jane remained with5374them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the rational pleasures of5375an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of home and amusement, with5376only the drawback of the future, the sobering suggestions of her own5377good understanding to remind her that all this might soon be over.53785379The affection of the whole family, the warm attachment of Miss5380Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each party from5381the circumstance of Jane's decided superiority both in beauty and5382acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen5383by the young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by the5384parents. They continued together with unabated regard however, till the5385marriage of Miss Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which so often5386defies anticipation in matrimonial affairs, giving attraction to what is5387moderate rather than to what is superior, engaged the affections of5388Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and agreeable, almost as soon as they were5389acquainted; and was eligibly and happily settled, while Jane Fairfax had5390yet her bread to earn.53915392This event had very lately taken place; too lately for any thing to be5393yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards entering on her path5394of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own judgment had5395fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty5396should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she had5397resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire from5398all the pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society, peace5399and hope, to penance and mortification for ever.54005401The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell could not oppose such5402a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they lived, no5403exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and for5404their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this would5405be selfishness:--what must be at last, had better be soon. Perhaps they5406began to feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have resisted the5407temptation of any delay, and spared her from a taste of such enjoyments5408of ease and leisure as must now be relinquished. Still, however,5409affection was glad to catch at any reasonable excuse for not hurrying5410on the wretched moment. She had never been quite well since the time of5411their daughter's marriage; and till she should have completely recovered5412her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging in duties, which, so5413far from being compatible with a weakened frame and varying spirits,5414seemed, under the most favourable circumstances, to require something5415more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with5416tolerable comfort.54175418With regard to her not accompanying them to Ireland, her account to her5419aunt contained nothing but truth, though there might be some truths5420not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their absence to5421Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with5422those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells,5423whatever might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double, or5424treble, gave the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that they5425depended more on a few months spent in her native air, for the recovery5426of her health, than on any thing else. Certain it was that she was to5427come; and that Highbury, instead of welcoming that perfect novelty which5428had been so long promised it--Mr. Frank Churchill--must put up for the5429present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only the freshness of a two5430years' absence.54315432Emma was sorry;--to have to pay civilities to a person she did not like5433through three long months!--to be always doing more than she wished,5434and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax might be a5435difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was5436because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she5437wanted to be thought herself; and though the accusation had been eagerly5438refuted at the time, there were moments of self-examination in which5439her conscience could not quite acquit her. But “she could never get5440acquainted with her: she did not know how it was, but there was such5441coldness and reserve--such apparent indifference whether she pleased or5442not--and then, her aunt was such an eternal talker!--and she was made5443such a fuss with by every body!--and it had been always imagined that5444they were to be so intimate--because their ages were the same, every5445body had supposed they must be so fond of each other.” These were her5446reasons--she had no better.54475448It was a dislike so little just--every imputed fault was so magnified5449by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time after any5450considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and5451now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years'5452interval, she was particularly struck with the very appearance and5453manners, which for those two whole years she had been depreciating. Jane5454Fairfax was very elegant, remarkably elegant; and she had herself the5455highest value for elegance. Her height was pretty, just such as almost5456every body would think tall, and nobody could think very tall; her5457figure particularly graceful; her size a most becoming medium, between5458fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health seemed to point5459out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel all this; and5460then, her face--her features--there was more beauty in them altogether5461than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was very pleasing5462beauty. Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had5463never been denied their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to5464cavil at, as wanting colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really5465needed no fuller bloom. It was a style of beauty, of which elegance was5466the reigning character, and as such, she must, in honour, by all her5467principles, admire it:--elegance, which, whether of person or of mind,5468she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be vulgar, was distinction,5469and merit.54705471In short, she sat, during the first visit, looking at Jane Fairfax with5472twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering5473justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no longer. When5474she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her beauty;5475when she considered what all this elegance was destined to, what she was5476going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed impossible5477to feel any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if to every5478well-known particular entitling her to interest, were added the highly5479probable circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had5480so naturally started to herself. In that case, nothing could be more5481pitiable or more honourable than the sacrifices she had resolved on.5482Emma was very willing now to acquit her of having seduced Mr. Dixon's5483actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous which her imagination5484had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be simple, single,5485successless love on her side alone. She might have been unconsciously5486sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his conversation with her5487friend; and from the best, the purest of motives, might now be5488denying herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself5489effectually from him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of5490laborious duty.54915492Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened, charitable feelings,5493as made her look around in walking home, and lament that Highbury5494afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that she5495could wish to scheme about for her.54965497These were charming feelings--but not lasting. Before she had committed5498herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for Jane Fairfax,5499or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and errors, than5500saying to Mr. Knightley, “She certainly is handsome; she is better than5501handsome!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother5502and aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its usual state.5503Former provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome as ever; more5504tiresome, because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration5505of her powers; and they had to listen to the description of exactly how5506little bread and butter she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice5507of mutton for dinner, as well as to see exhibitions of new caps and new5508workbags for her mother and herself; and Jane's offences rose again.5509They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the thanks and praise5510which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of candour, an5511air of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own very5512superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all, so5513cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion. Wrapt up in5514a cloak of politeness, she seemed determined to hazard nothing. She was5515disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.55165517If any thing could be more, where all was most, she was more reserved on5518the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any thing. She seemed bent5519on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon's character, or her own value5520for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It was all5521general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or distinguished.5522It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown away. Emma saw5523its artifice, and returned to her first surmises. There probably _was_5524something more to conceal than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps,5525had been very near changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only5526to Miss Campbell, for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.55275528The like reserve prevailed on other topics. She and Mr. Frank Churchill5529had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known that they were a5530little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information could Emma5531procure as to what he truly was. “Was he handsome?”--“She believed5532he was reckoned a very fine young man.” “Was he agreeable?”--“He was5533generally thought so.” “Did he appear a sensible young man; a young5534man of information?”--“At a watering-place, or in a common London5535acquaintance, it was difficult to decide on such points. Manners were5536all that could be safely judged of, under a much longer knowledge than5537they had yet had of Mr. Churchill. She believed every body found his5538manners pleasing.” Emma could not forgive her.5539554055415542CHAPTER III554355445545Emma could not forgive her;--but as neither provocation nor resentment5546were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the party, and had5547seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side, he was5548expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with5549Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might5550have done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain enough5551to be very intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to5552Jane, and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement.55535554“A very pleasant evening,” he began, as soon as Mr. Woodhouse had been5555talked into what was necessary, told that he understood, and the papers5556swept away;--“particularly pleasant. You and Miss Fairfax gave us some5557very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state, sir, than sitting5558at one's ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such young women;5559sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I am sure Miss5560Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing5561undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument5562at her grandmother's, it must have been a real indulgence.”55635564“I am happy you approved,” said Emma, smiling; “but I hope I am not5565often deficient in what is due to guests at Hartfield.”55665567“No, my dear,” said her father instantly; “_that_ I am sure you are not.5568There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are. If any thing,5569you are too attentive. The muffin last night--if it had been handed5570round once, I think it would have been enough.”55715572“No,” said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same time; “you are not often5573deficient; not often deficient either in manner or comprehension. I5574think you understand me, therefore.”55755576An arch look expressed--“I understand you well enough;” but she said5577only, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”55785579“I always told you she was--a little; but you will soon overcome all5580that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all that has its5581foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be honoured.”55825583“You think her diffident. I do not see it.”55845585“My dear Emma,” said he, moving from his chair into one close by her,5586“you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you had not a pleasant5587evening.”55885589“Oh! no; I was pleased with my own perseverance in asking questions; and5590amused to think how little information I obtained.”55915592“I am disappointed,” was his only answer.55935594“I hope every body had a pleasant evening,” said Mr. Woodhouse, in his5595quiet way. “I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too much; but then I5596moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not disturb me.5597Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is, though5598she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs.5599Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane5600Fairfax is a very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a5601very well-behaved young lady indeed. She must have found the evening5602agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she had Emma.”56035604“True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss Fairfax.”56055606Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease it, at least for the5607present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could question--56085609“She is a sort of elegant creature that one cannot keep one's eyes from.5610I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity her from my heart.”56115612Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more gratified than he cared to5613express; and before he could make any reply, Mr. Woodhouse, whose5614thoughts were on the Bates's, said--56155616“It is a great pity that their circumstances should be so confined! a5617great pity indeed! and I have often wished--but it is so little one can5618venture to do--small, trifling presents, of any thing uncommon--Now we5619have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or a leg;5620it is very small and delicate--Hartfield pork is not like any other5621pork--but still it is pork--and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure5622of their making it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried, without5623the smallest grease, and not roast it, for no stomach can bear roast5624pork--I think we had better send the leg--do not you think so, my dear?”56255626“My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter. I knew you would wish it.5627There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which is so very nice, and5628the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like.”56295630“That's right, my dear, very right. I had not thought of it before, but5631that is the best way. They must not over-salt the leg; and then, if it5632is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled, just as Serle5633boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip, and a5634little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome.”56355636“Emma,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “I have a piece of news for you.5637You like news--and I heard an article in my way hither that I think will5638interest you.”56395640“News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is it?--why do you smile5641so?--where did you hear it?--at Randalls?”56425643He had time only to say,56445645“No, not at Randalls; I have not been near Randalls,” when the door was5646thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax walked into the room. Full5647of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not which to give quickest.5648Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and that not another5649syllable of communication could rest with him.56505651“Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning? My dear Miss Woodhouse--I5652come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter of pork! You5653are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to be5654married.”56555656Emma had not had time even to think of Mr. Elton, and she was so5657completely surprized that she could not avoid a little start, and a5658little blush, at the sound.56595660“There is my news:--I thought it would interest you,” said Mr.5661Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of some part of what5662had passed between them.56635664“But where could _you_ hear it?” cried Miss Bates. “Where could you5665possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not five minutes since I5666received Mrs. Cole's note--no, it cannot be more than five--or at least5667ten--for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come out--I5668was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork--Jane was5669standing in the passage--were not you, Jane?--for my mother was so5670afraid that we had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would5671go down and see, and Jane said, 'Shall I go down instead? for I think5672you have a little cold, and Patty has been washing the kitchen.'--'Oh!5673my dear,' said I--well, and just then came the note. A Miss5674Hawkins--that's all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But, Mr. Knightley,5675how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr. Cole told5676Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins--”56775678“I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and a half ago. He had just5679read Elton's letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to me directly.”56805681“Well! that is quite--I suppose there never was a piece of news more5682generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too bountiful. My5683mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a thousand5684thanks, and says you really quite oppress her.”56855686“We consider our Hartfield pork,” replied Mr. Woodhouse--“indeed it5687certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that Emma and I cannot5688have a greater pleasure than--”56895690“Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our friends are only too good5691to us. If ever there were people who, without having great wealth5692themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is us.5693We may well say that 'our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.' Well, Mr.5694Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well--”56955696“It was short--merely to announce--but cheerful, exulting, of course.”--5697Here was a sly glance at Emma. “He had been so fortunate as to--I forget5698the precise words--one has no business to remember them. The information5699was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a Miss Hawkins. By5700his style, I should imagine it just settled.”57015702“Mr. Elton going to be married!” said Emma, as soon as she could speak.5703“He will have every body's wishes for his happiness.”57045705“He is very young to settle,” was Mr. Woodhouse's observation. “He had5706better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very well off as he was. We5707were always glad to see him at Hartfield.”57085709“A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!” said Miss Bates, joyfully;5710“my mother is so pleased!--she says she cannot bear to have the poor old5711Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed. Jane, you have5712never seen Mr. Elton!--no wonder that you have such a curiosity to see5713him.”57145715Jane's curiosity did not appear of that absorbing nature as wholly to5716occupy her.57175718“No--I have never seen Mr. Elton,” she replied, starting on this appeal;5719“is he--is he a tall man?”57205721“Who shall answer that question?” cried Emma. “My father would say5722'yes,' Mr. Knightley 'no;' and Miss Bates and I that he is just the5723happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax,5724you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in5725Highbury, both in person and mind.”57265727“Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He is the very best young5728man--But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you yesterday he5729was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,--I dare say, an5730excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother--wanting5731her to sit in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my5732mother is a little deaf, you know--it is not much, but she does not5733hear quite quick. Jane says that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf. He5734fancied bathing might be good for it--the warm bath--but she says it did5735him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell, you know, is quite our angel.5736And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man, quite worthy of him. It5737is such a happiness when good people get together--and they always do.5738Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the Coles,5739such very good people; and the Perrys--I suppose there never was a5740happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning5741to Mr. Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such society as5742Highbury. I always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.--My dear5743sir, if there is one thing my mother loves better than another, it is5744pork--a roast loin of pork--”57455746“As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how long he has been acquainted5747with her,” said Emma, “nothing I suppose can be known. One feels that it5748cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone only four weeks.”57495750Nobody had any information to give; and, after a few more wonderings,5751Emma said,57525753“You are silent, Miss Fairfax--but I hope you mean to take an interest5754in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so much of late5755on these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on Miss5756Campbell's account--we shall not excuse your being indifferent about Mr.5757Elton and Miss Hawkins.”57585759“When I have seen Mr. Elton,” replied Jane, “I dare say I shall be5760interested--but I believe it requires _that_ with me. And as it is some5761months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be a little worn5762off.”57635764“Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as you observe, Miss Woodhouse,”5765said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.--A Miss Hawkins!--Well, I had5766always rather fancied it would be some young lady hereabouts; not that5767I ever--Mrs. Cole once whispered to me--but I immediately said, 'No, Mr.5768Elton is a most worthy young man--but'--In short, I do not think I am5769particularly quick at those sort of discoveries. I do not pretend to it.5770What is before me, I see. At the same time, nobody could wonder if5771Mr. Elton should have aspired--Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so5772good-humouredly. She knows I would not offend for the world. How does5773Miss Smith do? She seems quite recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs.5774John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear little children. Jane, do you5775know I always fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John Knightley. I mean in5776person--tall, and with that sort of look--and not very talkative.”57775778“Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no likeness at all.”57795780“Very odd! but one never does form a just idea of any body beforehand.5781One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr. Dixon, you say, is5782not, strictly speaking, handsome?”57835784“Handsome! Oh! no--far from it--certainly plain. I told you he was5785plain.”57865787“My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would not allow him to be plain,5788and that you yourself--”57895790“Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing. Where I have a regard,5791I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I believed the5792general opinion, when I called him plain.”57935794“Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be running away. The weather does5795not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You are too obliging, my5796dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This has been a most5797agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round by Mrs. Cole's;5798but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had better go home5799directly--I would not have you out in a shower!--We think she is the5800better for Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not5801attempt calling on Mrs. Goddard, for I really do not think she cares for5802any thing but _boiled_ pork: when we dress the leg it will be another5803thing. Good morning to you, my dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming5804too. Well, that is so very!--I am sure if Jane is tired, you will be5805so kind as to give her your arm.--Mr. Elton, and Miss Hawkins!--Good5806morning to you.”58075808Emma, alone with her father, had half her attention wanted by him while5809he lamented that young people would be in such a hurry to marry--and to5810marry strangers too--and the other half she could give to her own view5811of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome piece5812of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long; but she5813was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it--and all that she could hope5814was, by giving the first information herself, to save her from hearing5815it abruptly from others. It was now about the time that she was likely5816to call. If she were to meet Miss Bates in her way!--and upon its5817beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to expect that the weather would5818be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard's, and that the intelligence would5819undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.58205821The shower was heavy, but short; and it had not been over five minutes,5822when in came Harriet, with just the heated, agitated look which5823hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and the “Oh! Miss5824Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!” which instantly burst forth,5825had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow was5826given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than in5827listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had to5828tell. “She had set out from Mrs. Goddard's half an hour ago--she had5829been afraid it would rain--she had been afraid it would pour down5830every moment--but she thought she might get to Hartfield first--she5831had hurried on as fast as possible; but then, as she was passing by the5832house where a young woman was making up a gown for her, she thought she5833would just step in and see how it went on; and though she did not seem5834to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began to rain,5835and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as5836she could, and took shelter at Ford's.”--Ford's was the principal5837woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher's shop united; the shop5838first in size and fashion in the place.--“And so, there she had5839set, without an idea of any thing in the world, full ten minutes,5840perhaps--when, all of a sudden, who should come in--to be sure it was5841so very odd!--but they always dealt at Ford's--who should come in, but5842Elizabeth Martin and her brother!--Dear Miss Woodhouse! only think. I5843thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to do. I was sitting5844near the door--Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he was busy5845with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly,5846and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the5847shop; and I kept sitting near the door!--Oh! dear; I was so miserable!5848I am sure I must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away5849you know, because of the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere in the5850world but there.--Oh! dear, Miss Woodhouse--well, at last, I fancy, he5851looked round and saw me; for instead of going on with her buyings, they5852began whispering to one another. I am sure they were talking of me; and5853I could not help thinking that he was persuading her to speak to me--(do5854you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)--for presently she came forward--came5855quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to shake hands,5856if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she used; I5857could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to _try_ to be very5858friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time; but I know no5859more what I said--I was in such a tremble!--I remember she said she5860was sorry we never met now; which I thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss5861Woodhouse, I was absolutely miserable! By that time, it was beginning to5862hold up, and I was determined that nothing should stop me from getting5863away--and then--only think!--I found he was coming up towards me5864too--slowly you know, and as if he did not quite know what to do; and5865so he came and spoke, and I answered--and I stood for a minute, feeling5866dreadfully, you know, one can't tell how; and then I took courage, and5867said it did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had not got5868three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was5869going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole's5870stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain. Oh!5871dear, I thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I was5872very much obliged to him: you know I could not do less; and then he went5873back to Elizabeth, and I came round by the stables--I believe I did--but5874I hardly knew where I was, or any thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse,5875I would rather done any thing than have it happen: and yet, you know,5876there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him behave so pleasantly and5877so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do talk to me and5878make me comfortable again.”58795880Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it was not immediately in5881her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was not thoroughly5882comfortable herself. The young man's conduct, and his sister's, seemed5883the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As Harriet5884described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded affection5885and genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had believed them to be5886well-meaning, worthy people before; and what difference did this make5887in the evils of the connexion? It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of5888course, he must be sorry to lose her--they must be all sorry. Ambition,5889as well as love, had probably been mortified. They might all have hoped5890to rise by Harriet's acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of5891Harriet's description?--So easily pleased--so little discerning;--what5892signified her praise?58935894She exerted herself, and did try to make her comfortable, by considering5895all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite unworthy of being dwelt5896on,58975898“It might be distressing, for the moment,” said she; “but you seem to5899have behaved extremely well; and it is over--and may never--can never,5900as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not think about5901it.”59025903Harriet said, “very true,” and she “would not think about it;” but still5904she talked of it--still she could talk of nothing else; and Emma, at5905last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was obliged to hurry5906on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender caution;5907hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only5908amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet--such a conclusion of5909Mr. Elton's importance with her!59105911Mr. Elton's rights, however, gradually revived. Though she did not feel5912the first intelligence as she might have done the day before, or an hour5913before, its interest soon increased; and before their first conversation5914was over, she had talked herself into all the sensations of curiosity,5915wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this fortunate Miss Hawkins,5916which could conduce to place the Martins under proper subordination in5917her fancy.59185919Emma learned to be rather glad that there had been such a meeting. It5920had been serviceable in deadening the first shock, without retaining any5921influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins could not get5922at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted either the5923courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of the5924brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard's; and a twelvemonth5925might pass without their being thrown together again, with any5926necessity, or even any power of speech.5927592859295930CHAPTER IV593159325933Human nature is so well disposed towards those who are in interesting5934situations, that a young person, who either marries or dies, is sure of5935being kindly spoken of.59365937A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins's name was first mentioned in5938Highbury, before she was, by some means or other, discovered to have5939every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome, elegant, highly5940accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself arrived5941to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of her merits,5942there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her Christian5943name, and say whose music she principally played.59445945Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had gone away rejected and5946mortified--disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a series of what5947appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the right5948lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He5949had gone away deeply offended--he came back engaged to another--and5950to another as superior, of course, to the first, as under such5951circumstances what is gained always is to what is lost. He came back gay5952and self-satisfied, eager and busy, caring nothing for Miss Woodhouse,5953and defying Miss Smith.59545955The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to all the usual advantages of5956perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an independent fortune,5957of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a point of some5958dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had not5959thrown himself away--he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or thereabouts;5960and he had gained her with such delightful rapidity--the first hour of5961introduction had been so very soon followed by distinguishing notice;5962the history which he had to give Mrs. Cole of the rise and progress5963of the affair was so glorious--the steps so quick, from the accidental5964rencontre, to the dinner at Mr. Green's, and the party at Mrs.5965Brown's--smiles and blushes rising in importance--with consciousness and5966agitation richly scattered--the lady had been so easily impressed--so5967sweetly disposed--had in short, to use a most intelligible phrase,5968been so very ready to have him, that vanity and prudence were equally5969contented.59705971He had caught both substance and shadow--both fortune and affection, and5972was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only of himself and5973his own concerns--expecting to be congratulated--ready to be laughed5974at--and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young5975ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more5976cautiously gallant.59775978The wedding was no distant event, as the parties had only themselves to5979please, and nothing but the necessary preparations to wait for; and5980when he set out for Bath again, there was a general expectation, which5981a certain glance of Mrs. Cole's did not seem to contradict, that when he5982next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.59835984During his present short stay, Emma had barely seen him; but just enough5985to feel that the first meeting was over, and to give her the impression5986of his not being improved by the mixture of pique and pretension, now5987spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very much to wonder5988that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his sight was so5989inseparably connected with some very disagreeable feelings, that,5990except in a moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a source of profitable5991humiliation to her own mind, she would have been thankful to be assured5992of never seeing him again. She wished him very well; but he gave5993her pain, and his welfare twenty miles off would administer most5994satisfaction.59955996The pain of his continued residence in Highbury, however, must5997certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain solicitudes would be5998prevented--many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A _Mrs._ _Elton_ would5999be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy might sink6000without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility6001again.60026003Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very little. She was good enough6004for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for Highbury--handsome6005enough--to look plain, probably, by Harriet's side. As to connexion,6006there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his own vaunted6007claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On that article,6008truth seemed attainable. _What_ she was, must be uncertain; but _who_6009she was, might be found out; and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not6010appear that she was at all Harriet's superior. She brought no name, no6011blood, no alliance. Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters6012of a Bristol--merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole6013of the profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it6014was not unfair to guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very6015moderate also. Part of every winter she had been used to spend in Bath;6016but Bristol was her home, the very heart of Bristol; for though the6017father and mother had died some years ago, an uncle remained--in the law6018line--nothing more distinctly honourable was hazarded of him, than6019that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter had lived. Emma6020guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney, and too stupid to rise.6021And all the grandeur of the connexion seemed dependent on the elder6022sister, who was _very_ _well_ _married_, to a gentleman in a _great_6023_way_, near Bristol, who kept two carriages! That was the wind-up of the6024history; that was the glory of Miss Hawkins.60256026Could she but have given Harriet her feelings about it all! She had6027talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to be talked out6028of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of Harriet's6029mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by another; he6030certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a Robert Martin6031would have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared, would cure6032her. Harriet was one of those, who, having once begun, would be always6033in love. And now, poor girl! she was considerably worse from this6034reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was always having a glimpse of him6035somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but two or three times every6036day Harriet was sure _just_ to meet with him, or _just_ to miss him,6037_just_ to hear his voice, or see his shoulder, _just_ to have something6038occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth of6039surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about6040him; for, excepting when at Hartfield, she was always among those who6041saw no fault in Mr. Elton, and found nothing so interesting as6042the discussion of his concerns; and every report, therefore, every6043guess--all that had already occurred, all that might occur in the6044arrangement of his affairs, comprehending income, servants, and6045furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her regard was6046receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept6047alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss6048Hawkins's happiness, and continual observation of, how much he seemed6049attached!--his air as he walked by the house--the very sitting of his6050hat, being all in proof of how much he was in love!60516052Had it been allowable entertainment, had there been no pain to her6053friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of Harriet's mind,6054Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr. Elton6055predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful6056as a check to the other. Mr. Elton's engagement had been the cure of6057the agitation of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the6058knowledge of that engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth6059Martin's calling at Mrs. Goddard's a few days afterwards. Harriet had6060not been at home; but a note had been prepared and left for her, written6061in the very style to touch; a small mixture of reproach, with a great6062deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself appeared, she had been much6063occupied by it, continually pondering over what could be done in return,6064and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But Mr. Elton, in6065person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the Martins were6066forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for Bath again,6067Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned, judged it best6068for her to return Elizabeth Martin's visit.60696070How that visit was to be acknowledged--what would be necessary--and6071what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful consideration.6072Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to come, would6073be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of the6074acquaintance--!60756076After much thinking, she could determine on nothing better, than6077Harriet's returning the visit; but in a way that, if they had6078understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal6079acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the6080Abbey Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again6081so soon, as to allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous6082recurrences to the past, and give the most decided proof of what degree6083of intimacy was chosen for the future.60846085She could think of nothing better: and though there was something in it6086which her own heart could not approve--something of ingratitude, merely6087glossed over--it must be done, or what would become of Harriet?6088608960906091CHAPTER V609260936094Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only half an hour before her6095friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard's, her evil stars had led her6096to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to _The Rev.6097Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath_, was to be seen under the operation of6098being lifted into the butcher's cart, which was to convey it to where6099the coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk6100and the direction, was consequently a blank.61016102She went, however; and when they reached the farm, and she was to be6103put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk, which led between6104espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every thing which6105had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to6106revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed her6107to be looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which determined6108her not to allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of an hour.6109She went on herself, to give that portion of time to an old servant who6110was married, and settled in Donwell.61116112The quarter of an hour brought her punctually to the white gate again;6113and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her without delay, and6114unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily down the6115gravel walk--a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with6116her seemingly with ceremonious civility.61176118Harriet could not very soon give an intelligible account. She was6119feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from her enough to6120understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was creating.6121She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received her6122doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace had6123been talked almost all the time--till just at last, when Mrs. Martin's6124saying, all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had6125brought on a more interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very6126room she had been measured last September, with her two friends. There6127were the pencilled marks and memorandums on the wainscot by the window.6128_He_ had done it. They all seemed to remember the day, the hour,6129the party, the occasion--to feel the same consciousness, the same6130regrets--to be ready to return to the same good understanding; and they6131were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as Emma must suspect,6132as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,) when the carriage6133reappeared, and all was over. The style of the visit, and the shortness6134of it, were then felt to be decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given6135to those with whom she had thankfully passed six weeks not six months6136ago!--Emma could not but picture it all, and feel how justly they might6137resent, how naturally Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She6138would have given a great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had6139the Martins in a higher rank of life. They were so deserving, that a6140_little_ higher should have been enough: but as it was, how could she6141have done otherwise?--Impossible!--She could not repent. They must be6142separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the process--so much6143to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a little6144consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to6145procure it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The6146refreshment of Randalls was absolutely necessary.61476148It was a good scheme; but on driving to the door they heard that neither6149“master nor mistress was at home;” they had both been out some time; the6150man believed they were gone to Hartfield.61516152“This is too bad,” cried Emma, as they turned away. “And now we shall6153just miss them; too provoking!--I do not know when I have been so6154disappointed.” And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her6155murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both--such being6156the commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the carriage6157stopt; she looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were6158standing to speak to her. There was instant pleasure in the sight of6159them, and still greater pleasure was conveyed in sound--for Mr. Weston6160immediately accosted her with,61616162“How d'ye do?--how d'ye do?--We have been sitting with your father--glad6163to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow--I had a letter this6164morning--we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty--he is at6165Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be6166so. If he had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I6167was always glad he did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have6168just the right weather for him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall6169enjoy him completely; every thing has turned out exactly as we could6170wish.”61716172There was no resisting such news, no possibility of avoiding the6173influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston's, confirmed as it all was6174by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and quieter, but not6175less to the purpose. To know that _she_ thought his coming certain was6176enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she rejoice in6177their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted spirits.6178The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was coming; and in6179the rapidity of half a moment's thought, she hoped Mr. Elton would now6180be talked of no more.61816182Mr. Weston gave her the history of the engagements at Enscombe, which6183allowed his son to answer for having an entire fortnight at his command,6184as well as the route and the method of his journey; and she listened,6185and smiled, and congratulated.61866187“I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield,” said he, at the conclusion.61886189Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm at this speech, from his6190wife.61916192“We had better move on, Mr. Weston,” said she, “we are detaining the6193girls.”61946195“Well, well, I am ready;”--and turning again to Emma, “but you must6196not be expecting such a _very_ fine young man; you have only6197had _my_ account you know; I dare say he is really nothing6198extraordinary:”--though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were6199speaking a very different conviction.62006201Emma could look perfectly unconscious and innocent, and answer in a6202manner that appropriated nothing.62036204“Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about four o'clock,” was Mrs.6205Weston's parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety, and meant only6206for her.62076208“Four o'clock!--depend upon it he will be here by three,” was Mr.6209Weston's quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory meeting.6210Emma's spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore6211a different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as6212before. When she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least6213must soon be coming out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw6214something like a look of spring, a tender smile even there.62156216“Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath as well as Oxford?”--was a6217question, however, which did not augur much.62186219But neither geography nor tranquillity could come all at once, and Emma6220was now in a humour to resolve that they should both come in time.62216222The morning of the interesting day arrived, and Mrs. Weston's faithful6223pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or twelve o'clock, that6224she was to think of her at four.62256226“My dear, dear anxious friend,”--said she, in mental soliloquy, while6227walking downstairs from her own room, “always overcareful for every6228body's comfort but your own; I see you now in all your little fidgets,6229going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is right.”6230The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. “'Tis twelve;6231I shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this6232time to-morrow, perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the6233possibility of their all calling here. I am sure they will bring him6234soon.”62356236She opened the parlour door, and saw two gentlemen sitting with her6237father--Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived only a few6238minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of Frank's6239being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the midst of his6240very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared, to have her6241share of surprize, introduction, and pleasure.62426243The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so high in interest, was actually6244before her--he was presented to her, and she did not think too much had6245been said in his praise; he was a _very_ good looking young man; height,6246air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his countenance had a great6247deal of the spirit and liveliness of his father's; he looked quick and6248sensible. She felt immediately that she should like him; and there was6249a well-bred ease of manner, and a readiness to talk, which convinced her6250that he came intending to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted6251they soon must be.62526253He had reached Randalls the evening before. She was pleased with the6254eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan, and travel6255earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.62566257“I told you yesterday,” cried Mr. Weston with exultation, “I told you6258all that he would be here before the time named. I remembered what I6259used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one cannot help6260getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming in6261upon one's friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal6262more than any little exertion it needs.”62636264“It is a great pleasure where one can indulge in it,” said the young6265man, “though there are not many houses that I should presume on so far;6266but in coming _home_ I felt I might do any thing.”62676268The word _home_ made his father look on him with fresh complacency.6269Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make himself agreeable; the6270conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was very much pleased6271with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house, would hardly6272allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to6273Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself6274to have always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but6275one's _own_ country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it. That6276he should never have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling before,6277passed suspiciously through Emma's brain; but still, if it were a6278falsehood, it was a pleasant one, and pleasantly handled. His manner had6279no air of study or exaggeration. He did really look and speak as if in a6280state of no common enjoyment.62816282Their subjects in general were such as belong to an opening6283acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,--“Was she a6284horsewoman?--Pleasant rides?--Pleasant walks?--Had they a large6285neighbourhood?--Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?--There were6286several very pretty houses in and about it.--Balls--had they balls?--Was6287it a musical society?”62886289But when satisfied on all these points, and their acquaintance6290proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an opportunity, while6291their two fathers were engaged with each other, of introducing his6292mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome praise, so much6293warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she secured to his6294father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an additional6295proof of his knowing how to please--and of his certainly thinking it6296worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a word of praise6297beyond what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but,6298undoubtedly he could know very little of the matter. He understood6299what would be welcome; he could be sure of little else. “His father's6300marriage,” he said, “had been the wisest measure, every friend must6301rejoice in it; and the family from whom he had received such a blessing6302must be ever considered as having conferred the highest obligation on6303him.”63046305He got as near as he could to thanking her for Miss Taylor's merits,6306without seeming quite to forget that in the common course of things it6307was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss Woodhouse's6308character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor's. And at last, as if6309resolved to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its6310object, he wound it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of6311her person.63126313“Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared for,” said he; “but I6314confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected more than a6315very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know that6316I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston.”63176318“You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs. Weston for my feelings,”6319said Emma; “were you to guess her to be _eighteen_, I should listen with6320pleasure; but _she_ would be ready to quarrel with you for using such6321words. Don't let her imagine that you have spoken of her as a pretty6322young woman.”63236324“I hope I should know better,” he replied; “no, depend upon it, (with a6325gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I should understand whom6326I might praise without any danger of being thought extravagant in my6327terms.”63286329Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of what might be expected from6330their knowing each other, which had taken strong possession of her mind,6331had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were to be considered6332as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must see more6333of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they were6334agreeable.63356336She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often thinking about. His quick6337eye she detected again and again glancing towards them with a happy6338expression; and even, when he might have determined not to look, she was6339confident that he was often listening.63406341Her own father's perfect exemption from any thought of the kind, the6342entire deficiency in him of all such sort of penetration or suspicion,6343was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was not farther from6344approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.--Though always objecting6345to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand from6346the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of6347any two persons' understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it6348were proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He could6349now, without the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without a6350glance forward at any possible treachery in his guest, give way to all6351his natural kind-hearted civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr.6352Frank Churchill's accommodation on his journey, through the sad evils6353of sleeping two nights on the road, and express very genuine unmixed6354anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped catching cold--which,6355however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of himself till6356after another night.63576358A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to move.--“He must be going.6359He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a great many errands for6360Mrs. Weston at Ford's, but he need not hurry any body else.” His son,6361too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,63626363“As you are going farther on business, sir, I will take the opportunity6364of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or other, and therefore6365may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being acquainted with6366a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or near6367Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty,6368I suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not6369the proper name--I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any6370family of that name?”63716372“To be sure we do,” cried his father; “Mrs. Bates--we passed her6373house--I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are acquainted6374with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine girl6375she is. Call upon her, by all means.”63766377“There is no necessity for my calling this morning,” said the young man;6378“another day would do as well; but there was that degree of acquaintance6379at Weymouth which--”63806381“Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it. What is right to be done6382cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you a hint, Frank;6383any want of attention to her _here_ should be carefully avoided. You saw6384her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body she mixed6385with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely enough6386to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight.”63876388The son looked convinced.63896390“I have heard her speak of the acquaintance,” said Emma; “she is a very6391elegant young woman.”63926393He agreed to it, but with so quiet a “Yes,” as inclined her almost to6394doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a very distinct sort6395of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could be thought6396only ordinarily gifted with it.63976398“If you were never particularly struck by her manners before,” said she,6399“I think you will to-day. You will see her to advantage; see her and6400hear her--no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all, for she has an6401aunt who never holds her tongue.”64026403“You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax, sir, are you?” said Mr.6404Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in conversation; “then give6405me leave to assure you that you will find her a very agreeable young6406lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt, very6407worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely6408glad to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to6409shew you the way.”64106411“My dear sir, upon no account in the world; my father can direct me.”64126413“But your father is not going so far; he is only going to the Crown,6414quite on the other side of the street, and there are a great many6415houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty walk,6416unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you6417had best cross the street.”64186419Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking as serious as he could,6420and his father gave his hearty support by calling out, “My good friend,6421this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when he sees6422it, and as to Mrs. Bates's, he may get there from the Crown in a hop,6423step, and jump.”64246425They were permitted to go alone; and with a cordial nod from one, and a6426graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took leave. Emma remained6427very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance, and could now6428engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day, with full6429confidence in their comfort.6430643164326433CHAPTER VI643464356436The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill again. He came with Mrs.6437Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very cordially. He had6438been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at home, till6439her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their walk,6440immediately fixed on Highbury.--“He did not doubt there being very6441pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should always6442chuse the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury,6443would be his constant attraction.”--Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood6444for Hartfield; and she trusted to its bearing the same construction with6445him. They walked thither directly.64466447Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr. Weston, who had called in for6448half a minute, in order to hear that his son was very handsome, knew6449nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to her,6450therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in6451arm. She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in6452company with Mrs. Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him6453was to depend. If he were deficient there, nothing should make amends6454for it. But on seeing them together, she became perfectly satisfied. It6455was not merely in fine words or hyperbolical compliment that he paid his6456duty; nothing could be more proper or pleasing than his whole manner to6457her--nothing could more agreeably denote his wish of considering her as6458a friend and securing her affection. And there was time enough for Emma6459to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit included all the rest of6460the morning. They were all three walking about together for an hour6461or two--first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards6462in Highbury. He was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield6463sufficiently for Mr. Woodhouse's ear; and when their going farther was6464resolved on, confessed his wish to be made acquainted with the whole6465village, and found matter of commendation and interest much oftener than6466Emma could have supposed.64676468Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke very amiable feelings. He6469begged to be shewn the house which his father had lived in so long, and6470which had been the home of his father's father; and on recollecting that6471an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in quest of6472her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in6473some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they6474shewed, altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must6475be very like a merit to those he was with.64766477Emma watched and decided, that with such feelings as were now shewn, it6478could not be fairly supposed that he had been ever voluntarily absenting6479himself; that he had not been acting a part, or making a parade of6480insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had not done him6481justice.64826483Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an inconsiderable house, though6484the principal one of the sort, where a couple of pair of post-horses6485were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood than from any6486run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be detained by6487any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history of6488the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for6489a ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly6490populous, dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;--but such6491brilliant days had long passed away, and now the highest purpose for6492which it was ever wanted was to accommodate a whist club established6493among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen of the place. He was immediately6494interested. Its character as a ball-room caught him; and instead of6495passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two superior sashed6496windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its capabilities,6497and lament that its original purpose should have ceased. He saw no fault6498in the room, he would acknowledge none which they suggested. No, it6499was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It would hold the6500very number for comfort. They ought to have balls there at least every6501fortnight through the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived6502the former good old days of the room?--She who could do any thing in6503Highbury! The want of proper families in the place, and the conviction6504that none beyond the place and its immediate environs could be tempted6505to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied. He could not be6506persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw around him, could6507not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting; and even when particulars6508were given and families described, he was still unwilling to admit that6509the inconvenience of such a mixture would be any thing, or that there6510would be the smallest difficulty in every body's returning into their6511proper place the next morning. He argued like a young man very much bent6512on dancing; and Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of6513the Weston prevail so decidedly against the habits of the Churchills.6514He seemed to have all the life and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social6515inclinations of his father, and nothing of the pride or reserve of6516Enscombe. Of pride, indeed, there was, perhaps, scarcely enough; his6517indifference to a confusion of rank, bordered too much on inelegance of6518mind. He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was holding cheap.6519It was but an effusion of lively spirits.65206521At last he was persuaded to move on from the front of the Crown;6522and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses lodged, Emma6523recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he had6524paid it.65256526“Yes, oh! yes”--he replied; “I was just going to mention it. A very6527successful visit:--I saw all the three ladies; and felt very much6528obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had taken6529me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it was, I6530was only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten minutes6531would have been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was proper; and6532I had told my father I should certainly be at home before him--but there6533was no getting away, no pause; and, to my utter astonishment, I found,6534when he (finding me nowhere else) joined me there at last, that I had6535been actually sitting with them very nearly three-quarters of an hour.6536The good lady had not given me the possibility of escape before.”65376538“And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?”65396540“Ill, very ill--that is, if a young lady can ever be allowed to look6541ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs. Weston, is it? Ladies6542can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is naturally so6543pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.--A most6544deplorable want of complexion.”65456546Emma would not agree to this, and began a warm defence of Miss Fairfax's6547complexion. “It was certainly never brilliant, but she would not6548allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a softness and6549delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character of6550her face.” He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he had6551heard many people say the same--but yet he must confess, that to him6552nothing could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health. Where6553features were indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them all;6554and where they were good, the effect was--fortunately he need not6555attempt to describe what the effect was.65566557“Well,” said Emma, “there is no disputing about taste.--At least you6558admire her except her complexion.”65596560He shook his head and laughed.--“I cannot separate Miss Fairfax and her6561complexion.”65626563“Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you often in the same society?”65646565At this moment they were approaching Ford's, and he hastily exclaimed,6566“Ha! this must be the very shop that every body attends every day of6567their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury himself, he6568says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford's.6569If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove6570myself to belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I must6571buy something at Ford's. It will be taking out my freedom.--I dare say6572they sell gloves.”65736574“Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire your patriotism. You will6575be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before you came, because6576you were Mr. Weston's son--but lay out half a guinea at Ford's, and your6577popularity will stand upon your own virtues.”65786579They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied parcels of “Men's Beavers”6580and “York Tan” were bringing down and displaying on the counter, he6581said--“But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking to me,6582you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my _amor_6583_patriae_. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of6584public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in6585private life.”65866587“I merely asked, whether you had known much of Miss Fairfax and her6588party at Weymouth.”65896590“And now that I understand your question, I must pronounce it to be a6591very unfair one. It is always the lady's right to decide on the degree6592of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her account.--I6593shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to allow.”65946595“Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as she could do herself. But6596her account of every thing leaves so much to be guessed, she is so very6597reserved, so very unwilling to give the least information about any6598body, that I really think you may say what you like of your acquaintance6599with her.”66006601“May I, indeed?--Then I will speak the truth, and nothing suits me so6602well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the Campbells a6603little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.6604Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,6605warm-hearted woman. I like them all.”66066607“You know Miss Fairfax's situation in life, I conclude; what she is6608destined to be?”66096610“Yes--(rather hesitatingly)--I believe I do.”66116612“You get upon delicate subjects, Emma,” said Mrs. Weston smiling;6613“remember that I am here.--Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows what to say6614when you speak of Miss Fairfax's situation in life. I will move a little6615farther off.”66166617“I certainly do forget to think of _her_,” said Emma, “as having ever6618been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend.”66196620He looked as if he fully understood and honoured such a sentiment.66216622When the gloves were bought, and they had quitted the shop again, “Did6623you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of, play?” said Frank6624Churchill.66256626“Ever hear her!” repeated Emma. “You forget how much she belongs to6627Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives since we both began.6628She plays charmingly.”66296630“You think so, do you?--I wanted the opinion of some one who6631could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is, with6632considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.--I am6633excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right6634of judging of any body's performance.--I have been used to hear her's6635admired; and I remember one proof of her being thought to play well:--a6636man, a very musical man, and in love with another woman--engaged to6637her--on the point of marriage--would yet never ask that other woman6638to sit down to the instrument, if the lady in question could sit down6639instead--never seemed to like to hear one if he could hear the other.6640That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was some proof.”66416642“Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly amused.--“Mr. Dixon is very musical,6643is he? We shall know more about them all, in half an hour, from you,6644than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a year.”66456646“Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the persons; and I thought it a6647very strong proof.”66486649“Certainly--very strong it was; to own the truth, a great deal stronger6650than, if _I_ had been Miss Campbell, would have been at all agreeable6651to me. I could not excuse a man's having more music than love--more ear6652than eye--a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my feelings.6653How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?”66546655“It was her very particular friend, you know.”66566657“Poor comfort!” said Emma, laughing. “One would rather have a stranger6658preferred than one's very particular friend--with a stranger it might6659not recur again--but the misery of having a very particular friend6660always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!--Poor6661Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland.”66626663“You are right. It was not very flattering to Miss Campbell; but she6664really did not seem to feel it.”66656666“So much the better--or so much the worse:--I do not know which. But6667be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her--quickness of friendship, or6668dulness of feeling--there was one person, I think, who must have felt6669it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and dangerous6670distinction.”66716672“As to that--I do not--”66736674“Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account of Miss Fairfax's6675sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to no human6676being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she6677was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses.”66786679“There appeared such a perfectly good understanding among them all--”6680he began rather quickly, but checking himself, added, “however, it is6681impossible for me to say on what terms they really were--how it might6682all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was smoothness6683outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must be6684a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct6685herself in critical situations, than I can be.”66866687“I have known her from a child, undoubtedly; we have been children6688and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we should be6689intimate,--that we should have taken to each other whenever she visited6690her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a6691little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to take6692disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always was,6693by her aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her reserve--I6694never could attach myself to any one so completely reserved.”66956696“It is a most repulsive quality, indeed,” said he. “Oftentimes very6697convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is safety in reserve,6698but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person.”66996700“Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself; and then the attraction6701may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a friend, or an6702agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of6703conquering any body's reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss6704Fairfax and me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think6705ill of her--not the least--except that such extreme and perpetual6706cautiousness of word and manner, such a dread of giving a distinct idea6707about any body, is apt to suggest suspicions of there being something to6708conceal.”67096710He perfectly agreed with her: and after walking together so long, and6711thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well acquainted with him,6712that she could hardly believe it to be only their second meeting. He was6713not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world in some6714of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore better6715than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate--his feelings6716warmer. She was particularly struck by his manner of considering Mr.6717Elton's house, which, as well as the church, he would go and look at,6718and would not join them in finding much fault with. No, he could not6719believe it a bad house; not such a house as a man was to be pitied for6720having. If it were to be shared with the woman he loved, he could not6721think any man to be pitied for having that house. There must be ample6722room in it for every real comfort. The man must be a blockhead who6723wanted more.67246725Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know what he was talking about.6726Used only to a large house himself, and without ever thinking how many6727advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he could be no6728judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one. But Emma,6729in her own mind, determined that he _did_ know what he was talking6730about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to settle early in6731life, and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not be aware of the6732inroads on domestic peace to be occasioned by no housekeeper's room, or6733a bad butler's pantry, but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe6734could not make him happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would6735willingly give up much of wealth to be allowed an early establishment.6736673767386739CHAPTER VII674067416742Emma's very good opinion of Frank Churchill was a little shaken the6743following day, by hearing that he was gone off to London, merely to have6744his hair cut. A sudden freak seemed to have seized him at breakfast, and6745he had sent for a chaise and set off, intending to return to dinner,6746but with no more important view that appeared than having his hair cut.6747There was certainly no harm in his travelling sixteen miles twice over6748on such an errand; but there was an air of foppery and nonsense in it6749which she could not approve. It did not accord with the rationality of6750plan, the moderation in expense, or even the unselfish warmth of heart,6751which she had believed herself to discern in him yesterday. Vanity,6752extravagance, love of change, restlessness of temper, which must be6753doing something, good or bad; heedlessness as to the pleasure of his6754father and Mrs. Weston, indifferent as to how his conduct might appear6755in general; he became liable to all these charges. His father only6756called him a coxcomb, and thought it a very good story; but that Mrs.6757Weston did not like it, was clear enough, by her passing it over as6758quickly as possible, and making no other comment than that “all young6759people would have their little whims.”67606761With the exception of this little blot, Emma found that his visit6762hitherto had given her friend only good ideas of him. Mrs. Weston6763was very ready to say how attentive and pleasant a companion he made6764himself--how much she saw to like in his disposition altogether. He6765appeared to have a very open temper--certainly a very cheerful and6766lively one; she could observe nothing wrong in his notions, a great deal6767decidedly right; he spoke of his uncle with warm regard, was fond of6768talking of him--said he would be the best man in the world if he were6769left to himself; and though there was no being attached to the aunt, he6770acknowledged her kindness with gratitude, and seemed to mean always to6771speak of her with respect. This was all very promising; and, but for6772such an unfortunate fancy for having his hair cut, there was nothing to6773denote him unworthy of the distinguished honour which her imagination6774had given him; the honour, if not of being really in love with her,6775of being at least very near it, and saved only by her own6776indifference--(for still her resolution held of never marrying)--the6777honour, in short, of being marked out for her by all their joint6778acquaintance.67796780Mr. Weston, on his side, added a virtue to the account which must6781have some weight. He gave her to understand that Frank admired her6782extremely--thought her very beautiful and very charming; and with so6783much to be said for him altogether, she found she must not judge him6784harshly. As Mrs. Weston observed, “all young people would have their6785little whims.”67866787There was one person among his new acquaintance in Surry, not so6788leniently disposed. In general he was judged, throughout the parishes of6789Donwell and Highbury, with great candour; liberal allowances were made6790for the little excesses of such a handsome young man--one who smiled so6791often and bowed so well; but there was one spirit among them not to be6792softened, from its power of censure, by bows or smiles--Mr. Knightley.6793The circumstance was told him at Hartfield; for the moment, he was6794silent; but Emma heard him almost immediately afterwards say to himself,6795over a newspaper he held in his hand, “Hum! just the trifling, silly6796fellow I took him for.” She had half a mind to resent; but an instant's6797observation convinced her that it was really said only to relieve his6798own feelings, and not meant to provoke; and therefore she let it pass.67996800Although in one instance the bearers of not good tidings, Mr. and6801Mrs. Weston's visit this morning was in another respect particularly6802opportune. Something occurred while they were at Hartfield, to make Emma6803want their advice; and, which was still more lucky, she wanted exactly6804the advice they gave.68056806This was the occurrence:--The Coles had been settled some years in6807Highbury, and were very good sort of people--friendly, liberal, and6808unpretending; but, on the other hand, they were of low origin, in trade,6809and only moderately genteel. On their first coming into the country,6810they had lived in proportion to their income, quietly, keeping little6811company, and that little unexpensively; but the last year or two had6812brought them a considerable increase of means--the house in town had6813yielded greater profits, and fortune in general had smiled on them. With6814their wealth, their views increased; their want of a larger house, their6815inclination for more company. They added to their house, to their number6816of servants, to their expenses of every sort; and by this time were,6817in fortune and style of living, second only to the family at Hartfield.6818Their love of society, and their new dining-room, prepared every body6819for their keeping dinner-company; and a few parties, chiefly among the6820single men, had already taken place. The regular and best families Emma6821could hardly suppose they would presume to invite--neither Donwell, nor6822Hartfield, nor Randalls. Nothing should tempt _her_ to go, if they did;6823and she regretted that her father's known habits would be giving6824her refusal less meaning than she could wish. The Coles were very6825respectable in their way, but they ought to be taught that it was not6826for them to arrange the terms on which the superior families would visit6827them. This lesson, she very much feared, they would receive only from6828herself; she had little hope of Mr. Knightley, none of Mr. Weston.68296830But she had made up her mind how to meet this presumption so many weeks6831before it appeared, that when the insult came at last, it found her6832very differently affected. Donwell and Randalls had received their6833invitation, and none had come for her father and herself; and Mrs.6834Weston's accounting for it with “I suppose they will not take the6835liberty with you; they know you do not dine out,” was not quite6836sufficient. She felt that she should like to have had the power of6837refusal; and afterwards, as the idea of the party to be assembled there,6838consisting precisely of those whose society was dearest to her, occurred6839again and again, she did not know that she might not have been tempted6840to accept. Harriet was to be there in the evening, and the Bateses. They6841had been speaking of it as they walked about Highbury the day before,6842and Frank Churchill had most earnestly lamented her absence. Might6843not the evening end in a dance? had been a question of his. The bare6844possibility of it acted as a farther irritation on her spirits; and6845her being left in solitary grandeur, even supposing the omission to be6846intended as a compliment, was but poor comfort.68476848It was the arrival of this very invitation while the Westons were at6849Hartfield, which made their presence so acceptable; for though her first6850remark, on reading it, was that “of course it must be declined,” she so6851very soon proceeded to ask them what they advised her to do, that their6852advice for her going was most prompt and successful.68536854She owned that, considering every thing, she was not absolutely6855without inclination for the party. The Coles expressed themselves so6856properly--there was so much real attention in the manner of it--so much6857consideration for her father. “They would have solicited the honour6858earlier, but had been waiting the arrival of a folding-screen from6859London, which they hoped might keep Mr. Woodhouse from any draught of6860air, and therefore induce him the more readily to give them the honour6861of his company.” Upon the whole, she was very persuadable; and it being6862briefly settled among themselves how it might be done without neglecting6863his comfort--how certainly Mrs. Goddard, if not Mrs. Bates, might be6864depended on for bearing him company--Mr. Woodhouse was to be talked6865into an acquiescence of his daughter's going out to dinner on a day now6866near at hand, and spending the whole evening away from him. As for _his_6867going, Emma did not wish him to think it possible, the hours would be6868too late, and the party too numerous. He was soon pretty well resigned.68696870“I am not fond of dinner-visiting,” said he--“I never was. No more is6871Emma. Late hours do not agree with us. I am sorry Mr. and Mrs. Cole6872should have done it. I think it would be much better if they would come6873in one afternoon next summer, and take their tea with us--take us6874in their afternoon walk; which they might do, as our hours are so6875reasonable, and yet get home without being out in the damp of the6876evening. The dews of a summer evening are what I would not expose any6877body to. However, as they are so very desirous to have dear Emma dine6878with them, and as you will both be there, and Mr. Knightley too, to take6879care of her, I cannot wish to prevent it, provided the weather be what6880it ought, neither damp, nor cold, nor windy.” Then turning to Mrs.6881Weston, with a look of gentle reproach--“Ah! Miss Taylor, if you had not6882married, you would have staid at home with me.”68836884“Well, sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “as I took Miss Taylor away, it is6885incumbent on me to supply her place, if I can; and I will step to Mrs.6886Goddard in a moment, if you wish it.”68876888But the idea of any thing to be done in a _moment_, was increasing,6889not lessening, Mr. Woodhouse's agitation. The ladies knew better how6890to allay it. Mr. Weston must be quiet, and every thing deliberately6891arranged.68926893With this treatment, Mr. Woodhouse was soon composed enough for talking6894as usual. “He should be happy to see Mrs. Goddard. He had a great regard6895for Mrs. Goddard; and Emma should write a line, and invite her. James6896could take the note. But first of all, there must be an answer written6897to Mrs. Cole.”68986899“You will make my excuses, my dear, as civilly as possible. You will say6900that I am quite an invalid, and go no where, and therefore must decline6901their obliging invitation; beginning with my _compliments_, of course.6902But you will do every thing right. I need not tell you what is to be6903done. We must remember to let James know that the carriage will be6904wanted on Tuesday. I shall have no fears for you with him. We have never6905been there above once since the new approach was made; but still I have6906no doubt that James will take you very safely. And when you get there,6907you must tell him at what time you would have him come for you again;6908and you had better name an early hour. You will not like staying late.6909You will get very tired when tea is over.”69106911“But you would not wish me to come away before I am tired, papa?”69126913“Oh! no, my love; but you will soon be tired. There will be a great many6914people talking at once. You will not like the noise.”69156916“But, my dear sir,” cried Mr. Weston, “if Emma comes away early, it will6917be breaking up the party.”69186919“And no great harm if it does,” said Mr. Woodhouse. “The sooner every6920party breaks up, the better.”69216922“But you do not consider how it may appear to the Coles. Emma's going6923away directly after tea might be giving offence. They are good-natured6924people, and think little of their own claims; but still they must6925feel that any body's hurrying away is no great compliment; and Miss6926Woodhouse's doing it would be more thought of than any other person's in6927the room. You would not wish to disappoint and mortify the Coles, I am6928sure, sir; friendly, good sort of people as ever lived, and who have6929been your neighbours these _ten_ years.”69306931“No, upon no account in the world, Mr. Weston; I am much obliged to6932you for reminding me. I should be extremely sorry to be giving them any6933pain. I know what worthy people they are. Perry tells me that Mr. Cole6934never touches malt liquor. You would not think it to look at him, but6935he is bilious--Mr. Cole is very bilious. No, I would not be the means6936of giving them any pain. My dear Emma, we must consider this. I am sure,6937rather than run the risk of hurting Mr. and Mrs. Cole, you would stay a6938little longer than you might wish. You will not regard being tired. You6939will be perfectly safe, you know, among your friends.”69406941“Oh yes, papa. I have no fears at all for myself; and I should have no6942scruples of staying as late as Mrs. Weston, but on your account. I am6943only afraid of your sitting up for me. I am not afraid of your not being6944exceedingly comfortable with Mrs. Goddard. She loves piquet, you6945know; but when she is gone home, I am afraid you will be sitting up by6946yourself, instead of going to bed at your usual time--and the idea of6947that would entirely destroy my comfort. You must promise me not to sit6948up.”69496950He did, on the condition of some promises on her side: such as that,6951if she came home cold, she would be sure to warm herself thoroughly; if6952hungry, that she would take something to eat; that her own maid should6953sit up for her; and that Serle and the butler should see that every6954thing were safe in the house, as usual.6955695669576958CHAPTER VIII695969606961Frank Churchill came back again; and if he kept his father's dinner6962waiting, it was not known at Hartfield; for Mrs. Weston was too anxious6963for his being a favourite with Mr. Woodhouse, to betray any imperfection6964which could be concealed.69656966He came back, had had his hair cut, and laughed at himself with a very6967good grace, but without seeming really at all ashamed of what he had6968done. He had no reason to wish his hair longer, to conceal any confusion6969of face; no reason to wish the money unspent, to improve his spirits.6970He was quite as undaunted and as lively as ever; and, after seeing him,6971Emma thus moralised to herself:--69726973“I do not know whether it ought to be so, but certainly silly things6974do cease to be silly if they are done by sensible people in an impudent6975way. Wickedness is always wickedness, but folly is not always folly.--It6976depends upon the character of those who handle it. Mr. Knightley, he is6977_not_ a trifling, silly young man. If he were, he would have done this6978differently. He would either have gloried in the achievement, or6979been ashamed of it. There would have been either the ostentation of6980a coxcomb, or the evasions of a mind too weak to defend its own6981vanities.--No, I am perfectly sure that he is not trifling or silly.”69826983With Tuesday came the agreeable prospect of seeing him again, and for6984a longer time than hitherto; of judging of his general manners, and by6985inference, of the meaning of his manners towards herself; of guessing6986how soon it might be necessary for her to throw coldness into her air;6987and of fancying what the observations of all those might be, who were6988now seeing them together for the first time.69896990She meant to be very happy, in spite of the scene being laid at Mr.6991Cole's; and without being able to forget that among the failings of Mr.6992Elton, even in the days of his favour, none had disturbed her more than6993his propensity to dine with Mr. Cole.69946995Her father's comfort was amply secured, Mrs. Bates as well as Mrs.6996Goddard being able to come; and her last pleasing duty, before she left6997the house, was to pay her respects to them as they sat together after6998dinner; and while her father was fondly noticing the beauty of her6999dress, to make the two ladies all the amends in her power, by helping7000them to large slices of cake and full glasses of wine, for whatever7001unwilling self-denial his care of their constitution might have obliged7002them to practise during the meal.--She had provided a plentiful dinner7003for them; she wished she could know that they had been allowed to eat7004it.70057006She followed another carriage to Mr. Cole's door; and was pleased to see7007that it was Mr. Knightley's; for Mr. Knightley keeping no horses,7008having little spare money and a great deal of health, activity, and7009independence, was too apt, in Emma's opinion, to get about as he could,7010and not use his carriage so often as became the owner of Donwell Abbey.7011She had an opportunity now of speaking her approbation while warm from7012her heart, for he stopped to hand her out.70137014“This is coming as you should do,” said she; “like a gentleman.--I am7015quite glad to see you.”70167017He thanked her, observing, “How lucky that we should arrive at the same7018moment! for, if we had met first in the drawing-room, I doubt whether7019you would have discerned me to be more of a gentleman than usual.--You7020might not have distinguished how I came, by my look or manner.”70217022“Yes I should, I am sure I should. There is always a look of7023consciousness or bustle when people come in a way which they know to be7024beneath them. You think you carry it off very well, I dare say, but7025with you it is a sort of bravado, an air of affected unconcern; I always7026observe it whenever I meet you under those circumstances. _Now_ you have7027nothing to try for. You are not afraid of being supposed ashamed. You7028are not striving to look taller than any body else. _Now_ I shall really7029be very happy to walk into the same room with you.”70307031“Nonsensical girl!” was his reply, but not at all in anger.70327033Emma had as much reason to be satisfied with the rest of the party as7034with Mr. Knightley. She was received with a cordial respect which could7035not but please, and given all the consequence she could wish for.7036When the Westons arrived, the kindest looks of love, the strongest of7037admiration were for her, from both husband and wife; the son approached7038her with a cheerful eagerness which marked her as his peculiar object,7039and at dinner she found him seated by her--and, as she firmly believed,7040not without some dexterity on his side.70417042The party was rather large, as it included one other family, a proper7043unobjectionable country family, whom the Coles had the advantage of7044naming among their acquaintance, and the male part of Mr. Cox's family,7045the lawyer of Highbury. The less worthy females were to come in the7046evening, with Miss Bates, Miss Fairfax, and Miss Smith; but already,7047at dinner, they were too numerous for any subject of conversation to be7048general; and, while politics and Mr. Elton were talked over, Emma could7049fairly surrender all her attention to the pleasantness of her neighbour.7050The first remote sound to which she felt herself obliged to attend, was7051the name of Jane Fairfax. Mrs. Cole seemed to be relating something of7052her that was expected to be very interesting. She listened, and found7053it well worth listening to. That very dear part of Emma, her fancy,7054received an amusing supply. Mrs. Cole was telling that she had been7055calling on Miss Bates, and as soon as she entered the room had7056been struck by the sight of a pianoforte--a very elegant looking7057instrument--not a grand, but a large-sized square pianoforte; and the7058substance of the story, the end of all the dialogue which ensued of7059surprize, and inquiry, and congratulations on her side, and explanations7060on Miss Bates's, was, that this pianoforte had arrived from7061Broadwood's the day before, to the great astonishment of both aunt and7062niece--entirely unexpected; that at first, by Miss Bates's account,7063Jane herself was quite at a loss, quite bewildered to think who could7064possibly have ordered it--but now, they were both perfectly satisfied7065that it could be from only one quarter;--of course it must be from7066Colonel Campbell.70677068“One can suppose nothing else,” added Mrs. Cole, “and I was only7069surprized that there could ever have been a doubt. But Jane, it seems,7070had a letter from them very lately, and not a word was said about it.7071She knows their ways best; but I should not consider their silence as7072any reason for their not meaning to make the present. They might chuse7073to surprize her.”70747075Mrs. Cole had many to agree with her; every body who spoke on the7076subject was equally convinced that it must come from Colonel Campbell,7077and equally rejoiced that such a present had been made; and there were7078enough ready to speak to allow Emma to think her own way, and still7079listen to Mrs. Cole.70807081“I declare, I do not know when I have heard any thing that has given me7082more satisfaction!--It always has quite hurt me that Jane Fairfax, who7083plays so delightfully, should not have an instrument. It seemed quite7084a shame, especially considering how many houses there are where fine7085instruments are absolutely thrown away. This is like giving ourselves7086a slap, to be sure! and it was but yesterday I was telling Mr. Cole,7087I really was ashamed to look at our new grand pianoforte in the7088drawing-room, while I do not know one note from another, and our little7089girls, who are but just beginning, perhaps may never make any thing of7090it; and there is poor Jane Fairfax, who is mistress of music, has not7091any thing of the nature of an instrument, not even the pitifullest old7092spinet in the world, to amuse herself with.--I was saying this to7093Mr. Cole but yesterday, and he quite agreed with me; only he is so7094particularly fond of music that he could not help indulging himself7095in the purchase, hoping that some of our good neighbours might be so7096obliging occasionally to put it to a better use than we can; and that7097really is the reason why the instrument was bought--or else I am sure7098we ought to be ashamed of it.--We are in great hopes that Miss Woodhouse7099may be prevailed with to try it this evening.”71007101Miss Woodhouse made the proper acquiescence; and finding that nothing7102more was to be entrapped from any communication of Mrs. Cole's, turned7103to Frank Churchill.71047105“Why do you smile?” said she.71067107“Nay, why do you?”71087109“Me!--I suppose I smile for pleasure at Colonel Campbell's being so rich7110and so liberal.--It is a handsome present.”71117112“Very.”71137114“I rather wonder that it was never made before.”71157116“Perhaps Miss Fairfax has never been staying here so long before.”71177118“Or that he did not give her the use of their own instrument--which must7119now be shut up in London, untouched by any body.”71207121“That is a grand pianoforte, and he might think it too large for Mrs.7122Bates's house.”71237124“You may _say_ what you chuse--but your countenance testifies that your7125_thoughts_ on this subject are very much like mine.”71267127“I do not know. I rather believe you are giving me more credit for7128acuteness than I deserve. I smile because you smile, and shall probably7129suspect whatever I find you suspect; but at present I do not see what7130there is to question. If Colonel Campbell is not the person, who can7131be?”71327133“What do you say to Mrs. Dixon?”71347135“Mrs. Dixon! very true indeed. I had not thought of Mrs. Dixon. She must7136know as well as her father, how acceptable an instrument would be; and7137perhaps the mode of it, the mystery, the surprize, is more like a young7138woman's scheme than an elderly man's. It is Mrs. Dixon, I dare say. I7139told you that your suspicions would guide mine.”71407141“If so, you must extend your suspicions and comprehend _Mr_. Dixon in7142them.”71437144“Mr. Dixon.--Very well. Yes, I immediately perceive that it must be the7145joint present of Mr. and Mrs. Dixon. We were speaking the other day, you7146know, of his being so warm an admirer of her performance.”71477148“Yes, and what you told me on that head, confirmed an idea which I had7149entertained before.--I do not mean to reflect upon the good intentions7150of either Mr. Dixon or Miss Fairfax, but I cannot help suspecting either7151that, after making his proposals to her friend, he had the misfortune7152to fall in love with _her_, or that he became conscious of a little7153attachment on her side. One might guess twenty things without guessing7154exactly the right; but I am sure there must be a particular cause for7155her chusing to come to Highbury instead of going with the Campbells7156to Ireland. Here, she must be leading a life of privation and penance;7157there it would have been all enjoyment. As to the pretence of trying her7158native air, I look upon that as a mere excuse.--In the summer it might7159have passed; but what can any body's native air do for them in the7160months of January, February, and March? Good fires and carriages would7161be much more to the purpose in most cases of delicate health, and I dare7162say in her's. I do not require you to adopt all my suspicions, though7163you make so noble a profession of doing it, but I honestly tell you what7164they are.”71657166“And, upon my word, they have an air of great probability. Mr. Dixon's7167preference of her music to her friend's, I can answer for being very7168decided.”71697170“And then, he saved her life. Did you ever hear of that?--A water7171party; and by some accident she was falling overboard. He caught her.”71727173“He did. I was there--one of the party.”71747175“Were you really?--Well!--But you observed nothing of course, for it7176seems to be a new idea to you.--If I had been there, I think I should7177have made some discoveries.”71787179“I dare say you would; but I, simple I, saw nothing but the fact, that7180Miss Fairfax was nearly dashed from the vessel and that Mr. Dixon caught7181her.--It was the work of a moment. And though the consequent shock and7182alarm was very great and much more durable--indeed I believe it was7183half an hour before any of us were comfortable again--yet that was too7184general a sensation for any thing of peculiar anxiety to be7185observable. I do not mean to say, however, that you might not have made7186discoveries.”71877188The conversation was here interrupted. They were called on to share7189in the awkwardness of a rather long interval between the courses, and7190obliged to be as formal and as orderly as the others; but when the table7191was again safely covered, when every corner dish was placed exactly7192right, and occupation and ease were generally restored, Emma said,71937194“The arrival of this pianoforte is decisive with me. I wanted to know7195a little more, and this tells me quite enough. Depend upon it, we shall7196soon hear that it is a present from Mr. and Mrs. Dixon.”71977198“And if the Dixons should absolutely deny all knowledge of it we must7199conclude it to come from the Campbells.”72007201“No, I am sure it is not from the Campbells. Miss Fairfax knows it is7202not from the Campbells, or they would have been guessed at first. She7203would not have been puzzled, had she dared fix on them. I may not have7204convinced you perhaps, but I am perfectly convinced myself that Mr.7205Dixon is a principal in the business.”72067207“Indeed you injure me if you suppose me unconvinced. Your reasonings7208carry my judgment along with them entirely. At first, while I supposed7209you satisfied that Colonel Campbell was the giver, I saw it only as7210paternal kindness, and thought it the most natural thing in the world.7211But when you mentioned Mrs. Dixon, I felt how much more probable that it7212should be the tribute of warm female friendship. And now I can see it in7213no other light than as an offering of love.”72147215There was no occasion to press the matter farther. The conviction seemed7216real; he looked as if he felt it. She said no more, other subjects7217took their turn; and the rest of the dinner passed away; the dessert7218succeeded, the children came in, and were talked to and admired amid the7219usual rate of conversation; a few clever things said, a few downright7220silly, but by much the larger proportion neither the one nor the7221other--nothing worse than everyday remarks, dull repetitions, old news,7222and heavy jokes.72237224The ladies had not been long in the drawing-room, before the other7225ladies, in their different divisions, arrived. Emma watched the entree7226of her own particular little friend; and if she could not exult in her7227dignity and grace, she could not only love the blooming sweetness and7228the artless manner, but could most heartily rejoice in that light,7229cheerful, unsentimental disposition which allowed her so many7230alleviations of pleasure, in the midst of the pangs of disappointed7231affection. There she sat--and who would have guessed how many tears she7232had been lately shedding? To be in company, nicely dressed herself and7233seeing others nicely dressed, to sit and smile and look pretty, and say7234nothing, was enough for the happiness of the present hour. Jane Fairfax7235did look and move superior; but Emma suspected she might have been7236glad to change feelings with Harriet, very glad to have purchased the7237mortification of having loved--yes, of having loved even Mr. Elton in7238vain--by the surrender of all the dangerous pleasure of knowing herself7239beloved by the husband of her friend.72407241In so large a party it was not necessary that Emma should approach her.7242She did not wish to speak of the pianoforte, she felt too much in the7243secret herself, to think the appearance of curiosity or interest fair,7244and therefore purposely kept at a distance; but by the others, the7245subject was almost immediately introduced, and she saw the blush of7246consciousness with which congratulations were received, the blush7247of guilt which accompanied the name of “my excellent friend Colonel7248Campbell.”72497250Mrs. Weston, kind-hearted and musical, was particularly interested7251by the circumstance, and Emma could not help being amused at her7252perseverance in dwelling on the subject; and having so much to ask and7253to say as to tone, touch, and pedal, totally unsuspicious of that wish7254of saying as little about it as possible, which she plainly read in the7255fair heroine's countenance.72567257They were soon joined by some of the gentlemen; and the very first7258of the early was Frank Churchill. In he walked, the first and the7259handsomest; and after paying his compliments en passant to Miss Bates7260and her niece, made his way directly to the opposite side of the circle,7261where sat Miss Woodhouse; and till he could find a seat by her, would7262not sit at all. Emma divined what every body present must be thinking.7263She was his object, and every body must perceive it. She introduced him7264to her friend, Miss Smith, and, at convenient moments afterwards, heard7265what each thought of the other. “He had never seen so lovely a face, and7266was delighted with her naivete.” And she, “Only to be sure it was paying7267him too great a compliment, but she did think there were some looks a7268little like Mr. Elton.” Emma restrained her indignation, and only turned7269from her in silence.72707271Smiles of intelligence passed between her and the gentleman on first7272glancing towards Miss Fairfax; but it was most prudent to avoid speech.7273He told her that he had been impatient to leave the dining-room--hated7274sitting long--was always the first to move when he could--that his7275father, Mr. Knightley, Mr. Cox, and Mr. Cole, were left very busy over7276parish business--that as long as he had staid, however, it had been7277pleasant enough, as he had found them in general a set of gentlemanlike,7278sensible men; and spoke so handsomely of Highbury altogether--thought it7279so abundant in agreeable families--that Emma began to feel she had been7280used to despise the place rather too much. She questioned him as to the7281society in Yorkshire--the extent of the neighbourhood about Enscombe,7282and the sort; and could make out from his answers that, as far as7283Enscombe was concerned, there was very little going on, that their7284visitings were among a range of great families, none very near; and7285that even when days were fixed, and invitations accepted, it was an even7286chance that Mrs. Churchill were not in health and spirits for going;7287that they made a point of visiting no fresh person; and that, though7288he had his separate engagements, it was not without difficulty, without7289considerable address _at_ _times_, that he could get away, or introduce7290an acquaintance for a night.72917292She saw that Enscombe could not satisfy, and that Highbury, taken at7293its best, might reasonably please a young man who had more retirement at7294home than he liked. His importance at Enscombe was very evident. He did7295not boast, but it naturally betrayed itself, that he had persuaded his7296aunt where his uncle could do nothing, and on her laughing and noticing7297it, he owned that he believed (excepting one or two points) he could7298_with_ _time_ persuade her to any thing. One of those points on which7299his influence failed, he then mentioned. He had wanted very much to7300go abroad--had been very eager indeed to be allowed to travel--but she7301would not hear of it. This had happened the year before. _Now_, he said,7302he was beginning to have no longer the same wish.73037304The unpersuadable point, which he did not mention, Emma guessed to be7305good behaviour to his father.73067307“I have made a most wretched discovery,” said he, after a short pause.--7308“I have been here a week to-morrow--half my time. I never knew days fly7309so fast. A week to-morrow!--And I have hardly begun to enjoy myself.7310But just got acquainted with Mrs. Weston, and others!--I hate the7311recollection.”73127313“Perhaps you may now begin to regret that you spent one whole day, out7314of so few, in having your hair cut.”73157316“No,” said he, smiling, “that is no subject of regret at all. I have7317no pleasure in seeing my friends, unless I can believe myself fit to be7318seen.”73197320The rest of the gentlemen being now in the room, Emma found herself7321obliged to turn from him for a few minutes, and listen to Mr. Cole. When7322Mr. Cole had moved away, and her attention could be restored as before,7323she saw Frank Churchill looking intently across the room at Miss7324Fairfax, who was sitting exactly opposite.73257326“What is the matter?” said she.73277328He started. “Thank you for rousing me,” he replied. “I believe I have7329been very rude; but really Miss Fairfax has done her hair in so odd a7330way--so very odd a way--that I cannot keep my eyes from her. I never saw7331any thing so outree!--Those curls!--This must be a fancy of her own. I7332see nobody else looking like her!--I must go and ask her whether it7333is an Irish fashion. Shall I?--Yes, I will--I declare I will--and you7334shall see how she takes it;--whether she colours.”73357336He was gone immediately; and Emma soon saw him standing before Miss7337Fairfax, and talking to her; but as to its effect on the young lady,7338as he had improvidently placed himself exactly between them, exactly in7339front of Miss Fairfax, she could absolutely distinguish nothing.73407341Before he could return to his chair, it was taken by Mrs. Weston.73427343“This is the luxury of a large party,” said she:--“one can get near7344every body, and say every thing. My dear Emma, I am longing to talk7345to you. I have been making discoveries and forming plans, just like7346yourself, and I must tell them while the idea is fresh. Do you know how7347Miss Bates and her niece came here?”73487349“How?--They were invited, were not they?”73507351“Oh! yes--but how they were conveyed hither?--the manner of their7352coming?”73537354“They walked, I conclude. How else could they come?”73557356“Very true.--Well, a little while ago it occurred to me how very sad7357it would be to have Jane Fairfax walking home again, late at night, and7358cold as the nights are now. And as I looked at her, though I never saw7359her appear to more advantage, it struck me that she was heated, and7360would therefore be particularly liable to take cold. Poor girl! I could7361not bear the idea of it; so, as soon as Mr. Weston came into the room,7362and I could get at him, I spoke to him about the carriage. You may guess7363how readily he came into my wishes; and having his approbation, I made7364my way directly to Miss Bates, to assure her that the carriage would be7365at her service before it took us home; for I thought it would be making7366her comfortable at once. Good soul! she was as grateful as possible, you7367may be sure. 'Nobody was ever so fortunate as herself!'--but with many,7368many thanks--'there was no occasion to trouble us, for Mr. Knightley's7369carriage had brought, and was to take them home again.' I was quite7370surprized;--very glad, I am sure; but really quite surprized. Such a7371very kind attention--and so thoughtful an attention!--the sort of thing7372that so few men would think of. And, in short, from knowing his7373usual ways, I am very much inclined to think that it was for their7374accommodation the carriage was used at all. I do suspect he would not7375have had a pair of horses for himself, and that it was only as an excuse7376for assisting them.”73777378“Very likely,” said Emma--“nothing more likely. I know no man more7379likely than Mr. Knightley to do the sort of thing--to do any thing7380really good-natured, useful, considerate, or benevolent. He is not a7381gallant man, but he is a very humane one; and this, considering Jane7382Fairfax's ill-health, would appear a case of humanity to him;--and for7383an act of unostentatious kindness, there is nobody whom I would fix on7384more than on Mr. Knightley. I know he had horses to-day--for we arrived7385together; and I laughed at him about it, but he said not a word that7386could betray.”73877388“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, smiling, “you give him credit for more simple,7389disinterested benevolence in this instance than I do; for while Miss7390Bates was speaking, a suspicion darted into my head, and I have never7391been able to get it out again. The more I think of it, the more probable7392it appears. In short, I have made a match between Mr. Knightley and Jane7393Fairfax. See the consequence of keeping you company!--What do you say to7394it?”73957396“Mr. Knightley and Jane Fairfax!” exclaimed Emma. “Dear Mrs. Weston, how7397could you think of such a thing?--Mr. Knightley!--Mr. Knightley must not7398marry!--You would not have little Henry cut out from Donwell?--Oh! no,7399no, Henry must have Donwell. I cannot at all consent to Mr. Knightley's7400marrying; and I am sure it is not at all likely. I am amazed that you7401should think of such a thing.”74027403“My dear Emma, I have told you what led me to think of it. I do not want7404the match--I do not want to injure dear little Henry--but the idea has7405been given me by circumstances; and if Mr. Knightley really wished to7406marry, you would not have him refrain on Henry's account, a boy of six7407years old, who knows nothing of the matter?”74087409“Yes, I would. I could not bear to have Henry supplanted.--Mr.7410Knightley marry!--No, I have never had such an idea, and I cannot adopt7411it now. And Jane Fairfax, too, of all women!”74127413“Nay, she has always been a first favourite with him, as you very well7414know.”74157416“But the imprudence of such a match!”74177418“I am not speaking of its prudence; merely its probability.”74197420“I see no probability in it, unless you have any better foundation than7421what you mention. His good-nature, his humanity, as I tell you, would7422be quite enough to account for the horses. He has a great regard for the7423Bateses, you know, independent of Jane Fairfax--and is always glad to7424shew them attention. My dear Mrs. Weston, do not take to match-making.7425You do it very ill. Jane Fairfax mistress of the Abbey!--Oh! no,7426no;--every feeling revolts. For his own sake, I would not have him do so7427mad a thing.”74287429“Imprudent, if you please--but not mad. Excepting inequality of fortune,7430and perhaps a little disparity of age, I can see nothing unsuitable.”74317432“But Mr. Knightley does not want to marry. I am sure he has not the7433least idea of it. Do not put it into his head. Why should he marry?--He7434is as happy as possible by himself; with his farm, and his sheep, and7435his library, and all the parish to manage; and he is extremely fond of7436his brother's children. He has no occasion to marry, either to fill up7437his time or his heart.”74387439“My dear Emma, as long as he thinks so, it is so; but if he really loves7440Jane Fairfax--”74417442“Nonsense! He does not care about Jane Fairfax. In the way of love, I am7443sure he does not. He would do any good to her, or her family; but--”74447445“Well,” said Mrs. Weston, laughing, “perhaps the greatest good he could7446do them, would be to give Jane such a respectable home.”74477448“If it would be good to her, I am sure it would be evil to himself; a7449very shameful and degrading connexion. How would he bear to have Miss7450Bates belonging to him?--To have her haunting the Abbey, and thanking7451him all day long for his great kindness in marrying Jane?--'So very7452kind and obliging!--But he always had been such a very kind neighbour!'7453And then fly off, through half a sentence, to her mother's old7454petticoat. 'Not that it was such a very old petticoat either--for still7455it would last a great while--and, indeed, she must thankfully say that7456their petticoats were all very strong.'”74577458“For shame, Emma! Do not mimic her. You divert me against my conscience.7459And, upon my word, I do not think Mr. Knightley would be much disturbed7460by Miss Bates. Little things do not irritate him. She might talk on; and7461if he wanted to say any thing himself, he would only talk louder, and7462drown her voice. But the question is not, whether it would be a bad7463connexion for him, but whether he wishes it; and I think he does. I have7464heard him speak, and so must you, so very highly of Jane Fairfax! The7465interest he takes in her--his anxiety about her health--his concern that7466she should have no happier prospect! I have heard him express himself7467so warmly on those points!--Such an admirer of her performance on the7468pianoforte, and of her voice! I have heard him say that he could listen7469to her for ever. Oh! and I had almost forgotten one idea that occurred7470to me--this pianoforte that has been sent here by somebody--though7471we have all been so well satisfied to consider it a present from the7472Campbells, may it not be from Mr. Knightley? I cannot help suspecting7473him. I think he is just the person to do it, even without being in7474love.”74757476“Then it can be no argument to prove that he is in love. But I do not7477think it is at all a likely thing for him to do. Mr. Knightley does7478nothing mysteriously.”74797480“I have heard him lamenting her having no instrument repeatedly; oftener7481than I should suppose such a circumstance would, in the common course of7482things, occur to him.”74837484“Very well; and if he had intended to give her one, he would have told7485her so.”74867487“There might be scruples of delicacy, my dear Emma. I have a very strong7488notion that it comes from him. I am sure he was particularly silent when7489Mrs. Cole told us of it at dinner.”74907491“You take up an idea, Mrs. Weston, and run away with it; as you have7492many a time reproached me with doing. I see no sign of attachment--I7493believe nothing of the pianoforte--and proof only shall convince me that7494Mr. Knightley has any thought of marrying Jane Fairfax.”74957496They combated the point some time longer in the same way; Emma rather7497gaining ground over the mind of her friend; for Mrs. Weston was the most7498used of the two to yield; till a little bustle in the room shewed them7499that tea was over, and the instrument in preparation;--and at the same7500moment Mr. Cole approaching to entreat Miss Woodhouse would do them the7501honour of trying it. Frank Churchill, of whom, in the eagerness of her7502conversation with Mrs. Weston, she had been seeing nothing, except that7503he had found a seat by Miss Fairfax, followed Mr. Cole, to add his very7504pressing entreaties; and as, in every respect, it suited Emma best to7505lead, she gave a very proper compliance.75067507She knew the limitations of her own powers too well to attempt more than7508she could perform with credit; she wanted neither taste nor spirit in7509the little things which are generally acceptable, and could accompany7510her own voice well. One accompaniment to her song took her agreeably by7511surprize--a second, slightly but correctly taken by Frank Churchill. Her7512pardon was duly begged at the close of the song, and every thing usual7513followed. He was accused of having a delightful voice, and a perfect7514knowledge of music; which was properly denied; and that he knew nothing7515of the matter, and had no voice at all, roundly asserted. They sang7516together once more; and Emma would then resign her place to Miss7517Fairfax, whose performance, both vocal and instrumental, she never could7518attempt to conceal from herself, was infinitely superior to her own.75197520With mixed feelings, she seated herself at a little distance from the7521numbers round the instrument, to listen. Frank Churchill sang again.7522They had sung together once or twice, it appeared, at Weymouth. But the7523sight of Mr. Knightley among the most attentive, soon drew away half7524Emma's mind; and she fell into a train of thinking on the subject of7525Mrs. Weston's suspicions, to which the sweet sounds of the united voices7526gave only momentary interruptions. Her objections to Mr. Knightley's7527marrying did not in the least subside. She could see nothing but evil7528in it. It would be a great disappointment to Mr. John Knightley;7529consequently to Isabella. A real injury to the children--a most7530mortifying change, and material loss to them all;--a very great7531deduction from her father's daily comfort--and, as to herself, she could7532not at all endure the idea of Jane Fairfax at Donwell Abbey. A Mrs.7533Knightley for them all to give way to!--No--Mr. Knightley must never7534marry. Little Henry must remain the heir of Donwell.75357536Presently Mr. Knightley looked back, and came and sat down by her. They7537talked at first only of the performance. His admiration was certainly7538very warm; yet she thought, but for Mrs. Weston, it would not have7539struck her. As a sort of touchstone, however, she began to speak of his7540kindness in conveying the aunt and niece; and though his answer was in7541the spirit of cutting the matter short, she believed it to indicate only7542his disinclination to dwell on any kindness of his own.75437544“I often feel concern,” said she, “that I dare not make our carriage7545more useful on such occasions. It is not that I am without the wish; but7546you know how impossible my father would deem it that James should put-to7547for such a purpose.”75487549“Quite out of the question, quite out of the question,” he7550replied;--“but you must often wish it, I am sure.” And he smiled with7551such seeming pleasure at the conviction, that she must proceed another7552step.75537554“This present from the Campbells,” said she--“this pianoforte is very7555kindly given.”75567557“Yes,” he replied, and without the smallest apparent7558embarrassment.--“But they would have done better had they given7559her notice of it. Surprizes are foolish things. The pleasure is not7560enhanced, and the inconvenience is often considerable. I should have7561expected better judgment in Colonel Campbell.”75627563From that moment, Emma could have taken her oath that Mr. Knightley had7564had no concern in giving the instrument. But whether he were7565entirely free from peculiar attachment--whether there were no actual7566preference--remained a little longer doubtful. Towards the end of Jane's7567second song, her voice grew thick.75687569“That will do,” said he, when it was finished, thinking aloud--“you have7570sung quite enough for one evening--now be quiet.”75717572Another song, however, was soon begged for. “One more;--they would not7573fatigue Miss Fairfax on any account, and would only ask for one more.”7574And Frank Churchill was heard to say, “I think you could manage this7575without effort; the first part is so very trifling. The strength of the7576song falls on the second.”75777578Mr. Knightley grew angry.75797580“That fellow,” said he, indignantly, “thinks of nothing but shewing off7581his own voice. This must not be.” And touching Miss Bates, who at that7582moment passed near--“Miss Bates, are you mad, to let your niece sing7583herself hoarse in this manner? Go, and interfere. They have no mercy on7584her.”75857586Miss Bates, in her real anxiety for Jane, could hardly stay even to7587be grateful, before she stept forward and put an end to all farther7588singing. Here ceased the concert part of the evening, for Miss Woodhouse7589and Miss Fairfax were the only young lady performers; but soon (within7590five minutes) the proposal of dancing--originating nobody exactly knew7591where--was so effectually promoted by Mr. and Mrs. Cole, that every7592thing was rapidly clearing away, to give proper space. Mrs. Weston,7593capital in her country-dances, was seated, and beginning an irresistible7594waltz; and Frank Churchill, coming up with most becoming gallantry to7595Emma, had secured her hand, and led her up to the top.75967597While waiting till the other young people could pair themselves off,7598Emma found time, in spite of the compliments she was receiving on7599her voice and her taste, to look about, and see what became of Mr.7600Knightley. This would be a trial. He was no dancer in general. If he7601were to be very alert in engaging Jane Fairfax now, it might augur7602something. There was no immediate appearance. No; he was talking to Mrs.7603Cole--he was looking on unconcerned; Jane was asked by somebody else,7604and he was still talking to Mrs. Cole.76057606Emma had no longer an alarm for Henry; his interest was yet safe; and7607she led off the dance with genuine spirit and enjoyment. Not more than7608five couple could be mustered; but the rarity and the suddenness of7609it made it very delightful, and she found herself well matched in a7610partner. They were a couple worth looking at.76117612Two dances, unfortunately, were all that could be allowed. It was7613growing late, and Miss Bates became anxious to get home, on her mother's7614account. After some attempts, therefore, to be permitted to begin again,7615they were obliged to thank Mrs. Weston, look sorrowful, and have done.76167617“Perhaps it is as well,” said Frank Churchill, as he attended Emma to7618her carriage. “I must have asked Miss Fairfax, and her languid dancing7619would not have agreed with me, after yours.”7620762176227623CHAPTER IX762476257626Emma did not repent her condescension in going to the Coles. The visit7627afforded her many pleasant recollections the next day; and all that she7628might be supposed to have lost on the side of dignified seclusion, must7629be amply repaid in the splendour of popularity. She must have delighted7630the Coles--worthy people, who deserved to be made happy!--And left a7631name behind her that would not soon die away.76327633Perfect happiness, even in memory, is not common; and there were two7634points on which she was not quite easy. She doubted whether she had not7635transgressed the duty of woman by woman, in betraying her suspicions of7636Jane Fairfax's feelings to Frank Churchill. It was hardly right; but it7637had been so strong an idea, that it would escape her, and his submission7638to all that she told, was a compliment to her penetration, which made7639it difficult for her to be quite certain that she ought to have held her7640tongue.76417642The other circumstance of regret related also to Jane Fairfax; and7643there she had no doubt. She did unfeignedly and unequivocally regret the7644inferiority of her own playing and singing. She did most heartily7645grieve over the idleness of her childhood--and sat down and practised7646vigorously an hour and a half.76477648She was then interrupted by Harriet's coming in; and if Harriet's praise7649could have satisfied her, she might soon have been comforted.76507651“Oh! if I could but play as well as you and Miss Fairfax!”76527653“Don't class us together, Harriet. My playing is no more like her's,7654than a lamp is like sunshine.”76557656“Oh! dear--I think you play the best of the two. I think you play quite7657as well as she does. I am sure I had much rather hear you. Every body7658last night said how well you played.”76597660“Those who knew any thing about it, must have felt the difference. The7661truth is, Harriet, that my playing is just good enough to be praised,7662but Jane Fairfax's is much beyond it.”76637664“Well, I always shall think that you play quite as well as she does, or7665that if there is any difference nobody would ever find it out. Mr. Cole7666said how much taste you had; and Mr. Frank Churchill talked a great deal7667about your taste, and that he valued taste much more than execution.”76687669“Ah! but Jane Fairfax has them both, Harriet.”76707671“Are you sure? I saw she had execution, but I did not know she had any7672taste. Nobody talked about it. And I hate Italian singing.--There is no7673understanding a word of it. Besides, if she does play so very well, you7674know, it is no more than she is obliged to do, because she will have to7675teach. The Coxes were wondering last night whether she would get into7676any great family. How did you think the Coxes looked?”76777678“Just as they always do--very vulgar.”76797680“They told me something,” said Harriet rather hesitatingly; “but it is7681nothing of any consequence.”76827683Emma was obliged to ask what they had told her, though fearful of its7684producing Mr. Elton.76857686“They told me--that Mr. Martin dined with them last Saturday.”76877688“Oh!”76897690“He came to their father upon some business, and he asked him to stay to7691dinner.”76927693“Oh!”76947695“They talked a great deal about him, especially Anne Cox. I do not know7696what she meant, but she asked me if I thought I should go and stay there7697again next summer.”76987699“She meant to be impertinently curious, just as such an Anne Cox should7700be.”77017702“She said he was very agreeable the day he dined there. He sat by her at7703dinner. Miss Nash thinks either of the Coxes would be very glad to marry7704him.”77057706“Very likely.--I think they are, without exception, the most vulgar7707girls in Highbury.”77087709Harriet had business at Ford's.--Emma thought it most prudent to go with7710her. Another accidental meeting with the Martins was possible, and in7711her present state, would be dangerous.77127713Harriet, tempted by every thing and swayed by half a word, was always7714very long at a purchase; and while she was still hanging over muslins7715and changing her mind, Emma went to the door for amusement.--Much could7716not be hoped from the traffic of even the busiest part of Highbury;--Mr.7717Perry walking hastily by, Mr. William Cox letting himself in at the7718office-door, Mr. Cole's carriage-horses returning from exercise, or a7719stray letter-boy on an obstinate mule, were the liveliest objects she7720could presume to expect; and when her eyes fell only on the butcher with7721his tray, a tidy old woman travelling homewards from shop with her full7722basket, two curs quarrelling over a dirty bone, and a string of dawdling7723children round the baker's little bow-window eyeing the gingerbread, she7724knew she had no reason to complain, and was amused enough; quite enough7725still to stand at the door. A mind lively and at ease, can do with7726seeing nothing, and can see nothing that does not answer.77277728She looked down the Randalls road. The scene enlarged; two persons7729appeared; Mrs. Weston and her son-in-law; they were walking into7730Highbury;--to Hartfield of course. They were stopping, however, in the7731first place at Mrs. Bates's; whose house was a little nearer7732Randalls than Ford's; and had all but knocked, when Emma caught their7733eye.--Immediately they crossed the road and came forward to her; and the7734agreeableness of yesterday's engagement seemed to give fresh pleasure to7735the present meeting. Mrs. Weston informed her that she was going to call7736on the Bateses, in order to hear the new instrument.77377738“For my companion tells me,” said she, “that I absolutely promised Miss7739Bates last night, that I would come this morning. I was not aware of it7740myself. I did not know that I had fixed a day, but as he says I did, I7741am going now.”77427743“And while Mrs. Weston pays her visit, I may be allowed, I hope,” said7744Frank Churchill, “to join your party and wait for her at Hartfield--if7745you are going home.”77467747Mrs. Weston was disappointed.77487749“I thought you meant to go with me. They would be very much pleased.”77507751“Me! I should be quite in the way. But, perhaps--I may be equally in the7752way here. Miss Woodhouse looks as if she did not want me. My aunt always7753sends me off when she is shopping. She says I fidget her to death; and7754Miss Woodhouse looks as if she could almost say the same. What am I to7755do?”77567757“I am here on no business of my own,” said Emma; “I am only waiting for7758my friend. She will probably have soon done, and then we shall go home.7759But you had better go with Mrs. Weston and hear the instrument.”77607761“Well--if you advise it.--But (with a smile) if Colonel Campbell should7762have employed a careless friend, and if it should prove to have an7763indifferent tone--what shall I say? I shall be no support to Mrs.7764Weston. She might do very well by herself. A disagreeable truth would be7765palatable through her lips, but I am the wretchedest being in the world7766at a civil falsehood.”77677768“I do not believe any such thing,” replied Emma.--“I am persuaded that7769you can be as insincere as your neighbours, when it is necessary; but7770there is no reason to suppose the instrument is indifferent. Quite7771otherwise indeed, if I understood Miss Fairfax's opinion last night.”77727773“Do come with me,” said Mrs. Weston, “if it be not very disagreeable to7774you. It need not detain us long. We will go to Hartfield afterwards.7775We will follow them to Hartfield. I really wish you to call with me. It7776will be felt so great an attention! and I always thought you meant it.”77777778He could say no more; and with the hope of Hartfield to reward him,7779returned with Mrs. Weston to Mrs. Bates's door. Emma watched them in,7780and then joined Harriet at the interesting counter,--trying, with all7781the force of her own mind, to convince her that if she wanted plain7782muslin it was of no use to look at figured; and that a blue ribbon, be7783it ever so beautiful, would still never match her yellow pattern. At7784last it was all settled, even to the destination of the parcel.77857786“Should I send it to Mrs. Goddard's, ma'am?” asked Mrs.7787Ford.--“Yes--no--yes, to Mrs. Goddard's. Only my pattern gown is at7788Hartfield. No, you shall send it to Hartfield, if you please. But then,7789Mrs. Goddard will want to see it.--And I could take the pattern gown7790home any day. But I shall want the ribbon directly--so it had better go7791to Hartfield--at least the ribbon. You could make it into two parcels,7792Mrs. Ford, could not you?”77937794“It is not worth while, Harriet, to give Mrs. Ford the trouble of two7795parcels.”77967797“No more it is.”77987799“No trouble in the world, ma'am,” said the obliging Mrs. Ford.78007801“Oh! but indeed I would much rather have it only in one. Then, if you7802please, you shall send it all to Mrs. Goddard's--I do not know--No, I7803think, Miss Woodhouse, I may just as well have it sent to Hartfield, and7804take it home with me at night. What do you advise?”78057806“That you do not give another half-second to the subject. To Hartfield,7807if you please, Mrs. Ford.”78087809“Aye, that will be much best,” said Harriet, quite satisfied, “I should7810not at all like to have it sent to Mrs. Goddard's.”78117812Voices approached the shop--or rather one voice and two ladies: Mrs.7813Weston and Miss Bates met them at the door.78147815“My dear Miss Woodhouse,” said the latter, “I am just run across to7816entreat the favour of you to come and sit down with us a little while,7817and give us your opinion of our new instrument; you and Miss Smith. How7818do you do, Miss Smith?--Very well I thank you.--And I begged Mrs. Weston7819to come with me, that I might be sure of succeeding.”78207821“I hope Mrs. Bates and Miss Fairfax are--”78227823“Very well, I am much obliged to you. My mother is delightfully well;7824and Jane caught no cold last night. How is Mr. Woodhouse?--I am so glad7825to hear such a good account. Mrs. Weston told me you were here.--Oh!7826then, said I, I must run across, I am sure Miss Woodhouse will allow me7827just to run across and entreat her to come in; my mother will be so7828very happy to see her--and now we are such a nice party, she cannot7829refuse.--'Aye, pray do,' said Mr. Frank Churchill, 'Miss Woodhouse's7830opinion of the instrument will be worth having.'--But, said I, I shall7831be more sure of succeeding if one of you will go with me.--'Oh,' said7832he, 'wait half a minute, till I have finished my job;'--For, would you7833believe it, Miss Woodhouse, there he is, in the most obliging manner in7834the world, fastening in the rivet of my mother's spectacles.--The rivet7835came out, you know, this morning.--So very obliging!--For my mother had7836no use of her spectacles--could not put them on. And, by the bye, every7837body ought to have two pair of spectacles; they should indeed. Jane said7838so. I meant to take them over to John Saunders the first thing I did,7839but something or other hindered me all the morning; first one thing,7840then another, there is no saying what, you know. At one time Patty came7841to say she thought the kitchen chimney wanted sweeping. Oh, said I,7842Patty do not come with your bad news to me. Here is the rivet of your7843mistress's spectacles out. Then the baked apples came home, Mrs. Wallis7844sent them by her boy; they are extremely civil and obliging to us, the7845Wallises, always--I have heard some people say that Mrs. Wallis can be7846uncivil and give a very rude answer, but we have never known any thing7847but the greatest attention from them. And it cannot be for the value7848of our custom now, for what is our consumption of bread, you know?7849Only three of us.--besides dear Jane at present--and she really eats7850nothing--makes such a shocking breakfast, you would be quite frightened7851if you saw it. I dare not let my mother know how little she eats--so I7852say one thing and then I say another, and it passes off. But about the7853middle of the day she gets hungry, and there is nothing she likes so7854well as these baked apples, and they are extremely wholesome, for I took7855the opportunity the other day of asking Mr. Perry; I happened to meet7856him in the street. Not that I had any doubt before--I have so often7857heard Mr. Woodhouse recommend a baked apple. I believe it is the only7858way that Mr. Woodhouse thinks the fruit thoroughly wholesome. We7859have apple-dumplings, however, very often. Patty makes an excellent7860apple-dumpling. Well, Mrs. Weston, you have prevailed, I hope, and these7861ladies will oblige us.”78627863Emma would be “very happy to wait on Mrs. Bates, &c.,” and they did at7864last move out of the shop, with no farther delay from Miss Bates than,78657866“How do you do, Mrs. Ford? I beg your pardon. I did not see you before.7867I hear you have a charming collection of new ribbons from town. Jane7868came back delighted yesterday. Thank ye, the gloves do very well--only a7869little too large about the wrist; but Jane is taking them in.”78707871“What was I talking of?” said she, beginning again when they were all in7872the street.78737874Emma wondered on what, of all the medley, she would fix.78757876“I declare I cannot recollect what I was talking of.--Oh! my mother's7877spectacles. So very obliging of Mr. Frank Churchill! 'Oh!' said he,7878'I do think I can fasten the rivet; I like a job of this kind7879excessively.'--Which you know shewed him to be so very.... Indeed I must7880say that, much as I had heard of him before and much as I had expected,7881he very far exceeds any thing.... I do congratulate you, Mrs. Weston,7882most warmly. He seems every thing the fondest parent could....7883'Oh!' said he, 'I can fasten the rivet. I like a job of that sort7884excessively.' I never shall forget his manner. And when I brought out7885the baked apples from the closet, and hoped our friends would be so very7886obliging as to take some, 'Oh!' said he directly, 'there is nothing7887in the way of fruit half so good, and these are the finest-looking7888home-baked apples I ever saw in my life.' That, you know, was so7889very.... And I am sure, by his manner, it was no compliment. Indeed they7890are very delightful apples, and Mrs. Wallis does them full justice--only7891we do not have them baked more than twice, and Mr. Woodhouse made us7892promise to have them done three times--but Miss Woodhouse will be so7893good as not to mention it. The apples themselves are the very finest7894sort for baking, beyond a doubt; all from Donwell--some of Mr.7895Knightley's most liberal supply. He sends us a sack every year; and7896certainly there never was such a keeping apple anywhere as one of his7897trees--I believe there is two of them. My mother says the orchard was7898always famous in her younger days. But I was really quite shocked the7899other day--for Mr. Knightley called one morning, and Jane was eating7900these apples, and we talked about them and said how much she enjoyed7901them, and he asked whether we were not got to the end of our stock. 'I7902am sure you must be,' said he, 'and I will send you another supply; for7903I have a great many more than I can ever use. William Larkins let me7904keep a larger quantity than usual this year. I will send you some more,7905before they get good for nothing.' So I begged he would not--for really7906as to ours being gone, I could not absolutely say that we had a great7907many left--it was but half a dozen indeed; but they should be all kept7908for Jane; and I could not at all bear that he should be sending us more,7909so liberal as he had been already; and Jane said the same. And when7910he was gone, she almost quarrelled with me--No, I should not say7911quarrelled, for we never had a quarrel in our lives; but she was quite7912distressed that I had owned the apples were so nearly gone; she wished7913I had made him believe we had a great many left. Oh, said I, my dear,7914I did say as much as I could. However, the very same evening William7915Larkins came over with a large basket of apples, the same sort of7916apples, a bushel at least, and I was very much obliged, and went down7917and spoke to William Larkins and said every thing, as you may suppose.7918William Larkins is such an old acquaintance! I am always glad to see7919him. But, however, I found afterwards from Patty, that William said it7920was all the apples of _that_ sort his master had; he had brought them7921all--and now his master had not one left to bake or boil. William did7922not seem to mind it himself, he was so pleased to think his master had7923sold so many; for William, you know, thinks more of his master's profit7924than any thing; but Mrs. Hodges, he said, was quite displeased at their7925being all sent away. She could not bear that her master should not be7926able to have another apple-tart this spring. He told Patty this, but bid7927her not mind it, and be sure not to say any thing to us about it, for7928Mrs. Hodges _would_ be cross sometimes, and as long as so many sacks7929were sold, it did not signify who ate the remainder. And so Patty told7930me, and I was excessively shocked indeed! I would not have Mr. Knightley7931know any thing about it for the world! He would be so very.... I wanted7932to keep it from Jane's knowledge; but, unluckily, I had mentioned it7933before I was aware.”79347935Miss Bates had just done as Patty opened the door; and her visitors7936walked upstairs without having any regular narration to attend to,7937pursued only by the sounds of her desultory good-will.79387939“Pray take care, Mrs. Weston, there is a step at the turning. Pray take7940care, Miss Woodhouse, ours is rather a dark staircase--rather darker7941and narrower than one could wish. Miss Smith, pray take care. Miss7942Woodhouse, I am quite concerned, I am sure you hit your foot. Miss7943Smith, the step at the turning.”7944794579467947CHAPTER X794879497950The appearance of the little sitting-room as they entered, was7951tranquillity itself; Mrs. Bates, deprived of her usual employment,7952slumbering on one side of the fire, Frank Churchill, at a table near7953her, most deedily occupied about her spectacles, and Jane Fairfax,7954standing with her back to them, intent on her pianoforte.79557956Busy as he was, however, the young man was yet able to shew a most happy7957countenance on seeing Emma again.79587959“This is a pleasure,” said he, in rather a low voice, “coming at least7960ten minutes earlier than I had calculated. You find me trying to be7961useful; tell me if you think I shall succeed.”79627963“What!” said Mrs. Weston, “have not you finished it yet? you would not7964earn a very good livelihood as a working silversmith at this rate.”79657966“I have not been working uninterruptedly,” he replied, “I have been7967assisting Miss Fairfax in trying to make her instrument stand steadily,7968it was not quite firm; an unevenness in the floor, I believe. You see7969we have been wedging one leg with paper. This was very kind of you to be7970persuaded to come. I was almost afraid you would be hurrying home.”79717972He contrived that she should be seated by him; and was sufficiently7973employed in looking out the best baked apple for her, and trying to make7974her help or advise him in his work, till Jane Fairfax was quite ready7975to sit down to the pianoforte again. That she was not immediately ready,7976Emma did suspect to arise from the state of her nerves; she had not yet7977possessed the instrument long enough to touch it without emotion; she7978must reason herself into the power of performance; and Emma could not7979but pity such feelings, whatever their origin, and could not but resolve7980never to expose them to her neighbour again.79817982At last Jane began, and though the first bars were feebly given, the7983powers of the instrument were gradually done full justice to. Mrs.7984Weston had been delighted before, and was delighted again; Emma7985joined her in all her praise; and the pianoforte, with every proper7986discrimination, was pronounced to be altogether of the highest promise.79877988“Whoever Colonel Campbell might employ,” said Frank Churchill, with a7989smile at Emma, “the person has not chosen ill. I heard a good deal of7990Colonel Campbell's taste at Weymouth; and the softness of the upper7991notes I am sure is exactly what he and _all_ _that_ _party_ would7992particularly prize. I dare say, Miss Fairfax, that he either gave his7993friend very minute directions, or wrote to Broadwood himself. Do not you7994think so?”79957996Jane did not look round. She was not obliged to hear. Mrs. Weston had7997been speaking to her at the same moment.79987999“It is not fair,” said Emma, in a whisper; “mine was a random guess. Do8000not distress her.”80018002He shook his head with a smile, and looked as if he had very little8003doubt and very little mercy. Soon afterwards he began again,80048005“How much your friends in Ireland must be enjoying your pleasure on this8006occasion, Miss Fairfax. I dare say they often think of you, and wonder8007which will be the day, the precise day of the instrument's coming to8008hand. Do you imagine Colonel Campbell knows the business to be going8009forward just at this time?--Do you imagine it to be the consequence8010of an immediate commission from him, or that he may have sent only8011a general direction, an order indefinite as to time, to depend upon8012contingencies and conveniences?”80138014He paused. She could not but hear; she could not avoid answering,80158016“Till I have a letter from Colonel Campbell,” said she, in a voice of8017forced calmness, “I can imagine nothing with any confidence. It must be8018all conjecture.”80198020“Conjecture--aye, sometimes one conjectures right, and sometimes one8021conjectures wrong. I wish I could conjecture how soon I shall make this8022rivet quite firm. What nonsense one talks, Miss Woodhouse, when hard8023at work, if one talks at all;--your real workmen, I suppose, hold their8024tongues; but we gentlemen labourers if we get hold of a word--Miss8025Fairfax said something about conjecturing. There, it is done. I have the8026pleasure, madam, (to Mrs. Bates,) of restoring your spectacles, healed8027for the present.”80288029He was very warmly thanked both by mother and daughter; to escape a8030little from the latter, he went to the pianoforte, and begged Miss8031Fairfax, who was still sitting at it, to play something more.80328033“If you are very kind,” said he, “it will be one of the waltzes we8034danced last night;--let me live them over again. You did not enjoy them8035as I did; you appeared tired the whole time. I believe you were glad we8036danced no longer; but I would have given worlds--all the worlds one ever8037has to give--for another half-hour.”80388039She played.80408041“What felicity it is to hear a tune again which _has_ made one8042happy!--If I mistake not that was danced at Weymouth.”80438044She looked up at him for a moment, coloured deeply, and played something8045else. He took some music from a chair near the pianoforte, and turning8046to Emma, said,80478048“Here is something quite new to me. Do you know it?--Cramer.--And here8049are a new set of Irish melodies. That, from such a quarter, one might8050expect. This was all sent with the instrument. Very thoughtful of8051Colonel Campbell, was not it?--He knew Miss Fairfax could have no music8052here. I honour that part of the attention particularly; it shews it to8053have been so thoroughly from the heart. Nothing hastily done; nothing8054incomplete. True affection only could have prompted it.”80558056Emma wished he would be less pointed, yet could not help being amused;8057and when on glancing her eye towards Jane Fairfax she caught the remains8058of a smile, when she saw that with all the deep blush of consciousness,8059there had been a smile of secret delight, she had less scruple in the8060amusement, and much less compunction with respect to her.--This8061amiable, upright, perfect Jane Fairfax was apparently cherishing very8062reprehensible feelings.80638064He brought all the music to her, and they looked it over together.--Emma8065took the opportunity of whispering,80668067“You speak too plain. She must understand you.”80688069“I hope she does. I would have her understand me. I am not in the least8070ashamed of my meaning.”80718072“But really, I am half ashamed, and wish I had never taken up the idea.”80738074“I am very glad you did, and that you communicated it to me. I have now8075a key to all her odd looks and ways. Leave shame to her. If she does8076wrong, she ought to feel it.”80778078“She is not entirely without it, I think.”80798080“I do not see much sign of it. She is playing _Robin_ _Adair_ at this8081moment--_his_ favourite.”80828083Shortly afterwards Miss Bates, passing near the window, descried Mr.8084Knightley on horse-back not far off.80858086“Mr. Knightley I declare!--I must speak to him if possible, just to8087thank him. I will not open the window here; it would give you all cold;8088but I can go into my mother's room you know. I dare say he will come8089in when he knows who is here. Quite delightful to have you all meet8090so!--Our little room so honoured!”80918092She was in the adjoining chamber while she still spoke, and opening the8093casement there, immediately called Mr. Knightley's attention, and every8094syllable of their conversation was as distinctly heard by the others, as8095if it had passed within the same apartment.80968097“How d' ye do?--how d'ye do?--Very well, I thank you. So obliged to you8098for the carriage last night. We were just in time; my mother just ready8099for us. Pray come in; do come in. You will find some friends here.”81008101So began Miss Bates; and Mr. Knightley seemed determined to be heard in8102his turn, for most resolutely and commandingly did he say,81038104“How is your niece, Miss Bates?--I want to inquire after you all, but8105particularly your niece. How is Miss Fairfax?--I hope she caught no cold8106last night. How is she to-day? Tell me how Miss Fairfax is.”81078108And Miss Bates was obliged to give a direct answer before he would hear8109her in any thing else. The listeners were amused; and Mrs. Weston gave8110Emma a look of particular meaning. But Emma still shook her head in8111steady scepticism.81128113“So obliged to you!--so very much obliged to you for the carriage,”8114resumed Miss Bates.81158116He cut her short with,81178118“I am going to Kingston. Can I do any thing for you?”81198120“Oh! dear, Kingston--are you?--Mrs. Cole was saying the other day she8121wanted something from Kingston.”81228123“Mrs. Cole has servants to send. Can I do any thing for _you_?”81248125“No, I thank you. But do come in. Who do you think is here?--Miss8126Woodhouse and Miss Smith; so kind as to call to hear the new pianoforte.8127Do put up your horse at the Crown, and come in.”81288129“Well,” said he, in a deliberating manner, “for five minutes, perhaps.”81308131“And here is Mrs. Weston and Mr. Frank Churchill too!--Quite delightful;8132so many friends!”81338134“No, not now, I thank you. I could not stay two minutes. I must get on8135to Kingston as fast as I can.”81368137“Oh! do come in. They will be so very happy to see you.”81388139“No, no; your room is full enough. I will call another day, and hear the8140pianoforte.”81418142“Well, I am so sorry!--Oh! Mr. Knightley, what a delightful party last8143night; how extremely pleasant.--Did you ever see such dancing?--Was not8144it delightful?--Miss Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill; I never saw any8145thing equal to it.”81468147“Oh! very delightful indeed; I can say nothing less, for I suppose Miss8148Woodhouse and Mr. Frank Churchill are hearing every thing that passes.8149And (raising his voice still more) I do not see why Miss Fairfax should8150not be mentioned too. I think Miss Fairfax dances very well; and Mrs.8151Weston is the very best country-dance player, without exception,8152in England. Now, if your friends have any gratitude, they will say8153something pretty loud about you and me in return; but I cannot stay to8154hear it.”81558156“Oh! Mr. Knightley, one moment more; something of consequence--so8157shocked!--Jane and I are both so shocked about the apples!”81588159“What is the matter now?”81608161“To think of your sending us all your store apples. You said you had8162a great many, and now you have not one left. We really are so shocked!8163Mrs. Hodges may well be angry. William Larkins mentioned it here. You8164should not have done it, indeed you should not. Ah! he is off. He never8165can bear to be thanked. But I thought he would have staid now, and it8166would have been a pity not to have mentioned.... Well, (returning to the8167room,) I have not been able to succeed. Mr. Knightley cannot stop. He is8168going to Kingston. He asked me if he could do any thing....”81698170“Yes,” said Jane, “we heard his kind offers, we heard every thing.”81718172“Oh! yes, my dear, I dare say you might, because you know, the door was8173open, and the window was open, and Mr. Knightley spoke loud. You must8174have heard every thing to be sure. 'Can I do any thing for you at8175Kingston?' said he; so I just mentioned.... Oh! Miss Woodhouse, must you8176be going?--You seem but just come--so very obliging of you.”81778178Emma found it really time to be at home; the visit had already lasted8179long; and on examining watches, so much of the morning was perceived8180to be gone, that Mrs. Weston and her companion taking leave also, could8181allow themselves only to walk with the two young ladies to Hartfield8182gates, before they set off for Randalls.8183818481858186CHAPTER XI818781888189It may be possible to do without dancing entirely. Instances have been8190known of young people passing many, many months successively, without8191being at any ball of any description, and no material injury accrue8192either to body or mind;--but when a beginning is made--when the8193felicities of rapid motion have once been, though slightly, felt--it8194must be a very heavy set that does not ask for more.81958196Frank Churchill had danced once at Highbury, and longed to dance again;8197and the last half-hour of an evening which Mr. Woodhouse was persuaded8198to spend with his daughter at Randalls, was passed by the two young8199people in schemes on the subject. Frank's was the first idea; and his8200the greatest zeal in pursuing it; for the lady was the best judge of the8201difficulties, and the most solicitous for accommodation and appearance.8202But still she had inclination enough for shewing people again how8203delightfully Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse danced--for8204doing that in which she need not blush to compare herself with Jane8205Fairfax--and even for simple dancing itself, without any of the wicked8206aids of vanity--to assist him first in pacing out the room they were in8207to see what it could be made to hold--and then in taking the dimensions8208of the other parlour, in the hope of discovering, in spite of all that8209Mr. Weston could say of their exactly equal size, that it was a little8210the largest.82118212His first proposition and request, that the dance begun at Mr. Cole's8213should be finished there--that the same party should be collected,8214and the same musician engaged, met with the readiest acquiescence. Mr.8215Weston entered into the idea with thorough enjoyment, and Mrs. Weston8216most willingly undertook to play as long as they could wish to dance;8217and the interesting employment had followed, of reckoning up exactly who8218there would be, and portioning out the indispensable division of space8219to every couple.82208221“You and Miss Smith, and Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss8222Coxes five,” had been repeated many times over. “And there will be the8223two Gilberts, young Cox, my father, and myself, besides Mr. Knightley.8224Yes, that will be quite enough for pleasure. You and Miss Smith, and8225Miss Fairfax, will be three, and the two Miss Coxes five; and for five8226couple there will be plenty of room.”82278228But soon it came to be on one side,82298230“But will there be good room for five couple?--I really do not think8231there will.”82328233On another,82348235“And after all, five couple are not enough to make it worth while to8236stand up. Five couple are nothing, when one thinks seriously about it.8237It will not do to _invite_ five couple. It can be allowable only as the8238thought of the moment.”82398240Somebody said that _Miss_ Gilbert was expected at her brother's, and8241must be invited with the rest. Somebody else believed _Mrs_. Gilbert8242would have danced the other evening, if she had been asked. A word was8243put in for a second young Cox; and at last, Mr. Weston naming one family8244of cousins who must be included, and another of very old acquaintance8245who could not be left out, it became a certainty that the five couple8246would be at least ten, and a very interesting speculation in what8247possible manner they could be disposed of.82488249The doors of the two rooms were just opposite each other. “Might not8250they use both rooms, and dance across the passage?” It seemed the8251best scheme; and yet it was not so good but that many of them wanted a8252better. Emma said it would be awkward; Mrs. Weston was in distress about8253the supper; and Mr. Woodhouse opposed it earnestly, on the score of8254health. It made him so very unhappy, indeed, that it could not be8255persevered in.82568257“Oh! no,” said he; “it would be the extreme of imprudence. I could not8258bear it for Emma!--Emma is not strong. She would catch a dreadful cold.8259So would poor little Harriet. So you would all. Mrs. Weston, you would8260be quite laid up; do not let them talk of such a wild thing. Pray do8261not let them talk of it. That young man (speaking lower) is very8262thoughtless. Do not tell his father, but that young man is not quite8263the thing. He has been opening the doors very often this evening,8264and keeping them open very inconsiderately. He does not think of the8265draught. I do not mean to set you against him, but indeed he is not8266quite the thing!”82678268Mrs. Weston was sorry for such a charge. She knew the importance of8269it, and said every thing in her power to do it away. Every door was now8270closed, the passage plan given up, and the first scheme of dancing only8271in the room they were in resorted to again; and with such good-will on8272Frank Churchill's part, that the space which a quarter of an hour before8273had been deemed barely sufficient for five couple, was now endeavoured8274to be made out quite enough for ten.82758276“We were too magnificent,” said he. “We allowed unnecessary room. Ten8277couple may stand here very well.”82788279Emma demurred. “It would be a crowd--a sad crowd; and what could be8280worse than dancing without space to turn in?”82818282“Very true,” he gravely replied; “it was very bad.” But still he went on8283measuring, and still he ended with,82848285“I think there will be very tolerable room for ten couple.”82868287“No, no,” said she, “you are quite unreasonable. It would be dreadful8288to be standing so close! Nothing can be farther from pleasure than to be8289dancing in a crowd--and a crowd in a little room!”82908291“There is no denying it,” he replied. “I agree with you exactly. A crowd8292in a little room--Miss Woodhouse, you have the art of giving pictures8293in a few words. Exquisite, quite exquisite!--Still, however, having8294proceeded so far, one is unwilling to give the matter up. It would be8295a disappointment to my father--and altogether--I do not know that--I am8296rather of opinion that ten couple might stand here very well.”82978298Emma perceived that the nature of his gallantry was a little8299self-willed, and that he would rather oppose than lose the pleasure of8300dancing with her; but she took the compliment, and forgave the rest.8301Had she intended ever to _marry_ him, it might have been worth while to8302pause and consider, and try to understand the value of his preference,8303and the character of his temper; but for all the purposes of their8304acquaintance, he was quite amiable enough.83058306Before the middle of the next day, he was at Hartfield; and he entered8307the room with such an agreeable smile as certified the continuance of8308the scheme. It soon appeared that he came to announce an improvement.83098310“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” he almost immediately began, “your inclination8311for dancing has not been quite frightened away, I hope, by the terrors8312of my father's little rooms. I bring a new proposal on the subject:--a8313thought of my father's, which waits only your approbation to be acted8314upon. May I hope for the honour of your hand for the two first dances8315of this little projected ball, to be given, not at Randalls, but at the8316Crown Inn?”83178318“The Crown!”83198320“Yes; if you and Mr. Woodhouse see no objection, and I trust you cannot,8321my father hopes his friends will be so kind as to visit him there.8322Better accommodations, he can promise them, and not a less grateful8323welcome than at Randalls. It is his own idea. Mrs. Weston sees no8324objection to it, provided you are satisfied. This is what we all feel.8325Oh! you were perfectly right! Ten couple, in either of the Randalls8326rooms, would have been insufferable!--Dreadful!--I felt how right you8327were the whole time, but was too anxious for securing _any_ _thing_8328to like to yield. Is not it a good exchange?--You consent--I hope you8329consent?”83308331“It appears to me a plan that nobody can object to, if Mr. and Mrs.8332Weston do not. I think it admirable; and, as far as I can answer for8333myself, shall be most happy--It seems the only improvement that could8334be. Papa, do you not think it an excellent improvement?”83358336She was obliged to repeat and explain it, before it was fully8337comprehended; and then, being quite new, farther representations were8338necessary to make it acceptable.83398340“No; he thought it very far from an improvement--a very bad plan--much8341worse than the other. A room at an inn was always damp and dangerous;8342never properly aired, or fit to be inhabited. If they must dance, they8343had better dance at Randalls. He had never been in the room at the Crown8344in his life--did not know the people who kept it by sight.--Oh! no--a8345very bad plan. They would catch worse colds at the Crown than anywhere.”83468347“I was going to observe, sir,” said Frank Churchill, “that one of the8348great recommendations of this change would be the very little danger8349of any body's catching cold--so much less danger at the Crown than at8350Randalls! Mr. Perry might have reason to regret the alteration, but8351nobody else could.”83528353“Sir,” said Mr. Woodhouse, rather warmly, “you are very much mistaken8354if you suppose Mr. Perry to be that sort of character. Mr. Perry is8355extremely concerned when any of us are ill. But I do not understand how8356the room at the Crown can be safer for you than your father's house.”83578358“From the very circumstance of its being larger, sir. We shall have no8359occasion to open the windows at all--not once the whole evening; and it8360is that dreadful habit of opening the windows, letting in cold air upon8361heated bodies, which (as you well know, sir) does the mischief.”83628363“Open the windows!--but surely, Mr. Churchill, nobody would think of8364opening the windows at Randalls. Nobody could be so imprudent! I never8365heard of such a thing. Dancing with open windows!--I am sure, neither8366your father nor Mrs. Weston (poor Miss Taylor that was) would suffer8367it.”83688369“Ah! sir--but a thoughtless young person will sometimes step behind a8370window-curtain, and throw up a sash, without its being suspected. I have8371often known it done myself.”83728373“Have you indeed, sir?--Bless me! I never could have supposed it. But I8374live out of the world, and am often astonished at what I hear. However,8375this does make a difference; and, perhaps, when we come to talk it8376over--but these sort of things require a good deal of consideration. One8377cannot resolve upon them in a hurry. If Mr. and Mrs. Weston will be so8378obliging as to call here one morning, we may talk it over, and see what8379can be done.”83808381“But, unfortunately, sir, my time is so limited--”83828383“Oh!” interrupted Emma, “there will be plenty of time for talking every8384thing over. There is no hurry at all. If it can be contrived to be at8385the Crown, papa, it will be very convenient for the horses. They will be8386so near their own stable.”83878388“So they will, my dear. That is a great thing. Not that James ever8389complains; but it is right to spare our horses when we can. If I could8390be sure of the rooms being thoroughly aired--but is Mrs. Stokes to be8391trusted? I doubt it. I do not know her, even by sight.”83928393“I can answer for every thing of that nature, sir, because it will be8394under Mrs. Weston's care. Mrs. Weston undertakes to direct the whole.”83958396“There, papa!--Now you must be satisfied--Our own dear Mrs. Weston, who8397is carefulness itself. Do not you remember what Mr. Perry said, so many8398years ago, when I had the measles? 'If _Miss_ _Taylor_ undertakes to8399wrap Miss Emma up, you need not have any fears, sir.' How often have I8400heard you speak of it as such a compliment to her!”84018402“Aye, very true. Mr. Perry did say so. I shall never forget it. Poor8403little Emma! You were very bad with the measles; that is, you would have8404been very bad, but for Perry's great attention. He came four times a day8405for a week. He said, from the first, it was a very good sort--which8406was our great comfort; but the measles are a dreadful complaint. I hope8407whenever poor Isabella's little ones have the measles, she will send for8408Perry.”84098410“My father and Mrs. Weston are at the Crown at this moment,” said Frank8411Churchill, “examining the capabilities of the house. I left them there8412and came on to Hartfield, impatient for your opinion, and hoping you8413might be persuaded to join them and give your advice on the spot. I was8414desired to say so from both. It would be the greatest pleasure to8415them, if you could allow me to attend you there. They can do nothing8416satisfactorily without you.”84178418Emma was most happy to be called to such a council; and her father,8419engaging to think it all over while she was gone, the two young people8420set off together without delay for the Crown. There were Mr. and Mrs.8421Weston; delighted to see her and receive her approbation, very busy and8422very happy in their different way; she, in some little distress; and he,8423finding every thing perfect.84248425“Emma,” said she, “this paper is worse than I expected. Look! in places8426you see it is dreadfully dirty; and the wainscot is more yellow and8427forlorn than any thing I could have imagined.”84288429“My dear, you are too particular,” said her husband. “What does all that8430signify? You will see nothing of it by candlelight. It will be as8431clean as Randalls by candlelight. We never see any thing of it on our8432club-nights.”84338434The ladies here probably exchanged looks which meant, “Men never know8435when things are dirty or not;” and the gentlemen perhaps thought each to8436himself, “Women will have their little nonsenses and needless cares.”84378438One perplexity, however, arose, which the gentlemen did not disdain.8439It regarded a supper-room. At the time of the ballroom's being built,8440suppers had not been in question; and a small card-room adjoining, was8441the only addition. What was to be done? This card-room would be wanted8442as a card-room now; or, if cards were conveniently voted unnecessary8443by their four selves, still was it not too small for any comfortable8444supper? Another room of much better size might be secured for the8445purpose; but it was at the other end of the house, and a long awkward8446passage must be gone through to get at it. This made a difficulty. Mrs.8447Weston was afraid of draughts for the young people in that passage;8448and neither Emma nor the gentlemen could tolerate the prospect of being8449miserably crowded at supper.84508451Mrs. Weston proposed having no regular supper; merely sandwiches,8452&c., set out in the little room; but that was scouted as a wretched8453suggestion. A private dance, without sitting down to supper, was8454pronounced an infamous fraud upon the rights of men and women; and8455Mrs. Weston must not speak of it again. She then took another line of8456expediency, and looking into the doubtful room, observed,84578458“I do not think it _is_ so very small. We shall not be many, you know.”84598460And Mr. Weston at the same time, walking briskly with long steps through8461the passage, was calling out,84628463“You talk a great deal of the length of this passage, my dear. It is a8464mere nothing after all; and not the least draught from the stairs.”84658466“I wish,” said Mrs. Weston, “one could know which arrangement our guests8467in general would like best. To do what would be most generally pleasing8468must be our object--if one could but tell what that would be.”84698470“Yes, very true,” cried Frank, “very true. You want your neighbours'8471opinions. I do not wonder at you. If one could ascertain what the chief8472of them--the Coles, for instance. They are not far off. Shall I call8473upon them? Or Miss Bates? She is still nearer.--And I do not know8474whether Miss Bates is not as likely to understand the inclinations of8475the rest of the people as any body. I think we do want a larger council.8476Suppose I go and invite Miss Bates to join us?”84778478“Well--if you please,” said Mrs. Weston rather hesitating, “if you think8479she will be of any use.”84808481“You will get nothing to the purpose from Miss Bates,” said Emma. “She8482will be all delight and gratitude, but she will tell you nothing. She8483will not even listen to your questions. I see no advantage in consulting8484Miss Bates.”84858486“But she is so amusing, so extremely amusing! I am very fond of hearing8487Miss Bates talk. And I need not bring the whole family, you know.”84888489Here Mr. Weston joined them, and on hearing what was proposed, gave it8490his decided approbation.84918492“Aye, do, Frank.--Go and fetch Miss Bates, and let us end the matter at8493once. She will enjoy the scheme, I am sure; and I do not know a properer8494person for shewing us how to do away difficulties. Fetch Miss Bates.8495We are growing a little too nice. She is a standing lesson of how to be8496happy. But fetch them both. Invite them both.”84978498“Both sir! Can the old lady?”...84998500“The old lady! No, the young lady, to be sure. I shall think you a great8501blockhead, Frank, if you bring the aunt without the niece.”85028503“Oh! I beg your pardon, sir. I did not immediately recollect.8504Undoubtedly if you wish it, I will endeavour to persuade them both.” And8505away he ran.85068507Long before he reappeared, attending the short, neat, brisk-moving aunt,8508and her elegant niece,--Mrs. Weston, like a sweet-tempered woman and8509a good wife, had examined the passage again, and found the evils of it8510much less than she had supposed before--indeed very trifling; and here8511ended the difficulties of decision. All the rest, in speculation at8512least, was perfectly smooth. All the minor arrangements of table and8513chair, lights and music, tea and supper, made themselves; or were left8514as mere trifles to be settled at any time between Mrs. Weston and Mrs.8515Stokes.--Every body invited, was certainly to come; Frank had already8516written to Enscombe to propose staying a few days beyond his fortnight,8517which could not possibly be refused. And a delightful dance it was to8518be.85198520Most cordially, when Miss Bates arrived, did she agree that it must.8521As a counsellor she was not wanted; but as an approver, (a much safer8522character,) she was truly welcome. Her approbation, at once general8523and minute, warm and incessant, could not but please; and for another8524half-hour they were all walking to and fro, between the different rooms,8525some suggesting, some attending, and all in happy enjoyment of the8526future. The party did not break up without Emma's being positively8527secured for the two first dances by the hero of the evening, nor without8528her overhearing Mr. Weston whisper to his wife, “He has asked her, my8529dear. That's right. I knew he would!”8530853185328533CHAPTER XII853485358536One thing only was wanting to make the prospect of the ball completely8537satisfactory to Emma--its being fixed for a day within the granted8538term of Frank Churchill's stay in Surry; for, in spite of Mr. Weston's8539confidence, she could not think it so very impossible that the8540Churchills might not allow their nephew to remain a day beyond his8541fortnight. But this was not judged feasible. The preparations must take8542their time, nothing could be properly ready till the third week were8543entered on, and for a few days they must be planning, proceeding and8544hoping in uncertainty--at the risk--in her opinion, the great risk, of8545its being all in vain.85468547Enscombe however was gracious, gracious in fact, if not in word. His8548wish of staying longer evidently did not please; but it was not opposed.8549All was safe and prosperous; and as the removal of one solicitude8550generally makes way for another, Emma, being now certain of her8551ball, began to adopt as the next vexation Mr. Knightley's provoking8552indifference about it. Either because he did not dance himself, or8553because the plan had been formed without his being consulted, he8554seemed resolved that it should not interest him, determined against its8555exciting any present curiosity, or affording him any future amusement.8556To her voluntary communications Emma could get no more approving reply,8557than,85588559“Very well. If the Westons think it worth while to be at all this8560trouble for a few hours of noisy entertainment, I have nothing to say8561against it, but that they shall not chuse pleasures for me.--Oh! yes,8562I must be there; I could not refuse; and I will keep as much awake as8563I can; but I would rather be at home, looking over William Larkins's8564week's account; much rather, I confess.--Pleasure in seeing8565dancing!--not I, indeed--I never look at it--I do not know who8566does.--Fine dancing, I believe, like virtue, must be its own reward.8567Those who are standing by are usually thinking of something very8568different.”85698570This Emma felt was aimed at her; and it made her quite angry. It was not8571in compliment to Jane Fairfax however that he was so indifferent, or so8572indignant; he was not guided by _her_ feelings in reprobating the ball,8573for _she_ enjoyed the thought of it to an extraordinary degree. It made8574her animated--open hearted--she voluntarily said;--85758576“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I hope nothing may happen to prevent the ball.8577What a disappointment it would be! I do look forward to it, I own, with8578_very_ great pleasure.”85798580It was not to oblige Jane Fairfax therefore that he would have preferred8581the society of William Larkins. No!--she was more and more convinced8582that Mrs. Weston was quite mistaken in that surmise. There was a great8583deal of friendly and of compassionate attachment on his side--but no8584love.85858586Alas! there was soon no leisure for quarrelling with Mr. Knightley. Two8587days of joyful security were immediately followed by the over-throw of8588every thing. A letter arrived from Mr. Churchill to urge his nephew's8589instant return. Mrs. Churchill was unwell--far too unwell to do without8590him; she had been in a very suffering state (so said her husband)8591when writing to her nephew two days before, though from her usual8592unwillingness to give pain, and constant habit of never thinking of8593herself, she had not mentioned it; but now she was too ill to trifle,8594and must entreat him to set off for Enscombe without delay.85958596The substance of this letter was forwarded to Emma, in a note from Mrs.8597Weston, instantly. As to his going, it was inevitable. He must be gone8598within a few hours, though without feeling any real alarm for his aunt,8599to lessen his repugnance. He knew her illnesses; they never occurred but8600for her own convenience.86018602Mrs. Weston added, “that he could only allow himself time to hurry to8603Highbury, after breakfast, and take leave of the few friends there8604whom he could suppose to feel any interest in him; and that he might be8605expected at Hartfield very soon.”86068607This wretched note was the finale of Emma's breakfast. When once it had8608been read, there was no doing any thing, but lament and exclaim. The8609loss of the ball--the loss of the young man--and all that the young man8610might be feeling!--It was too wretched!--Such a delightful evening as8611it would have been!--Every body so happy! and she and her partner the8612happiest!--“I said it would be so,” was the only consolation.86138614Her father's feelings were quite distinct. He thought principally of8615Mrs. Churchill's illness, and wanted to know how she was treated; and as8616for the ball, it was shocking to have dear Emma disappointed; but they8617would all be safer at home.86188619Emma was ready for her visitor some time before he appeared; but if this8620reflected at all upon his impatience, his sorrowful look and total want8621of spirits when he did come might redeem him. He felt the going away8622almost too much to speak of it. His dejection was most evident. He8623sat really lost in thought for the first few minutes; and when rousing8624himself, it was only to say,86258626“Of all horrid things, leave-taking is the worst.”86278628“But you will come again,” said Emma. “This will not be your only visit8629to Randalls.”86308631“Ah!--(shaking his head)--the uncertainty of when I may be able to8632return!--I shall try for it with a zeal!--It will be the object of8633all my thoughts and cares!--and if my uncle and aunt go to town this8634spring--but I am afraid--they did not stir last spring--I am afraid it8635is a custom gone for ever.”86368637“Our poor ball must be quite given up.”86388639“Ah! that ball!--why did we wait for any thing?--why not seize the8640pleasure at once?--How often is happiness destroyed by preparation,8641foolish preparation!--You told us it would be so.--Oh! Miss Woodhouse,8642why are you always so right?”86438644“Indeed, I am very sorry to be right in this instance. I would much8645rather have been merry than wise.”86468647“If I can come again, we are still to have our ball. My father depends8648on it. Do not forget your engagement.”86498650Emma looked graciously.86518652“Such a fortnight as it has been!” he continued; “every day more8653precious and more delightful than the day before!--every day making8654me less fit to bear any other place. Happy those, who can remain at8655Highbury!”86568657“As you do us such ample justice now,” said Emma, laughing, “I will8658venture to ask, whether you did not come a little doubtfully at first?8659Do not we rather surpass your expectations? I am sure we do. I am sure8660you did not much expect to like us. You would not have been so long in8661coming, if you had had a pleasant idea of Highbury.”86628663He laughed rather consciously; and though denying the sentiment, Emma8664was convinced that it had been so.86658666“And you must be off this very morning?”86678668“Yes; my father is to join me here: we shall walk back together, and I8669must be off immediately. I am almost afraid that every moment will bring8670him.”86718672“Not five minutes to spare even for your friends Miss Fairfax and Miss8673Bates? How unlucky! Miss Bates's powerful, argumentative mind might have8674strengthened yours.”86758676“Yes--I _have_ called there; passing the door, I thought it better. It8677was a right thing to do. I went in for three minutes, and was detained8678by Miss Bates's being absent. She was out; and I felt it impossible not8679to wait till she came in. She is a woman that one may, that one _must_8680laugh at; but that one would not wish to slight. It was better to pay my8681visit, then”--86828683He hesitated, got up, walked to a window.86848685“In short,” said he, “perhaps, Miss Woodhouse--I think you can hardly be8686quite without suspicion”--86878688He looked at her, as if wanting to read her thoughts. She hardly knew8689what to say. It seemed like the forerunner of something absolutely8690serious, which she did not wish. Forcing herself to speak, therefore, in8691the hope of putting it by, she calmly said,86928693“You are quite in the right; it was most natural to pay your visit,8694then”--86958696He was silent. She believed he was looking at her; probably reflecting8697on what she had said, and trying to understand the manner. She heard8698him sigh. It was natural for him to feel that he had _cause_ to sigh.8699He could not believe her to be encouraging him. A few awkward moments8700passed, and he sat down again; and in a more determined manner said,87018702“It was something to feel that all the rest of my time might be given to8703Hartfield. My regard for Hartfield is most warm”--87048705He stopt again, rose again, and seemed quite embarrassed.--He was more8706in love with her than Emma had supposed; and who can say how it might8707have ended, if his father had not made his appearance? Mr. Woodhouse8708soon followed; and the necessity of exertion made him composed.87098710A very few minutes more, however, completed the present trial. Mr.8711Weston, always alert when business was to be done, and as incapable of8712procrastinating any evil that was inevitable, as of foreseeing any that8713was doubtful, said, “It was time to go;” and the young man, though he8714might and did sigh, could not but agree, to take leave.87158716“I shall hear about you all,” said he; “that is my chief consolation.8717I shall hear of every thing that is going on among you. I have engaged8718Mrs. Weston to correspond with me. She has been so kind as to promise8719it. Oh! the blessing of a female correspondent, when one is really8720interested in the absent!--she will tell me every thing. In her letters8721I shall be at dear Highbury again.”87228723A very friendly shake of the hand, a very earnest “Good-bye,” closed the8724speech, and the door had soon shut out Frank Churchill. Short had been8725the notice--short their meeting; he was gone; and Emma felt so sorry8726to part, and foresaw so great a loss to their little society from his8727absence as to begin to be afraid of being too sorry, and feeling it too8728much.87298730It was a sad change. They had been meeting almost every day since his8731arrival. Certainly his being at Randalls had given great spirit to8732the last two weeks--indescribable spirit; the idea, the expectation8733of seeing him which every morning had brought, the assurance of his8734attentions, his liveliness, his manners! It had been a very happy8735fortnight, and forlorn must be the sinking from it into the common8736course of Hartfield days. To complete every other recommendation, he had8737_almost_ told her that he loved her. What strength, or what constancy of8738affection he might be subject to, was another point; but at present8739she could not doubt his having a decidedly warm admiration, a conscious8740preference of herself; and this persuasion, joined to all the rest,8741made her think that she _must_ be a little in love with him, in spite of8742every previous determination against it.87438744“I certainly must,” said she. “This sensation of listlessness,8745weariness, stupidity, this disinclination to sit down and employ myself,8746this feeling of every thing's being dull and insipid about the house!--8747I must be in love; I should be the oddest creature in the world if I8748were not--for a few weeks at least. Well! evil to some is always good to8749others. I shall have many fellow-mourners for the ball, if not for Frank8750Churchill; but Mr. Knightley will be happy. He may spend the evening8751with his dear William Larkins now if he likes.”87528753Mr. Knightley, however, shewed no triumphant happiness. He could not say8754that he was sorry on his own account; his very cheerful look would have8755contradicted him if he had; but he said, and very steadily, that he8756was sorry for the disappointment of the others, and with considerable8757kindness added,87588759“You, Emma, who have so few opportunities of dancing, you are really out8760of luck; you are very much out of luck!”87618762It was some days before she saw Jane Fairfax, to judge of her honest8763regret in this woeful change; but when they did meet, her composure8764was odious. She had been particularly unwell, however, suffering from8765headache to a degree, which made her aunt declare, that had the ball8766taken place, she did not think Jane could have attended it; and it was8767charity to impute some of her unbecoming indifference to the languor of8768ill-health.8769877087718772CHAPTER XIII877387748775Emma continued to entertain no doubt of her being in love. Her ideas8776only varied as to the how much. At first, she thought it was a good8777deal; and afterwards, but little. She had great pleasure in hearing8778Frank Churchill talked of; and, for his sake, greater pleasure than ever8779in seeing Mr. and Mrs. Weston; she was very often thinking of him, and8780quite impatient for a letter, that she might know how he was, how were8781his spirits, how was his aunt, and what was the chance of his coming to8782Randalls again this spring. But, on the other hand, she could not admit8783herself to be unhappy, nor, after the first morning, to be less disposed8784for employment than usual; she was still busy and cheerful; and,8785pleasing as he was, she could yet imagine him to have faults; and8786farther, though thinking of him so much, and, as she sat drawing or8787working, forming a thousand amusing schemes for the progress and close8788of their attachment, fancying interesting dialogues, and inventing8789elegant letters; the conclusion of every imaginary declaration on his8790side was that she _refused_ _him_. Their affection was always to subside8791into friendship. Every thing tender and charming was to mark their8792parting; but still they were to part. When she became sensible of this,8793it struck her that she could not be very much in love; for in spite of8794her previous and fixed determination never to quit her father, never8795to marry, a strong attachment certainly must produce more of a struggle8796than she could foresee in her own feelings.87978798“I do not find myself making any use of the word _sacrifice_,” said8799she.--“In not one of all my clever replies, my delicate negatives, is8800there any allusion to making a sacrifice. I do suspect that he is not8801really necessary to my happiness. So much the better. I certainly will8802not persuade myself to feel more than I do. I am quite enough in love. I8803should be sorry to be more.”88048805Upon the whole, she was equally contented with her view of his feelings.88068807“_He_ is undoubtedly very much in love--every thing denotes it--very8808much in love indeed!--and when he comes again, if his affection8809continue, I must be on my guard not to encourage it.--It would be most8810inexcusable to do otherwise, as my own mind is quite made up. Not that I8811imagine he can think I have been encouraging him hitherto. No, if he8812had believed me at all to share his feelings, he would not have been8813so wretched. Could he have thought himself encouraged, his looks and8814language at parting would have been different.--Still, however, I must8815be on my guard. This is in the supposition of his attachment continuing8816what it now is; but I do not know that I expect it will; I do not look8817upon him to be quite the sort of man--I do not altogether build upon8818his steadiness or constancy.--His feelings are warm, but I can imagine8819them rather changeable.--Every consideration of the subject, in short,8820makes me thankful that my happiness is not more deeply involved.--I8821shall do very well again after a little while--and then, it will be a8822good thing over; for they say every body is in love once in their lives,8823and I shall have been let off easily.”88248825When his letter to Mrs. Weston arrived, Emma had the perusal of it; and8826she read it with a degree of pleasure and admiration which made her8827at first shake her head over her own sensations, and think she had8828undervalued their strength. It was a long, well-written letter, giving8829the particulars of his journey and of his feelings, expressing all the8830affection, gratitude, and respect which was natural and honourable,8831and describing every thing exterior and local that could be supposed8832attractive, with spirit and precision. No suspicious flourishes now of8833apology or concern; it was the language of real feeling towards Mrs.8834Weston; and the transition from Highbury to Enscombe, the contrast8835between the places in some of the first blessings of social life was8836just enough touched on to shew how keenly it was felt, and how much more8837might have been said but for the restraints of propriety.--The charm8838of her own name was not wanting. _Miss_ _Woodhouse_ appeared more than8839once, and never without a something of pleasing connexion, either a8840compliment to her taste, or a remembrance of what she had said; and in8841the very last time of its meeting her eye, unadorned as it was by any8842such broad wreath of gallantry, she yet could discern the effect of8843her influence and acknowledge the greatest compliment perhaps of all8844conveyed. Compressed into the very lowest vacant corner were these8845words--“I had not a spare moment on Tuesday, as you know, for Miss8846Woodhouse's beautiful little friend. Pray make my excuses and adieus8847to her.” This, Emma could not doubt, was all for herself. Harriet was8848remembered only from being _her_ friend. His information and prospects8849as to Enscombe were neither worse nor better than had been anticipated;8850Mrs. Churchill was recovering, and he dared not yet, even in his own8851imagination, fix a time for coming to Randalls again.88528853Gratifying, however, and stimulative as was the letter in the material8854part, its sentiments, she yet found, when it was folded up and returned8855to Mrs. Weston, that it had not added any lasting warmth, that she could8856still do without the writer, and that he must learn to do without her.8857Her intentions were unchanged. Her resolution of refusal only grew more8858interesting by the addition of a scheme for his subsequent consolation8859and happiness. His recollection of Harriet, and the words which8860clothed it, the “beautiful little friend,” suggested to her the8861idea of Harriet's succeeding her in his affections. Was it8862impossible?--No.--Harriet undoubtedly was greatly his inferior in8863understanding; but he had been very much struck with the loveliness8864of her face and the warm simplicity of her manner; and all the8865probabilities of circumstance and connexion were in her favour.--For8866Harriet, it would be advantageous and delightful indeed.88678868“I must not dwell upon it,” said she.--“I must not think of it. I know8869the danger of indulging such speculations. But stranger things have8870happened; and when we cease to care for each other as we do now, it8871will be the means of confirming us in that sort of true disinterested8872friendship which I can already look forward to with pleasure.”88738874It was well to have a comfort in store on Harriet's behalf, though it8875might be wise to let the fancy touch it seldom; for evil in that quarter8876was at hand. As Frank Churchill's arrival had succeeded Mr. Elton's8877engagement in the conversation of Highbury, as the latest interest8878had entirely borne down the first, so now upon Frank Churchill's8879disappearance, Mr. Elton's concerns were assuming the most irresistible8880form.--His wedding-day was named. He would soon be among them again; Mr.8881Elton and his bride. There was hardly time to talk over the first letter8882from Enscombe before “Mr. Elton and his bride” was in every body's8883mouth, and Frank Churchill was forgotten. Emma grew sick at the sound.8884She had had three weeks of happy exemption from Mr. Elton; and Harriet's8885mind, she had been willing to hope, had been lately gaining strength.8886With Mr. Weston's ball in view at least, there had been a great deal of8887insensibility to other things; but it was now too evident that she had8888not attained such a state of composure as could stand against the actual8889approach--new carriage, bell-ringing, and all.88908891Poor Harriet was in a flutter of spirits which required all the8892reasonings and soothings and attentions of every kind that Emma could8893give. Emma felt that she could not do too much for her, that Harriet had8894a right to all her ingenuity and all her patience; but it was heavy work8895to be for ever convincing without producing any effect, for ever agreed8896to, without being able to make their opinions the same. Harriet listened8897submissively, and said “it was very true--it was just as Miss Woodhouse8898described--it was not worth while to think about them--and she would not8899think about them any longer” but no change of subject could avail, and8900the next half-hour saw her as anxious and restless about the Eltons as8901before. At last Emma attacked her on another ground.89028903“Your allowing yourself to be so occupied and so unhappy about Mr.8904Elton's marrying, Harriet, is the strongest reproach you can make _me_.8905You could not give me a greater reproof for the mistake I fell into.8906It was all my doing, I know. I have not forgotten it, I assure8907you.--Deceived myself, I did very miserably deceive you--and it will8908be a painful reflection to me for ever. Do not imagine me in danger of8909forgetting it.”89108911Harriet felt this too much to utter more than a few words of eager8912exclamation. Emma continued,89138914“I have not said, exert yourself Harriet for my sake; think less, talk8915less of Mr. Elton for my sake; because for your own sake rather, I8916would wish it to be done, for the sake of what is more important than my8917comfort, a habit of self-command in you, a consideration of what is your8918duty, an attention to propriety, an endeavour to avoid the suspicions of8919others, to save your health and credit, and restore your tranquillity.8920These are the motives which I have been pressing on you. They are very8921important--and sorry I am that you cannot feel them sufficiently to act8922upon them. My being saved from pain is a very secondary consideration.8923I want you to save yourself from greater pain. Perhaps I may sometimes8924have felt that Harriet would not forget what was due--or rather what8925would be kind by me.”89268927This appeal to her affections did more than all the rest. The idea of8928wanting gratitude and consideration for Miss Woodhouse, whom she really8929loved extremely, made her wretched for a while, and when the violence8930of grief was comforted away, still remained powerful enough to prompt to8931what was right and support her in it very tolerably.89328933“You, who have been the best friend I ever had in my life--Want8934gratitude to you!--Nobody is equal to you!--I care for nobody as I do8935for you!--Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how ungrateful I have been!”89368937Such expressions, assisted as they were by every thing that look and8938manner could do, made Emma feel that she had never loved Harriet so8939well, nor valued her affection so highly before.89408941“There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart,” said she afterwards to8942herself. “There is nothing to be compared to it. Warmth and tenderness8943of heart, with an affectionate, open manner, will beat all the8944clearness of head in the world, for attraction, I am sure it will. It8945is tenderness of heart which makes my dear father so generally8946beloved--which gives Isabella all her popularity.--I have it not--but8947I know how to prize and respect it.--Harriet is my superior in all the8948charm and all the felicity it gives. Dear Harriet!--I would not change8949you for the clearest-headed, longest-sighted, best-judging female8950breathing. Oh! the coldness of a Jane Fairfax!--Harriet is worth a8951hundred such--And for a wife--a sensible man's wife--it is invaluable. I8952mention no names; but happy the man who changes Emma for Harriet!”8953895489558956CHAPTER XIV895789588959Mrs. Elton was first seen at church: but though devotion might be8960interrupted, curiosity could not be satisfied by a bride in a pew, and8961it must be left for the visits in form which were then to be paid, to8962settle whether she were very pretty indeed, or only rather pretty, or8963not pretty at all.89648965Emma had feelings, less of curiosity than of pride or propriety, to make8966her resolve on not being the last to pay her respects; and she made a8967point of Harriet's going with her, that the worst of the business might8968be gone through as soon as possible.89698970She could not enter the house again, could not be in the same room to8971which she had with such vain artifice retreated three months ago, to8972lace up her boot, without _recollecting_. A thousand vexatious thoughts8973would recur. Compliments, charades, and horrible blunders; and it was8974not to be supposed that poor Harriet should not be recollecting too; but8975she behaved very well, and was only rather pale and silent. The visit8976was of course short; and there was so much embarrassment and occupation8977of mind to shorten it, that Emma would not allow herself entirely to8978form an opinion of the lady, and on no account to give one, beyond the8979nothing-meaning terms of being “elegantly dressed, and very pleasing.”89808981She did not really like her. She would not be in a hurry to find fault,8982but she suspected that there was no elegance;--ease, but not elegance.--8983She was almost sure that for a young woman, a stranger, a bride, there8984was too much ease. Her person was rather good; her face not unpretty;8985but neither feature, nor air, nor voice, nor manner, were elegant. Emma8986thought at least it would turn out so.89878988As for Mr. Elton, his manners did not appear--but no, she would not8989permit a hasty or a witty word from herself about his manners. It was an8990awkward ceremony at any time to be receiving wedding visits, and a man8991had need be all grace to acquit himself well through it. The woman8992was better off; she might have the assistance of fine clothes, and the8993privilege of bashfulness, but the man had only his own good sense to8994depend on; and when she considered how peculiarly unlucky poor Mr.8995Elton was in being in the same room at once with the woman he had just8996married, the woman he had wanted to marry, and the woman whom he had8997been expected to marry, she must allow him to have the right to look as8998little wise, and to be as much affectedly, and as little really easy as8999could be.90009001“Well, Miss Woodhouse,” said Harriet, when they had quitted the9002house, and after waiting in vain for her friend to begin; “Well, Miss9003Woodhouse, (with a gentle sigh,) what do you think of her?--Is not she9004very charming?”90059006There was a little hesitation in Emma's answer.90079008“Oh! yes--very--a very pleasing young woman.”90099010“I think her beautiful, quite beautiful.”90119012“Very nicely dressed, indeed; a remarkably elegant gown.”90139014“I am not at all surprized that he should have fallen in love.”90159016“Oh! no--there is nothing to surprize one at all.--A pretty fortune; and9017she came in his way.”90189019“I dare say,” returned Harriet, sighing again, “I dare say she was very9020much attached to him.”90219022“Perhaps she might; but it is not every man's fate to marry the woman9023who loves him best. Miss Hawkins perhaps wanted a home, and thought this9024the best offer she was likely to have.”90259026“Yes,” said Harriet earnestly, “and well she might, nobody could ever9027have a better. Well, I wish them happy with all my heart. And now, Miss9028Woodhouse, I do not think I shall mind seeing them again. He is just as9029superior as ever;--but being married, you know, it is quite a different9030thing. No, indeed, Miss Woodhouse, you need not be afraid; I can sit and9031admire him now without any great misery. To know that he has not thrown9032himself away, is such a comfort!--She does seem a charming young woman,9033just what he deserves. Happy creature! He called her 'Augusta.' How9034delightful!”90359036When the visit was returned, Emma made up her mind. She could then see9037more and judge better. From Harriet's happening not to be at Hartfield,9038and her father's being present to engage Mr. Elton, she had a quarter9039of an hour of the lady's conversation to herself, and could composedly9040attend to her; and the quarter of an hour quite convinced her that9041Mrs. Elton was a vain woman, extremely well satisfied with herself, and9042thinking much of her own importance; that she meant to shine and be very9043superior, but with manners which had been formed in a bad school, pert9044and familiar; that all her notions were drawn from one set of people,9045and one style of living; that if not foolish she was ignorant, and that9046her society would certainly do Mr. Elton no good.90479048Harriet would have been a better match. If not wise or refined herself,9049she would have connected him with those who were; but Miss Hawkins, it9050might be fairly supposed from her easy conceit, had been the best of9051her own set. The rich brother-in-law near Bristol was the pride of the9052alliance, and his place and his carriages were the pride of him.90539054The very first subject after being seated was Maple Grove, “My brother9055Mr. Suckling's seat;”--a comparison of Hartfield to Maple Grove. The9056grounds of Hartfield were small, but neat and pretty; and the house was9057modern and well-built. Mrs. Elton seemed most favourably impressed9058by the size of the room, the entrance, and all that she could see or9059imagine. “Very like Maple Grove indeed!--She was quite struck by the9060likeness!--That room was the very shape and size of the morning-room9061at Maple Grove; her sister's favourite room.”--Mr. Elton was appealed9062to.--“Was not it astonishingly like?--She could really almost fancy9063herself at Maple Grove.”90649065“And the staircase--You know, as I came in, I observed how very like the9066staircase was; placed exactly in the same part of the house. I really9067could not help exclaiming! I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, it is very9068delightful to me, to be reminded of a place I am so extremely partial to9069as Maple Grove. I have spent so many happy months there! (with a little9070sigh of sentiment). A charming place, undoubtedly. Every body who9071sees it is struck by its beauty; but to me, it has been quite a home.9072Whenever you are transplanted, like me, Miss Woodhouse, you will9073understand how very delightful it is to meet with any thing at all like9074what one has left behind. I always say this is quite one of the evils of9075matrimony.”90769077Emma made as slight a reply as she could; but it was fully sufficient9078for Mrs. Elton, who only wanted to be talking herself.90799080“So extremely like Maple Grove! And it is not merely the house--the9081grounds, I assure you, as far as I could observe, are strikingly like.9082The laurels at Maple Grove are in the same profusion as here, and stand9083very much in the same way--just across the lawn; and I had a glimpse9084of a fine large tree, with a bench round it, which put me so exactly in9085mind! My brother and sister will be enchanted with this place. People9086who have extensive grounds themselves are always pleased with any thing9087in the same style.”90889089Emma doubted the truth of this sentiment. She had a great idea that9090people who had extensive grounds themselves cared very little for the9091extensive grounds of any body else; but it was not worth while to attack9092an error so double-dyed, and therefore only said in reply,90939094“When you have seen more of this country, I am afraid you will think you9095have overrated Hartfield. Surry is full of beauties.”90969097“Oh! yes, I am quite aware of that. It is the garden of England, you9098know. Surry is the garden of England.”90999100“Yes; but we must not rest our claims on that distinction. Many9101counties, I believe, are called the garden of England, as well as9102Surry.”91039104“No, I fancy not,” replied Mrs. Elton, with a most satisfied smile.9105“I never heard any county but Surry called so.”91069107Emma was silenced.91089109“My brother and sister have promised us a visit in the spring, or summer9110at farthest,” continued Mrs. Elton; “and that will be our time for9111exploring. While they are with us, we shall explore a great deal, I dare9112say. They will have their barouche-landau, of course, which holds four9113perfectly; and therefore, without saying any thing of _our_ carriage,9114we should be able to explore the different beauties extremely well. They9115would hardly come in their chaise, I think, at that season of the9116year. Indeed, when the time draws on, I shall decidedly recommend their9117bringing the barouche-landau; it will be so very much preferable.9118When people come into a beautiful country of this sort, you know, Miss9119Woodhouse, one naturally wishes them to see as much as possible; and Mr.9120Suckling is extremely fond of exploring. We explored to King's-Weston9121twice last summer, in that way, most delightfully, just after their9122first having the barouche-landau. You have many parties of that kind9123here, I suppose, Miss Woodhouse, every summer?”91249125“No; not immediately here. We are rather out of distance of the very9126striking beauties which attract the sort of parties you speak of; and we9127are a very quiet set of people, I believe; more disposed to stay at home9128than engage in schemes of pleasure.”91299130“Ah! there is nothing like staying at home for real comfort. Nobody can9131be more devoted to home than I am. I was quite a proverb for it at Maple9132Grove. Many a time has Selina said, when she has been going to Bristol,9133'I really cannot get this girl to move from the house. I absolutely must9134go in by myself, though I hate being stuck up in the barouche-landau9135without a companion; but Augusta, I believe, with her own good-will,9136would never stir beyond the park paling.' Many a time has she said so;9137and yet I am no advocate for entire seclusion. I think, on the contrary,9138when people shut themselves up entirely from society, it is a very9139bad thing; and that it is much more advisable to mix in the world in9140a proper degree, without living in it either too much or too little. I9141perfectly understand your situation, however, Miss Woodhouse--(looking9142towards Mr. Woodhouse), Your father's state of health must be a great9143drawback. Why does not he try Bath?--Indeed he should. Let me recommend9144Bath to you. I assure you I have no doubt of its doing Mr. Woodhouse9145good.”91469147“My father tried it more than once, formerly; but without receiving any9148benefit; and Mr. Perry, whose name, I dare say, is not unknown to you,9149does not conceive it would be at all more likely to be useful now.”91509151“Ah! that's a great pity; for I assure you, Miss Woodhouse, where the9152waters do agree, it is quite wonderful the relief they give. In my Bath9153life, I have seen such instances of it! And it is so cheerful a place,9154that it could not fail of being of use to Mr. Woodhouse's spirits,9155which, I understand, are sometimes much depressed. And as to its9156recommendations to _you_, I fancy I need not take much pains to dwell9157on them. The advantages of Bath to the young are pretty generally9158understood. It would be a charming introduction for you, who have lived9159so secluded a life; and I could immediately secure you some of the best9160society in the place. A line from me would bring you a little host of9161acquaintance; and my particular friend, Mrs. Partridge, the lady I have9162always resided with when in Bath, would be most happy to shew you any9163attentions, and would be the very person for you to go into public9164with.”91659166It was as much as Emma could bear, without being impolite. The idea9167of her being indebted to Mrs. Elton for what was called an9168_introduction_--of her going into public under the auspices of a friend9169of Mrs. Elton's--probably some vulgar, dashing widow, who, with the9170help of a boarder, just made a shift to live!--The dignity of Miss9171Woodhouse, of Hartfield, was sunk indeed!91729173She restrained herself, however, from any of the reproofs she could have9174given, and only thanked Mrs. Elton coolly; “but their going to Bath was9175quite out of the question; and she was not perfectly convinced that9176the place might suit her better than her father.” And then, to prevent9177farther outrage and indignation, changed the subject directly.91789179“I do not ask whether you are musical, Mrs. Elton. Upon these occasions,9180a lady's character generally precedes her; and Highbury has long known9181that you are a superior performer.”91829183“Oh! no, indeed; I must protest against any such idea. A superior9184performer!--very far from it, I assure you. Consider from how partial9185a quarter your information came. I am doatingly fond of9186music--passionately fond;--and my friends say I am not entirely devoid9187of taste; but as to any thing else, upon my honour my performance is9188_mediocre_ to the last degree. You, Miss Woodhouse, I well know, play9189delightfully. I assure you it has been the greatest satisfaction,9190comfort, and delight to me, to hear what a musical society I am got9191into. I absolutely cannot do without music. It is a necessary of life to9192me; and having always been used to a very musical society, both at9193Maple Grove and in Bath, it would have been a most serious sacrifice. I9194honestly said as much to Mr. E. when he was speaking of my future9195home, and expressing his fears lest the retirement of it should be9196disagreeable; and the inferiority of the house too--knowing what I had9197been accustomed to--of course he was not wholly without apprehension.9198When he was speaking of it in that way, I honestly said that _the_9199_world_ I could give up--parties, balls, plays--for I had no fear of9200retirement. Blessed with so many resources within myself, the world was9201not necessary to _me_. I could do very well without it. To those who had9202no resources it was a different thing; but my resources made me quite9203independent. And as to smaller-sized rooms than I had been used to, I9204really could not give it a thought. I hoped I was perfectly equal to any9205sacrifice of that description. Certainly I had been accustomed to every9206luxury at Maple Grove; but I did assure him that two carriages were not9207necessary to my happiness, nor were spacious apartments. 'But,' said I,9208'to be quite honest, I do not think I can live without something of a9209musical society. I condition for nothing else; but without music, life9210would be a blank to me.'”92119212“We cannot suppose,” said Emma, smiling, “that Mr. Elton would hesitate9213to assure you of there being a _very_ musical society in Highbury; and9214I hope you will not find he has outstepped the truth more than may be9215pardoned, in consideration of the motive.”92169217“No, indeed, I have no doubts at all on that head. I am delighted to9218find myself in such a circle. I hope we shall have many sweet little9219concerts together. I think, Miss Woodhouse, you and I must establish a9220musical club, and have regular weekly meetings at your house, or ours.9221Will not it be a good plan? If _we_ exert ourselves, I think we shall9222not be long in want of allies. Something of that nature would be9223particularly desirable for _me_, as an inducement to keep me in9224practice; for married women, you know--there is a sad story against9225them, in general. They are but too apt to give up music.”92269227“But you, who are so extremely fond of it--there can be no danger,9228surely?”92299230“I should hope not; but really when I look around among my acquaintance,9231I tremble. Selina has entirely given up music--never touches the9232instrument--though she played sweetly. And the same may be said of Mrs.9233Jeffereys--Clara Partridge, that was--and of the two Milmans, now Mrs.9234Bird and Mrs. James Cooper; and of more than I can enumerate. Upon my9235word it is enough to put one in a fright. I used to be quite angry with9236Selina; but really I begin now to comprehend that a married woman has9237many things to call her attention. I believe I was half an hour this9238morning shut up with my housekeeper.”92399240“But every thing of that kind,” said Emma, “will soon be in so regular a9241train--”92429243“Well,” said Mrs. Elton, laughing, “we shall see.”92449245Emma, finding her so determined upon neglecting her music, had nothing9246more to say; and, after a moment's pause, Mrs. Elton chose another9247subject.92489249“We have been calling at Randalls,” said she, “and found them both at9250home; and very pleasant people they seem to be. I like them extremely.9251Mr. Weston seems an excellent creature--quite a first-rate favourite9252with me already, I assure you. And _she_ appears so truly good--there is9253something so motherly and kind-hearted about her, that it wins upon one9254directly. She was your governess, I think?”92559256Emma was almost too much astonished to answer; but Mrs. Elton hardly9257waited for the affirmative before she went on.92589259“Having understood as much, I was rather astonished to find her so very9260lady-like! But she is really quite the gentlewoman.”92619262“Mrs. Weston's manners,” said Emma, “were always particularly good.9263Their propriety, simplicity, and elegance, would make them the safest9264model for any young woman.”92659266“And who do you think came in while we were there?”92679268Emma was quite at a loss. The tone implied some old acquaintance--and9269how could she possibly guess?92709271“Knightley!” continued Mrs. Elton; “Knightley himself!--Was not it9272lucky?--for, not being within when he called the other day, I had never9273seen him before; and of course, as so particular a friend of Mr. E.'s,9274I had a great curiosity. 'My friend Knightley' had been so often9275mentioned, that I was really impatient to see him; and I must do my9276caro sposo the justice to say that he need not be ashamed of his friend.9277Knightley is quite the gentleman. I like him very much. Decidedly, I9278think, a very gentleman-like man.”92799280Happily, it was now time to be gone. They were off; and Emma could9281breathe.92829283“Insufferable woman!” was her immediate exclamation. “Worse than I had9284supposed. Absolutely insufferable! Knightley!--I could not have9285believed it. Knightley!--never seen him in her life before, and call9286him Knightley!--and discover that he is a gentleman! A little upstart,9287vulgar being, with her Mr. E., and her _caro_ _sposo_, and her9288resources, and all her airs of pert pretension and underbred finery.9289Actually to discover that Mr. Knightley is a gentleman! I doubt whether9290he will return the compliment, and discover her to be a lady. I could9291not have believed it! And to propose that she and I should unite to9292form a musical club! One would fancy we were bosom friends! And Mrs.9293Weston!--Astonished that the person who had brought me up should be a9294gentlewoman! Worse and worse. I never met with her equal. Much beyond9295my hopes. Harriet is disgraced by any comparison. Oh! what would Frank9296Churchill say to her, if he were here? How angry and how diverted he9297would be! Ah! there I am--thinking of him directly. Always the first9298person to be thought of! How I catch myself out! Frank Churchill comes9299as regularly into my mind!”--93009301All this ran so glibly through her thoughts, that by the time her father9302had arranged himself, after the bustle of the Eltons' departure, and was9303ready to speak, she was very tolerably capable of attending.93049305“Well, my dear,” he deliberately began, “considering we never saw her9306before, she seems a very pretty sort of young lady; and I dare say she9307was very much pleased with you. She speaks a little too quick. A little9308quickness of voice there is which rather hurts the ear. But I believe9309I am nice; I do not like strange voices; and nobody speaks like you and9310poor Miss Taylor. However, she seems a very obliging, pretty-behaved9311young lady, and no doubt will make him a very good wife. Though I think9312he had better not have married. I made the best excuses I could for not9313having been able to wait on him and Mrs. Elton on this happy occasion; I9314said that I hoped I _should_ in the course of the summer. But I ought to9315have gone before. Not to wait upon a bride is very remiss. Ah! it shews9316what a sad invalid I am! But I do not like the corner into Vicarage9317Lane.”93189319“I dare say your apologies were accepted, sir. Mr. Elton knows you.”93209321“Yes: but a young lady--a bride--I ought to have paid my respects to her9322if possible. It was being very deficient.”93239324“But, my dear papa, you are no friend to matrimony; and therefore why9325should you be so anxious to pay your respects to a _bride_? It ought to9326be no recommendation to _you_. It is encouraging people to marry if you9327make so much of them.”93289329“No, my dear, I never encouraged any body to marry, but I would always9330wish to pay every proper attention to a lady--and a bride, especially,9331is never to be neglected. More is avowedly due to _her_. A bride, you9332know, my dear, is always the first in company, let the others be who9333they may.”93349335“Well, papa, if this is not encouragement to marry, I do not know what9336is. And I should never have expected you to be lending your sanction to9337such vanity-baits for poor young ladies.”93389339“My dear, you do not understand me. This is a matter of mere9340common politeness and good-breeding, and has nothing to do with any9341encouragement to people to marry.”93429343Emma had done. Her father was growing nervous, and could not understand9344_her_. Her mind returned to Mrs. Elton's offences, and long, very long,9345did they occupy her.9346934793489349CHAPTER XV935093519352Emma was not required, by any subsequent discovery, to retract her ill9353opinion of Mrs. Elton. Her observation had been pretty correct. Such as9354Mrs. Elton appeared to her on this second interview, such she appeared9355whenever they met again,--self-important, presuming, familiar, ignorant,9356and ill-bred. She had a little beauty and a little accomplishment,9357but so little judgment that she thought herself coming with superior9358knowledge of the world, to enliven and improve a country neighbourhood;9359and conceived Miss Hawkins to have held such a place in society as Mrs.9360Elton's consequence only could surpass.93619362There was no reason to suppose Mr. Elton thought at all differently from9363his wife. He seemed not merely happy with her, but proud. He had the air9364of congratulating himself on having brought such a woman to Highbury,9365as not even Miss Woodhouse could equal; and the greater part of her9366new acquaintance, disposed to commend, or not in the habit of judging,9367following the lead of Miss Bates's good-will, or taking it for granted9368that the bride must be as clever and as agreeable as she professed9369herself, were very well satisfied; so that Mrs. Elton's praise9370passed from one mouth to another as it ought to do, unimpeded by Miss9371Woodhouse, who readily continued her first contribution and talked with9372a good grace of her being “very pleasant and very elegantly dressed.”93739374In one respect Mrs. Elton grew even worse than she had appeared at9375first. Her feelings altered towards Emma.--Offended, probably, by the9376little encouragement which her proposals of intimacy met with, she drew9377back in her turn and gradually became much more cold and distant; and9378though the effect was agreeable, the ill-will which produced it was9379necessarily increasing Emma's dislike. Her manners, too--and Mr.9380Elton's, were unpleasant towards Harriet. They were sneering and9381negligent. Emma hoped it must rapidly work Harriet's cure; but the9382sensations which could prompt such behaviour sunk them both very9383much.--It was not to be doubted that poor Harriet's attachment had been9384an offering to conjugal unreserve, and her own share in the story, under9385a colouring the least favourable to her and the most soothing to him,9386had in all likelihood been given also. She was, of course, the object9387of their joint dislike.--When they had nothing else to say, it must be9388always easy to begin abusing Miss Woodhouse; and the enmity which9389they dared not shew in open disrespect to her, found a broader vent in9390contemptuous treatment of Harriet.93919392Mrs. Elton took a great fancy to Jane Fairfax; and from the first. Not9393merely when a state of warfare with one young lady might be supposed to9394recommend the other, but from the very first; and she was not satisfied9395with expressing a natural and reasonable admiration--but without9396solicitation, or plea, or privilege, she must be wanting to assist and9397befriend her.--Before Emma had forfeited her confidence, and about the9398third time of their meeting, she heard all Mrs. Elton's knight-errantry9399on the subject.--94009401“Jane Fairfax is absolutely charming, Miss Woodhouse.--I quite rave9402about Jane Fairfax.--A sweet, interesting creature. So mild and9403ladylike--and with such talents!--I assure you I think she has very9404extraordinary talents. I do not scruple to say that she plays extremely9405well. I know enough of music to speak decidedly on that point. Oh! she9406is absolutely charming! You will laugh at my warmth--but, upon my word,9407I talk of nothing but Jane Fairfax.--And her situation is so calculated9408to affect one!--Miss Woodhouse, we must exert ourselves and endeavour9409to do something for her. We must bring her forward. Such talent as hers9410must not be suffered to remain unknown.--I dare say you have heard those9411charming lines of the poet,94129413'Full many a flower is born to blush unseen,9414'And waste its fragrance on the desert air.'94159416We must not allow them to be verified in sweet Jane Fairfax.”94179418“I cannot think there is any danger of it,” was Emma's calm answer--“and9419when you are better acquainted with Miss Fairfax's situation and9420understand what her home has been, with Colonel and Mrs. Campbell, I9421have no idea that you will suppose her talents can be unknown.”94229423“Oh! but dear Miss Woodhouse, she is now in such retirement, such9424obscurity, so thrown away.--Whatever advantages she may have enjoyed9425with the Campbells are so palpably at an end! And I think she feels it.9426I am sure she does. She is very timid and silent. One can see that she9427feels the want of encouragement. I like her the better for it. I9428must confess it is a recommendation to me. I am a great advocate for9429timidity--and I am sure one does not often meet with it.--But in those9430who are at all inferior, it is extremely prepossessing. Oh! I assure9431you, Jane Fairfax is a very delightful character, and interests me more9432than I can express.”94339434“You appear to feel a great deal--but I am not aware how you or any of9435Miss Fairfax's acquaintance here, any of those who have known her longer9436than yourself, can shew her any other attention than”--94379438“My dear Miss Woodhouse, a vast deal may be done by those who dare to9439act. You and I need not be afraid. If _we_ set the example, many will9440follow it as far as they can; though all have not our situations. _We_9441have carriages to fetch and convey her home, and _we_ live in a style9442which could not make the addition of Jane Fairfax, at any time, the9443least inconvenient.--I should be extremely displeased if Wright were to9444send us up such a dinner, as could make me regret having asked _more_9445than Jane Fairfax to partake of it. I have no idea of that sort of9446thing. It is not likely that I _should_, considering what I have been9447used to. My greatest danger, perhaps, in housekeeping, may be quite the9448other way, in doing too much, and being too careless of expense. Maple9449Grove will probably be my model more than it ought to be--for we do not9450at all affect to equal my brother, Mr. Suckling, in income.--However, my9451resolution is taken as to noticing Jane Fairfax.--I shall certainly have9452her very often at my house, shall introduce her wherever I can, shall9453have musical parties to draw out her talents, and shall be constantly9454on the watch for an eligible situation. My acquaintance is so very9455extensive, that I have little doubt of hearing of something to suit9456her shortly.--I shall introduce her, of course, very particularly to my9457brother and sister when they come to us. I am sure they will like her9458extremely; and when she gets a little acquainted with them, her fears9459will completely wear off, for there really is nothing in the manners9460of either but what is highly conciliating.--I shall have her very often9461indeed while they are with me, and I dare say we shall sometimes find a9462seat for her in the barouche-landau in some of our exploring parties.”94639464“Poor Jane Fairfax!”--thought Emma.--“You have not deserved this. You9465may have done wrong with regard to Mr. Dixon, but this is a punishment9466beyond what you can have merited!--The kindness and protection of Mrs.9467Elton!--'Jane Fairfax and Jane Fairfax.' Heavens! Let me not suppose9468that she dares go about, Emma Woodhouse-ing me!--But upon my honour,9469there seems no limits to the licentiousness of that woman's tongue!”94709471Emma had not to listen to such paradings again--to any so exclusively9472addressed to herself--so disgustingly decorated with a “dear Miss9473Woodhouse.” The change on Mrs. Elton's side soon afterwards appeared,9474and she was left in peace--neither forced to be the very particular9475friend of Mrs. Elton, nor, under Mrs. Elton's guidance, the very active9476patroness of Jane Fairfax, and only sharing with others in a general9477way, in knowing what was felt, what was meditated, what was done.94789479She looked on with some amusement.--Miss Bates's gratitude for9480Mrs. Elton's attentions to Jane was in the first style of guileless9481simplicity and warmth. She was quite one of her worthies--the9482most amiable, affable, delightful woman--just as accomplished and9483condescending as Mrs. Elton meant to be considered. Emma's only surprize9484was that Jane Fairfax should accept those attentions and tolerate Mrs.9485Elton as she seemed to do. She heard of her walking with the Eltons,9486sitting with the Eltons, spending a day with the Eltons! This was9487astonishing!--She could not have believed it possible that the taste or9488the pride of Miss Fairfax could endure such society and friendship as9489the Vicarage had to offer.94909491“She is a riddle, quite a riddle!” said she.--“To chuse to remain here9492month after month, under privations of every sort! And now to chuse the9493mortification of Mrs. Elton's notice and the penury of her conversation,9494rather than return to the superior companions who have always loved her9495with such real, generous affection.”94969497Jane had come to Highbury professedly for three months; the Campbells9498were gone to Ireland for three months; but now the Campbells had9499promised their daughter to stay at least till Midsummer, and fresh9500invitations had arrived for her to join them there. According to Miss9501Bates--it all came from her--Mrs. Dixon had written most pressingly.9502Would Jane but go, means were to be found, servants sent, friends9503contrived--no travelling difficulty allowed to exist; but still she had9504declined it!95059506“She must have some motive, more powerful than appears, for refusing9507this invitation,” was Emma's conclusion. “She must be under some sort9508of penance, inflicted either by the Campbells or herself. There is great9509fear, great caution, great resolution somewhere.--She is _not_ to be9510with the _Dixons_. The decree is issued by somebody. But why must she9511consent to be with the Eltons?--Here is quite a separate puzzle.”95129513Upon her speaking her wonder aloud on that part of the subject, before9514the few who knew her opinion of Mrs. Elton, Mrs. Weston ventured this9515apology for Jane.95169517“We cannot suppose that she has any great enjoyment at the Vicarage,9518my dear Emma--but it is better than being always at home. Her aunt is a9519good creature, but, as a constant companion, must be very tiresome. We9520must consider what Miss Fairfax quits, before we condemn her taste for9521what she goes to.”95229523“You are right, Mrs. Weston,” said Mr. Knightley warmly, “Miss Fairfax9524is as capable as any of us of forming a just opinion of Mrs. Elton.9525Could she have chosen with whom to associate, she would not have chosen9526her. But (with a reproachful smile at Emma) she receives attentions from9527Mrs. Elton, which nobody else pays her.”95289529Emma felt that Mrs. Weston was giving her a momentary glance; and she9530was herself struck by his warmth. With a faint blush, she presently9531replied,95329533“Such attentions as Mrs. Elton's, I should have imagined, would rather9534disgust than gratify Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton's invitations I should9535have imagined any thing but inviting.”95369537“I should not wonder,” said Mrs. Weston, “if Miss Fairfax were to have9538been drawn on beyond her own inclination, by her aunt's eagerness in9539accepting Mrs. Elton's civilities for her. Poor Miss Bates may9540very likely have committed her niece and hurried her into a greater9541appearance of intimacy than her own good sense would have dictated, in9542spite of the very natural wish of a little change.”95439544Both felt rather anxious to hear him speak again; and after a few9545minutes silence, he said,95469547“Another thing must be taken into consideration too--Mrs. Elton does9548not talk _to_ Miss Fairfax as she speaks _of_ her. We all know the9549difference between the pronouns he or she and thou, the plainest spoken9550amongst us; we all feel the influence of a something beyond common9551civility in our personal intercourse with each other--a something more9552early implanted. We cannot give any body the disagreeable hints that we9553may have been very full of the hour before. We feel things differently.9554And besides the operation of this, as a general principle, you may be9555sure that Miss Fairfax awes Mrs. Elton by her superiority both of mind9556and manner; and that, face to face, Mrs. Elton treats her with all the9557respect which she has a claim to. Such a woman as Jane Fairfax probably9558never fell in Mrs. Elton's way before--and no degree of vanity can9559prevent her acknowledging her own comparative littleness in action, if9560not in consciousness.”95619562“I know how highly you think of Jane Fairfax,” said Emma. Little Henry9563was in her thoughts, and a mixture of alarm and delicacy made her9564irresolute what else to say.95659566“Yes,” he replied, “any body may know how highly I think of her.”95679568“And yet,” said Emma, beginning hastily and with an arch look, but soon9569stopping--it was better, however, to know the worst at once--she hurried9570on--“And yet, perhaps, you may hardly be aware yourself how highly it9571is. The extent of your admiration may take you by surprize some day or9572other.”95739574Mr. Knightley was hard at work upon the lower buttons of his thick9575leather gaiters, and either the exertion of getting them together, or9576some other cause, brought the colour into his face, as he answered,95779578“Oh! are you there?--But you are miserably behindhand. Mr. Cole gave me9579a hint of it six weeks ago.”95809581He stopped.--Emma felt her foot pressed by Mrs. Weston, and did not9582herself know what to think. In a moment he went on--95839584“That will never be, however, I can assure you. Miss Fairfax, I dare9585say, would not have me if I were to ask her--and I am very sure I shall9586never ask her.”95879588Emma returned her friend's pressure with interest; and was pleased9589enough to exclaim,95909591“You are not vain, Mr. Knightley. I will say that for you.”95929593He seemed hardly to hear her; he was thoughtful--and in a manner which9594shewed him not pleased, soon afterwards said,95959596“So you have been settling that I should marry Jane Fairfax?”95979598“No indeed I have not. You have scolded me too much for match-making,9599for me to presume to take such a liberty with you. What I said just now,9600meant nothing. One says those sort of things, of course, without any9601idea of a serious meaning. Oh! no, upon my word I have not the smallest9602wish for your marrying Jane Fairfax or Jane any body. You would not come9603in and sit with us in this comfortable way, if you were married.”96049605Mr. Knightley was thoughtful again. The result of his reverie was, “No,9606Emma, I do not think the extent of my admiration for her will ever take9607me by surprize.--I never had a thought of her in that way, I assure9608you.” And soon afterwards, “Jane Fairfax is a very charming young9609woman--but not even Jane Fairfax is perfect. She has a fault. She has9610not the open temper which a man would wish for in a wife.”96119612Emma could not but rejoice to hear that she had a fault. “Well,” said9613she, “and you soon silenced Mr. Cole, I suppose?”96149615“Yes, very soon. He gave me a quiet hint; I told him he was mistaken;9616he asked my pardon and said no more. Cole does not want to be wiser or9617wittier than his neighbours.”96189619“In that respect how unlike dear Mrs. Elton, who wants to be wiser and9620wittier than all the world! I wonder how she speaks of the Coles--what9621she calls them! How can she find any appellation for them, deep enough9622in familiar vulgarity? She calls you, Knightley--what can she do for9623Mr. Cole? And so I am not to be surprized that Jane Fairfax accepts9624her civilities and consents to be with her. Mrs. Weston, your argument9625weighs most with me. I can much more readily enter into the temptation9626of getting away from Miss Bates, than I can believe in the triumph of9627Miss Fairfax's mind over Mrs. Elton. I have no faith in Mrs. Elton's9628acknowledging herself the inferior in thought, word, or deed; or in her9629being under any restraint beyond her own scanty rule of good-breeding.9630I cannot imagine that she will not be continually insulting her visitor9631with praise, encouragement, and offers of service; that she will not be9632continually detailing her magnificent intentions, from the procuring her9633a permanent situation to the including her in those delightful exploring9634parties which are to take place in the barouche-landau.”96359636“Jane Fairfax has feeling,” said Mr. Knightley--“I do not accuse her9637of want of feeling. Her sensibilities, I suspect, are strong--and her9638temper excellent in its power of forbearance, patience, self-control;9639but it wants openness. She is reserved, more reserved, I think, than9640she used to be--And I love an open temper. No--till Cole alluded to my9641supposed attachment, it had never entered my head. I saw Jane Fairfax9642and conversed with her, with admiration and pleasure always--but with no9643thought beyond.”96449645“Well, Mrs. Weston,” said Emma triumphantly when he left them, “what do9646you say now to Mr. Knightley's marrying Jane Fairfax?”96479648“Why, really, dear Emma, I say that he is so very much occupied by the9649idea of _not_ being in love with her, that I should not wonder if it9650were to end in his being so at last. Do not beat me.”9651965296539654CHAPTER XVI965596569657Every body in and about Highbury who had ever visited Mr. Elton, was9658disposed to pay him attention on his marriage. Dinner-parties and9659evening-parties were made for him and his lady; and invitations flowed9660in so fast that she had soon the pleasure of apprehending they were9661never to have a disengaged day.96629663“I see how it is,” said she. “I see what a life I am to lead among you.9664Upon my word we shall be absolutely dissipated. We really seem quite9665the fashion. If this is living in the country, it is nothing very9666formidable. From Monday next to Saturday, I assure you we have not a9667disengaged day!--A woman with fewer resources than I have, need not have9668been at a loss.”96699670No invitation came amiss to her. Her Bath habits made evening-parties9671perfectly natural to her, and Maple Grove had given her a taste for9672dinners. She was a little shocked at the want of two drawing rooms, at9673the poor attempt at rout-cakes, and there being no ice in the Highbury9674card-parties. Mrs. Bates, Mrs. Perry, Mrs. Goddard and others, were a9675good deal behind-hand in knowledge of the world, but she would soon shew9676them how every thing ought to be arranged. In the course of the spring9677she must return their civilities by one very superior party--in which9678her card-tables should be set out with their separate candles and9679unbroken packs in the true style--and more waiters engaged for the9680evening than their own establishment could furnish, to carry round the9681refreshments at exactly the proper hour, and in the proper order.96829683Emma, in the meanwhile, could not be satisfied without a dinner at9684Hartfield for the Eltons. They must not do less than others, or she9685should be exposed to odious suspicions, and imagined capable of pitiful9686resentment. A dinner there must be. After Emma had talked about it for9687ten minutes, Mr. Woodhouse felt no unwillingness, and only made the9688usual stipulation of not sitting at the bottom of the table himself,9689with the usual regular difficulty of deciding who should do it for him.96909691The persons to be invited, required little thought. Besides the9692Eltons, it must be the Westons and Mr. Knightley; so far it was all of9693course--and it was hardly less inevitable that poor little Harriet must9694be asked to make the eighth:--but this invitation was not given with9695equal satisfaction, and on many accounts Emma was particularly pleased9696by Harriet's begging to be allowed to decline it. “She would rather not9697be in his company more than she could help. She was not yet quite9698able to see him and his charming happy wife together, without feeling9699uncomfortable. If Miss Woodhouse would not be displeased, she would9700rather stay at home.” It was precisely what Emma would have wished, had9701she deemed it possible enough for wishing. She was delighted with the9702fortitude of her little friend--for fortitude she knew it was in her to9703give up being in company and stay at home; and she could now invite the9704very person whom she really wanted to make the eighth, Jane Fairfax.--9705Since her last conversation with Mrs. Weston and Mr. Knightley, she9706was more conscience-stricken about Jane Fairfax than she had often9707been.--Mr. Knightley's words dwelt with her. He had said that Jane9708Fairfax received attentions from Mrs. Elton which nobody else paid her.97099710“This is very true,” said she, “at least as far as relates to me, which9711was all that was meant--and it is very shameful.--Of the same age--and9712always knowing her--I ought to have been more her friend.--She will9713never like me now. I have neglected her too long. But I will shew her9714greater attention than I have done.”97159716Every invitation was successful. They were all disengaged and all9717happy.--The preparatory interest of this dinner, however, was not yet9718over. A circumstance rather unlucky occurred. The two eldest little9719Knightleys were engaged to pay their grandpapa and aunt a visit of some9720weeks in the spring, and their papa now proposed bringing them, and9721staying one whole day at Hartfield--which one day would be the very day9722of this party.--His professional engagements did not allow of his being9723put off, but both father and daughter were disturbed by its happening9724so. Mr. Woodhouse considered eight persons at dinner together as the9725utmost that his nerves could bear--and here would be a ninth--and Emma9726apprehended that it would be a ninth very much out of humour at not9727being able to come even to Hartfield for forty-eight hours without9728falling in with a dinner-party.97299730She comforted her father better than she could comfort herself, by9731representing that though he certainly would make them nine, yet9732he always said so little, that the increase of noise would be very9733immaterial. She thought it in reality a sad exchange for herself, to9734have him with his grave looks and reluctant conversation opposed to her9735instead of his brother.97369737The event was more favourable to Mr. Woodhouse than to Emma. John9738Knightley came; but Mr. Weston was unexpectedly summoned to town and9739must be absent on the very day. He might be able to join them in the9740evening, but certainly not to dinner. Mr. Woodhouse was quite at ease;9741and the seeing him so, with the arrival of the little boys and the9742philosophic composure of her brother on hearing his fate, removed the9743chief of even Emma's vexation.97449745The day came, the party were punctually assembled, and Mr. John9746Knightley seemed early to devote himself to the business of being9747agreeable. Instead of drawing his brother off to a window while they9748waited for dinner, he was talking to Miss Fairfax. Mrs. Elton,9749as elegant as lace and pearls could make her, he looked at in9750silence--wanting only to observe enough for Isabella's information--but9751Miss Fairfax was an old acquaintance and a quiet girl, and he could talk9752to her. He had met her before breakfast as he was returning from a walk9753with his little boys, when it had been just beginning to rain. It was9754natural to have some civil hopes on the subject, and he said,97559756“I hope you did not venture far, Miss Fairfax, this morning, or I am9757sure you must have been wet.--We scarcely got home in time. I hope you9758turned directly.”97599760“I went only to the post-office,” said she, “and reached home before the9761rain was much. It is my daily errand. I always fetch the letters when9762I am here. It saves trouble, and is a something to get me out. A walk9763before breakfast does me good.”97649765“Not a walk in the rain, I should imagine.”97669767“No, but it did not absolutely rain when I set out.”97689769Mr. John Knightley smiled, and replied,97709771“That is to say, you chose to have your walk, for you were not six yards9772from your own door when I had the pleasure of meeting you; and Henry9773and John had seen more drops than they could count long before. The9774post-office has a great charm at one period of our lives. When you have9775lived to my age, you will begin to think letters are never worth going9776through the rain for.”97779778There was a little blush, and then this answer,97799780“I must not hope to be ever situated as you are, in the midst of every9781dearest connexion, and therefore I cannot expect that simply growing9782older should make me indifferent about letters.”97839784“Indifferent! Oh! no--I never conceived you could become indifferent.9785Letters are no matter of indifference; they are generally a very9786positive curse.”97879788“You are speaking of letters of business; mine are letters of9789friendship.”97909791“I have often thought them the worst of the two,” replied he coolly.9792“Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does.”97939794“Ah! you are not serious now. I know Mr. John Knightley too well--I am9795very sure he understands the value of friendship as well as any body. I9796can easily believe that letters are very little to you, much less than9797to me, but it is not your being ten years older than myself which9798makes the difference, it is not age, but situation. You have every9799body dearest to you always at hand, I, probably, never shall again;9800and therefore till I have outlived all my affections, a post-office,9801I think, must always have power to draw me out, in worse weather than9802to-day.”98039804“When I talked of your being altered by time, by the progress of years,”9805said John Knightley, “I meant to imply the change of situation which9806time usually brings. I consider one as including the other. Time will9807generally lessen the interest of every attachment not within the daily9808circle--but that is not the change I had in view for you. As an old9809friend, you will allow me to hope, Miss Fairfax, that ten years hence9810you may have as many concentrated objects as I have.”98119812It was kindly said, and very far from giving offence. A pleasant “thank9813you” seemed meant to laugh it off, but a blush, a quivering lip, a tear9814in the eye, shewed that it was felt beyond a laugh. Her attention was9815now claimed by Mr. Woodhouse, who being, according to his custom on such9816occasions, making the circle of his guests, and paying his particular9817compliments to the ladies, was ending with her--and with all his mildest9818urbanity, said,98199820“I am very sorry to hear, Miss Fairfax, of your being out this morning9821in the rain. Young ladies should take care of themselves.--Young ladies9822are delicate plants. They should take care of their health and their9823complexion. My dear, did you change your stockings?”98249825“Yes, sir, I did indeed; and I am very much obliged by your kind9826solicitude about me.”98279828“My dear Miss Fairfax, young ladies are very sure to be cared for.--I9829hope your good grand-mama and aunt are well. They are some of my very9830old friends. I wish my health allowed me to be a better neighbour. You9831do us a great deal of honour to-day, I am sure. My daughter and I9832are both highly sensible of your goodness, and have the greatest9833satisfaction in seeing you at Hartfield.”98349835The kind-hearted, polite old man might then sit down and feel that he9836had done his duty, and made every fair lady welcome and easy.98379838By this time, the walk in the rain had reached Mrs. Elton, and her9839remonstrances now opened upon Jane.98409841“My dear Jane, what is this I hear?--Going to the post-office in the9842rain!--This must not be, I assure you.--You sad girl, how could you do9843such a thing?--It is a sign I was not there to take care of you.”98449845Jane very patiently assured her that she had not caught any cold.98469847“Oh! do not tell _me_. You really are a very sad girl, and do not know9848how to take care of yourself.--To the post-office indeed! Mrs. Weston,9849did you ever hear the like? You and I must positively exert our9850authority.”98519852“My advice,” said Mrs. Weston kindly and persuasively, “I certainly do9853feel tempted to give. Miss Fairfax, you must not run such risks.--Liable9854as you have been to severe colds, indeed you ought to be particularly9855careful, especially at this time of year. The spring I always think9856requires more than common care. Better wait an hour or two, or even9857half a day for your letters, than run the risk of bringing on your cough9858again. Now do not you feel that you had? Yes, I am sure you are much too9859reasonable. You look as if you would not do such a thing again.”98609861“Oh! she _shall_ _not_ do such a thing again,” eagerly rejoined Mrs.9862Elton. “We will not allow her to do such a thing again:”--and nodding9863significantly--“there must be some arrangement made, there must indeed.9864I shall speak to Mr. E. The man who fetches our letters every morning9865(one of our men, I forget his name) shall inquire for yours too and9866bring them to you. That will obviate all difficulties you know; and from9867_us_ I really think, my dear Jane, you can have no scruple to accept9868such an accommodation.”98699870“You are extremely kind,” said Jane; “but I cannot give up my early9871walk. I am advised to be out of doors as much as I can, I must walk9872somewhere, and the post-office is an object; and upon my word, I have9873scarcely ever had a bad morning before.”98749875“My dear Jane, say no more about it. The thing is determined, that is9876(laughing affectedly) as far as I can presume to determine any thing9877without the concurrence of my lord and master. You know, Mrs. Weston,9878you and I must be cautious how we express ourselves. But I do flatter9879myself, my dear Jane, that my influence is not entirely worn out. If I9880meet with no insuperable difficulties therefore, consider that point as9881settled.”98829883“Excuse me,” said Jane earnestly, “I cannot by any means consent to such9884an arrangement, so needlessly troublesome to your servant. If the errand9885were not a pleasure to me, it could be done, as it always is when I am9886not here, by my grandmama's.”98879888“Oh! my dear; but so much as Patty has to do!--And it is a kindness to9889employ our men.”98909891Jane looked as if she did not mean to be conquered; but instead of9892answering, she began speaking again to Mr. John Knightley.98939894“The post-office is a wonderful establishment!” said she.--“The9895regularity and despatch of it! If one thinks of all that it has to do,9896and all that it does so well, it is really astonishing!”98979898“It is certainly very well regulated.”98999900“So seldom that any negligence or blunder appears! So seldom that9901a letter, among the thousands that are constantly passing about the9902kingdom, is even carried wrong--and not one in a million, I suppose,9903actually lost! And when one considers the variety of hands, and of bad9904hands too, that are to be deciphered, it increases the wonder.”99059906“The clerks grow expert from habit.--They must begin with some quickness9907of sight and hand, and exercise improves them. If you want any farther9908explanation,” continued he, smiling, “they are paid for it. That is9909the key to a great deal of capacity. The public pays and must be served9910well.”99119912The varieties of handwriting were farther talked of, and the usual9913observations made.99149915“I have heard it asserted,” said John Knightley, “that the same sort9916of handwriting often prevails in a family; and where the same master9917teaches, it is natural enough. But for that reason, I should imagine9918the likeness must be chiefly confined to the females, for boys have very9919little teaching after an early age, and scramble into any hand they can9920get. Isabella and Emma, I think, do write very much alike. I have not9921always known their writing apart.”99229923“Yes,” said his brother hesitatingly, “there is a likeness. I know what9924you mean--but Emma's hand is the strongest.”99259926“Isabella and Emma both write beautifully,” said Mr. Woodhouse; “and9927always did. And so does poor Mrs. Weston”--with half a sigh and half a9928smile at her.99299930“I never saw any gentleman's handwriting”--Emma began, looking also at9931Mrs. Weston; but stopped, on perceiving that Mrs. Weston was attending9932to some one else--and the pause gave her time to reflect, “Now, how am9933I going to introduce him?--Am I unequal to speaking his name at once9934before all these people? Is it necessary for me to use any roundabout9935phrase?--Your Yorkshire friend--your correspondent in Yorkshire;--that9936would be the way, I suppose, if I were very bad.--No, I can pronounce9937his name without the smallest distress. I certainly get better and9938better.--Now for it.”99399940Mrs. Weston was disengaged and Emma began again--“Mr. Frank Churchill9941writes one of the best gentleman's hands I ever saw.”99429943“I do not admire it,” said Mr. Knightley. “It is too small--wants9944strength. It is like a woman's writing.”99459946This was not submitted to by either lady. They vindicated him against9947the base aspersion. “No, it by no means wanted strength--it was not a9948large hand, but very clear and certainly strong. Had not Mrs. Weston any9949letter about her to produce?” No, she had heard from him very lately,9950but having answered the letter, had put it away.99519952“If we were in the other room,” said Emma, “if I had my writing-desk, I9953am sure I could produce a specimen. I have a note of his.--Do not you9954remember, Mrs. Weston, employing him to write for you one day?”99559956“He chose to say he was employed”--99579958“Well, well, I have that note; and can shew it after dinner to convince9959Mr. Knightley.”99609961“Oh! when a gallant young man, like Mr. Frank Churchill,” said Mr.9962Knightley dryly, “writes to a fair lady like Miss Woodhouse, he will, of9963course, put forth his best.”99649965Dinner was on table.--Mrs. Elton, before she could be spoken to, was9966ready; and before Mr. Woodhouse had reached her with his request to be9967allowed to hand her into the dining-parlour, was saying--99689969“Must I go first? I really am ashamed of always leading the way.”99709971Jane's solicitude about fetching her own letters had not escaped Emma.9972She had heard and seen it all; and felt some curiosity to know whether9973the wet walk of this morning had produced any. She suspected that it9974_had_; that it would not have been so resolutely encountered but in full9975expectation of hearing from some one very dear, and that it had not been9976in vain. She thought there was an air of greater happiness than usual--a9977glow both of complexion and spirits.99789979She could have made an inquiry or two, as to the expedition and the9980expense of the Irish mails;--it was at her tongue's end--but she9981abstained. She was quite determined not to utter a word that should hurt9982Jane Fairfax's feelings; and they followed the other ladies out of the9983room, arm in arm, with an appearance of good-will highly becoming to the9984beauty and grace of each.9985998699879988CHAPTER XVII998999909991When the ladies returned to the drawing-room after dinner, Emma found it9992hardly possible to prevent their making two distinct parties;--with so9993much perseverance in judging and behaving ill did Mrs. Elton engross9994Jane Fairfax and slight herself. She and Mrs. Weston were obliged to9995be almost always either talking together or silent together. Mrs. Elton9996left them no choice. If Jane repressed her for a little time, she9997soon began again; and though much that passed between them was in a9998half-whisper, especially on Mrs. Elton's side, there was no avoiding9999a knowledge of their principal subjects: The post-office--catching10000cold--fetching letters--and friendship, were long under discussion;10001and to them succeeded one, which must be at least equally unpleasant10002to Jane--inquiries whether she had yet heard of any situation likely to10003suit her, and professions of Mrs. Elton's meditated activity.1000410005“Here is April come!” said she, “I get quite anxious about you. June10006will soon be here.”1000710008“But I have never fixed on June or any other month--merely looked10009forward to the summer in general.”1001010011“But have you really heard of nothing?”1001210013“I have not even made any inquiry; I do not wish to make any yet.”1001410015“Oh! my dear, we cannot begin too early; you are not aware of the10016difficulty of procuring exactly the desirable thing.”1001710018“I not aware!” said Jane, shaking her head; “dear Mrs. Elton, who can10019have thought of it as I have done?”1002010021“But you have not seen so much of the world as I have. You do not know10022how many candidates there always are for the _first_ situations. I saw10023a vast deal of that in the neighbourhood round Maple Grove. A cousin of10024Mr. Suckling, Mrs. Bragge, had such an infinity of applications; every10025body was anxious to be in her family, for she moves in the first circle.10026Wax-candles in the schoolroom! You may imagine how desirable! Of all10027houses in the kingdom Mrs. Bragge's is the one I would most wish to see10028you in.”1002910030“Colonel and Mrs. Campbell are to be in town again by midsummer,”10031said Jane. “I must spend some time with them; I am sure they will want10032it;--afterwards I may probably be glad to dispose of myself. But I would10033not wish you to take the trouble of making any inquiries at present.”1003410035“Trouble! aye, I know your scruples. You are afraid of giving me10036trouble; but I assure you, my dear Jane, the Campbells can hardly be10037more interested about you than I am. I shall write to Mrs. Partridge in10038a day or two, and shall give her a strict charge to be on the look-out10039for any thing eligible.”1004010041“Thank you, but I would rather you did not mention the subject to10042her; till the time draws nearer, I do not wish to be giving any body10043trouble.”1004410045“But, my dear child, the time is drawing near; here is April, and June,10046or say even July, is very near, with such business to accomplish before10047us. Your inexperience really amuses me! A situation such as you deserve,10048and your friends would require for you, is no everyday occurrence,10049is not obtained at a moment's notice; indeed, indeed, we must begin10050inquiring directly.”1005110052“Excuse me, ma'am, but this is by no means my intention; I make no10053inquiry myself, and should be sorry to have any made by my friends. When10054I am quite determined as to the time, I am not at all afraid of being10055long unemployed. There are places in town, offices, where inquiry10056would soon produce something--Offices for the sale--not quite of human10057flesh--but of human intellect.”1005810059“Oh! my dear, human flesh! You quite shock me; if you mean a fling at10060the slave-trade, I assure you Mr. Suckling was always rather a friend to10061the abolition.”1006210063“I did not mean, I was not thinking of the slave-trade,” replied Jane;10064“governess-trade, I assure you, was all that I had in view; widely10065different certainly as to the guilt of those who carry it on; but as to10066the greater misery of the victims, I do not know where it lies. But10067I only mean to say that there are advertising offices, and that by10068applying to them I should have no doubt of very soon meeting with10069something that would do.”1007010071“Something that would do!” repeated Mrs. Elton. “Aye, _that_ may suit10072your humble ideas of yourself;--I know what a modest creature you are;10073but it will not satisfy your friends to have you taking up with any10074thing that may offer, any inferior, commonplace situation, in a family10075not moving in a certain circle, or able to command the elegancies of10076life.”1007710078“You are very obliging; but as to all that, I am very indifferent;10079it would be no object to me to be with the rich; my mortifications, I10080think, would only be the greater; I should suffer more from comparison.10081A gentleman's family is all that I should condition for.”1008210083“I know you, I know you; you would take up with any thing; but I shall10084be a little more nice, and I am sure the good Campbells will be quite10085on my side; with your superior talents, you have a right to move in the10086first circle. Your musical knowledge alone would entitle you to name10087your own terms, have as many rooms as you like, and mix in the family10088as much as you chose;--that is--I do not know--if you knew the harp, you10089might do all that, I am very sure; but you sing as well as play;--yes, I10090really believe you might, even without the harp, stipulate for what10091you chose;--and you must and shall be delightfully, honourably and10092comfortably settled before the Campbells or I have any rest.”1009310094“You may well class the delight, the honour, and the comfort of such10095a situation together,” said Jane, “they are pretty sure to be equal;10096however, I am very serious in not wishing any thing to be attempted10097at present for me. I am exceedingly obliged to you, Mrs. Elton, I am10098obliged to any body who feels for me, but I am quite serious in wishing10099nothing to be done till the summer. For two or three months longer I10100shall remain where I am, and as I am.”1010110102“And I am quite serious too, I assure you,” replied Mrs. Elton gaily,10103“in resolving to be always on the watch, and employing my friends to10104watch also, that nothing really unexceptionable may pass us.”1010510106In this style she ran on; never thoroughly stopped by any thing till Mr.10107Woodhouse came into the room; her vanity had then a change of object,10108and Emma heard her saying in the same half-whisper to Jane,1010910110“Here comes this dear old beau of mine, I protest!--Only think of his10111gallantry in coming away before the other men!--what a dear creature10112he is;--I assure you I like him excessively. I admire all that quaint,10113old-fashioned politeness; it is much more to my taste than modern ease;10114modern ease often disgusts me. But this good old Mr. Woodhouse, I wish10115you had heard his gallant speeches to me at dinner. Oh! I assure you I10116began to think my caro sposo would be absolutely jealous. I fancy I10117am rather a favourite; he took notice of my gown. How do you like10118it?--Selina's choice--handsome, I think, but I do not know whether it10119is not over-trimmed; I have the greatest dislike to the idea of being10120over-trimmed--quite a horror of finery. I must put on a few ornaments10121now, because it is expected of me. A bride, you know, must appear like10122a bride, but my natural taste is all for simplicity; a simple style10123of dress is so infinitely preferable to finery. But I am quite in the10124minority, I believe; few people seem to value simplicity of dress,--show10125and finery are every thing. I have some notion of putting such a10126trimming as this to my white and silver poplin. Do you think it will10127look well?”1012810129The whole party were but just reassembled in the drawing-room when Mr.10130Weston made his appearance among them. He had returned to a late dinner,10131and walked to Hartfield as soon as it was over. He had been too much10132expected by the best judges, for surprize--but there was great joy. Mr.10133Woodhouse was almost as glad to see him now, as he would have been sorry10134to see him before. John Knightley only was in mute astonishment.--That10135a man who might have spent his evening quietly at home after a day10136of business in London, should set off again, and walk half a mile10137to another man's house, for the sake of being in mixed company till10138bed-time, of finishing his day in the efforts of civility and the noise10139of numbers, was a circumstance to strike him deeply. A man who had been10140in motion since eight o'clock in the morning, and might now have been10141still, who had been long talking, and might have been silent, who had10142been in more than one crowd, and might have been alone!--Such a man, to10143quit the tranquillity and independence of his own fireside, and on the10144evening of a cold sleety April day rush out again into the world!--Could10145he by a touch of his finger have instantly taken back his wife, there10146would have been a motive; but his coming would probably prolong rather10147than break up the party. John Knightley looked at him with amazement,10148then shrugged his shoulders, and said, “I could not have believed it10149even of _him_.”1015010151Mr. Weston meanwhile, perfectly unsuspicious of the indignation he was10152exciting, happy and cheerful as usual, and with all the right of being10153principal talker, which a day spent anywhere from home confers, was10154making himself agreeable among the rest; and having satisfied the10155inquiries of his wife as to his dinner, convincing her that none of all10156her careful directions to the servants had been forgotten, and spread10157abroad what public news he had heard, was proceeding to a family10158communication, which, though principally addressed to Mrs. Weston, he10159had not the smallest doubt of being highly interesting to every body in10160the room. He gave her a letter, it was from Frank, and to herself; he10161had met with it in his way, and had taken the liberty of opening it.1016210163“Read it, read it,” said he, “it will give you pleasure; only a few10164lines--will not take you long; read it to Emma.”1016510166The two ladies looked over it together; and he sat smiling and talking10167to them the whole time, in a voice a little subdued, but very audible to10168every body.1016910170“Well, he is coming, you see; good news, I think. Well, what do you say10171to it?--I always told you he would be here again soon, did not I?--Anne,10172my dear, did not I always tell you so, and you would not believe me?--In10173town next week, you see--at the latest, I dare say; for _she_ is as10174impatient as the black gentleman when any thing is to be done; most10175likely they will be there to-morrow or Saturday. As to her illness, all10176nothing of course. But it is an excellent thing to have Frank among us10177again, so near as town. They will stay a good while when they do come,10178and he will be half his time with us. This is precisely what I wanted.10179Well, pretty good news, is not it? Have you finished it? Has Emma read10180it all? Put it up, put it up; we will have a good talk about it some10181other time, but it will not do now. I shall only just mention the10182circumstance to the others in a common way.”1018310184Mrs. Weston was most comfortably pleased on the occasion. Her looks10185and words had nothing to restrain them. She was happy, she knew she was10186happy, and knew she ought to be happy. Her congratulations were warm and10187open; but Emma could not speak so fluently. _She_ was a little occupied10188in weighing her own feelings, and trying to understand the degree of her10189agitation, which she rather thought was considerable.1019010191Mr. Weston, however, too eager to be very observant, too communicative10192to want others to talk, was very well satisfied with what she did say,10193and soon moved away to make the rest of his friends happy by a partial10194communication of what the whole room must have overheard already.1019510196It was well that he took every body's joy for granted, or he might10197not have thought either Mr. Woodhouse or Mr. Knightley particularly10198delighted. They were the first entitled, after Mrs. Weston and Emma, to10199be made happy;--from them he would have proceeded to Miss Fairfax, but10200she was so deep in conversation with John Knightley, that it would have10201been too positive an interruption; and finding himself close to Mrs.10202Elton, and her attention disengaged, he necessarily began on the subject10203with her.10204102051020610207CHAPTER XVIII102081020910210“I hope I shall soon have the pleasure of introducing my son to you,”10211said Mr. Weston.1021210213Mrs. Elton, very willing to suppose a particular compliment intended her10214by such a hope, smiled most graciously.1021510216“You have heard of a certain Frank Churchill, I presume,” he10217continued--“and know him to be my son, though he does not bear my name.”1021810219“Oh! yes, and I shall be very happy in his acquaintance. I am sure Mr.10220Elton will lose no time in calling on him; and we shall both have great10221pleasure in seeing him at the Vicarage.”1022210223“You are very obliging.--Frank will be extremely happy, I am sure.--10224He is to be in town next week, if not sooner. We have notice of it in a10225letter to-day. I met the letters in my way this morning, and seeing my10226son's hand, presumed to open it--though it was not directed to me--it10227was to Mrs. Weston. She is his principal correspondent, I assure you. I10228hardly ever get a letter.”1022910230“And so you absolutely opened what was directed to her! Oh! Mr.10231Weston--(laughing affectedly) I must protest against that.--A most10232dangerous precedent indeed!--I beg you will not let your neighbours10233follow your example.--Upon my word, if this is what I am to expect, we10234married women must begin to exert ourselves!--Oh! Mr. Weston, I could10235not have believed it of you!”1023610237“Aye, we men are sad fellows. You must take care of yourself, Mrs.10238Elton.--This letter tells us--it is a short letter--written in a hurry,10239merely to give us notice--it tells us that they are all coming up to10240town directly, on Mrs. Churchill's account--she has not been well the10241whole winter, and thinks Enscombe too cold for her--so they are all to10242move southward without loss of time.”1024310244“Indeed!--from Yorkshire, I think. Enscombe is in Yorkshire?”1024510246“Yes, they are about one hundred and ninety miles from London, a10247considerable journey.”1024810249“Yes, upon my word, very considerable. Sixty-five miles farther than10250from Maple Grove to London. But what is distance, Mr. Weston, to people10251of large fortune?--You would be amazed to hear how my brother, Mr.10252Suckling, sometimes flies about. You will hardly believe me--but twice10253in one week he and Mr. Bragge went to London and back again with four10254horses.”1025510256“The evil of the distance from Enscombe,” said Mr. Weston, “is, that10257Mrs. Churchill, _as_ _we_ _understand_, has not been able to leave the10258sofa for a week together. In Frank's last letter she complained, he10259said, of being too weak to get into her conservatory without having10260both his arm and his uncle's! This, you know, speaks a great degree of10261weakness--but now she is so impatient to be in town, that she means to10262sleep only two nights on the road.--So Frank writes word. Certainly,10263delicate ladies have very extraordinary constitutions, Mrs. Elton. You10264must grant me that.”1026510266“No, indeed, I shall grant you nothing. I always take the part of my10267own sex. I do indeed. I give you notice--You will find me a formidable10268antagonist on that point. I always stand up for women--and I assure you,10269if you knew how Selina feels with respect to sleeping at an inn, you10270would not wonder at Mrs. Churchill's making incredible exertions to10271avoid it. Selina says it is quite horror to her--and I believe I have10272caught a little of her nicety. She always travels with her own sheets;10273an excellent precaution. Does Mrs. Churchill do the same?”1027410275“Depend upon it, Mrs. Churchill does every thing that any other fine10276lady ever did. Mrs. Churchill will not be second to any lady in the land10277for”--1027810279Mrs. Elton eagerly interposed with,1028010281“Oh! Mr. Weston, do not mistake me. Selina is no fine lady, I assure10282you. Do not run away with such an idea.”1028310284“Is not she? Then she is no rule for Mrs. Churchill, who is as thorough10285a fine lady as any body ever beheld.”1028610287Mrs. Elton began to think she had been wrong in disclaiming so warmly.10288It was by no means her object to have it believed that her sister was10289_not_ a fine lady; perhaps there was want of spirit in the pretence of10290it;--and she was considering in what way she had best retract, when Mr.10291Weston went on.1029210293“Mrs. Churchill is not much in my good graces, as you may suspect--but10294this is quite between ourselves. She is very fond of Frank, and10295therefore I would not speak ill of her. Besides, she is out of health10296now; but _that_ indeed, by her own account, she has always been. I would10297not say so to every body, Mrs. Elton, but I have not much faith in Mrs.10298Churchill's illness.”1029910300“If she is really ill, why not go to Bath, Mr. Weston?--To Bath, or to10301Clifton?” “She has taken it into her head that Enscombe is too cold for10302her. The fact is, I suppose, that she is tired of Enscombe. She has now10303been a longer time stationary there, than she ever was before, and she10304begins to want change. It is a retired place. A fine place, but very10305retired.”1030610307“Aye--like Maple Grove, I dare say. Nothing can stand more retired from10308the road than Maple Grove. Such an immense plantation all round it! You10309seem shut out from every thing--in the most complete retirement.--And10310Mrs. Churchill probably has not health or spirits like Selina to enjoy10311that sort of seclusion. Or, perhaps she may not have resources enough in10312herself to be qualified for a country life. I always say a woman cannot10313have too many resources--and I feel very thankful that I have so many10314myself as to be quite independent of society.”1031510316“Frank was here in February for a fortnight.”1031710318“So I remember to have heard. He will find an _addition_ to the society10319of Highbury when he comes again; that is, if I may presume to call10320myself an addition. But perhaps he may never have heard of there being10321such a creature in the world.”1032210323This was too loud a call for a compliment to be passed by, and Mr.10324Weston, with a very good grace, immediately exclaimed,1032510326“My dear madam! Nobody but yourself could imagine such a thing possible.10327Not heard of you!--I believe Mrs. Weston's letters lately have been full10328of very little else than Mrs. Elton.”1032910330He had done his duty and could return to his son.1033110332“When Frank left us,” continued he, “it was quite uncertain when we10333might see him again, which makes this day's news doubly welcome. It has10334been completely unexpected. That is, _I_ always had a strong persuasion10335he would be here again soon, I was sure something favourable would turn10336up--but nobody believed me. He and Mrs. Weston were both dreadfully10337desponding. 'How could he contrive to come? And how could it be supposed10338that his uncle and aunt would spare him again?' and so forth--I always10339felt that something would happen in our favour; and so it has, you see.10340I have observed, Mrs. Elton, in the course of my life, that if things10341are going untowardly one month, they are sure to mend the next.”1034210343“Very true, Mr. Weston, perfectly true. It is just what I used to say to10344a certain gentleman in company in the days of courtship, when, because10345things did not go quite right, did not proceed with all the rapidity10346which suited his feelings, he was apt to be in despair, and exclaim that10347he was sure at this rate it would be _May_ before Hymen's saffron robe10348would be put on for us. Oh! the pains I have been at to dispel those10349gloomy ideas and give him cheerfuller views! The carriage--we had10350disappointments about the carriage;--one morning, I remember, he came to10351me quite in despair.”1035210353She was stopped by a slight fit of coughing, and Mr. Weston instantly10354seized the opportunity of going on.1035510356“You were mentioning May. May is the very month which Mrs. Churchill10357is ordered, or has ordered herself, to spend in some warmer place than10358Enscombe--in short, to spend in London; so that we have the agreeable10359prospect of frequent visits from Frank the whole spring--precisely the10360season of the year which one should have chosen for it: days almost at10361the longest; weather genial and pleasant, always inviting one out, and10362never too hot for exercise. When he was here before, we made the best10363of it; but there was a good deal of wet, damp, cheerless weather;10364there always is in February, you know, and we could not do half that we10365intended. Now will be the time. This will be complete enjoyment; and I10366do not know, Mrs. Elton, whether the uncertainty of our meetings, the10367sort of constant expectation there will be of his coming in to-day or10368to-morrow, and at any hour, may not be more friendly to happiness than10369having him actually in the house. I think it is so. I think it is the10370state of mind which gives most spirit and delight. I hope you will be10371pleased with my son; but you must not expect a prodigy. He is generally10372thought a fine young man, but do not expect a prodigy. Mrs. Weston's10373partiality for him is very great, and, as you may suppose, most10374gratifying to me. She thinks nobody equal to him.”1037510376“And I assure you, Mr. Weston, I have very little doubt that my opinion10377will be decidedly in his favour. I have heard so much in praise of Mr.10378Frank Churchill.--At the same time it is fair to observe, that I am one10379of those who always judge for themselves, and are by no means implicitly10380guided by others. I give you notice that as I find your son, so I shall10381judge of him.--I am no flatterer.”1038210383Mr. Weston was musing.1038410385“I hope,” said he presently, “I have not been severe upon poor Mrs.10386Churchill. If she is ill I should be sorry to do her injustice; but10387there are some traits in her character which make it difficult for me to10388speak of her with the forbearance I could wish. You cannot be ignorant,10389Mrs. Elton, of my connexion with the family, nor of the treatment I have10390met with; and, between ourselves, the whole blame of it is to be laid10391to her. She was the instigator. Frank's mother would never have been10392slighted as she was but for her. Mr. Churchill has pride; but his pride10393is nothing to his wife's: his is a quiet, indolent, gentlemanlike sort10394of pride that would harm nobody, and only make himself a little helpless10395and tiresome; but her pride is arrogance and insolence! And what10396inclines one less to bear, she has no fair pretence of family or blood.10397She was nobody when he married her, barely the daughter of a gentleman;10398but ever since her being turned into a Churchill she has out-Churchill'd10399them all in high and mighty claims: but in herself, I assure you, she is10400an upstart.”1040110402“Only think! well, that must be infinitely provoking! I have quite10403a horror of upstarts. Maple Grove has given me a thorough disgust to10404people of that sort; for there is a family in that neighbourhood who10405are such an annoyance to my brother and sister from the airs they give10406themselves! Your description of Mrs. Churchill made me think of them10407directly. People of the name of Tupman, very lately settled there, and10408encumbered with many low connexions, but giving themselves immense airs,10409and expecting to be on a footing with the old established families.10410A year and a half is the very utmost that they can have lived at West10411Hall; and how they got their fortune nobody knows. They came from10412Birmingham, which is not a place to promise much, you know, Mr. Weston.10413One has not great hopes from Birmingham. I always say there is something10414direful in the sound: but nothing more is positively known of the10415Tupmans, though a good many things I assure you are suspected; and10416yet by their manners they evidently think themselves equal even to10417my brother, Mr. Suckling, who happens to be one of their nearest10418neighbours. It is infinitely too bad. Mr. Suckling, who has been eleven10419years a resident at Maple Grove, and whose father had it before him--I10420believe, at least--I am almost sure that old Mr. Suckling had completed10421the purchase before his death.”1042210423They were interrupted. Tea was carrying round, and Mr. Weston, having10424said all that he wanted, soon took the opportunity of walking away.1042510426After tea, Mr. and Mrs. Weston, and Mr. Elton sat down with Mr.10427Woodhouse to cards. The remaining five were left to their own powers,10428and Emma doubted their getting on very well; for Mr. Knightley seemed10429little disposed for conversation; Mrs. Elton was wanting notice, which10430nobody had inclination to pay, and she was herself in a worry of spirits10431which would have made her prefer being silent.1043210433Mr. John Knightley proved more talkative than his brother. He was to10434leave them early the next day; and he soon began with--1043510436“Well, Emma, I do not believe I have any thing more to say about the10437boys; but you have your sister's letter, and every thing is down at full10438length there we may be sure. My charge would be much more concise than10439her's, and probably not much in the same spirit; all that I have to10440recommend being comprised in, do not spoil them, and do not physic10441them.”1044210443“I rather hope to satisfy you both,” said Emma, “for I shall do all10444in my power to make them happy, which will be enough for Isabella; and10445happiness must preclude false indulgence and physic.”1044610447“And if you find them troublesome, you must send them home again.”1044810449“That is very likely. You think so, do not you?”1045010451“I hope I am aware that they may be too noisy for your father--or even10452may be some encumbrance to you, if your visiting engagements continue to10453increase as much as they have done lately.”1045410455“Increase!”1045610457“Certainly; you must be sensible that the last half-year has made a10458great difference in your way of life.”1045910460“Difference! No indeed I am not.”1046110462“There can be no doubt of your being much more engaged with company than10463you used to be. Witness this very time. Here am I come down for only10464one day, and you are engaged with a dinner-party!--When did it happen10465before, or any thing like it? Your neighbourhood is increasing, and you10466mix more with it. A little while ago, every letter to Isabella brought10467an account of fresh gaieties; dinners at Mr. Cole's, or balls at the10468Crown. The difference which Randalls, Randalls alone makes in your10469goings-on, is very great.”1047010471“Yes,” said his brother quickly, “it is Randalls that does it all.”1047210473“Very well--and as Randalls, I suppose, is not likely to have less10474influence than heretofore, it strikes me as a possible thing, Emma, that10475Henry and John may be sometimes in the way. And if they are, I only beg10476you to send them home.”1047710478“No,” cried Mr. Knightley, “that need not be the consequence. Let them10479be sent to Donwell. I shall certainly be at leisure.”1048010481“Upon my word,” exclaimed Emma, “you amuse me! I should like to know how10482many of all my numerous engagements take place without your being of10483the party; and why I am to be supposed in danger of wanting leisure to10484attend to the little boys. These amazing engagements of mine--what have10485they been? Dining once with the Coles--and having a ball talked of,10486which never took place. I can understand you--(nodding at Mr. John10487Knightley)--your good fortune in meeting with so many of your friends at10488once here, delights you too much to pass unnoticed. But you, (turning to10489Mr. Knightley,) who know how very, very seldom I am ever two hours from10490Hartfield, why you should foresee such a series of dissipation for me, I10491cannot imagine. And as to my dear little boys, I must say, that if Aunt10492Emma has not time for them, I do not think they would fare much better10493with Uncle Knightley, who is absent from home about five hours where she10494is absent one--and who, when he is at home, is either reading to himself10495or settling his accounts.”1049610497Mr. Knightley seemed to be trying not to smile; and succeeded without10498difficulty, upon Mrs. Elton's beginning to talk to him.1049910500105011050210503VOLUME III10504105051050610507CHAPTER I105081050910510A very little quiet reflection was enough to satisfy Emma as to the10511nature of her agitation on hearing this news of Frank Churchill. She10512was soon convinced that it was not for herself she was feeling at all10513apprehensive or embarrassed; it was for him. Her own attachment had10514really subsided into a mere nothing; it was not worth thinking of;--but10515if he, who had undoubtedly been always so much the most in love of the10516two, were to be returning with the same warmth of sentiment which he had10517taken away, it would be very distressing. If a separation of two10518months should not have cooled him, there were dangers and evils before10519her:--caution for him and for herself would be necessary. She did10520not mean to have her own affections entangled again, and it would be10521incumbent on her to avoid any encouragement of his.1052210523She wished she might be able to keep him from an absolute declaration.10524That would be so very painful a conclusion of their present10525acquaintance! and yet, she could not help rather anticipating something10526decisive. She felt as if the spring would not pass without bringing a10527crisis, an event, a something to alter her present composed and tranquil10528state.1052910530It was not very long, though rather longer than Mr. Weston had foreseen,10531before she had the power of forming some opinion of Frank Churchill's10532feelings. The Enscombe family were not in town quite so soon as had been10533imagined, but he was at Highbury very soon afterwards. He rode down10534for a couple of hours; he could not yet do more; but as he came from10535Randalls immediately to Hartfield, she could then exercise all her quick10536observation, and speedily determine how he was influenced, and how she10537must act. They met with the utmost friendliness. There could be no doubt10538of his great pleasure in seeing her. But she had an almost instant doubt10539of his caring for her as he had done, of his feeling the same tenderness10540in the same degree. She watched him well. It was a clear thing he was10541less in love than he had been. Absence, with the conviction probably10542of her indifference, had produced this very natural and very desirable10543effect.1054410545He was in high spirits; as ready to talk and laugh as ever, and seemed10546delighted to speak of his former visit, and recur to old stories: and he10547was not without agitation. It was not in his calmness that she read10548his comparative difference. He was not calm; his spirits were evidently10549fluttered; there was restlessness about him. Lively as he was, it seemed10550a liveliness that did not satisfy himself; but what decided her belief10551on the subject, was his staying only a quarter of an hour, and hurrying10552away to make other calls in Highbury. “He had seen a group of old10553acquaintance in the street as he passed--he had not stopped, he would10554not stop for more than a word--but he had the vanity to think they would10555be disappointed if he did not call, and much as he wished to stay longer10556at Hartfield, he must hurry off.” She had no doubt as to his being less10557in love--but neither his agitated spirits, nor his hurrying away, seemed10558like a perfect cure; and she was rather inclined to think it implied a10559dread of her returning power, and a discreet resolution of not trusting10560himself with her long.1056110562This was the only visit from Frank Churchill in the course of ten days.10563He was often hoping, intending to come--but was always prevented. His10564aunt could not bear to have him leave her. Such was his own account at10565Randall's. If he were quite sincere, if he really tried to come, it was10566to be inferred that Mrs. Churchill's removal to London had been of no10567service to the wilful or nervous part of her disorder. That she was10568really ill was very certain; he had declared himself convinced of it, at10569Randalls. Though much might be fancy, he could not doubt, when he looked10570back, that she was in a weaker state of health than she had been half a10571year ago. He did not believe it to proceed from any thing that care10572and medicine might not remove, or at least that she might not have many10573years of existence before her; but he could not be prevailed on, by all10574his father's doubts, to say that her complaints were merely imaginary,10575or that she was as strong as ever.1057610577It soon appeared that London was not the place for her. She could10578not endure its noise. Her nerves were under continual irritation and10579suffering; and by the ten days' end, her nephew's letter to Randalls10580communicated a change of plan. They were going to remove immediately to10581Richmond. Mrs. Churchill had been recommended to the medical skill of10582an eminent person there, and had otherwise a fancy for the place. A10583ready-furnished house in a favourite spot was engaged, and much benefit10584expected from the change.1058510586Emma heard that Frank wrote in the highest spirits of this arrangement,10587and seemed most fully to appreciate the blessing of having two months10588before him of such near neighbourhood to many dear friends--for the10589house was taken for May and June. She was told that now he wrote with10590the greatest confidence of being often with them, almost as often as he10591could even wish.1059210593Emma saw how Mr. Weston understood these joyous prospects. He was10594considering her as the source of all the happiness they offered. She10595hoped it was not so. Two months must bring it to the proof.1059610597Mr. Weston's own happiness was indisputable. He was quite delighted.10598It was the very circumstance he could have wished for. Now, it would be10599really having Frank in their neighbourhood. What were nine miles to10600a young man?--An hour's ride. He would be always coming over. The10601difference in that respect of Richmond and London was enough to make10602the whole difference of seeing him always and seeing him never. Sixteen10603miles--nay, eighteen--it must be full eighteen to Manchester-street--was10604a serious obstacle. Were he ever able to get away, the day would be10605spent in coming and returning. There was no comfort in having him in10606London; he might as well be at Enscombe; but Richmond was the very10607distance for easy intercourse. Better than nearer!1060810609One good thing was immediately brought to a certainty by this10610removal,--the ball at the Crown. It had not been forgotten before,10611but it had been soon acknowledged vain to attempt to fix a day. Now,10612however, it was absolutely to be; every preparation was resumed, and10613very soon after the Churchills had removed to Richmond, a few lines from10614Frank, to say that his aunt felt already much better for the change, and10615that he had no doubt of being able to join them for twenty-four hours at10616any given time, induced them to name as early a day as possible.1061710618Mr. Weston's ball was to be a real thing. A very few to-morrows stood10619between the young people of Highbury and happiness.1062010621Mr. Woodhouse was resigned. The time of year lightened the evil to him.10622May was better for every thing than February. Mrs. Bates was engaged to10623spend the evening at Hartfield, James had due notice, and he sanguinely10624hoped that neither dear little Henry nor dear little John would have any10625thing the matter with them, while dear Emma were gone.10626106271062810629CHAPTER II106301063110632No misfortune occurred, again to prevent the ball. The day approached,10633the day arrived; and after a morning of some anxious watching, Frank10634Churchill, in all the certainty of his own self, reached Randalls before10635dinner, and every thing was safe.1063610637No second meeting had there yet been between him and Emma. The room10638at the Crown was to witness it;--but it would be better than a10639common meeting in a crowd. Mr. Weston had been so very earnest in his10640entreaties for her arriving there as soon as possible after themselves,10641for the purpose of taking her opinion as to the propriety and comfort of10642the rooms before any other persons came, that she could not refuse him,10643and must therefore spend some quiet interval in the young man's company.10644She was to convey Harriet, and they drove to the Crown in good time, the10645Randalls party just sufficiently before them.1064610647Frank Churchill seemed to have been on the watch; and though he did not10648say much, his eyes declared that he meant to have a delightful evening.10649They all walked about together, to see that every thing was as it should10650be; and within a few minutes were joined by the contents of another10651carriage, which Emma could not hear the sound of at first, without great10652surprize. “So unreasonably early!” she was going to exclaim; but she10653presently found that it was a family of old friends, who were coming,10654like herself, by particular desire, to help Mr. Weston's judgment; and10655they were so very closely followed by another carriage of cousins,10656who had been entreated to come early with the same distinguishing10657earnestness, on the same errand, that it seemed as if half the company10658might soon be collected together for the purpose of preparatory10659inspection.1066010661Emma perceived that her taste was not the only taste on which Mr. Weston10662depended, and felt, that to be the favourite and intimate of a man10663who had so many intimates and confidantes, was not the very first10664distinction in the scale of vanity. She liked his open manners, but10665a little less of open-heartedness would have made him a higher10666character.--General benevolence, but not general friendship, made a10667man what he ought to be.--She could fancy such a man. The whole party10668walked about, and looked, and praised again; and then, having nothing10669else to do, formed a sort of half-circle round the fire, to observe10670in their various modes, till other subjects were started, that, though10671_May_, a fire in the evening was still very pleasant.1067210673Emma found that it was not Mr. Weston's fault that the number of privy10674councillors was not yet larger. They had stopped at Mrs. Bates's door10675to offer the use of their carriage, but the aunt and niece were to be10676brought by the Eltons.1067710678Frank was standing by her, but not steadily; there was a restlessness,10679which shewed a mind not at ease. He was looking about, he was going to10680the door, he was watching for the sound of other carriages,--impatient10681to begin, or afraid of being always near her.1068210683Mrs. Elton was spoken of. “I think she must be here soon,” said he. “I10684have a great curiosity to see Mrs. Elton, I have heard so much of her.10685It cannot be long, I think, before she comes.”1068610687A carriage was heard. He was on the move immediately; but coming back,10688said,1068910690“I am forgetting that I am not acquainted with her. I have never seen10691either Mr. or Mrs. Elton. I have no business to put myself forward.”1069210693Mr. and Mrs. Elton appeared; and all the smiles and the proprieties10694passed.1069510696“But Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax!” said Mr. Weston, looking about. “We10697thought you were to bring them.”1069810699The mistake had been slight. The carriage was sent for them now. Emma10700longed to know what Frank's first opinion of Mrs. Elton might be; how10701he was affected by the studied elegance of her dress, and her smiles of10702graciousness. He was immediately qualifying himself to form an opinion,10703by giving her very proper attention, after the introduction had passed.1070410705In a few minutes the carriage returned.--Somebody talked of rain.--“I10706will see that there are umbrellas, sir,” said Frank to his father:10707“Miss Bates must not be forgotten:” and away he went. Mr. Weston was10708following; but Mrs. Elton detained him, to gratify him by her opinion10709of his son; and so briskly did she begin, that the young man himself,10710though by no means moving slowly, could hardly be out of hearing.1071110712“A very fine young man indeed, Mr. Weston. You know I candidly told you10713I should form my own opinion; and I am happy to say that I am extremely10714pleased with him.--You may believe me. I never compliment. I think him10715a very handsome young man, and his manners are precisely what I like and10716approve--so truly the gentleman, without the least conceit or puppyism.10717You must know I have a vast dislike to puppies--quite a horror of them.10718They were never tolerated at Maple Grove. Neither Mr. Suckling nor10719me had ever any patience with them; and we used sometimes to say very10720cutting things! Selina, who is mild almost to a fault, bore with them10721much better.”1072210723While she talked of his son, Mr. Weston's attention was chained; but10724when she got to Maple Grove, he could recollect that there were ladies10725just arriving to be attended to, and with happy smiles must hurry away.1072610727Mrs. Elton turned to Mrs. Weston. “I have no doubt of its being our10728carriage with Miss Bates and Jane. Our coachman and horses are so10729extremely expeditious!--I believe we drive faster than any body.--What10730a pleasure it is to send one's carriage for a friend!--I understand you10731were so kind as to offer, but another time it will be quite unnecessary.10732You may be very sure I shall always take care of _them_.”1073310734Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax, escorted by the two gentlemen, walked into10735the room; and Mrs. Elton seemed to think it as much her duty as Mrs.10736Weston's to receive them. Her gestures and movements might be understood10737by any one who looked on like Emma; but her words, every body's words,10738were soon lost under the incessant flow of Miss Bates, who came in10739talking, and had not finished her speech under many minutes after her10740being admitted into the circle at the fire. As the door opened she was10741heard,1074210743“So very obliging of you!--No rain at all. Nothing to signify. I do not10744care for myself. Quite thick shoes. And Jane declares--Well!--(as soon10745as she was within the door) Well! This is brilliant indeed!--This is10746admirable!--Excellently contrived, upon my word. Nothing wanting. Could10747not have imagined it.--So well lighted up!--Jane, Jane, look!--did you10748ever see any thing? Oh! Mr. Weston, you must really have had Aladdin's10749lamp. Good Mrs. Stokes would not know her own room again. I saw her as10750I came in; she was standing in the entrance. 'Oh! Mrs. Stokes,' said10751I--but I had not time for more.” She was now met by Mrs. Weston.--“Very10752well, I thank you, ma'am. I hope you are quite well. Very happy to hear10753it. So afraid you might have a headache!--seeing you pass by so often,10754and knowing how much trouble you must have. Delighted to hear it indeed.10755Ah! dear Mrs. Elton, so obliged to you for the carriage!--excellent10756time. Jane and I quite ready. Did not keep the horses a moment. Most10757comfortable carriage.--Oh! and I am sure our thanks are due to you,10758Mrs. Weston, on that score. Mrs. Elton had most kindly sent Jane a note,10759or we should have been.--But two such offers in one day!--Never were10760such neighbours. I said to my mother, 'Upon my word, ma'am--.' Thank10761you, my mother is remarkably well. Gone to Mr. Woodhouse's. I made her10762take her shawl--for the evenings are not warm--her large new shawl--10763Mrs. Dixon's wedding-present.--So kind of her to think of my mother!10764Bought at Weymouth, you know--Mr. Dixon's choice. There were three10765others, Jane says, which they hesitated about some time. Colonel10766Campbell rather preferred an olive. My dear Jane, are you sure you did10767not wet your feet?--It was but a drop or two, but I am so afraid:--but10768Mr. Frank Churchill was so extremely--and there was a mat to step10769upon--I shall never forget his extreme politeness.--Oh! Mr. Frank10770Churchill, I must tell you my mother's spectacles have never been in10771fault since; the rivet never came out again. My mother often talks of10772your good-nature. Does not she, Jane?--Do not we often talk of Mr. Frank10773Churchill?--Ah! here's Miss Woodhouse.--Dear Miss Woodhouse, how do10774you do?--Very well I thank you, quite well. This is meeting quite10775in fairy-land!--Such a transformation!--Must not compliment, I know10776(eyeing Emma most complacently)--that would be rude--but upon my word,10777Miss Woodhouse, you do look--how do you like Jane's hair?--You are10778a judge.--She did it all herself. Quite wonderful how she does her10779hair!--No hairdresser from London I think could.--Ah! Dr. Hughes I10780declare--and Mrs. Hughes. Must go and speak to Dr. and Mrs. Hughes for a10781moment.--How do you do? How do you do?--Very well, I thank you. This10782is delightful, is not it?--Where's dear Mr. Richard?--Oh! there he is.10783Don't disturb him. Much better employed talking to the young ladies. How10784do you do, Mr. Richard?--I saw you the other day as you rode through10785the town--Mrs. Otway, I protest!--and good Mr. Otway, and Miss Otway10786and Miss Caroline.--Such a host of friends!--and Mr. George and Mr.10787Arthur!--How do you do? How do you all do?--Quite well, I am much10788obliged to you. Never better.--Don't I hear another carriage?--Who can10789this be?--very likely the worthy Coles.--Upon my word, this is charming10790to be standing about among such friends! And such a noble fire!--I am10791quite roasted. No coffee, I thank you, for me--never take coffee.--A10792little tea if you please, sir, by and bye,--no hurry--Oh! here it comes.10793Every thing so good!”1079410795Frank Churchill returned to his station by Emma; and as soon as Miss10796Bates was quiet, she found herself necessarily overhearing the discourse10797of Mrs. Elton and Miss Fairfax, who were standing a little way behind10798her.--He was thoughtful. Whether he were overhearing too, she could not10799determine. After a good many compliments to Jane on her dress and look,10800compliments very quietly and properly taken, Mrs. Elton was evidently10801wanting to be complimented herself--and it was, “How do you like10802my gown?--How do you like my trimming?--How has Wright done my10803hair?”--with many other relative questions, all answered with patient10804politeness. Mrs. Elton then said, “Nobody can think less of dress in10805general than I do--but upon such an occasion as this, when every body's10806eyes are so much upon me, and in compliment to the Westons--who I have10807no doubt are giving this ball chiefly to do me honour--I would not wish10808to be inferior to others. And I see very few pearls in the room except10809mine.--So Frank Churchill is a capital dancer, I understand.--We shall10810see if our styles suit.--A fine young man certainly is Frank Churchill.10811I like him very well.”1081210813At this moment Frank began talking so vigorously, that Emma could not10814but imagine he had overheard his own praises, and did not want to hear10815more;--and the voices of the ladies were drowned for a while, till10816another suspension brought Mrs. Elton's tones again distinctly10817forward.--Mr. Elton had just joined them, and his wife was exclaiming,1081810819“Oh! you have found us out at last, have you, in our seclusion?--I was10820this moment telling Jane, I thought you would begin to be impatient for10821tidings of us.”1082210823“Jane!”--repeated Frank Churchill, with a look of surprize and10824displeasure.--“That is easy--but Miss Fairfax does not disapprove it, I10825suppose.”1082610827“How do you like Mrs. Elton?” said Emma in a whisper.1082810829“Not at all.”1083010831“You are ungrateful.”1083210833“Ungrateful!--What do you mean?” Then changing from a frown to a10834smile--“No, do not tell me--I do not want to know what you mean.--Where10835is my father?--When are we to begin dancing?”1083610837Emma could hardly understand him; he seemed in an odd humour. He walked10838off to find his father, but was quickly back again with both Mr. and10839Mrs. Weston. He had met with them in a little perplexity, which must be10840laid before Emma. It had just occurred to Mrs. Weston that Mrs. Elton10841must be asked to begin the ball; that she would expect it; which10842interfered with all their wishes of giving Emma that distinction.--Emma10843heard the sad truth with fortitude.1084410845“And what are we to do for a proper partner for her?” said Mr. Weston.10846“She will think Frank ought to ask her.”1084710848Frank turned instantly to Emma, to claim her former promise; and10849boasted himself an engaged man, which his father looked his most perfect10850approbation of--and it then appeared that Mrs. Weston was wanting _him_10851to dance with Mrs. Elton himself, and that their business was to help to10852persuade him into it, which was done pretty soon.--Mr. Weston and Mrs.10853Elton led the way, Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse followed.10854Emma must submit to stand second to Mrs. Elton, though she had always10855considered the ball as peculiarly for her. It was almost enough to make10856her think of marrying. Mrs. Elton had undoubtedly the advantage, at this10857time, in vanity completely gratified; for though she had intended to10858begin with Frank Churchill, she could not lose by the change. Mr. Weston10859might be his son's superior.--In spite of this little rub, however,10860Emma was smiling with enjoyment, delighted to see the respectable length10861of the set as it was forming, and to feel that she had so many hours10862of unusual festivity before her.--She was more disturbed by Mr.10863Knightley's not dancing than by any thing else.--There he was, among10864the standers-by, where he ought not to be; he ought to be dancing,--not10865classing himself with the husbands, and fathers, and whist-players, who10866were pretending to feel an interest in the dance till their rubbers were10867made up,--so young as he looked!--He could not have appeared to greater10868advantage perhaps anywhere, than where he had placed himself. His tall,10869firm, upright figure, among the bulky forms and stooping shoulders of10870the elderly men, was such as Emma felt must draw every body's eyes;10871and, excepting her own partner, there was not one among the whole row of10872young men who could be compared with him.--He moved a few steps nearer,10873and those few steps were enough to prove in how gentlemanlike a manner,10874with what natural grace, he must have danced, would he but take the10875trouble.--Whenever she caught his eye, she forced him to smile; but10876in general he was looking grave. She wished he could love a ballroom10877better, and could like Frank Churchill better.--He seemed often10878observing her. She must not flatter herself that he thought of her10879dancing, but if he were criticising her behaviour, she did not feel10880afraid. There was nothing like flirtation between her and her partner.10881They seemed more like cheerful, easy friends, than lovers. That Frank10882Churchill thought less of her than he had done, was indubitable.1088310884The ball proceeded pleasantly. The anxious cares, the incessant10885attentions of Mrs. Weston, were not thrown away. Every body seemed10886happy; and the praise of being a delightful ball, which is seldom10887bestowed till after a ball has ceased to be, was repeatedly given in10888the very beginning of the existence of this. Of very important, very10889recordable events, it was not more productive than such meetings usually10890are. There was one, however, which Emma thought something of.--The two10891last dances before supper were begun, and Harriet had no partner;--the10892only young lady sitting down;--and so equal had been hitherto the10893number of dancers, that how there could be any one disengaged was the10894wonder!--But Emma's wonder lessened soon afterwards, on seeing Mr. Elton10895sauntering about. He would not ask Harriet to dance if it were possible10896to be avoided: she was sure he would not--and she was expecting him10897every moment to escape into the card-room.1089810899Escape, however, was not his plan. He came to the part of the room where10900the sitters-by were collected, spoke to some, and walked about in front10901of them, as if to shew his liberty, and his resolution of maintaining10902it. He did not omit being sometimes directly before Miss Smith, or10903speaking to those who were close to her.--Emma saw it. She was not yet10904dancing; she was working her way up from the bottom, and had therefore10905leisure to look around, and by only turning her head a little she saw10906it all. When she was half-way up the set, the whole group were exactly10907behind her, and she would no longer allow her eyes to watch; but Mr.10908Elton was so near, that she heard every syllable of a dialogue which10909just then took place between him and Mrs. Weston; and she perceived that10910his wife, who was standing immediately above her, was not only10911listening also, but even encouraging him by significant glances.--The10912kind-hearted, gentle Mrs. Weston had left her seat to join him and say,10913“Do not you dance, Mr. Elton?” to which his prompt reply was, “Most10914readily, Mrs. Weston, if you will dance with me.”1091510916“Me!--oh! no--I would get you a better partner than myself. I am no10917dancer.”1091810919“If Mrs. Gilbert wishes to dance,” said he, “I shall have great10920pleasure, I am sure--for, though beginning to feel myself rather an old10921married man, and that my dancing days are over, it would give me very10922great pleasure at any time to stand up with an old friend like Mrs.10923Gilbert.”1092410925“Mrs. Gilbert does not mean to dance, but there is a young lady10926disengaged whom I should be very glad to see dancing--Miss Smith.” “Miss10927Smith!--oh!--I had not observed.--You are extremely obliging--and if I10928were not an old married man.--But my dancing days are over, Mrs. Weston.10929You will excuse me. Any thing else I should be most happy to do, at your10930command--but my dancing days are over.”1093110932Mrs. Weston said no more; and Emma could imagine with what surprize and10933mortification she must be returning to her seat. This was Mr. Elton! the10934amiable, obliging, gentle Mr. Elton.--She looked round for a moment; he10935had joined Mr. Knightley at a little distance, and was arranging himself10936for settled conversation, while smiles of high glee passed between him10937and his wife.1093810939She would not look again. Her heart was in a glow, and she feared her10940face might be as hot.1094110942In another moment a happier sight caught her;--Mr. Knightley leading10943Harriet to the set!--Never had she been more surprized, seldom more10944delighted, than at that instant. She was all pleasure and gratitude,10945both for Harriet and herself, and longed to be thanking him; and though10946too distant for speech, her countenance said much, as soon as she could10947catch his eye again.1094810949His dancing proved to be just what she had believed it, extremely good;10950and Harriet would have seemed almost too lucky, if it had not been for10951the cruel state of things before, and for the very complete enjoyment10952and very high sense of the distinction which her happy features10953announced. It was not thrown away on her, she bounded higher than ever,10954flew farther down the middle, and was in a continual course of smiles.1095510956Mr. Elton had retreated into the card-room, looking (Emma trusted) very10957foolish. She did not think he was quite so hardened as his wife, though10958growing very like her;--_she_ spoke some of her feelings, by observing10959audibly to her partner,1096010961“Knightley has taken pity on poor little Miss Smith!--Very good-natured,10962I declare.”1096310964Supper was announced. The move began; and Miss Bates might be heard from10965that moment, without interruption, till her being seated at table and10966taking up her spoon.1096710968“Jane, Jane, my dear Jane, where are you?--Here is your tippet. Mrs.10969Weston begs you to put on your tippet. She says she is afraid there will10970be draughts in the passage, though every thing has been done--One door10971nailed up--Quantities of matting--My dear Jane, indeed you must.10972Mr. Churchill, oh! you are too obliging! How well you put it on!--so10973gratified! Excellent dancing indeed!--Yes, my dear, I ran home, as I10974said I should, to help grandmama to bed, and got back again, and10975nobody missed me.--I set off without saying a word, just as I told you.10976Grandmama was quite well, had a charming evening with Mr. Woodhouse, a10977vast deal of chat, and backgammon.--Tea was made downstairs, biscuits10978and baked apples and wine before she came away: amazing luck in some10979of her throws: and she inquired a great deal about you, how you were10980amused, and who were your partners. 'Oh!' said I, 'I shall not forestall10981Jane; I left her dancing with Mr. George Otway; she will love to tell10982you all about it herself to-morrow: her first partner was Mr. Elton,10983I do not know who will ask her next, perhaps Mr. William Cox.' My dear10984sir, you are too obliging.--Is there nobody you would not rather?--I am10985not helpless. Sir, you are most kind. Upon my word, Jane on one arm, and10986me on the other!--Stop, stop, let us stand a little back, Mrs. Elton is10987going; dear Mrs. Elton, how elegant she looks!--Beautiful lace!--Now we10988all follow in her train. Quite the queen of the evening!--Well, here we10989are at the passage. Two steps, Jane, take care of the two steps. Oh! no,10990there is but one. Well, I was persuaded there were two. How very odd!10991I was convinced there were two, and there is but one. I never saw any10992thing equal to the comfort and style--Candles everywhere.--I was telling10993you of your grandmama, Jane,--There was a little disappointment.--The10994baked apples and biscuits, excellent in their way, you know; but there10995was a delicate fricassee of sweetbread and some asparagus brought in at10996first, and good Mr. Woodhouse, not thinking the asparagus quite boiled10997enough, sent it all out again. Now there is nothing grandmama loves10998better than sweetbread and asparagus--so she was rather disappointed,10999but we agreed we would not speak of it to any body, for fear of11000its getting round to dear Miss Woodhouse, who would be so very much11001concerned!--Well, this is brilliant! I am all amazement! could not have11002supposed any thing!--Such elegance and profusion!--I have seen nothing11003like it since--Well, where shall we sit? where shall we sit? Anywhere,11004so that Jane is not in a draught. Where _I_ sit is of no consequence.11005Oh! do you recommend this side?--Well, I am sure, Mr. Churchill--only11006it seems too good--but just as you please. What you direct in this house11007cannot be wrong. Dear Jane, how shall we ever recollect half the dishes11008for grandmama? Soup too! Bless me! I should not be helped so soon, but11009it smells most excellent, and I cannot help beginning.”1101011011Emma had no opportunity of speaking to Mr. Knightley till after supper;11012but, when they were all in the ballroom again, her eyes invited11013him irresistibly to come to her and be thanked. He was warm in his11014reprobation of Mr. Elton's conduct; it had been unpardonable rudeness;11015and Mrs. Elton's looks also received the due share of censure.1101611017“They aimed at wounding more than Harriet,” said he. “Emma, why is it11018that they are your enemies?”1101911020He looked with smiling penetration; and, on receiving no answer, added,11021“_She_ ought not to be angry with you, I suspect, whatever he may11022be.--To that surmise, you say nothing, of course; but confess, Emma,11023that you did want him to marry Harriet.”1102411025“I did,” replied Emma, “and they cannot forgive me.”1102611027He shook his head; but there was a smile of indulgence with it, and he11028only said,1102911030“I shall not scold you. I leave you to your own reflections.”1103111032“Can you trust me with such flatterers?--Does my vain spirit ever tell11033me I am wrong?”1103411035“Not your vain spirit, but your serious spirit.--If one leads you wrong,11036I am sure the other tells you of it.”1103711038“I do own myself to have been completely mistaken in Mr. Elton. There is11039a littleness about him which you discovered, and which I did not: and I11040was fully convinced of his being in love with Harriet. It was through a11041series of strange blunders!”1104211043“And, in return for your acknowledging so much, I will do you the11044justice to say, that you would have chosen for him better than he has11045chosen for himself.--Harriet Smith has some first-rate qualities, which11046Mrs. Elton is totally without. An unpretending, single-minded, artless11047girl--infinitely to be preferred by any man of sense and taste to such a11048woman as Mrs. Elton. I found Harriet more conversable than I expected.”1104911050Emma was extremely gratified.--They were interrupted by the bustle of11051Mr. Weston calling on every body to begin dancing again.1105211053“Come Miss Woodhouse, Miss Otway, Miss Fairfax, what are you all11054doing?--Come Emma, set your companions the example. Every body is lazy!11055Every body is asleep!”1105611057“I am ready,” said Emma, “whenever I am wanted.”1105811059“Whom are you going to dance with?” asked Mr. Knightley.1106011061She hesitated a moment, and then replied, “With you, if you will ask11062me.”1106311064“Will you?” said he, offering his hand.1106511066“Indeed I will. You have shewn that you can dance, and you know we are11067not really so much brother and sister as to make it at all improper.”1106811069“Brother and sister! no, indeed.”11070110711107211073CHAPTER III110741107511076This little explanation with Mr. Knightley gave Emma considerable11077pleasure. It was one of the agreeable recollections of the ball, which11078she walked about the lawn the next morning to enjoy.--She was extremely11079glad that they had come to so good an understanding respecting the11080Eltons, and that their opinions of both husband and wife were so much11081alike; and his praise of Harriet, his concession in her favour, was11082peculiarly gratifying. The impertinence of the Eltons, which for a few11083minutes had threatened to ruin the rest of her evening, had been the11084occasion of some of its highest satisfactions; and she looked forward11085to another happy result--the cure of Harriet's infatuation.--From11086Harriet's manner of speaking of the circumstance before they quitted the11087ballroom, she had strong hopes. It seemed as if her eyes were suddenly11088opened, and she were enabled to see that Mr. Elton was not the superior11089creature she had believed him. The fever was over, and Emma could11090harbour little fear of the pulse being quickened again by injurious11091courtesy. She depended on the evil feelings of the Eltons for11092supplying all the discipline of pointed neglect that could be farther11093requisite.--Harriet rational, Frank Churchill not too much in love, and11094Mr. Knightley not wanting to quarrel with her, how very happy a summer11095must be before her!1109611097She was not to see Frank Churchill this morning. He had told her that he11098could not allow himself the pleasure of stopping at Hartfield, as he was11099to be at home by the middle of the day. She did not regret it.1110011101Having arranged all these matters, looked them through, and put them all11102to rights, she was just turning to the house with spirits freshened up11103for the demands of the two little boys, as well as of their grandpapa,11104when the great iron sweep-gate opened, and two persons entered whom she11105had never less expected to see together--Frank Churchill, with Harriet11106leaning on his arm--actually Harriet!--A moment sufficed to convince11107her that something extraordinary had happened. Harriet looked white11108and frightened, and he was trying to cheer her.--The iron gates and the11109front-door were not twenty yards asunder;--they were all three soon in11110the hall, and Harriet immediately sinking into a chair fainted away.1111111112A young lady who faints, must be recovered; questions must be answered,11113and surprizes be explained. Such events are very interesting, but the11114suspense of them cannot last long. A few minutes made Emma acquainted11115with the whole.1111611117Miss Smith, and Miss Bickerton, another parlour boarder at Mrs.11118Goddard's, who had been also at the ball, had walked out together, and11119taken a road, the Richmond road, which, though apparently public enough11120for safety, had led them into alarm.--About half a mile beyond Highbury,11121making a sudden turn, and deeply shaded by elms on each side, it became11122for a considerable stretch very retired; and when the young ladies11123had advanced some way into it, they had suddenly perceived at a small11124distance before them, on a broader patch of greensward by the side, a11125party of gipsies. A child on the watch, came towards them to beg; and11126Miss Bickerton, excessively frightened, gave a great scream, and calling11127on Harriet to follow her, ran up a steep bank, cleared a slight hedge at11128the top, and made the best of her way by a short cut back to Highbury.11129But poor Harriet could not follow. She had suffered very much from cramp11130after dancing, and her first attempt to mount the bank brought on such11131a return of it as made her absolutely powerless--and in this state, and11132exceedingly terrified, she had been obliged to remain.1113311134How the trampers might have behaved, had the young ladies been more11135courageous, must be doubtful; but such an invitation for attack could11136not be resisted; and Harriet was soon assailed by half a dozen children,11137headed by a stout woman and a great boy, all clamorous, and impertinent11138in look, though not absolutely in word.--More and more frightened, she11139immediately promised them money, and taking out her purse, gave them a11140shilling, and begged them not to want more, or to use her ill.--She11141was then able to walk, though but slowly, and was moving away--but her11142terror and her purse were too tempting, and she was followed, or rather11143surrounded, by the whole gang, demanding more.1114411145In this state Frank Churchill had found her, she trembling and11146conditioning, they loud and insolent. By a most fortunate chance his11147leaving Highbury had been delayed so as to bring him to her assistance11148at this critical moment. The pleasantness of the morning had induced11149him to walk forward, and leave his horses to meet him by another road,11150a mile or two beyond Highbury--and happening to have borrowed a pair11151of scissors the night before of Miss Bates, and to have forgotten to11152restore them, he had been obliged to stop at her door, and go in for a11153few minutes: he was therefore later than he had intended; and being11154on foot, was unseen by the whole party till almost close to them. The11155terror which the woman and boy had been creating in Harriet was then11156their own portion. He had left them completely frightened; and Harriet11157eagerly clinging to him, and hardly able to speak, had just strength11158enough to reach Hartfield, before her spirits were quite overcome.11159It was his idea to bring her to Hartfield: he had thought of no other11160place.1116111162This was the amount of the whole story,--of his communication and of11163Harriet's as soon as she had recovered her senses and speech.--He dared11164not stay longer than to see her well; these several delays left him11165not another minute to lose; and Emma engaging to give assurance of her11166safety to Mrs. Goddard, and notice of there being such a set of people11167in the neighbourhood to Mr. Knightley, he set off, with all the grateful11168blessings that she could utter for her friend and herself.1116911170Such an adventure as this,--a fine young man and a lovely young woman11171thrown together in such a way, could hardly fail of suggesting certain11172ideas to the coldest heart and the steadiest brain. So Emma thought, at11173least. Could a linguist, could a grammarian, could even a mathematician11174have seen what she did, have witnessed their appearance together, and11175heard their history of it, without feeling that circumstances had been11176at work to make them peculiarly interesting to each other?--How much11177more must an imaginist, like herself, be on fire with speculation and11178foresight!--especially with such a groundwork of anticipation as her11179mind had already made.1118011181It was a very extraordinary thing! Nothing of the sort had ever11182occurred before to any young ladies in the place, within her memory; no11183rencontre, no alarm of the kind;--and now it had happened to the very11184person, and at the very hour, when the other very person was chancing11185to pass by to rescue her!--It certainly was very extraordinary!--And11186knowing, as she did, the favourable state of mind of each at this11187period, it struck her the more. He was wishing to get the better of his11188attachment to herself, she just recovering from her mania for Mr. Elton.11189It seemed as if every thing united to promise the most interesting11190consequences. It was not possible that the occurrence should not be11191strongly recommending each to the other.1119211193In the few minutes' conversation which she had yet had with him, while11194Harriet had been partially insensible, he had spoken of her terror,11195her naivete, her fervour as she seized and clung to his arm, with a11196sensibility amused and delighted; and just at last, after Harriet's11197own account had been given, he had expressed his indignation at the11198abominable folly of Miss Bickerton in the warmest terms. Every thing was11199to take its natural course, however, neither impelled nor assisted.11200She would not stir a step, nor drop a hint. No, she had had enough of11201interference. There could be no harm in a scheme, a mere passive scheme.11202It was no more than a wish. Beyond it she would on no account proceed.1120311204Emma's first resolution was to keep her father from the knowledge of11205what had passed,--aware of the anxiety and alarm it would occasion: but11206she soon felt that concealment must be impossible. Within half an hour11207it was known all over Highbury. It was the very event to engage those11208who talk most, the young and the low; and all the youth and servants in11209the place were soon in the happiness of frightful news. The last night's11210ball seemed lost in the gipsies. Poor Mr. Woodhouse trembled as he sat,11211and, as Emma had foreseen, would scarcely be satisfied without their11212promising never to go beyond the shrubbery again. It was some comfort11213to him that many inquiries after himself and Miss Woodhouse (for his11214neighbours knew that he loved to be inquired after), as well as Miss11215Smith, were coming in during the rest of the day; and he had11216the pleasure of returning for answer, that they were all very11217indifferent--which, though not exactly true, for she was perfectly well,11218and Harriet not much otherwise, Emma would not interfere with. She had11219an unhappy state of health in general for the child of such a man,11220for she hardly knew what indisposition was; and if he did not invent11221illnesses for her, she could make no figure in a message.1122211223The gipsies did not wait for the operations of justice; they took11224themselves off in a hurry. The young ladies of Highbury might have11225walked again in safety before their panic began, and the whole history11226dwindled soon into a matter of little importance but to Emma and her11227nephews:--in her imagination it maintained its ground, and Henry and11228John were still asking every day for the story of Harriet and the11229gipsies, and still tenaciously setting her right if she varied in the11230slightest particular from the original recital.11231112321123311234CHAPTER IV112351123611237A very few days had passed after this adventure, when Harriet came one11238morning to Emma with a small parcel in her hand, and after sitting down11239and hesitating, thus began:1124011241“Miss Woodhouse--if you are at leisure--I have something that I should11242like to tell you--a sort of confession to make--and then, you know, it11243will be over.”1124411245Emma was a good deal surprized; but begged her to speak. There was a11246seriousness in Harriet's manner which prepared her, quite as much as her11247words, for something more than ordinary.1124811249“It is my duty, and I am sure it is my wish,” she continued, “to have11250no reserves with you on this subject. As I am happily quite an altered11251creature in _one_ _respect_, it is very fit that you should have11252the satisfaction of knowing it. I do not want to say more than is11253necessary--I am too much ashamed of having given way as I have done, and11254I dare say you understand me.”1125511256“Yes,” said Emma, “I hope I do.”1125711258“How I could so long a time be fancying myself!...” cried Harriet,11259warmly. “It seems like madness! I can see nothing at all extraordinary11260in him now.--I do not care whether I meet him or not--except that of the11261two I had rather not see him--and indeed I would go any distance round11262to avoid him--but I do not envy his wife in the least; I neither admire11263her nor envy her, as I have done: she is very charming, I dare say, and11264all that, but I think her very ill-tempered and disagreeable--I shall11265never forget her look the other night!--However, I assure you, Miss11266Woodhouse, I wish her no evil.--No, let them be ever so happy together,11267it will not give me another moment's pang: and to convince you that I11268have been speaking truth, I am now going to destroy--what I ought to11269have destroyed long ago--what I ought never to have kept--I know that11270very well (blushing as she spoke).--However, now I will destroy it11271all--and it is my particular wish to do it in your presence, that you11272may see how rational I am grown. Cannot you guess what this parcel11273holds?” said she, with a conscious look.1127411275“Not the least in the world.--Did he ever give you any thing?”1127611277“No--I cannot call them gifts; but they are things that I have valued11278very much.”1127911280She held the parcel towards her, and Emma read the words _Most_11281_precious_ _treasures_ on the top. Her curiosity was greatly excited.11282Harriet unfolded the parcel, and she looked on with impatience. Within11283abundance of silver paper was a pretty little Tunbridge-ware box,11284which Harriet opened: it was well lined with the softest cotton; but,11285excepting the cotton, Emma saw only a small piece of court-plaister.1128611287“Now,” said Harriet, “you _must_ recollect.”1128811289“No, indeed I do not.”1129011291“Dear me! I should not have thought it possible you could forget what11292passed in this very room about court-plaister, one of the very last11293times we ever met in it!--It was but a very few days before I had my11294sore throat--just before Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley came--I think the11295very evening.--Do not you remember his cutting his finger with your new11296penknife, and your recommending court-plaister?--But, as you had none11297about you, and knew I had, you desired me to supply him; and so I took11298mine out and cut him a piece; but it was a great deal too large, and he11299cut it smaller, and kept playing some time with what was left, before he11300gave it back to me. And so then, in my nonsense, I could not help making11301a treasure of it--so I put it by never to be used, and looked at it now11302and then as a great treat.”1130311304“My dearest Harriet!” cried Emma, putting her hand before her face,11305and jumping up, “you make me more ashamed of myself than I can bear.11306Remember it? Aye, I remember it all now; all, except your saving this11307relic--I knew nothing of that till this moment--but the cutting the11308finger, and my recommending court-plaister, and saying I had none11309about me!--Oh! my sins, my sins!--And I had plenty all the while in my11310pocket!--One of my senseless tricks!--I deserve to be under a continual11311blush all the rest of my life.--Well--(sitting down again)--go on--what11312else?”1131311314“And had you really some at hand yourself? I am sure I never suspected11315it, you did it so naturally.”1131611317“And so you actually put this piece of court-plaister by for his sake!”11318said Emma, recovering from her state of shame and feeling divided11319between wonder and amusement. And secretly she added to herself, “Lord11320bless me! when should I ever have thought of putting by in cotton a11321piece of court-plaister that Frank Churchill had been pulling about! I11322never was equal to this.”1132311324“Here,” resumed Harriet, turning to her box again, “here is something11325still more valuable, I mean that _has_ _been_ more valuable, because11326this is what did really once belong to him, which the court-plaister11327never did.”1132811329Emma was quite eager to see this superior treasure. It was the end of an11330old pencil,--the part without any lead.1133111332“This was really his,” said Harriet.--“Do not you remember one11333morning?--no, I dare say you do not. But one morning--I forget exactly11334the day--but perhaps it was the Tuesday or Wednesday before _that_11335_evening_, he wanted to make a memorandum in his pocket-book; it was11336about spruce-beer. Mr. Knightley had been telling him something about11337brewing spruce-beer, and he wanted to put it down; but when he took out11338his pencil, there was so little lead that he soon cut it all away, and11339it would not do, so you lent him another, and this was left upon the11340table as good for nothing. But I kept my eye on it; and, as soon as I11341dared, caught it up, and never parted with it again from that moment.”1134211343“I do remember it,” cried Emma; “I perfectly remember it.--Talking11344about spruce-beer.--Oh! yes--Mr. Knightley and I both saying we11345liked it, and Mr. Elton's seeming resolved to learn to like it too. I11346perfectly remember it.--Stop; Mr. Knightley was standing just here, was11347not he? I have an idea he was standing just here.”1134811349“Ah! I do not know. I cannot recollect.--It is very odd, but I cannot11350recollect.--Mr. Elton was sitting here, I remember, much about where I11351am now.”--1135211353“Well, go on.”1135411355“Oh! that's all. I have nothing more to shew you, or to say--except that11356I am now going to throw them both behind the fire, and I wish you to see11357me do it.”1135811359“My poor dear Harriet! and have you actually found happiness in11360treasuring up these things?”1136111362“Yes, simpleton as I was!--but I am quite ashamed of it now, and wish I11363could forget as easily as I can burn them. It was very wrong of me, you11364know, to keep any remembrances, after he was married. I knew it was--but11365had not resolution enough to part with them.”1136611367“But, Harriet, is it necessary to burn the court-plaister?--I have not11368a word to say for the bit of old pencil, but the court-plaister might be11369useful.”1137011371“I shall be happier to burn it,” replied Harriet. “It has a disagreeable11372look to me. I must get rid of every thing.--There it goes, and there is11373an end, thank Heaven! of Mr. Elton.”1137411375“And when,” thought Emma, “will there be a beginning of Mr. Churchill?”1137611377She had soon afterwards reason to believe that the beginning was already11378made, and could not but hope that the gipsy, though she had _told_ no11379fortune, might be proved to have made Harriet's.--About a fortnight11380after the alarm, they came to a sufficient explanation, and quite11381undesignedly. Emma was not thinking of it at the moment, which made the11382information she received more valuable. She merely said, in the course11383of some trivial chat, “Well, Harriet, whenever you marry I would advise11384you to do so and so”--and thought no more of it, till after a minute's11385silence she heard Harriet say in a very serious tone, “I shall never11386marry.”1138711388Emma then looked up, and immediately saw how it was; and after a11389moment's debate, as to whether it should pass unnoticed or not, replied,1139011391“Never marry!--This is a new resolution.”1139211393“It is one that I shall never change, however.”1139411395After another short hesitation, “I hope it does not proceed from--I hope11396it is not in compliment to Mr. Elton?”1139711398“Mr. Elton indeed!” cried Harriet indignantly.--“Oh! no”--and Emma could11399just catch the words, “so superior to Mr. Elton!”1140011401She then took a longer time for consideration. Should she proceed no11402farther?--should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?--Perhaps11403Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did; or perhaps if she were11404totally silent, it might only drive Harriet into asking her to hear too11405much; and against any thing like such an unreserve as had been, such11406an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances, she was perfectly11407resolved.--She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at11408once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always11409best. She had previously determined how far she would proceed, on any11410application of the sort; and it would be safer for both, to have the11411judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.--She was decided,11412and thus spoke--1141311414“Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning. Your11415resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying, results from11416an idea that the person whom you might prefer, would be too greatly your11417superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?”1141811419“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose--11420Indeed I am not so mad.--But it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a11421distance--and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of11422the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which are so11423proper, in me especially.”1142411425“I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet. The service he rendered you11426was enough to warm your heart.”1142711428“Service! oh! it was such an inexpressible obligation!--The very11429recollection of it, and all that I felt at the time--when I saw him11430coming--his noble look--and my wretchedness before. Such a change! In11431one moment such a change! From perfect misery to perfect happiness!”1143211433“It is very natural. It is natural, and it is honourable.--Yes,11434honourable, I think, to chuse so well and so gratefully.--But that11435it will be a fortunate preference is more than I can promise. I do not11436advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage11437for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will be11438wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do not11439let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you. Be11440observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your sensations. I11441give you this caution now, because I shall never speak to you again on11442the subject. I am determined against all interference. Henceforward I11443know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very11444wrong before; we will be cautious now.--He is your superior, no doubt,11445and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature; but11446yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have been11447matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself. I would not11448have you too sanguine; though, however it may end, be assured your11449raising your thoughts to _him_, is a mark of good taste which I shall11450always know how to value.”1145111452Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude. Emma was11453very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend.11454Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind--and it must be11455saving her from the danger of degradation.11456114571145811459CHAPTER V114601146111462In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance, June opened upon11463Hartfield. To Highbury in general it brought no material change. The11464Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings, and of the use11465to be made of their barouche-landau; and Jane Fairfax was still at her11466grandmother's; and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again11467delayed, and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it, she was likely11468to remain there full two months longer, provided at least she were able11469to defeat Mrs. Elton's activity in her service, and save herself from11470being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.1147111472Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself, had certainly11473taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill, was only growing to dislike11474him more. He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit11475of Emma. That Emma was his object appeared indisputable. Every thing11476declared it; his own attentions, his father's hints, his mother-in-law's11477guarded silence; it was all in unison; words, conduct, discretion, and11478indiscretion, told the same story. But while so many were devoting him11479to Emma, and Emma herself making him over to Harriet, Mr. Knightley11480began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with Jane Fairfax. He11481could not understand it; but there were symptoms of intelligence between11482them--he thought so at least--symptoms of admiration on his side, which,11483having once observed, he could not persuade himself to think entirely11484void of meaning, however he might wish to escape any of Emma's errors11485of imagination. _She_ was not present when the suspicion first arose.11486He was dining with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons'; and he11487had seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from11488the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was11489again in their company, he could not help remembering what he had seen;11490nor could he avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and11491his fire at twilight,1149211493“Myself creating what I saw,”1149411495brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of private11496liking, of private understanding even, between Frank Churchill and Jane.1149711498He had walked up one day after dinner, as he very often did, to spend11499his evening at Hartfield. Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he joined11500them; and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party, who, like11501themselves, judged it wisest to take their exercise early, as the11502weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs. Weston and their son, Miss Bates11503and her niece, who had accidentally met. They all united; and, on11504reaching Hartfield gates, Emma, who knew it was exactly the sort of11505visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in11506and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately; and11507after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons listened11508to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse's most11509obliging invitation.1151011511As they were turning into the grounds, Mr. Perry passed by on horseback.11512The gentlemen spoke of his horse.1151311514“By the bye,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs. Weston presently, “what11515became of Mr. Perry's plan of setting up his carriage?”1151611517Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said, “I did not know that he ever had11518any such plan.”1151911520“Nay, I had it from you. You wrote me word of it three months ago.”1152111522“Me! impossible!”1152311524“Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly. You mentioned it as what11525was certainly to be very soon. Mrs. Perry had told somebody, and was11526extremely happy about it. It was owing to _her_ persuasion, as she11527thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm. You11528must remember it now?”1152911530“Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment.”1153111532“Never! really, never!--Bless me! how could it be?--Then I must have11533dreamt it--but I was completely persuaded--Miss Smith, you walk as if11534you were tired. You will not be sorry to find yourself at home.”1153511536“What is this?--What is this?” cried Mr. Weston, “about Perry and a11537carriage? Is Perry going to set up his carriage, Frank? I am glad he can11538afford it. You had it from himself, had you?”1153911540“No, sir,” replied his son, laughing, “I seem to have had it from11541nobody.--Very odd!--I really was persuaded of Mrs. Weston's having11542mentioned it in one of her letters to Enscombe, many weeks ago, with all11543these particulars--but as she declares she never heard a syllable of11544it before, of course it must have been a dream. I am a great dreamer.11545I dream of every body at Highbury when I am away--and when I have gone11546through my particular friends, then I begin dreaming of Mr. and Mrs.11547Perry.”1154811549“It is odd though,” observed his father, “that you should have had such11550a regular connected dream about people whom it was not very likely you11551should be thinking of at Enscombe. Perry's setting up his carriage! and11552his wife's persuading him to it, out of care for his health--just11553what will happen, I have no doubt, some time or other; only a little11554premature. What an air of probability sometimes runs through a dream!11555And at others, what a heap of absurdities it is! Well, Frank, your dream11556certainly shews that Highbury is in your thoughts when you are absent.11557Emma, you are a great dreamer, I think?”1155811559Emma was out of hearing. She had hurried on before her guests to11560prepare her father for their appearance, and was beyond the reach of Mr.11561Weston's hint.1156211563“Why, to own the truth,” cried Miss Bates, who had been trying in vain11564to be heard the last two minutes, “if I must speak on this subject,11565there is no denying that Mr. Frank Churchill might have--I do not mean11566to say that he did not dream it--I am sure I have sometimes the oddest11567dreams in the world--but if I am questioned about it, I must acknowledge11568that there was such an idea last spring; for Mrs. Perry herself11569mentioned it to my mother, and the Coles knew of it as well as11570ourselves--but it was quite a secret, known to nobody else, and only11571thought of about three days. Mrs. Perry was very anxious that he should11572have a carriage, and came to my mother in great spirits one morning11573because she thought she had prevailed. Jane, don't you remember11574grandmama's telling us of it when we got home? I forget where we11575had been walking to--very likely to Randalls; yes, I think it was to11576Randalls. Mrs. Perry was always particularly fond of my mother--indeed11577I do not know who is not--and she had mentioned it to her in confidence;11578she had no objection to her telling us, of course, but it was not to go11579beyond: and, from that day to this, I never mentioned it to a soul that11580I know of. At the same time, I will not positively answer for my having11581never dropt a hint, because I know I do sometimes pop out a thing before11582I am aware. I am a talker, you know; I am rather a talker; and now and11583then I have let a thing escape me which I should not. I am not like11584Jane; I wish I were. I will answer for it _she_ never betrayed the least11585thing in the world. Where is she?--Oh! just behind. Perfectly remember11586Mrs. Perry's coming.--Extraordinary dream, indeed!”1158711588They were entering the hall. Mr. Knightley's eyes had preceded Miss11589Bates's in a glance at Jane. From Frank Churchill's face, where11590he thought he saw confusion suppressed or laughed away, he had11591involuntarily turned to hers; but she was indeed behind, and too busy11592with her shawl. Mr. Weston had walked in. The two other gentlemen waited11593at the door to let her pass. Mr. Knightley suspected in Frank11594Churchill the determination of catching her eye--he seemed watching her11595intently--in vain, however, if it were so--Jane passed between them11596into the hall, and looked at neither.1159711598There was no time for farther remark or explanation. The dream must be11599borne with, and Mr. Knightley must take his seat with the rest round the11600large modern circular table which Emma had introduced at Hartfield, and11601which none but Emma could have had power to place there and persuade her11602father to use, instead of the small-sized Pembroke, on which two of his11603daily meals had, for forty years been crowded. Tea passed pleasantly,11604and nobody seemed in a hurry to move.1160511606“Miss Woodhouse,” said Frank Churchill, after examining a table behind11607him, which he could reach as he sat, “have your nephews taken away their11608alphabets--their box of letters? It used to stand here. Where is it?11609This is a sort of dull-looking evening, that ought to be treated rather11610as winter than summer. We had great amusement with those letters one11611morning. I want to puzzle you again.”1161211613Emma was pleased with the thought; and producing the box, the table11614was quickly scattered over with alphabets, which no one seemed so much11615disposed to employ as their two selves. They were rapidly forming words11616for each other, or for any body else who would be puzzled. The quietness11617of the game made it particularly eligible for Mr. Woodhouse, who had11618often been distressed by the more animated sort, which Mr. Weston had11619occasionally introduced, and who now sat happily occupied in lamenting,11620with tender melancholy, over the departure of the “poor little boys,”11621or in fondly pointing out, as he took up any stray letter near him, how11622beautifully Emma had written it.1162311624Frank Churchill placed a word before Miss Fairfax. She gave a slight11625glance round the table, and applied herself to it. Frank was next to11626Emma, Jane opposite to them--and Mr. Knightley so placed as to see them11627all; and it was his object to see as much as he could, with as little11628apparent observation. The word was discovered, and with a faint smile11629pushed away. If meant to be immediately mixed with the others, and11630buried from sight, she should have looked on the table instead of11631looking just across, for it was not mixed; and Harriet, eager after11632every fresh word, and finding out none, directly took it up, and fell to11633work. She was sitting by Mr. Knightley, and turned to him for help. The11634word was _blunder_; and as Harriet exultingly proclaimed it, there was a11635blush on Jane's cheek which gave it a meaning not otherwise ostensible.11636Mr. Knightley connected it with the dream; but how it could all be,11637was beyond his comprehension. How the delicacy, the discretion of his11638favourite could have been so lain asleep! He feared there must be some11639decided involvement. Disingenuousness and double dealing seemed to meet11640him at every turn. These letters were but the vehicle for gallantry and11641trick. It was a child's play, chosen to conceal a deeper game on Frank11642Churchill's part.1164311644With great indignation did he continue to observe him; with great alarm11645and distrust, to observe also his two blinded companions. He saw a short11646word prepared for Emma, and given to her with a look sly and demure. He11647saw that Emma had soon made it out, and found it highly entertaining,11648though it was something which she judged it proper to appear to censure;11649for she said, “Nonsense! for shame!” He heard Frank Churchill next say,11650with a glance towards Jane, “I will give it to her--shall I?”--and as11651clearly heard Emma opposing it with eager laughing warmth. “No, no, you11652must not; you shall not, indeed.”1165311654It was done however. This gallant young man, who seemed to love without11655feeling, and to recommend himself without complaisance, directly handed11656over the word to Miss Fairfax, and with a particular degree of sedate11657civility entreated her to study it. Mr. Knightley's excessive curiosity11658to know what this word might be, made him seize every possible moment11659for darting his eye towards it, and it was not long before he saw it11660to be _Dixon_. Jane Fairfax's perception seemed to accompany his;11661her comprehension was certainly more equal to the covert meaning,11662the superior intelligence, of those five letters so arranged. She was11663evidently displeased; looked up, and seeing herself watched, blushed11664more deeply than he had ever perceived her, and saying only, “I did not11665know that proper names were allowed,” pushed away the letters with even11666an angry spirit, and looked resolved to be engaged by no other word11667that could be offered. Her face was averted from those who had made the11668attack, and turned towards her aunt.1166911670“Aye, very true, my dear,” cried the latter, though Jane had not spoken11671a word--“I was just going to say the same thing. It is time for us to be11672going indeed. The evening is closing in, and grandmama will be looking11673for us. My dear sir, you are too obliging. We really must wish you good11674night.”1167511676Jane's alertness in moving, proved her as ready as her aunt had11677preconceived. She was immediately up, and wanting to quit the table; but11678so many were also moving, that she could not get away; and Mr. Knightley11679thought he saw another collection of letters anxiously pushed towards11680her, and resolutely swept away by her unexamined. She was afterwards11681looking for her shawl--Frank Churchill was looking also--it was growing11682dusk, and the room was in confusion; and how they parted, Mr. Knightley11683could not tell.1168411685He remained at Hartfield after all the rest, his thoughts full of11686what he had seen; so full, that when the candles came to assist his11687observations, he must--yes, he certainly must, as a friend--an anxious11688friend--give Emma some hint, ask her some question. He could not see her11689in a situation of such danger, without trying to preserve her. It was11690his duty.1169111692“Pray, Emma,” said he, “may I ask in what lay the great amusement, the11693poignant sting of the last word given to you and Miss Fairfax? I saw the11694word, and am curious to know how it could be so very entertaining to the11695one, and so very distressing to the other.”1169611697Emma was extremely confused. She could not endure to give him the true11698explanation; for though her suspicions were by no means removed, she was11699really ashamed of having ever imparted them.1170011701“Oh!” she cried in evident embarrassment, “it all meant nothing; a mere11702joke among ourselves.”1170311704“The joke,” he replied gravely, “seemed confined to you and Mr.11705Churchill.”1170611707He had hoped she would speak again, but she did not. She would rather11708busy herself about any thing than speak. He sat a little while in11709doubt. A variety of evils crossed his mind. Interference--fruitless11710interference. Emma's confusion, and the acknowledged intimacy, seemed to11711declare her affection engaged. Yet he would speak. He owed it to her,11712to risk any thing that might be involved in an unwelcome interference,11713rather than her welfare; to encounter any thing, rather than the11714remembrance of neglect in such a cause.1171511716“My dear Emma,” said he at last, with earnest kindness, “do you11717think you perfectly understand the degree of acquaintance between the11718gentleman and lady we have been speaking of?”1171911720“Between Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax? Oh! yes, perfectly.--Why11721do you make a doubt of it?”1172211723“Have you never at any time had reason to think that he admired her, or11724that she admired him?”1172511726“Never, never!” she cried with a most open eagerness--“Never, for the11727twentieth part of a moment, did such an idea occur to me. And how could11728it possibly come into your head?”1172911730“I have lately imagined that I saw symptoms of attachment between11731them--certain expressive looks, which I did not believe meant to be11732public.”1173311734“Oh! you amuse me excessively. I am delighted to find that you can11735vouchsafe to let your imagination wander--but it will not do--very sorry11736to check you in your first essay--but indeed it will not do. There is no11737admiration between them, I do assure you; and the appearances which11738have caught you, have arisen from some peculiar circumstances--feelings11739rather of a totally different nature--it is impossible exactly to11740explain:--there is a good deal of nonsense in it--but the part which is11741capable of being communicated, which is sense, is, that they are as far11742from any attachment or admiration for one another, as any two beings in11743the world can be. That is, I _presume_ it to be so on her side, and I11744can _answer_ for its being so on his. I will answer for the gentleman's11745indifference.”1174611747She spoke with a confidence which staggered, with a satisfaction11748which silenced, Mr. Knightley. She was in gay spirits, and would have11749prolonged the conversation, wanting to hear the particulars of his11750suspicions, every look described, and all the wheres and hows of a11751circumstance which highly entertained her: but his gaiety did not meet11752hers. He found he could not be useful, and his feelings were too much11753irritated for talking. That he might not be irritated into an absolute11754fever, by the fire which Mr. Woodhouse's tender habits required almost11755every evening throughout the year, he soon afterwards took a hasty11756leave, and walked home to the coolness and solitude of Donwell Abbey.11757117581175911760CHAPTER VI117611176211763After being long fed with hopes of a speedy visit from Mr. and Mrs.11764Suckling, the Highbury world were obliged to endure the mortification11765of hearing that they could not possibly come till the autumn. No such11766importation of novelties could enrich their intellectual stores at11767present. In the daily interchange of news, they must be again restricted11768to the other topics with which for a while the Sucklings' coming had11769been united, such as the last accounts of Mrs. Churchill, whose health11770seemed every day to supply a different report, and the situation of Mrs.11771Weston, whose happiness it was to be hoped might eventually be as much11772increased by the arrival of a child, as that of all her neighbours was11773by the approach of it.1177411775Mrs. Elton was very much disappointed. It was the delay of a great deal11776of pleasure and parade. Her introductions and recommendations must all11777wait, and every projected party be still only talked of. So she thought11778at first;--but a little consideration convinced her that every thing11779need not be put off. Why should not they explore to Box Hill though11780the Sucklings did not come? They could go there again with them in the11781autumn. It was settled that they should go to Box Hill. That there was11782to be such a party had been long generally known: it had even given the11783idea of another. Emma had never been to Box Hill; she wished to see what11784every body found so well worth seeing, and she and Mr. Weston had agreed11785to chuse some fine morning and drive thither. Two or three more of the11786chosen only were to be admitted to join them, and it was to be done in a11787quiet, unpretending, elegant way, infinitely superior to the bustle and11788preparation, the regular eating and drinking, and picnic parade of the11789Eltons and the Sucklings.1179011791This was so very well understood between them, that Emma could not but11792feel some surprise, and a little displeasure, on hearing from Mr. Weston11793that he had been proposing to Mrs. Elton, as her brother and sister had11794failed her, that the two parties should unite, and go together; and that11795as Mrs. Elton had very readily acceded to it, so it was to be, if she11796had no objection. Now, as her objection was nothing but her very great11797dislike of Mrs. Elton, of which Mr. Weston must already be perfectly11798aware, it was not worth bringing forward again:--it could not be done11799without a reproof to him, which would be giving pain to his wife; and11800she found herself therefore obliged to consent to an arrangement which11801she would have done a great deal to avoid; an arrangement which would11802probably expose her even to the degradation of being said to be of Mrs.11803Elton's party! Every feeling was offended; and the forbearance of her11804outward submission left a heavy arrear due of secret severity in her11805reflections on the unmanageable goodwill of Mr. Weston's temper.1180611807“I am glad you approve of what I have done,” said he very comfortably.11808“But I thought you would. Such schemes as these are nothing without11809numbers. One cannot have too large a party. A large party secures its11810own amusement. And she is a good-natured woman after all. One could not11811leave her out.”1181211813Emma denied none of it aloud, and agreed to none of it in private.1181411815It was now the middle of June, and the weather fine; and Mrs. Elton11816was growing impatient to name the day, and settle with Mr. Weston as to11817pigeon-pies and cold lamb, when a lame carriage-horse threw every thing11818into sad uncertainty. It might be weeks, it might be only a few days,11819before the horse were useable; but no preparations could be ventured11820on, and it was all melancholy stagnation. Mrs. Elton's resources were11821inadequate to such an attack.1182211823“Is not this most vexatious, Knightley?” she cried.--“And such weather11824for exploring!--These delays and disappointments are quite odious. What11825are we to do?--The year will wear away at this rate, and nothing11826done. Before this time last year I assure you we had had a delightful11827exploring party from Maple Grove to Kings Weston.”1182811829“You had better explore to Donwell,” replied Mr. Knightley. “That may11830be done without horses. Come, and eat my strawberries. They are ripening11831fast.”1183211833If Mr. Knightley did not begin seriously, he was obliged to proceed so,11834for his proposal was caught at with delight; and the “Oh! I should like11835it of all things,” was not plainer in words than manner. Donwell was11836famous for its strawberry-beds, which seemed a plea for the invitation:11837but no plea was necessary; cabbage-beds would have been enough to tempt11838the lady, who only wanted to be going somewhere. She promised him again11839and again to come--much oftener than he doubted--and was extremely11840gratified by such a proof of intimacy, such a distinguishing compliment11841as she chose to consider it.1184211843“You may depend upon me,” said she. “I certainly will come. Name your11844day, and I will come. You will allow me to bring Jane Fairfax?”1184511846“I cannot name a day,” said he, “till I have spoken to some others whom11847I would wish to meet you.”1184811849“Oh! leave all that to me. Only give me a carte-blanche.--I am Lady11850Patroness, you know. It is my party. I will bring friends with me.”1185111852“I hope you will bring Elton,” said he: “but I will not trouble you to11853give any other invitations.”1185411855“Oh! now you are looking very sly. But consider--you need not be afraid11856of delegating power to _me_. I am no young lady on her preferment.11857Married women, you know, may be safely authorised. It is my party. Leave11858it all to me. I will invite your guests.”1185911860“No,”--he calmly replied,--“there is but one married woman in the world11861whom I can ever allow to invite what guests she pleases to Donwell, and11862that one is--”1186311864“--Mrs. Weston, I suppose,” interrupted Mrs. Elton, rather mortified.1186511866“No--Mrs. Knightley;--and till she is in being, I will manage such11867matters myself.”1186811869“Ah! you are an odd creature!” she cried, satisfied to have no one11870preferred to herself.--“You are a humourist, and may say what you11871like. Quite a humourist. Well, I shall bring Jane with me--Jane and her11872aunt.--The rest I leave to you. I have no objections at all to meeting11873the Hartfield family. Don't scruple. I know you are attached to them.”1187411875“You certainly will meet them if I can prevail; and I shall call on Miss11876Bates in my way home.”1187711878“That's quite unnecessary; I see Jane every day:--but as you like. It11879is to be a morning scheme, you know, Knightley; quite a simple thing. I11880shall wear a large bonnet, and bring one of my little baskets hanging11881on my arm. Here,--probably this basket with pink ribbon. Nothing can be11882more simple, you see. And Jane will have such another. There is to be11883no form or parade--a sort of gipsy party. We are to walk about11884your gardens, and gather the strawberries ourselves, and sit under11885trees;--and whatever else you may like to provide, it is to be all out11886of doors--a table spread in the shade, you know. Every thing as natural11887and simple as possible. Is not that your idea?”1188811889“Not quite. My idea of the simple and the natural will be to have11890the table spread in the dining-room. The nature and the simplicity of11891gentlemen and ladies, with their servants and furniture, I think is11892best observed by meals within doors. When you are tired of eating11893strawberries in the garden, there shall be cold meat in the house.”1189411895“Well--as you please; only don't have a great set out. And, by the bye,11896can I or my housekeeper be of any use to you with our opinion?--Pray be11897sincere, Knightley. If you wish me to talk to Mrs. Hodges, or to inspect11898anything--”1189911900“I have not the least wish for it, I thank you.”1190111902“Well--but if any difficulties should arise, my housekeeper is extremely11903clever.”1190411905“I will answer for it, that mine thinks herself full as clever, and11906would spurn any body's assistance.”1190711908“I wish we had a donkey. The thing would be for us all to come on11909donkeys, Jane, Miss Bates, and me--and my caro sposo walking by. I11910really must talk to him about purchasing a donkey. In a country life11911I conceive it to be a sort of necessary; for, let a woman have ever11912so many resources, it is not possible for her to be always shut up at11913home;--and very long walks, you know--in summer there is dust, and in11914winter there is dirt.”1191511916“You will not find either, between Donwell and Highbury. Donwell Lane is11917never dusty, and now it is perfectly dry. Come on a donkey, however, if11918you prefer it. You can borrow Mrs. Cole's. I would wish every thing to11919be as much to your taste as possible.”1192011921“That I am sure you would. Indeed I do you justice, my good friend.11922Under that peculiar sort of dry, blunt manner, I know you have the11923warmest heart. As I tell Mr. E., you are a thorough humourist.--Yes,11924believe me, Knightley, I am fully sensible of your attention to me in11925the whole of this scheme. You have hit upon the very thing to please11926me.”1192711928Mr. Knightley had another reason for avoiding a table in the shade. He11929wished to persuade Mr. Woodhouse, as well as Emma, to join the party;11930and he knew that to have any of them sitting down out of doors to11931eat would inevitably make him ill. Mr. Woodhouse must not, under the11932specious pretence of a morning drive, and an hour or two spent at11933Donwell, be tempted away to his misery.1193411935He was invited on good faith. No lurking horrors were to upbraid him for11936his easy credulity. He did consent. He had not been at Donwell for two11937years. “Some very fine morning, he, and Emma, and Harriet, could go11938very well; and he could sit still with Mrs. Weston, while the dear girls11939walked about the gardens. He did not suppose they could be damp now,11940in the middle of the day. He should like to see the old house again11941exceedingly, and should be very happy to meet Mr. and Mrs. Elton, and11942any other of his neighbours.--He could not see any objection at all to11943his, and Emma's, and Harriet's going there some very fine morning. He11944thought it very well done of Mr. Knightley to invite them--very kind11945and sensible--much cleverer than dining out.--He was not fond of dining11946out.”1194711948Mr. Knightley was fortunate in every body's most ready concurrence. The11949invitation was everywhere so well received, that it seemed as if, like11950Mrs. Elton, they were all taking the scheme as a particular compliment11951to themselves.--Emma and Harriet professed very high expectations of11952pleasure from it; and Mr. Weston, unasked, promised to get Frank over to11953join them, if possible; a proof of approbation and gratitude which could11954have been dispensed with.--Mr. Knightley was then obliged to say that11955he should be glad to see him; and Mr. Weston engaged to lose no time in11956writing, and spare no arguments to induce him to come.1195711958In the meanwhile the lame horse recovered so fast, that the party to11959Box Hill was again under happy consideration; and at last Donwell was11960settled for one day, and Box Hill for the next,--the weather appearing11961exactly right.1196211963Under a bright mid-day sun, at almost Midsummer, Mr. Woodhouse was11964safely conveyed in his carriage, with one window down, to partake of11965this al-fresco party; and in one of the most comfortable rooms in the11966Abbey, especially prepared for him by a fire all the morning, he was11967happily placed, quite at his ease, ready to talk with pleasure of what11968had been achieved, and advise every body to come and sit down, and not11969to heat themselves.--Mrs. Weston, who seemed to have walked there on11970purpose to be tired, and sit all the time with him, remained, when11971all the others were invited or persuaded out, his patient listener and11972sympathiser.1197311974It was so long since Emma had been at the Abbey, that as soon as she was11975satisfied of her father's comfort, she was glad to leave him, and look11976around her; eager to refresh and correct her memory with more particular11977observation, more exact understanding of a house and grounds which must11978ever be so interesting to her and all her family.1197911980She felt all the honest pride and complacency which her alliance with11981the present and future proprietor could fairly warrant, as she viewed11982the respectable size and style of the building, its suitable, becoming,11983characteristic situation, low and sheltered--its ample gardens11984stretching down to meadows washed by a stream, of which the Abbey, with11985all the old neglect of prospect, had scarcely a sight--and its abundance11986of timber in rows and avenues, which neither fashion nor extravagance11987had rooted up.--The house was larger than Hartfield, and totally unlike11988it, covering a good deal of ground, rambling and irregular, with many11989comfortable, and one or two handsome rooms.--It was just what it ought11990to be, and it looked what it was--and Emma felt an increasing respect11991for it, as the residence of a family of such true gentility, untainted11992in blood and understanding.--Some faults of temper John Knightley had;11993but Isabella had connected herself unexceptionably. She had given them11994neither men, nor names, nor places, that could raise a blush. These were11995pleasant feelings, and she walked about and indulged them till it11996was necessary to do as the others did, and collect round the11997strawberry-beds.--The whole party were assembled, excepting Frank11998Churchill, who was expected every moment from Richmond; and Mrs. Elton,11999in all her apparatus of happiness, her large bonnet and her basket,12000was very ready to lead the way in gathering, accepting, or12001talking--strawberries, and only strawberries, could now be thought or12002spoken of.--“The best fruit in England--every body's favourite--always12003wholesome.--These the finest beds and finest sorts.--Delightful to12004gather for one's self--the only way of really enjoying them.--Morning12005decidedly the best time--never tired--every sort good--hautboy12006infinitely superior--no comparison--the others hardly eatable--hautboys12007very scarce--Chili preferred--white wood finest flavour of all--price12008of strawberries in London--abundance about Bristol--Maple12009Grove--cultivation--beds when to be renewed--gardeners thinking exactly12010different--no general rule--gardeners never to be put out of their12011way--delicious fruit--only too rich to be eaten much of--inferior12012to cherries--currants more refreshing--only objection to gathering12013strawberries the stooping--glaring sun--tired to death--could bear it no12014longer--must go and sit in the shade.”1201512016Such, for half an hour, was the conversation--interrupted only once by12017Mrs. Weston, who came out, in her solicitude after her son-in-law, to12018inquire if he were come--and she was a little uneasy.--She had some12019fears of his horse.1202012021Seats tolerably in the shade were found; and now Emma was obliged12022to overhear what Mrs. Elton and Jane Fairfax were talking of.--A12023situation, a most desirable situation, was in question. Mrs. Elton had12024received notice of it that morning, and was in raptures. It was not12025with Mrs. Suckling, it was not with Mrs. Bragge, but in felicity and12026splendour it fell short only of them: it was with a cousin of Mrs.12027Bragge, an acquaintance of Mrs. Suckling, a lady known at Maple Grove.12028Delightful, charming, superior, first circles, spheres, lines, ranks,12029every thing--and Mrs. Elton was wild to have the offer closed with12030immediately.--On her side, all was warmth, energy, and triumph--and she12031positively refused to take her friend's negative, though Miss Fairfax12032continued to assure her that she would not at present engage in any12033thing, repeating the same motives which she had been heard to urge12034before.--Still Mrs. Elton insisted on being authorised to write an12035acquiescence by the morrow's post.--How Jane could bear it at all, was12036astonishing to Emma.--She did look vexed, she did speak pointedly--and12037at last, with a decision of action unusual to her, proposed a12038removal.--“Should not they walk? Would not Mr. Knightley shew them the12039gardens--all the gardens?--She wished to see the whole extent.”--The12040pertinacity of her friend seemed more than she could bear.1204112042It was hot; and after walking some time over the gardens in a scattered,12043dispersed way, scarcely any three together, they insensibly followed one12044another to the delicious shade of a broad short avenue of limes, which12045stretching beyond the garden at an equal distance from the river, seemed12046the finish of the pleasure grounds.--It led to nothing; nothing but a12047view at the end over a low stone wall with high pillars, which seemed12048intended, in their erection, to give the appearance of an approach to12049the house, which never had been there. Disputable, however, as might be12050the taste of such a termination, it was in itself a charming walk, and12051the view which closed it extremely pretty.--The considerable slope, at12052nearly the foot of which the Abbey stood, gradually acquired a steeper12053form beyond its grounds; and at half a mile distant was a bank of12054considerable abruptness and grandeur, well clothed with wood;--and at12055the bottom of this bank, favourably placed and sheltered, rose the12056Abbey Mill Farm, with meadows in front, and the river making a close and12057handsome curve around it.1205812059It was a sweet view--sweet to the eye and the mind. English verdure,12060English culture, English comfort, seen under a sun bright, without being12061oppressive.1206212063In this walk Emma and Mr. Weston found all the others assembled; and12064towards this view she immediately perceived Mr. Knightley and Harriet12065distinct from the rest, quietly leading the way. Mr. Knightley and12066Harriet!--It was an odd tete-a-tete; but she was glad to see it.--There12067had been a time when he would have scorned her as a companion, and12068turned from her with little ceremony. Now they seemed in pleasant12069conversation. There had been a time also when Emma would have been sorry12070to see Harriet in a spot so favourable for the Abbey Mill Farm; but now12071she feared it not. It might be safely viewed with all its appendages of12072prosperity and beauty, its rich pastures, spreading flocks, orchard in12073blossom, and light column of smoke ascending.--She joined them at the12074wall, and found them more engaged in talking than in looking around. He12075was giving Harriet information as to modes of agriculture, etc. and Emma12076received a smile which seemed to say, “These are my own concerns. I have12077a right to talk on such subjects, without being suspected of12078introducing Robert Martin.”--She did not suspect him. It was too old12079a story.--Robert Martin had probably ceased to think of Harriet.--They12080took a few turns together along the walk.--The shade was most12081refreshing, and Emma found it the pleasantest part of the day.1208212083The next remove was to the house; they must all go in and eat;--and they12084were all seated and busy, and still Frank Churchill did not come. Mrs.12085Weston looked, and looked in vain. His father would not own himself12086uneasy, and laughed at her fears; but she could not be cured of wishing12087that he would part with his black mare. He had expressed himself as to12088coming, with more than common certainty. “His aunt was so much better,12089that he had not a doubt of getting over to them.”--Mrs. Churchill's12090state, however, as many were ready to remind her, was liable to such12091sudden variation as might disappoint her nephew in the most reasonable12092dependence--and Mrs. Weston was at last persuaded to believe, or to say,12093that it must be by some attack of Mrs. Churchill that he was12094prevented coming.--Emma looked at Harriet while the point was under12095consideration; she behaved very well, and betrayed no emotion.1209612097The cold repast was over, and the party were to go out once more to see12098what had not yet been seen, the old Abbey fish-ponds; perhaps get as far12099as the clover, which was to be begun cutting on the morrow, or, at12100any rate, have the pleasure of being hot, and growing cool again.--Mr.12101Woodhouse, who had already taken his little round in the highest part12102of the gardens, where no damps from the river were imagined even by him,12103stirred no more; and his daughter resolved to remain with him, that12104Mrs. Weston might be persuaded away by her husband to the exercise and12105variety which her spirits seemed to need.1210612107Mr. Knightley had done all in his power for Mr. Woodhouse's12108entertainment. Books of engravings, drawers of medals, cameos, corals,12109shells, and every other family collection within his cabinets, had been12110prepared for his old friend, to while away the morning; and the kindness12111had perfectly answered. Mr. Woodhouse had been exceedingly well amused.12112Mrs. Weston had been shewing them all to him, and now he would shew them12113all to Emma;--fortunate in having no other resemblance to a child, than12114in a total want of taste for what he saw, for he was slow, constant, and12115methodical.--Before this second looking over was begun, however, Emma12116walked into the hall for the sake of a few moments' free observation of12117the entrance and ground-plot of the house--and was hardly there, when12118Jane Fairfax appeared, coming quickly in from the garden, and with a12119look of escape.--Little expecting to meet Miss Woodhouse so soon, there12120was a start at first; but Miss Woodhouse was the very person she was in12121quest of.1212212123“Will you be so kind,” said she, “when I am missed, as to say that I am12124gone home?--I am going this moment.--My aunt is not aware how late it12125is, nor how long we have been absent--but I am sure we shall be wanted,12126and I am determined to go directly.--I have said nothing about it to any12127body. It would only be giving trouble and distress. Some are gone to the12128ponds, and some to the lime walk. Till they all come in I shall not be12129missed; and when they do, will you have the goodness to say that I am12130gone?”1213112132“Certainly, if you wish it;--but you are not going to walk to Highbury12133alone?”1213412135“Yes--what should hurt me?--I walk fast. I shall be at home in twenty12136minutes.”1213712138“But it is too far, indeed it is, to be walking quite alone. Let my12139father's servant go with you.--Let me order the carriage. It can be12140round in five minutes.”1214112142“Thank you, thank you--but on no account.--I would rather walk.--And12143for _me_ to be afraid of walking alone!--I, who may so soon have to12144guard others!”1214512146She spoke with great agitation; and Emma very feelingly replied, “That12147can be no reason for your being exposed to danger now. I must order the12148carriage. The heat even would be danger.--You are fatigued already.”1214912150“I am,”--she answered--“I am fatigued; but it is not the sort of12151fatigue--quick walking will refresh me.--Miss Woodhouse, we all know12152at times what it is to be wearied in spirits. Mine, I confess, are12153exhausted. The greatest kindness you can shew me, will be to let me have12154my own way, and only say that I am gone when it is necessary.”1215512156Emma had not another word to oppose. She saw it all; and entering into12157her feelings, promoted her quitting the house immediately, and12158watched her safely off with the zeal of a friend. Her parting look was12159grateful--and her parting words, “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, the comfort of12160being sometimes alone!”--seemed to burst from an overcharged heart, and12161to describe somewhat of the continual endurance to be practised by her,12162even towards some of those who loved her best.1216312164“Such a home, indeed! such an aunt!” said Emma, as she turned back into12165the hall again. “I do pity you. And the more sensibility you betray of12166their just horrors, the more I shall like you.”1216712168Jane had not been gone a quarter of an hour, and they had only12169accomplished some views of St. Mark's Place, Venice, when Frank12170Churchill entered the room. Emma had not been thinking of him, she had12171forgotten to think of him--but she was very glad to see him. Mrs. Weston12172would be at ease. The black mare was blameless; _they_ were right12173who had named Mrs. Churchill as the cause. He had been detained by12174a temporary increase of illness in her; a nervous seizure, which had12175lasted some hours--and he had quite given up every thought of coming,12176till very late;--and had he known how hot a ride he should have, and12177how late, with all his hurry, he must be, he believed he should not have12178come at all. The heat was excessive; he had never suffered any thing12179like it--almost wished he had staid at home--nothing killed him12180like heat--he could bear any degree of cold, etc., but heat was12181intolerable--and he sat down, at the greatest possible distance from the12182slight remains of Mr. Woodhouse's fire, looking very deplorable.1218312184“You will soon be cooler, if you sit still,” said Emma.1218512186“As soon as I am cooler I shall go back again. I could very ill be12187spared--but such a point had been made of my coming! You will all be12188going soon I suppose; the whole party breaking up. I met _one_ as I12189came--Madness in such weather!--absolute madness!”1219012191Emma listened, and looked, and soon perceived that Frank Churchill's12192state might be best defined by the expressive phrase of being out of12193humour. Some people were always cross when they were hot. Such might be12194his constitution; and as she knew that eating and drinking were often12195the cure of such incidental complaints, she recommended his taking12196some refreshment; he would find abundance of every thing in the12197dining-room--and she humanely pointed out the door.1219812199“No--he should not eat. He was not hungry; it would only make him12200hotter.” In two minutes, however, he relented in his own favour; and12201muttering something about spruce-beer, walked off. Emma returned all her12202attention to her father, saying in secret--1220312204“I am glad I have done being in love with him. I should not like a man12205who is so soon discomposed by a hot morning. Harriet's sweet easy temper12206will not mind it.”1220712208He was gone long enough to have had a very comfortable meal, and came12209back all the better--grown quite cool--and, with good manners, like12210himself--able to draw a chair close to them, take an interest in their12211employment; and regret, in a reasonable way, that he should be so late.12212He was not in his best spirits, but seemed trying to improve them; and,12213at last, made himself talk nonsense very agreeably. They were looking12214over views in Swisserland.1221512216“As soon as my aunt gets well, I shall go abroad,” said he. “I shall12217never be easy till I have seen some of these places. You will have my12218sketches, some time or other, to look at--or my tour to read--or my12219poem. I shall do something to expose myself.”1222012221“That may be--but not by sketches in Swisserland. You will never go to12222Swisserland. Your uncle and aunt will never allow you to leave England.”1222312224“They may be induced to go too. A warm climate may be prescribed for12225her. I have more than half an expectation of our all going abroad. I12226assure you I have. I feel a strong persuasion, this morning, that I12227shall soon be abroad. I ought to travel. I am tired of doing nothing. I12228want a change. I am serious, Miss Woodhouse, whatever your penetrating12229eyes may fancy--I am sick of England--and would leave it to-morrow, if12230I could.”1223112232“You are sick of prosperity and indulgence. Cannot you invent a few12233hardships for yourself, and be contented to stay?”1223412235“_I_ sick of prosperity and indulgence! You are quite mistaken. I do12236not look upon myself as either prosperous or indulged. I am thwarted12237in every thing material. I do not consider myself at all a fortunate12238person.”1223912240“You are not quite so miserable, though, as when you first came. Go and12241eat and drink a little more, and you will do very well. Another slice of12242cold meat, another draught of Madeira and water, will make you nearly on12243a par with the rest of us.”1224412245“No--I shall not stir. I shall sit by you. You are my best cure.”1224612247“We are going to Box Hill to-morrow;--you will join us. It is not12248Swisserland, but it will be something for a young man so much in want of12249a change. You will stay, and go with us?”1225012251“No, certainly not; I shall go home in the cool of the evening.”1225212253“But you may come again in the cool of to-morrow morning.”1225412255“No--It will not be worth while. If I come, I shall be cross.”1225612257“Then pray stay at Richmond.”1225812259“But if I do, I shall be crosser still. I can never bear to think of you12260all there without me.”1226112262“These are difficulties which you must settle for yourself. Chuse your12263own degree of crossness. I shall press you no more.”1226412265The rest of the party were now returning, and all were soon collected.12266With some there was great joy at the sight of Frank Churchill; others12267took it very composedly; but there was a very general distress and12268disturbance on Miss Fairfax's disappearance being explained. That it was12269time for every body to go, concluded the subject; and with a short final12270arrangement for the next day's scheme, they parted. Frank Churchill's12271little inclination to exclude himself increased so much, that his last12272words to Emma were,1227312274“Well;--if _you_ wish me to stay and join the party, I will.”1227512276She smiled her acceptance; and nothing less than a summons from Richmond12277was to take him back before the following evening.12278122791228012281CHAPTER VII122821228312284They had a very fine day for Box Hill; and all the other outward12285circumstances of arrangement, accommodation, and punctuality, were in12286favour of a pleasant party. Mr. Weston directed the whole, officiating12287safely between Hartfield and the Vicarage, and every body was in good12288time. Emma and Harriet went together; Miss Bates and her niece, with12289the Eltons; the gentlemen on horseback. Mrs. Weston remained with Mr.12290Woodhouse. Nothing was wanting but to be happy when they got there.12291Seven miles were travelled in expectation of enjoyment, and every body12292had a burst of admiration on first arriving; but in the general amount12293of the day there was deficiency. There was a languor, a want of spirits,12294a want of union, which could not be got over. They separated too much12295into parties. The Eltons walked together; Mr. Knightley took charge of12296Miss Bates and Jane; and Emma and Harriet belonged to Frank Churchill.12297And Mr. Weston tried, in vain, to make them harmonise better. It seemed12298at first an accidental division, but it never materially varied. Mr. and12299Mrs. Elton, indeed, shewed no unwillingness to mix, and be as agreeable12300as they could; but during the two whole hours that were spent on the12301hill, there seemed a principle of separation, between the other parties,12302too strong for any fine prospects, or any cold collation, or any12303cheerful Mr. Weston, to remove.1230412305At first it was downright dulness to Emma. She had never seen Frank12306Churchill so silent and stupid. He said nothing worth hearing--looked12307without seeing--admired without intelligence--listened without knowing12308what she said. While he was so dull, it was no wonder that Harriet12309should be dull likewise; and they were both insufferable.1231012311When they all sat down it was better; to her taste a great deal better,12312for Frank Churchill grew talkative and gay, making her his first object.12313Every distinguishing attention that could be paid, was paid to her.12314To amuse her, and be agreeable in her eyes, seemed all that he cared12315for--and Emma, glad to be enlivened, not sorry to be flattered, was gay12316and easy too, and gave him all the friendly encouragement, the admission12317to be gallant, which she had ever given in the first and most animating12318period of their acquaintance; but which now, in her own estimation,12319meant nothing, though in the judgment of most people looking on it must12320have had such an appearance as no English word but flirtation could very12321well describe. “Mr. Frank Churchill and Miss Woodhouse flirted together12322excessively.” They were laying themselves open to that very phrase--and12323to having it sent off in a letter to Maple Grove by one lady, to12324Ireland by another. Not that Emma was gay and thoughtless from any12325real felicity; it was rather because she felt less happy than she had12326expected. She laughed because she was disappointed; and though she liked12327him for his attentions, and thought them all, whether in friendship,12328admiration, or playfulness, extremely judicious, they were not winning12329back her heart. She still intended him for her friend.1233012331“How much I am obliged to you,” said he, “for telling me to come12332to-day!--If it had not been for you, I should certainly have lost all12333the happiness of this party. I had quite determined to go away again.”1233412335“Yes, you were very cross; and I do not know what about, except that you12336were too late for the best strawberries. I was a kinder friend than you12337deserved. But you were humble. You begged hard to be commanded to come.”1233812339“Don't say I was cross. I was fatigued. The heat overcame me.”1234012341“It is hotter to-day.”1234212343“Not to my feelings. I am perfectly comfortable to-day.”1234412345“You are comfortable because you are under command.”1234612347“Your command?--Yes.”1234812349“Perhaps I intended you to say so, but I meant self-command. You had,12350somehow or other, broken bounds yesterday, and run away from your own12351management; but to-day you are got back again--and as I cannot be always12352with you, it is best to believe your temper under your own command12353rather than mine.”1235412355“It comes to the same thing. I can have no self-command without a12356motive. You order me, whether you speak or not. And you can be always12357with me. You are always with me.”1235812359“Dating from three o'clock yesterday. My perpetual influence could not12360begin earlier, or you would not have been so much out of humour before.”1236112362“Three o'clock yesterday! That is your date. I thought I had seen you12363first in February.”1236412365“Your gallantry is really unanswerable. But (lowering her voice)--nobody12366speaks except ourselves, and it is rather too much to be talking12367nonsense for the entertainment of seven silent people.”1236812369“I say nothing of which I am ashamed,” replied he, with lively12370impudence. “I saw you first in February. Let every body on the Hill12371hear me if they can. Let my accents swell to Mickleham on one side,12372and Dorking on the other. I saw you first in February.” And then12373whispering--“Our companions are excessively stupid. What shall we do12374to rouse them? Any nonsense will serve. They _shall_ talk. Ladies12375and gentlemen, I am ordered by Miss Woodhouse (who, wherever she is,12376presides) to say, that she desires to know what you are all thinking12377of?”1237812379Some laughed, and answered good-humouredly. Miss Bates said a great12380deal; Mrs. Elton swelled at the idea of Miss Woodhouse's presiding; Mr.12381Knightley's answer was the most distinct.1238212383“Is Miss Woodhouse sure that she would like to hear what we are all12384thinking of?”1238512386“Oh! no, no”--cried Emma, laughing as carelessly as she could--“Upon no12387account in the world. It is the very last thing I would stand the brunt12388of just now. Let me hear any thing rather than what you are all thinking12389of. I will not say quite all. There are one or two, perhaps, (glancing12390at Mr. Weston and Harriet,) whose thoughts I might not be afraid of12391knowing.”1239212393“It is a sort of thing,” cried Mrs. Elton emphatically, “which _I_12394should not have thought myself privileged to inquire into. Though,12395perhaps, as the _Chaperon_ of the party--_I_ never was in any12396circle--exploring parties--young ladies--married women--”1239712398Her mutterings were chiefly to her husband; and he murmured, in reply,1239912400“Very true, my love, very true. Exactly so, indeed--quite unheard12401of--but some ladies say any thing. Better pass it off as a joke. Every12402body knows what is due to _you_.”1240312404“It will not do,” whispered Frank to Emma; “they are most of them12405affronted. I will attack them with more address. Ladies and gentlemen--I12406am ordered by Miss Woodhouse to say, that she waives her right of12407knowing exactly what you may all be thinking of, and only requires12408something very entertaining from each of you, in a general way. Here12409are seven of you, besides myself, (who, she is pleased to say, am very12410entertaining already,) and she only demands from each of you either one12411thing very clever, be it prose or verse, original or repeated--or two12412things moderately clever--or three things very dull indeed, and she12413engages to laugh heartily at them all.”1241412415“Oh! very well,” exclaimed Miss Bates, “then I need not be uneasy.12416'Three things very dull indeed.' That will just do for me, you know. I12417shall be sure to say three dull things as soon as ever I open my mouth,12418shan't I? (looking round with the most good-humoured dependence on every12419body's assent)--Do not you all think I shall?”1242012421Emma could not resist.1242212423“Ah! ma'am, but there may be a difficulty. Pardon me--but you will be12424limited as to number--only three at once.”1242512426Miss Bates, deceived by the mock ceremony of her manner, did not12427immediately catch her meaning; but, when it burst on her, it could not12428anger, though a slight blush shewed that it could pain her.1242912430“Ah!--well--to be sure. Yes, I see what she means, (turning to Mr.12431Knightley,) and I will try to hold my tongue. I must make myself very12432disagreeable, or she would not have said such a thing to an old friend.”1243312434“I like your plan,” cried Mr. Weston. “Agreed, agreed. I will do my12435best. I am making a conundrum. How will a conundrum reckon?”1243612437“Low, I am afraid, sir, very low,” answered his son;--“but we shall be12438indulgent--especially to any one who leads the way.”1243912440“No, no,” said Emma, “it will not reckon low. A conundrum of Mr.12441Weston's shall clear him and his next neighbour. Come, sir, pray let me12442hear it.”1244312444“I doubt its being very clever myself,” said Mr. Weston. “It is too much12445a matter of fact, but here it is.--What two letters of the alphabet are12446there, that express perfection?”1244712448“What two letters!--express perfection! I am sure I do not know.”1244912450“Ah! you will never guess. You, (to Emma), I am certain, will never12451guess.--I will tell you.--M. and A.--Em-ma.--Do you understand?”1245212453Understanding and gratification came together. It might be a very12454indifferent piece of wit, but Emma found a great deal to laugh at and12455enjoy in it--and so did Frank and Harriet.--It did not seem to touch12456the rest of the party equally; some looked very stupid about it, and Mr.12457Knightley gravely said,1245812459“This explains the sort of clever thing that is wanted, and Mr. Weston12460has done very well for himself; but he must have knocked up every body12461else. _Perfection_ should not have come quite so soon.”1246212463“Oh! for myself, I protest I must be excused,” said Mrs. Elton; “_I_12464really cannot attempt--I am not at all fond of the sort of thing. I had12465an acrostic once sent to me upon my own name, which I was not at all12466pleased with. I knew who it came from. An abominable puppy!--You know12467who I mean (nodding to her husband). These kind of things are very12468well at Christmas, when one is sitting round the fire; but quite out of12469place, in my opinion, when one is exploring about the country in summer.12470Miss Woodhouse must excuse me. I am not one of those who have witty12471things at every body's service. I do not pretend to be a wit. I have a12472great deal of vivacity in my own way, but I really must be allowed to12473judge when to speak and when to hold my tongue. Pass us, if you please,12474Mr. Churchill. Pass Mr. E., Knightley, Jane, and myself. We have nothing12475clever to say--not one of us.1247612477“Yes, yes, pray pass _me_,” added her husband, with a sort of sneering12478consciousness; “_I_ have nothing to say that can entertain Miss12479Woodhouse, or any other young lady. An old married man--quite good for12480nothing. Shall we walk, Augusta?”1248112482“With all my heart. I am really tired of exploring so long on one spot.12483Come, Jane, take my other arm.”1248412485Jane declined it, however, and the husband and wife walked off.12486“Happy couple!” said Frank Churchill, as soon as they were out of12487hearing:--“How well they suit one another!--Very lucky--marrying as they12488did, upon an acquaintance formed only in a public place!--They only knew12489each other, I think, a few weeks in Bath! Peculiarly lucky!--for as to12490any real knowledge of a person's disposition that Bath, or any public12491place, can give--it is all nothing; there can be no knowledge. It is12492only by seeing women in their own homes, among their own set, just as12493they always are, that you can form any just judgment. Short of that, it12494is all guess and luck--and will generally be ill-luck. How many a man12495has committed himself on a short acquaintance, and rued it all the rest12496of his life!”1249712498Miss Fairfax, who had seldom spoken before, except among her own12499confederates, spoke now.1250012501“Such things do occur, undoubtedly.”--She was stopped by a cough. Frank12502Churchill turned towards her to listen.1250312504“You were speaking,” said he, gravely. She recovered her voice.1250512506“I was only going to observe, that though such unfortunate circumstances12507do sometimes occur both to men and women, I cannot imagine them to be12508very frequent. A hasty and imprudent attachment may arise--but there is12509generally time to recover from it afterwards. I would be understood to12510mean, that it can be only weak, irresolute characters, (whose happiness12511must be always at the mercy of chance,) who will suffer an unfortunate12512acquaintance to be an inconvenience, an oppression for ever.”1251312514He made no answer; merely looked, and bowed in submission; and soon12515afterwards said, in a lively tone,1251612517“Well, I have so little confidence in my own judgment, that whenever I12518marry, I hope some body will chuse my wife for me. Will you? (turning to12519Emma.) Will you chuse a wife for me?--I am sure I should like any body12520fixed on by you. You provide for the family, you know, (with a smile at12521his father). Find some body for me. I am in no hurry. Adopt her, educate12522her.”1252312524“And make her like myself.”1252512526“By all means, if you can.”1252712528“Very well. I undertake the commission. You shall have a charming wife.”1252912530“She must be very lively, and have hazle eyes. I care for nothing else.12531I shall go abroad for a couple of years--and when I return, I shall come12532to you for my wife. Remember.”1253312534Emma was in no danger of forgetting. It was a commission to touch every12535favourite feeling. Would not Harriet be the very creature described?12536Hazle eyes excepted, two years more might make her all that he wished.12537He might even have Harriet in his thoughts at the moment; who could say?12538Referring the education to her seemed to imply it.1253912540“Now, ma'am,” said Jane to her aunt, “shall we join Mrs. Elton?”1254112542“If you please, my dear. With all my heart. I am quite ready. I was12543ready to have gone with her, but this will do just as well. We shall12544soon overtake her. There she is--no, that's somebody else. That's one12545of the ladies in the Irish car party, not at all like her.--Well, I12546declare--”1254712548They walked off, followed in half a minute by Mr. Knightley. Mr. Weston,12549his son, Emma, and Harriet, only remained; and the young man's spirits12550now rose to a pitch almost unpleasant. Even Emma grew tired at last of12551flattery and merriment, and wished herself rather walking quietly about12552with any of the others, or sitting almost alone, and quite unattended12553to, in tranquil observation of the beautiful views beneath her. The12554appearance of the servants looking out for them to give notice of the12555carriages was a joyful sight; and even the bustle of collecting and12556preparing to depart, and the solicitude of Mrs. Elton to have _her_12557carriage first, were gladly endured, in the prospect of the quiet drive12558home which was to close the very questionable enjoyments of this day of12559pleasure. Such another scheme, composed of so many ill-assorted people,12560she hoped never to be betrayed into again.1256112562While waiting for the carriage, she found Mr. Knightley by her side. He12563looked around, as if to see that no one were near, and then said,1256412565“Emma, I must once more speak to you as I have been used to do: a12566privilege rather endured than allowed, perhaps, but I must still use it.12567I cannot see you acting wrong, without a remonstrance. How could you be12568so unfeeling to Miss Bates? How could you be so insolent in your wit to12569a woman of her character, age, and situation?--Emma, I had not thought12570it possible.”1257112572Emma recollected, blushed, was sorry, but tried to laugh it off.1257312574“Nay, how could I help saying what I did?--Nobody could have helped it.12575It was not so very bad. I dare say she did not understand me.”1257612577“I assure you she did. She felt your full meaning. She has talked of12578it since. I wish you could have heard how she talked of it--with what12579candour and generosity. I wish you could have heard her honouring your12580forbearance, in being able to pay her such attentions, as she was for12581ever receiving from yourself and your father, when her society must be12582so irksome.”1258312584“Oh!” cried Emma, “I know there is not a better creature in the world:12585but you must allow, that what is good and what is ridiculous are most12586unfortunately blended in her.”1258712588“They are blended,” said he, “I acknowledge; and, were she prosperous,12589I could allow much for the occasional prevalence of the ridiculous over12590the good. Were she a woman of fortune, I would leave every harmless12591absurdity to take its chance, I would not quarrel with you for any12592liberties of manner. Were she your equal in situation--but, Emma,12593consider how far this is from being the case. She is poor; she has sunk12594from the comforts she was born to; and, if she live to old age, must12595probably sink more. Her situation should secure your compassion. It was12596badly done, indeed! You, whom she had known from an infant, whom she had12597seen grow up from a period when her notice was an honour, to have you12598now, in thoughtless spirits, and the pride of the moment, laugh at her,12599humble her--and before her niece, too--and before others, many of whom12600(certainly _some_,) would be entirely guided by _your_ treatment12601of her.--This is not pleasant to you, Emma--and it is very far from12602pleasant to me; but I must, I will,--I will tell you truths while I can;12603satisfied with proving myself your friend by very faithful counsel, and12604trusting that you will some time or other do me greater justice than you12605can do now.”1260612607While they talked, they were advancing towards the carriage; it was12608ready; and, before she could speak again, he had handed her in. He had12609misinterpreted the feelings which had kept her face averted, and her12610tongue motionless. They were combined only of anger against herself,12611mortification, and deep concern. She had not been able to speak; and, on12612entering the carriage, sunk back for a moment overcome--then reproaching12613herself for having taken no leave, making no acknowledgment, parting in12614apparent sullenness, she looked out with voice and hand eager to shew a12615difference; but it was just too late. He had turned away, and the horses12616were in motion. She continued to look back, but in vain; and soon, with12617what appeared unusual speed, they were half way down the hill, and12618every thing left far behind. She was vexed beyond what could have been12619expressed--almost beyond what she could conceal. Never had she felt so12620agitated, mortified, grieved, at any circumstance in her life. She was12621most forcibly struck. The truth of this representation there was no12622denying. She felt it at her heart. How could she have been so brutal,12623so cruel to Miss Bates! How could she have exposed herself to such ill12624opinion in any one she valued! And how suffer him to leave her without12625saying one word of gratitude, of concurrence, of common kindness!1262612627Time did not compose her. As she reflected more, she seemed but to feel12628it more. She never had been so depressed. Happily it was not necessary12629to speak. There was only Harriet, who seemed not in spirits herself,12630fagged, and very willing to be silent; and Emma felt the tears running12631down her cheeks almost all the way home, without being at any trouble to12632check them, extraordinary as they were.12633126341263512636CHAPTER VIII126371263812639The wretchedness of a scheme to Box Hill was in Emma's thoughts all the12640evening. How it might be considered by the rest of the party, she could12641not tell. They, in their different homes, and their different ways,12642might be looking back on it with pleasure; but in her view it was12643a morning more completely misspent, more totally bare of rational12644satisfaction at the time, and more to be abhorred in recollection, than12645any she had ever passed. A whole evening of back-gammon with her father,12646was felicity to it. _There_, indeed, lay real pleasure, for there she12647was giving up the sweetest hours of the twenty-four to his comfort; and12648feeling that, unmerited as might be the degree of his fond affection and12649confiding esteem, she could not, in her general conduct, be open to any12650severe reproach. As a daughter, she hoped she was not without a heart.12651She hoped no one could have said to her, “How could you be so unfeeling12652to your father?--I must, I will tell you truths while I can.” Miss12653Bates should never again--no, never! If attention, in future, could do12654away the past, she might hope to be forgiven. She had been often remiss,12655her conscience told her so; remiss, perhaps, more in thought than fact;12656scornful, ungracious. But it should be so no more. In the warmth of true12657contrition, she would call upon her the very next morning, and it should12658be the beginning, on her side, of a regular, equal, kindly intercourse.1265912660She was just as determined when the morrow came, and went early, that12661nothing might prevent her. It was not unlikely, she thought, that she12662might see Mr. Knightley in her way; or, perhaps, he might come in12663while she were paying her visit. She had no objection. She would not be12664ashamed of the appearance of the penitence, so justly and truly hers.12665Her eyes were towards Donwell as she walked, but she saw him not.1266612667“The ladies were all at home.” She had never rejoiced at the sound12668before, nor ever before entered the passage, nor walked up the stairs,12669with any wish of giving pleasure, but in conferring obligation, or of12670deriving it, except in subsequent ridicule.1267112672There was a bustle on her approach; a good deal of moving and talking.12673She heard Miss Bates's voice, something was to be done in a hurry; the12674maid looked frightened and awkward; hoped she would be pleased to wait a12675moment, and then ushered her in too soon. The aunt and niece seemed both12676escaping into the adjoining room. Jane she had a distinct glimpse of,12677looking extremely ill; and, before the door had shut them out, she heard12678Miss Bates saying, “Well, my dear, I shall _say_ you are laid down upon12679the bed, and I am sure you are ill enough.”1268012681Poor old Mrs. Bates, civil and humble as usual, looked as if she did not12682quite understand what was going on.1268312684“I am afraid Jane is not very well,” said she, “but I do not know; they12685_tell_ me she is well. I dare say my daughter will be here presently,12686Miss Woodhouse. I hope you find a chair. I wish Hetty had not gone. I am12687very little able--Have you a chair, ma'am? Do you sit where you like? I12688am sure she will be here presently.”1268912690Emma seriously hoped she would. She had a moment's fear of Miss Bates12691keeping away from her. But Miss Bates soon came--“Very happy and12692obliged”--but Emma's conscience told her that there was not the same12693cheerful volubility as before--less ease of look and manner. A very12694friendly inquiry after Miss Fairfax, she hoped, might lead the way to a12695return of old feelings. The touch seemed immediate.1269612697“Ah! Miss Woodhouse, how kind you are!--I suppose you have heard--and12698are come to give us joy. This does not seem much like joy, indeed, in12699me--(twinkling away a tear or two)--but it will be very trying for us12700to part with her, after having had her so long, and she has a dreadful12701headache just now, writing all the morning:--such long letters, you12702know, to be written to Colonel Campbell, and Mrs. Dixon. 'My dear,' said12703I, 'you will blind yourself'--for tears were in her eyes perpetually.12704One cannot wonder, one cannot wonder. It is a great change; and though12705she is amazingly fortunate--such a situation, I suppose, as no12706young woman before ever met with on first going out--do not think us12707ungrateful, Miss Woodhouse, for such surprising good fortune--(again12708dispersing her tears)--but, poor dear soul! if you were to see what a12709headache she has. When one is in great pain, you know one cannot feel12710any blessing quite as it may deserve. She is as low as possible. To12711look at her, nobody would think how delighted and happy she is to have12712secured such a situation. You will excuse her not coming to you--she is12713not able--she is gone into her own room--I want her to lie down upon the12714bed. 'My dear,' said I, 'I shall say you are laid down upon the bed:'12715but, however, she is not; she is walking about the room. But, now that12716she has written her letters, she says she shall soon be well. She will12717be extremely sorry to miss seeing you, Miss Woodhouse, but your12718kindness will excuse her. You were kept waiting at the door--I was quite12719ashamed--but somehow there was a little bustle--for it so happened that12720we had not heard the knock, and till you were on the stairs, we did not12721know any body was coming. 'It is only Mrs. Cole,' said I, 'depend upon12722it. Nobody else would come so early.' 'Well,' said she, 'it must be12723borne some time or other, and it may as well be now.' But then Patty12724came in, and said it was you. 'Oh!' said I, 'it is Miss Woodhouse: I am12725sure you will like to see her.'--'I can see nobody,' said she; and12726up she got, and would go away; and that was what made us keep you12727waiting--and extremely sorry and ashamed we were. 'If you must go, my12728dear,' said I, 'you must, and I will say you are laid down upon the12729bed.'”1273012731Emma was most sincerely interested. Her heart had been long growing12732kinder towards Jane; and this picture of her present sufferings acted12733as a cure of every former ungenerous suspicion, and left her nothing but12734pity; and the remembrance of the less just and less gentle sensations of12735the past, obliged her to admit that Jane might very naturally resolve on12736seeing Mrs. Cole or any other steady friend, when she might not bear12737to see herself. She spoke as she felt, with earnest regret and12738solicitude--sincerely wishing that the circumstances which she collected12739from Miss Bates to be now actually determined on, might be as much for12740Miss Fairfax's advantage and comfort as possible. “It must be a severe12741trial to them all. She had understood it was to be delayed till Colonel12742Campbell's return.”1274312744“So very kind!” replied Miss Bates. “But you are always kind.”1274512746There was no bearing such an “always;” and to break through her dreadful12747gratitude, Emma made the direct inquiry of--1274812749“Where--may I ask?--is Miss Fairfax going?”1275012751“To a Mrs. Smallridge--charming woman--most superior--to have the charge12752of her three little girls--delightful children. Impossible that any12753situation could be more replete with comfort; if we except, perhaps,12754Mrs. Suckling's own family, and Mrs. Bragge's; but Mrs. Smallridge is12755intimate with both, and in the very same neighbourhood:--lives only four12756miles from Maple Grove. Jane will be only four miles from Maple Grove.”1275712758“Mrs. Elton, I suppose, has been the person to whom Miss Fairfax owes--”1275912760“Yes, our good Mrs. Elton. The most indefatigable, true friend. She12761would not take a denial. She would not let Jane say, 'No;' for when Jane12762first heard of it, (it was the day before yesterday, the very morning12763we were at Donwell,) when Jane first heard of it, she was quite decided12764against accepting the offer, and for the reasons you mention; exactly12765as you say, she had made up her mind to close with nothing till Colonel12766Campbell's return, and nothing should induce her to enter into any12767engagement at present--and so she told Mrs. Elton over and over12768again--and I am sure I had no more idea that she would change her12769mind!--but that good Mrs. Elton, whose judgment never fails her, saw12770farther than I did. It is not every body that would have stood out in12771such a kind way as she did, and refuse to take Jane's answer; but she12772positively declared she would _not_ write any such denial yesterday, as12773Jane wished her; she would wait--and, sure enough, yesterday evening it12774was all settled that Jane should go. Quite a surprize to me! I had not12775the least idea!--Jane took Mrs. Elton aside, and told her at once, that12776upon thinking over the advantages of Mrs. Smallridge's situation, she12777had come to the resolution of accepting it.--I did not know a word of it12778till it was all settled.”1277912780“You spent the evening with Mrs. Elton?”1278112782“Yes, all of us; Mrs. Elton would have us come. It was settled so, upon12783the hill, while we were walking about with Mr. Knightley. 'You _must_12784_all_ spend your evening with us,' said she--'I positively must have you12785_all_ come.'”1278612787“Mr. Knightley was there too, was he?”1278812789“No, not Mr. Knightley; he declined it from the first; and though I12790thought he would come, because Mrs. Elton declared she would not let him12791off, he did not;--but my mother, and Jane, and I, were all there, and12792a very agreeable evening we had. Such kind friends, you know, Miss12793Woodhouse, one must always find agreeable, though every body seemed12794rather fagged after the morning's party. Even pleasure, you know, is12795fatiguing--and I cannot say that any of them seemed very much to have12796enjoyed it. However, _I_ shall always think it a very pleasant party,12797and feel extremely obliged to the kind friends who included me in it.”1279812799“Miss Fairfax, I suppose, though you were not aware of it, had been12800making up her mind the whole day?”1280112802“I dare say she had.”1280312804“Whenever the time may come, it must be unwelcome to her and all her12805friends--but I hope her engagement will have every alleviation that is12806possible--I mean, as to the character and manners of the family.”1280712808“Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse. Yes, indeed, there is every thing12809in the world that can make her happy in it. Except the Sucklings and12810Bragges, there is not such another nursery establishment, so liberal12811and elegant, in all Mrs. Elton's acquaintance. Mrs. Smallridge, a most12812delightful woman!--A style of living almost equal to Maple Grove--and as12813to the children, except the little Sucklings and little Bragges, there12814are not such elegant sweet children anywhere. Jane will be treated with12815such regard and kindness!--It will be nothing but pleasure, a life of12816pleasure.--And her salary!--I really cannot venture to name her salary12817to you, Miss Woodhouse. Even you, used as you are to great sums, would12818hardly believe that so much could be given to a young person like Jane.”1281912820“Ah! madam,” cried Emma, “if other children are at all like what I12821remember to have been myself, I should think five times the amount of12822what I have ever yet heard named as a salary on such occasions, dearly12823earned.”1282412825“You are so noble in your ideas!”1282612827“And when is Miss Fairfax to leave you?”1282812829“Very soon, very soon, indeed; that's the worst of it. Within a12830fortnight. Mrs. Smallridge is in a great hurry. My poor mother does not12831know how to bear it. So then, I try to put it out of her thoughts, and12832say, Come ma'am, do not let us think about it any more.”1283312834“Her friends must all be sorry to lose her; and will not Colonel and12835Mrs. Campbell be sorry to find that she has engaged herself before their12836return?”1283712838“Yes; Jane says she is sure they will; but yet, this is such a situation12839as she cannot feel herself justified in declining. I was so astonished12840when she first told me what she had been saying to Mrs. Elton, and when12841Mrs. Elton at the same moment came congratulating me upon it! It was12842before tea--stay--no, it could not be before tea, because we were12843just going to cards--and yet it was before tea, because I remember12844thinking--Oh! no, now I recollect, now I have it; something happened12845before tea, but not that. Mr. Elton was called out of the room before12846tea, old John Abdy's son wanted to speak with him. Poor old John, I12847have a great regard for him; he was clerk to my poor father twenty-seven12848years; and now, poor old man, he is bed-ridden, and very poorly with the12849rheumatic gout in his joints--I must go and see him to-day; and so will12850Jane, I am sure, if she gets out at all. And poor John's son came to12851talk to Mr. Elton about relief from the parish; he is very well to do12852himself, you know, being head man at the Crown, ostler, and every thing12853of that sort, but still he cannot keep his father without some help;12854and so, when Mr. Elton came back, he told us what John ostler had been12855telling him, and then it came out about the chaise having been sent to12856Randalls to take Mr. Frank Churchill to Richmond. That was what happened12857before tea. It was after tea that Jane spoke to Mrs. Elton.”1285812859Miss Bates would hardly give Emma time to say how perfectly new this12860circumstance was to her; but as without supposing it possible that she12861could be ignorant of any of the particulars of Mr. Frank Churchill's12862going, she proceeded to give them all, it was of no consequence.1286312864What Mr. Elton had learned from the ostler on the subject, being the12865accumulation of the ostler's own knowledge, and the knowledge of the12866servants at Randalls, was, that a messenger had come over from Richmond12867soon after the return of the party from Box Hill--which messenger,12868however, had been no more than was expected; and that Mr. Churchill had12869sent his nephew a few lines, containing, upon the whole, a tolerable12870account of Mrs. Churchill, and only wishing him not to delay coming12871back beyond the next morning early; but that Mr. Frank Churchill having12872resolved to go home directly, without waiting at all, and his horse12873seeming to have got a cold, Tom had been sent off immediately for the12874Crown chaise, and the ostler had stood out and seen it pass by, the boy12875going a good pace, and driving very steady.1287612877There was nothing in all this either to astonish or interest, and it12878caught Emma's attention only as it united with the subject which already12879engaged her mind. The contrast between Mrs. Churchill's importance in12880the world, and Jane Fairfax's, struck her; one was every thing, the12881other nothing--and she sat musing on the difference of woman's destiny,12882and quite unconscious on what her eyes were fixed, till roused by Miss12883Bates's saying,1288412885“Aye, I see what you are thinking of, the pianoforte. What is to become12886of that?--Very true. Poor dear Jane was talking of it just now.--'You12887must go,' said she. 'You and I must part. You will have no business12888here.--Let it stay, however,' said she; 'give it houseroom till Colonel12889Campbell comes back. I shall talk about it to him; he will settle for12890me; he will help me out of all my difficulties.'--And to this day, I do12891believe, she knows not whether it was his present or his daughter's.”1289212893Now Emma was obliged to think of the pianoforte; and the remembrance of12894all her former fanciful and unfair conjectures was so little pleasing,12895that she soon allowed herself to believe her visit had been long enough;12896and, with a repetition of every thing that she could venture to say of12897the good wishes which she really felt, took leave.12898128991290012901CHAPTER IX129021290312904Emma's pensive meditations, as she walked home, were not interrupted;12905but on entering the parlour, she found those who must rouse her. Mr.12906Knightley and Harriet had arrived during her absence, and were sitting12907with her father.--Mr. Knightley immediately got up, and in a manner12908decidedly graver than usual, said,1290912910“I would not go away without seeing you, but I have no time to spare,12911and therefore must now be gone directly. I am going to London, to spend12912a few days with John and Isabella. Have you any thing to send or say,12913besides the 'love,' which nobody carries?”1291412915“Nothing at all. But is not this a sudden scheme?”1291612917“Yes--rather--I have been thinking of it some little time.”1291812919Emma was sure he had not forgiven her; he looked unlike himself. Time,12920however, she thought, would tell him that they ought to be friends12921again. While he stood, as if meaning to go, but not going--her father12922began his inquiries.1292312924“Well, my dear, and did you get there safely?--And how did you find my12925worthy old friend and her daughter?--I dare say they must have been very12926much obliged to you for coming. Dear Emma has been to call on Mrs.12927and Miss Bates, Mr. Knightley, as I told you before. She is always so12928attentive to them!”1292912930Emma's colour was heightened by this unjust praise; and with a12931smile, and shake of the head, which spoke much, she looked at Mr.12932Knightley.--It seemed as if there were an instantaneous impression in12933her favour, as if his eyes received the truth from hers, and all that12934had passed of good in her feelings were at once caught and honoured.--12935He looked at her with a glow of regard. She was warmly gratified--and in12936another moment still more so, by a little movement of more than common12937friendliness on his part.--He took her hand;--whether she had not12938herself made the first motion, she could not say--she might, perhaps,12939have rather offered it--but he took her hand, pressed it, and certainly12940was on the point of carrying it to his lips--when, from some fancy or12941other, he suddenly let it go.--Why he should feel such a scruple, why12942he should change his mind when it was all but done, she could not12943perceive.--He would have judged better, she thought, if he had not12944stopped.--The intention, however, was indubitable; and whether it was12945that his manners had in general so little gallantry, or however else it12946happened, but she thought nothing became him more.--It was with him,12947of so simple, yet so dignified a nature.--She could not but recall the12948attempt with great satisfaction. It spoke such perfect amity.--He left12949them immediately afterwards--gone in a moment. He always moved with the12950alertness of a mind which could neither be undecided nor dilatory, but12951now he seemed more sudden than usual in his disappearance.1295212953Emma could not regret her having gone to Miss Bates, but she wished she12954had left her ten minutes earlier;--it would have been a great pleasure12955to talk over Jane Fairfax's situation with Mr. Knightley.--Neither12956would she regret that he should be going to Brunswick Square, for she12957knew how much his visit would be enjoyed--but it might have happened12958at a better time--and to have had longer notice of it, would have been12959pleasanter.--They parted thorough friends, however; she could not12960be deceived as to the meaning of his countenance, and his unfinished12961gallantry;--it was all done to assure her that she had fully recovered12962his good opinion.--He had been sitting with them half an hour, she12963found. It was a pity that she had not come back earlier!1296412965In the hope of diverting her father's thoughts from the disagreeableness12966of Mr. Knightley's going to London; and going so suddenly; and going on12967horseback, which she knew would be all very bad; Emma communicated her12968news of Jane Fairfax, and her dependence on the effect was justified;12969it supplied a very useful check,--interested, without disturbing him. He12970had long made up his mind to Jane Fairfax's going out as governess, and12971could talk of it cheerfully, but Mr. Knightley's going to London had12972been an unexpected blow.1297312974“I am very glad, indeed, my dear, to hear she is to be so comfortably12975settled. Mrs. Elton is very good-natured and agreeable, and I dare say12976her acquaintance are just what they ought to be. I hope it is a dry12977situation, and that her health will be taken good care of. It ought to12978be a first object, as I am sure poor Miss Taylor's always was with me.12979You know, my dear, she is going to be to this new lady what Miss Taylor12980was to us. And I hope she will be better off in one respect, and not be12981induced to go away after it has been her home so long.”1298212983The following day brought news from Richmond to throw every thing else12984into the background. An express arrived at Randalls to announce the12985death of Mrs. Churchill! Though her nephew had had no particular reason12986to hasten back on her account, she had not lived above six-and-thirty12987hours after his return. A sudden seizure of a different nature from any12988thing foreboded by her general state, had carried her off after a short12989struggle. The great Mrs. Churchill was no more.1299012991It was felt as such things must be felt. Every body had a degree of12992gravity and sorrow; tenderness towards the departed, solicitude for the12993surviving friends; and, in a reasonable time, curiosity to know where12994she would be buried. Goldsmith tells us, that when lovely woman stoops12995to folly, she has nothing to do but to die; and when she stoops to be12996disagreeable, it is equally to be recommended as a clearer of ill-fame.12997Mrs. Churchill, after being disliked at least twenty-five years, was12998now spoken of with compassionate allowances. In one point she was fully12999justified. She had never been admitted before to be seriously ill. The13000event acquitted her of all the fancifulness, and all the selfishness of13001imaginary complaints.1300213003“Poor Mrs. Churchill! no doubt she had been suffering a great deal:13004more than any body had ever supposed--and continual pain would try the13005temper. It was a sad event--a great shock--with all her faults, what13006would Mr. Churchill do without her? Mr. Churchill's loss would be13007dreadful indeed. Mr. Churchill would never get over it.”--Even Mr.13008Weston shook his head, and looked solemn, and said, “Ah! poor woman,13009who would have thought it!” and resolved, that his mourning should be as13010handsome as possible; and his wife sat sighing and moralising over her13011broad hems with a commiseration and good sense, true and steady. How it13012would affect Frank was among the earliest thoughts of both. It was also13013a very early speculation with Emma. The character of Mrs. Churchill,13014the grief of her husband--her mind glanced over them both with awe and13015compassion--and then rested with lightened feelings on how Frank might13016be affected by the event, how benefited, how freed. She saw in a moment13017all the possible good. Now, an attachment to Harriet Smith would have13018nothing to encounter. Mr. Churchill, independent of his wife, was feared13019by nobody; an easy, guidable man, to be persuaded into any thing by his13020nephew. All that remained to be wished was, that the nephew should form13021the attachment, as, with all her goodwill in the cause, Emma could feel13022no certainty of its being already formed.1302313024Harriet behaved extremely well on the occasion, with great self-command.13025What ever she might feel of brighter hope, she betrayed nothing. Emma13026was gratified, to observe such a proof in her of strengthened character,13027and refrained from any allusion that might endanger its maintenance.13028They spoke, therefore, of Mrs. Churchill's death with mutual13029forbearance.1303013031Short letters from Frank were received at Randalls, communicating all13032that was immediately important of their state and plans. Mr. Churchill13033was better than could be expected; and their first removal, on the13034departure of the funeral for Yorkshire, was to be to the house of a very13035old friend in Windsor, to whom Mr. Churchill had been promising a13036visit the last ten years. At present, there was nothing to be done for13037Harriet; good wishes for the future were all that could yet be possible13038on Emma's side.1303913040It was a more pressing concern to shew attention to Jane Fairfax, whose13041prospects were closing, while Harriet's opened, and whose engagements13042now allowed of no delay in any one at Highbury, who wished to shew her13043kindness--and with Emma it was grown into a first wish. She had scarcely13044a stronger regret than for her past coldness; and the person, whom she13045had been so many months neglecting, was now the very one on whom she13046would have lavished every distinction of regard or sympathy. She wanted13047to be of use to her; wanted to shew a value for her society, and testify13048respect and consideration. She resolved to prevail on her to spend a day13049at Hartfield. A note was written to urge it. The invitation was refused,13050and by a verbal message. “Miss Fairfax was not well enough to write;”13051and when Mr. Perry called at Hartfield, the same morning, it appeared13052that she was so much indisposed as to have been visited, though against13053her own consent, by himself, and that she was suffering under severe13054headaches, and a nervous fever to a degree, which made him doubt the13055possibility of her going to Mrs. Smallridge's at the time proposed.13056Her health seemed for the moment completely deranged--appetite quite13057gone--and though there were no absolutely alarming symptoms, nothing13058touching the pulmonary complaint, which was the standing apprehension13059of the family, Mr. Perry was uneasy about her. He thought she had13060undertaken more than she was equal to, and that she felt it so herself,13061though she would not own it. Her spirits seemed overcome. Her13062present home, he could not but observe, was unfavourable to a nervous13063disorder:--confined always to one room;--he could have wished it13064otherwise--and her good aunt, though his very old friend, he must13065acknowledge to be not the best companion for an invalid of that13066description. Her care and attention could not be questioned; they were,13067in fact, only too great. He very much feared that Miss Fairfax derived13068more evil than good from them. Emma listened with the warmest concern;13069grieved for her more and more, and looked around eager to discover some13070way of being useful. To take her--be it only an hour or two--from13071her aunt, to give her change of air and scene, and quiet rational13072conversation, even for an hour or two, might do her good; and the13073following morning she wrote again to say, in the most feeling language13074she could command, that she would call for her in the carriage at any13075hour that Jane would name--mentioning that she had Mr. Perry's decided13076opinion, in favour of such exercise for his patient. The answer was only13077in this short note:1307813079“Miss Fairfax's compliments and thanks, but is quite unequal to any13080exercise.”1308113082Emma felt that her own note had deserved something better; but it was13083impossible to quarrel with words, whose tremulous inequality shewed13084indisposition so plainly, and she thought only of how she might best13085counteract this unwillingness to be seen or assisted. In spite of the13086answer, therefore, she ordered the carriage, and drove to Mrs. Bates's,13087in the hope that Jane would be induced to join her--but it would not13088do;--Miss Bates came to the carriage door, all gratitude, and agreeing13089with her most earnestly in thinking an airing might be of the greatest13090service--and every thing that message could do was tried--but all in13091vain. Miss Bates was obliged to return without success; Jane was13092quite unpersuadable; the mere proposal of going out seemed to make her13093worse.--Emma wished she could have seen her, and tried her own powers;13094but, almost before she could hint the wish, Miss Bates made it appear13095that she had promised her niece on no account to let Miss Woodhouse in.13096“Indeed, the truth was, that poor dear Jane could not bear to see any13097body--any body at all--Mrs. Elton, indeed, could not be denied--and13098Mrs. Cole had made such a point--and Mrs. Perry had said so much--but,13099except them, Jane would really see nobody.”1310013101Emma did not want to be classed with the Mrs. Eltons, the Mrs. Perrys,13102and the Mrs. Coles, who would force themselves anywhere; neither could13103she feel any right of preference herself--she submitted, therefore, and13104only questioned Miss Bates farther as to her niece's appetite and diet,13105which she longed to be able to assist. On that subject poor Miss Bates13106was very unhappy, and very communicative; Jane would hardly eat any13107thing:--Mr. Perry recommended nourishing food; but every thing13108they could command (and never had any body such good neighbours) was13109distasteful.1311013111Emma, on reaching home, called the housekeeper directly, to an13112examination of her stores; and some arrowroot of very superior quality13113was speedily despatched to Miss Bates with a most friendly note. In half13114an hour the arrowroot was returned, with a thousand thanks from Miss13115Bates, but “dear Jane would not be satisfied without its being sent13116back; it was a thing she could not take--and, moreover, she insisted on13117her saying, that she was not at all in want of any thing.”1311813119When Emma afterwards heard that Jane Fairfax had been seen wandering13120about the meadows, at some distance from Highbury, on the afternoon of13121the very day on which she had, under the plea of being unequal to any13122exercise, so peremptorily refused to go out with her in the carriage,13123she could have no doubt--putting every thing together--that Jane was13124resolved to receive no kindness from _her_. She was sorry, very sorry.13125Her heart was grieved for a state which seemed but the more pitiable13126from this sort of irritation of spirits, inconsistency of action, and13127inequality of powers; and it mortified her that she was given so little13128credit for proper feeling, or esteemed so little worthy as a friend: but13129she had the consolation of knowing that her intentions were good, and of13130being able to say to herself, that could Mr. Knightley have been privy13131to all her attempts of assisting Jane Fairfax, could he even have seen13132into her heart, he would not, on this occasion, have found any thing to13133reprove.13134131351313613137CHAPTER X131381313913140One morning, about ten days after Mrs. Churchill's decease, Emma was13141called downstairs to Mr. Weston, who “could not stay five minutes,13142and wanted particularly to speak with her.”--He met her at the13143parlour-door, and hardly asking her how she did, in the natural key of13144his voice, sunk it immediately, to say, unheard by her father,1314513146“Can you come to Randalls at any time this morning?--Do, if it be13147possible. Mrs. Weston wants to see you. She must see you.”1314813149“Is she unwell?”1315013151“No, no, not at all--only a little agitated. She would have ordered the13152carriage, and come to you, but she must see you _alone_, and that you13153know--(nodding towards her father)--Humph!--Can you come?”1315413155“Certainly. This moment, if you please. It is impossible to refuse what13156you ask in such a way. But what can be the matter?--Is she really not13157ill?”1315813159“Depend upon me--but ask no more questions. You will know it all in13160time. The most unaccountable business! But hush, hush!”1316113162To guess what all this meant, was impossible even for Emma. Something13163really important seemed announced by his looks; but, as her friend was13164well, she endeavoured not to be uneasy, and settling it with her father,13165that she would take her walk now, she and Mr. Weston were soon out of13166the house together and on their way at a quick pace for Randalls.1316713168“Now,”--said Emma, when they were fairly beyond the sweep gates,--“now13169Mr. Weston, do let me know what has happened.”1317013171“No, no,”--he gravely replied.--“Don't ask me. I promised my wife to13172leave it all to her. She will break it to you better than I can. Do not13173be impatient, Emma; it will all come out too soon.”1317413175“Break it to me,” cried Emma, standing still with terror.--“Good13176God!--Mr. Weston, tell me at once.--Something has happened in Brunswick13177Square. I know it has. Tell me, I charge you tell me this moment what it13178is.”1317913180“No, indeed you are mistaken.”--1318113182“Mr. Weston do not trifle with me.--Consider how many of my dearest13183friends are now in Brunswick Square. Which of them is it?--I charge you13184by all that is sacred, not to attempt concealment.”1318513186“Upon my word, Emma.”--1318713188“Your word!--why not your honour!--why not say upon your honour, that13189it has nothing to do with any of them? Good Heavens!--What can be to be13190_broke_ to me, that does not relate to one of that family?”1319113192“Upon my honour,” said he very seriously, “it does not. It is not in13193the smallest degree connected with any human being of the name of13194Knightley.”1319513196Emma's courage returned, and she walked on.1319713198“I was wrong,” he continued, “in talking of its being _broke_ to you.13199I should not have used the expression. In fact, it does not concern13200you--it concerns only myself,--that is, we hope.--Humph!--In short, my13201dear Emma, there is no occasion to be so uneasy about it. I don't13202say that it is not a disagreeable business--but things might be much13203worse.--If we walk fast, we shall soon be at Randalls.”1320413205Emma found that she must wait; and now it required little effort. She13206asked no more questions therefore, merely employed her own fancy, and13207that soon pointed out to her the probability of its being some money13208concern--something just come to light, of a disagreeable nature in the13209circumstances of the family,--something which the late event at Richmond13210had brought forward. Her fancy was very active. Half a dozen natural13211children, perhaps--and poor Frank cut off!--This, though very13212undesirable, would be no matter of agony to her. It inspired little more13213than an animating curiosity.1321413215“Who is that gentleman on horseback?” said she, as they13216proceeded--speaking more to assist Mr. Weston in keeping his secret,13217than with any other view.1321813219“I do not know.--One of the Otways.--Not Frank;--it is not Frank, I13220assure you. You will not see him. He is half way to Windsor by this13221time.”1322213223“Has your son been with you, then?”1322413225“Oh! yes--did not you know?--Well, well, never mind.”1322613227For a moment he was silent; and then added, in a tone much more guarded13228and demure,1322913230“Yes, Frank came over this morning, just to ask us how we did.”1323113232They hurried on, and were speedily at Randalls.--“Well, my dear,” said13233he, as they entered the room--“I have brought her, and now I hope you13234will soon be better. I shall leave you together. There is no use in13235delay. I shall not be far off, if you want me.”--And Emma distinctly13236heard him add, in a lower tone, before he quitted the room,--“I have13237been as good as my word. She has not the least idea.”1323813239Mrs. Weston was looking so ill, and had an air of so much perturbation,13240that Emma's uneasiness increased; and the moment they were alone, she13241eagerly said,1324213243“What is it my dear friend? Something of a very unpleasant nature, I13244find, has occurred;--do let me know directly what it is. I have been13245walking all this way in complete suspense. We both abhor suspense.13246Do not let mine continue longer. It will do you good to speak of your13247distress, whatever it may be.”1324813249“Have you indeed no idea?” said Mrs. Weston in a trembling voice.13250“Cannot you, my dear Emma--cannot you form a guess as to what you are to13251hear?”1325213253“So far as that it relates to Mr. Frank Churchill, I do guess.”1325413255“You are right. It does relate to him, and I will tell you directly;”13256(resuming her work, and seeming resolved against looking up.) “He has13257been here this very morning, on a most extraordinary errand. It is13258impossible to express our surprize. He came to speak to his father on a13259subject,--to announce an attachment--”1326013261She stopped to breathe. Emma thought first of herself, and then of13262Harriet.1326313264“More than an attachment, indeed,” resumed Mrs. Weston; “an13265engagement--a positive engagement.--What will you say, Emma--what will13266any body say, when it is known that Frank Churchill and Miss Fairfax are13267engaged;--nay, that they have been long engaged!”1326813269Emma even jumped with surprize;--and, horror-struck, exclaimed,1327013271“Jane Fairfax!--Good God! You are not serious? You do not mean it?”1327213273“You may well be amazed,” returned Mrs. Weston, still averting her eyes,13274and talking on with eagerness, that Emma might have time to recover--13275“You may well be amazed. But it is even so. There has been a solemn13276engagement between them ever since October--formed at Weymouth, and13277kept a secret from every body. Not a creature knowing it but13278themselves--neither the Campbells, nor her family, nor his.--It is so13279wonderful, that though perfectly convinced of the fact, it is yet almost13280incredible to myself. I can hardly believe it.--I thought I knew him.”1328113282Emma scarcely heard what was said.--Her mind was divided between two13283ideas--her own former conversations with him about Miss Fairfax; and13284poor Harriet;--and for some time she could only exclaim, and require13285confirmation, repeated confirmation.1328613287“Well,” said she at last, trying to recover herself; “this is a13288circumstance which I must think of at least half a day, before I can at13289all comprehend it. What!--engaged to her all the winter--before either13290of them came to Highbury?”1329113292“Engaged since October,--secretly engaged.--It has hurt me, Emma, very13293much. It has hurt his father equally. _Some_ _part_ of his conduct we13294cannot excuse.”1329513296Emma pondered a moment, and then replied, “I will not pretend _not_ to13297understand you; and to give you all the relief in my power, be assured13298that no such effect has followed his attentions to me, as you are13299apprehensive of.”1330013301Mrs. Weston looked up, afraid to believe; but Emma's countenance was as13302steady as her words.1330313304“That you may have less difficulty in believing this boast, of my13305present perfect indifference,” she continued, “I will farther tell you,13306that there was a period in the early part of our acquaintance, when I13307did like him, when I was very much disposed to be attached to him--nay,13308was attached--and how it came to cease, is perhaps the wonder.13309Fortunately, however, it did cease. I have really for some time past,13310for at least these three months, cared nothing about him. You may13311believe me, Mrs. Weston. This is the simple truth.”1331213313Mrs. Weston kissed her with tears of joy; and when she could find13314utterance, assured her, that this protestation had done her more good13315than any thing else in the world could do.1331613317“Mr. Weston will be almost as much relieved as myself,” said she. “On13318this point we have been wretched. It was our darling wish that you13319might be attached to each other--and we were persuaded that it was so.--13320Imagine what we have been feeling on your account.”1332113322“I have escaped; and that I should escape, may be a matter of grateful13323wonder to you and myself. But this does not acquit _him_, Mrs. Weston;13324and I must say, that I think him greatly to blame. What right had he13325to come among us with affection and faith engaged, and with manners13326so _very_ disengaged? What right had he to endeavour to please, as13327he certainly did--to distinguish any one young woman with persevering13328attention, as he certainly did--while he really belonged to13329another?--How could he tell what mischief he might be doing?--How could13330he tell that he might not be making me in love with him?--very wrong,13331very wrong indeed.”1333213333“From something that he said, my dear Emma, I rather imagine--”1333413335“And how could _she_ bear such behaviour! Composure with a witness!13336to look on, while repeated attentions were offering to another woman,13337before her face, and not resent it.--That is a degree of placidity,13338which I can neither comprehend nor respect.”1333913340“There were misunderstandings between them, Emma; he said so expressly.13341He had not time to enter into much explanation. He was here only a13342quarter of an hour, and in a state of agitation which did not allow13343the full use even of the time he could stay--but that there had been13344misunderstandings he decidedly said. The present crisis, indeed,13345seemed to be brought on by them; and those misunderstandings might very13346possibly arise from the impropriety of his conduct.”1334713348“Impropriety! Oh! Mrs. Weston--it is too calm a censure. Much, much13349beyond impropriety!--It has sunk him, I cannot say how it has sunk him13350in my opinion. So unlike what a man should be!--None of that upright13351integrity, that strict adherence to truth and principle, that disdain of13352trick and littleness, which a man should display in every transaction of13353his life.”1335413355“Nay, dear Emma, now I must take his part; for though he has been wrong13356in this instance, I have known him long enough to answer for his having13357many, very many, good qualities; and--”1335813359“Good God!” cried Emma, not attending to her.--“Mrs. Smallridge, too!13360Jane actually on the point of going as governess! What could he mean by13361such horrible indelicacy? To suffer her to engage herself--to suffer her13362even to think of such a measure!”1336313364“He knew nothing about it, Emma. On this article I can fully acquit13365him. It was a private resolution of hers, not communicated to him--or at13366least not communicated in a way to carry conviction.--Till yesterday, I13367know he said he was in the dark as to her plans. They burst on him, I do13368not know how, but by some letter or message--and it was the discovery of13369what she was doing, of this very project of hers, which determined him13370to come forward at once, own it all to his uncle, throw himself on13371his kindness, and, in short, put an end to the miserable state of13372concealment that had been carrying on so long.”1337313374Emma began to listen better.1337513376“I am to hear from him soon,” continued Mrs. Weston. “He told me at13377parting, that he should soon write; and he spoke in a manner which13378seemed to promise me many particulars that could not be given now. Let13379us wait, therefore, for this letter. It may bring many extenuations. It13380may make many things intelligible and excusable which now are not to13381be understood. Don't let us be severe, don't let us be in a hurry to13382condemn him. Let us have patience. I must love him; and now that I am13383satisfied on one point, the one material point, I am sincerely anxious13384for its all turning out well, and ready to hope that it may. They must13385both have suffered a great deal under such a system of secresy and13386concealment.”1338713388“_His_ sufferings,” replied Emma dryly, “do not appear to have done him13389much harm. Well, and how did Mr. Churchill take it?”1339013391“Most favourably for his nephew--gave his consent with scarcely a13392difficulty. Conceive what the events of a week have done in that family!13393While poor Mrs. Churchill lived, I suppose there could not have been a13394hope, a chance, a possibility;--but scarcely are her remains at rest in13395the family vault, than her husband is persuaded to act exactly opposite13396to what she would have required. What a blessing it is, when undue13397influence does not survive the grave!--He gave his consent with very13398little persuasion.”1339913400“Ah!” thought Emma, “he would have done as much for Harriet.”1340113402“This was settled last night, and Frank was off with the light this13403morning. He stopped at Highbury, at the Bates's, I fancy, some time--and13404then came on hither; but was in such a hurry to get back to his uncle,13405to whom he is just now more necessary than ever, that, as I tell you,13406he could stay with us but a quarter of an hour.--He was very much13407agitated--very much, indeed--to a degree that made him appear quite13408a different creature from any thing I had ever seen him before.--In13409addition to all the rest, there had been the shock of finding her so13410very unwell, which he had had no previous suspicion of--and there was13411every appearance of his having been feeling a great deal.”1341213413“And do you really believe the affair to have been carrying on with such13414perfect secresy?--The Campbells, the Dixons, did none of them know of13415the engagement?”1341613417Emma could not speak the name of Dixon without a little blush.1341813419“None; not one. He positively said that it had been known to no being in13420the world but their two selves.”1342113422“Well,” said Emma, “I suppose we shall gradually grow reconciled to the13423idea, and I wish them very happy. But I shall always think it a13424very abominable sort of proceeding. What has it been but a system of13425hypocrisy and deceit,--espionage, and treachery?--To come among us with13426professions of openness and simplicity; and such a league in secret13427to judge us all!--Here have we been, the whole winter and spring,13428completely duped, fancying ourselves all on an equal footing of truth13429and honour, with two people in the midst of us who may have been13430carrying round, comparing and sitting in judgment on sentiments and13431words that were never meant for both to hear.--They must take the13432consequence, if they have heard each other spoken of in a way not13433perfectly agreeable!”1343413435“I am quite easy on that head,” replied Mrs. Weston. “I am very sure13436that I never said any thing of either to the other, which both might not13437have heard.”1343813439“You are in luck.--Your only blunder was confined to my ear, when you13440imagined a certain friend of ours in love with the lady.”1344113442“True. But as I have always had a thoroughly good opinion of Miss13443Fairfax, I never could, under any blunder, have spoken ill of her; and13444as to speaking ill of him, there I must have been safe.”1344513446At this moment Mr. Weston appeared at a little distance from the window,13447evidently on the watch. His wife gave him a look which invited him13448in; and, while he was coming round, added, “Now, dearest Emma, let me13449intreat you to say and look every thing that may set his heart at ease,13450and incline him to be satisfied with the match. Let us make the best of13451it--and, indeed, almost every thing may be fairly said in her favour. It13452is not a connexion to gratify; but if Mr. Churchill does not feel that,13453why should we? and it may be a very fortunate circumstance for him, for13454Frank, I mean, that he should have attached himself to a girl of such13455steadiness of character and good judgment as I have always given her13456credit for--and still am disposed to give her credit for, in spite of13457this one great deviation from the strict rule of right. And how much may13458be said in her situation for even that error!”1345913460“Much, indeed!” cried Emma feelingly. “If a woman can ever be13461excused for thinking only of herself, it is in a situation like Jane13462Fairfax's.--Of such, one may almost say, that 'the world is not their's,13463nor the world's law.'”1346413465She met Mr. Weston on his entrance, with a smiling countenance,13466exclaiming,1346713468“A very pretty trick you have been playing me, upon my word! This was a13469device, I suppose, to sport with my curiosity, and exercise my talent of13470guessing. But you really frightened me. I thought you had lost half13471your property, at least. And here, instead of its being a matter of13472condolence, it turns out to be one of congratulation.--I congratulate13473you, Mr. Weston, with all my heart, on the prospect of having one of the13474most lovely and accomplished young women in England for your daughter.”1347513476A glance or two between him and his wife, convinced him that all was as13477right as this speech proclaimed; and its happy effect on his spirits was13478immediate. His air and voice recovered their usual briskness: he shook13479her heartily and gratefully by the hand, and entered on the subject in13480a manner to prove, that he now only wanted time and persuasion to think13481the engagement no very bad thing. His companions suggested only what13482could palliate imprudence, or smooth objections; and by the time they13483had talked it all over together, and he had talked it all over again13484with Emma, in their walk back to Hartfield, he was become perfectly13485reconciled, and not far from thinking it the very best thing that Frank13486could possibly have done.13487134881348913490CHAPTER XI134911349213493“Harriet, poor Harriet!”--Those were the words; in them lay the13494tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted13495the real misery of the business to her. Frank Churchill had behaved very13496ill by herself--very ill in many ways,--but it was not so much _his_13497behaviour as her _own_, which made her so angry with him. It was the13498scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet's account, that gave the13499deepest hue to his offence.--Poor Harriet! to be a second time the13500dupe of her misconceptions and flattery. Mr. Knightley had spoken13501prophetically, when he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend13502to Harriet Smith.”--She was afraid she had done her nothing but13503disservice.--It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this13504instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of13505the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise13506never have entered Harriet's imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged13507her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever13508given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty13509of having encouraged what she might have repressed. She might have13510prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments. Her influence13511would have been enough. And now she was very conscious that she ought13512to have prevented them.--She felt that she had been risking her friend's13513happiness on most insufficient grounds. Common sense would have directed13514her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself to think of him,13515and that there were five hundred chances to one against his ever caring13516for her.--“But, with common sense,” she added, “I am afraid I have had13517little to do.”1351813519She was extremely angry with herself. If she could not have been angry13520with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.--As for Jane13521Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present13522solicitude on her account. Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need13523no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health13524having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.--Her13525days of insignificance and evil were over.--She would soon be well, and13526happy, and prosperous.--Emma could now imagine why her own attentions13527had been slighted. This discovery laid many smaller matters open. No13528doubt it had been from jealousy.--In Jane's eyes she had been a rival;13529and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be13530repulsed. An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack,13531and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison. She13532understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself from13533the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged that13534Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her13535desert. But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge! There was little13536sympathy to be spared for any body else. Emma was sadly fearful13537that this second disappointment would be more severe than the first.13538Considering the very superior claims of the object, it ought; and13539judging by its apparently stronger effect on Harriet's mind, producing13540reserve and self-command, it would.--She must communicate the painful13541truth, however, and as soon as possible. An injunction of secresy had13542been among Mr. Weston's parting words. “For the present, the whole13543affair was to be completely a secret. Mr. Churchill had made a point of13544it, as a token of respect to the wife he had so very recently lost;13545and every body admitted it to be no more than due decorum.”--Emma had13546promised; but still Harriet must be excepted. It was her superior duty.1354713548In spite of her vexation, she could not help feeling it almost13549ridiculous, that she should have the very same distressing and delicate13550office to perform by Harriet, which Mrs. Weston had just gone through by13551herself. The intelligence, which had been so anxiously announced to her,13552she was now to be anxiously announcing to another. Her heart beat quick13553on hearing Harriet's footstep and voice; so, she supposed, had poor Mrs.13554Weston felt when _she_ was approaching Randalls. Could the event of13555the disclosure bear an equal resemblance!--But of that, unfortunately,13556there could be no chance.1355713558“Well, Miss Woodhouse!” cried Harriet, coming eagerly into the room--“is13559not this the oddest news that ever was?”1356013561“What news do you mean?” replied Emma, unable to guess, by look or13562voice, whether Harriet could indeed have received any hint.1356313564“About Jane Fairfax. Did you ever hear any thing so strange? Oh!--you13565need not be afraid of owning it to me, for Mr. Weston has told me13566himself. I met him just now. He told me it was to be a great secret;13567and, therefore, I should not think of mentioning it to any body but you,13568but he said you knew it.”1356913570“What did Mr. Weston tell you?”--said Emma, still perplexed.1357113572“Oh! he told me all about it; that Jane Fairfax and Mr. Frank Churchill13573are to be married, and that they have been privately engaged to one13574another this long while. How very odd!”1357513576It was, indeed, so odd; Harriet's behaviour was so extremely odd,13577that Emma did not know how to understand it. Her character appeared13578absolutely changed. She seemed to propose shewing no agitation, or13579disappointment, or peculiar concern in the discovery. Emma looked at13580her, quite unable to speak.1358113582“Had you any idea,” cried Harriet, “of his being in love with her?--You,13583perhaps, might.--You (blushing as she spoke) who can see into every13584body's heart; but nobody else--”1358513586“Upon my word,” said Emma, “I begin to doubt my having any such talent.13587Can you seriously ask me, Harriet, whether I imagined him attached13588to another woman at the very time that I was--tacitly, if not13589openly--encouraging you to give way to your own feelings?--I never13590had the slightest suspicion, till within the last hour, of Mr. Frank13591Churchill's having the least regard for Jane Fairfax. You may be very13592sure that if I had, I should have cautioned you accordingly.”1359313594“Me!” cried Harriet, colouring, and astonished. “Why should you caution13595me?--You do not think I care about Mr. Frank Churchill.”1359613597“I am delighted to hear you speak so stoutly on the subject,” replied13598Emma, smiling; “but you do not mean to deny that there was a time--and13599not very distant either--when you gave me reason to understand that you13600did care about him?”1360113602“Him!--never, never. Dear Miss Woodhouse, how could you so mistake me?”13603turning away distressed.1360413605“Harriet!” cried Emma, after a moment's pause--“What do you mean?--Good13606Heaven! what do you mean?--Mistake you!--Am I to suppose then?--”1360713608She could not speak another word.--Her voice was lost; and she sat down,13609waiting in great terror till Harriet should answer.1361013611Harriet, who was standing at some distance, and with face turned from13612her, did not immediately say any thing; and when she did speak, it was13613in a voice nearly as agitated as Emma's.1361413615“I should not have thought it possible,” she began, “that you could have13616misunderstood me! I know we agreed never to name him--but considering13617how infinitely superior he is to every body else, I should not have13618thought it possible that I could be supposed to mean any other person.13619Mr. Frank Churchill, indeed! I do not know who would ever look at him in13620the company of the other. I hope I have a better taste than to think of13621Mr. Frank Churchill, who is like nobody by his side. And that you should13622have been so mistaken, is amazing!--I am sure, but for believing that13623you entirely approved and meant to encourage me in my attachment, I13624should have considered it at first too great a presumption almost,13625to dare to think of him. At first, if you had not told me that more13626wonderful things had happened; that there had been matches of greater13627disparity (those were your very words);--I should not have dared to13628give way to--I should not have thought it possible--But if _you_, who13629had been always acquainted with him--”1363013631“Harriet!” cried Emma, collecting herself resolutely--“Let us understand13632each other now, without the possibility of farther mistake. Are you13633speaking of--Mr. Knightley?”1363413635“To be sure I am. I never could have an idea of any body else--and so13636I thought you knew. When we talked about him, it was as clear as13637possible.”1363813639“Not quite,” returned Emma, with forced calmness, “for all that you then13640said, appeared to me to relate to a different person. I could almost13641assert that you had _named_ Mr. Frank Churchill. I am sure the service13642Mr. Frank Churchill had rendered you, in protecting you from the13643gipsies, was spoken of.”1364413645“Oh! Miss Woodhouse, how you do forget!”1364613647“My dear Harriet, I perfectly remember the substance of what I said on13648the occasion. I told you that I did not wonder at your attachment;13649that considering the service he had rendered you, it was extremely13650natural:--and you agreed to it, expressing yourself very warmly as to13651your sense of that service, and mentioning even what your sensations had13652been in seeing him come forward to your rescue.--The impression of it is13653strong on my memory.”1365413655“Oh, dear,” cried Harriet, “now I recollect what you mean; but I13656was thinking of something very different at the time. It was not the13657gipsies--it was not Mr. Frank Churchill that I meant. No! (with some13658elevation) I was thinking of a much more precious circumstance--of Mr.13659Knightley's coming and asking me to dance, when Mr. Elton would not13660stand up with me; and when there was no other partner in the room. That13661was the kind action; that was the noble benevolence and generosity; that13662was the service which made me begin to feel how superior he was to every13663other being upon earth.”1366413665“Good God!” cried Emma, “this has been a most unfortunate--most13666deplorable mistake!--What is to be done?”1366713668“You would not have encouraged me, then, if you had understood me? At13669least, however, I cannot be worse off than I should have been, if the13670other had been the person; and now--it _is_ possible--”1367113672She paused a few moments. Emma could not speak.1367313674“I do not wonder, Miss Woodhouse,” she resumed, “that you should feel a13675great difference between the two, as to me or as to any body. You must13676think one five hundred million times more above me than the other. But13677I hope, Miss Woodhouse, that supposing--that if--strange as it may13678appear--. But you know they were your own words, that _more_ wonderful13679things had happened, matches of _greater_ disparity had taken place than13680between Mr. Frank Churchill and me; and, therefore, it seems as if such13681a thing even as this, may have occurred before--and if I should be so13682fortunate, beyond expression, as to--if Mr. Knightley should really--if13683_he_ does not mind the disparity, I hope, dear Miss Woodhouse, you will13684not set yourself against it, and try to put difficulties in the way. But13685you are too good for that, I am sure.”1368613687Harriet was standing at one of the windows. Emma turned round to look at13688her in consternation, and hastily said,1368913690“Have you any idea of Mr. Knightley's returning your affection?”1369113692“Yes,” replied Harriet modestly, but not fearfully--“I must say that I13693have.”1369413695Emma's eyes were instantly withdrawn; and she sat silently meditating,13696in a fixed attitude, for a few minutes. A few minutes were sufficient13697for making her acquainted with her own heart. A mind like hers,13698once opening to suspicion, made rapid progress. She touched--she13699admitted--she acknowledged the whole truth. Why was it so much worse13700that Harriet should be in love with Mr. Knightley, than with Frank13701Churchill? Why was the evil so dreadfully increased by Harriet's having13702some hope of a return? It darted through her, with the speed of an13703arrow, that Mr. Knightley must marry no one but herself!1370413705Her own conduct, as well as her own heart, was before her in the same13706few minutes. She saw it all with a clearness which had never blessed13707her before. How improperly had she been acting by Harriet! How13708inconsiderate, how indelicate, how irrational, how unfeeling had been13709her conduct! What blindness, what madness, had led her on! It struck her13710with dreadful force, and she was ready to give it every bad name in the13711world. Some portion of respect for herself, however, in spite of all13712these demerits--some concern for her own appearance, and a strong sense13713of justice by Harriet--(there would be no need of _compassion_ to the13714girl who believed herself loved by Mr. Knightley--but justice required13715that she should not be made unhappy by any coldness now,) gave Emma the13716resolution to sit and endure farther with calmness, with even apparent13717kindness.--For her own advantage indeed, it was fit that the utmost13718extent of Harriet's hopes should be enquired into; and Harriet had done13719nothing to forfeit the regard and interest which had been so voluntarily13720formed and maintained--or to deserve to be slighted by the person, whose13721counsels had never led her right.--Rousing from reflection, therefore,13722and subduing her emotion, she turned to Harriet again, and, in a more13723inviting accent, renewed the conversation; for as to the subject which13724had first introduced it, the wonderful story of Jane Fairfax, that was13725quite sunk and lost.--Neither of them thought but of Mr. Knightley and13726themselves.1372713728Harriet, who had been standing in no unhappy reverie, was yet very glad13729to be called from it, by the now encouraging manner of such a judge, and13730such a friend as Miss Woodhouse, and only wanted invitation, to give13731the history of her hopes with great, though trembling delight.--Emma's13732tremblings as she asked, and as she listened, were better concealed than13733Harriet's, but they were not less. Her voice was not unsteady; but her13734mind was in all the perturbation that such a development of self, such13735a burst of threatening evil, such a confusion of sudden and perplexing13736emotions, must create.--She listened with much inward suffering, but13737with great outward patience, to Harriet's detail.--Methodical, or well13738arranged, or very well delivered, it could not be expected to be; but it13739contained, when separated from all the feebleness and tautology of13740the narration, a substance to sink her spirit--especially with the13741corroborating circumstances, which her own memory brought in favour of13742Mr. Knightley's most improved opinion of Harriet.1374313744Harriet had been conscious of a difference in his behaviour ever since13745those two decisive dances.--Emma knew that he had, on that occasion,13746found her much superior to his expectation. From that evening, or at13747least from the time of Miss Woodhouse's encouraging her to think of him,13748Harriet had begun to be sensible of his talking to her much more than he13749had been used to do, and of his having indeed quite a different manner13750towards her; a manner of kindness and sweetness!--Latterly she had been13751more and more aware of it. When they had been all walking together,13752he had so often come and walked by her, and talked so very13753delightfully!--He seemed to want to be acquainted with her. Emma knew it13754to have been very much the case. She had often observed the change, to13755almost the same extent.--Harriet repeated expressions of approbation13756and praise from him--and Emma felt them to be in the closest agreement13757with what she had known of his opinion of Harriet. He praised her for13758being without art or affectation, for having simple, honest, generous,13759feelings.--She knew that he saw such recommendations in Harriet; he13760had dwelt on them to her more than once.--Much that lived in Harriet's13761memory, many little particulars of the notice she had received from13762him, a look, a speech, a removal from one chair to another, a compliment13763implied, a preference inferred, had been unnoticed, because unsuspected,13764by Emma. Circumstances that might swell to half an hour's relation,13765and contained multiplied proofs to her who had seen them, had passed13766undiscerned by her who now heard them; but the two latest occurrences to13767be mentioned, the two of strongest promise to Harriet, were not without13768some degree of witness from Emma herself.--The first, was his walking13769with her apart from the others, in the lime-walk at Donwell, where they13770had been walking some time before Emma came, and he had taken pains (as13771she was convinced) to draw her from the rest to himself--and at first,13772he had talked to her in a more particular way than he had ever done13773before, in a very particular way indeed!--(Harriet could not recall13774it without a blush.) He seemed to be almost asking her, whether her13775affections were engaged.--But as soon as she (Miss Woodhouse) appeared13776likely to join them, he changed the subject, and began talking about13777farming:--The second, was his having sat talking with her nearly half13778an hour before Emma came back from her visit, the very last morning of13779his being at Hartfield--though, when he first came in, he had said that13780he could not stay five minutes--and his having told her, during their13781conversation, that though he must go to London, it was very much against13782his inclination that he left home at all, which was much more (as13783Emma felt) than he had acknowledged to _her_. The superior degree of13784confidence towards Harriet, which this one article marked, gave her13785severe pain.1378613787On the subject of the first of the two circumstances, she did, after a13788little reflection, venture the following question. “Might he not?--Is13789not it possible, that when enquiring, as you thought, into the state of13790your affections, he might be alluding to Mr. Martin--he might have13791Mr. Martin's interest in view? But Harriet rejected the suspicion with13792spirit.1379313794“Mr. Martin! No indeed!--There was not a hint of Mr. Martin. I hope I13795know better now, than to care for Mr. Martin, or to be suspected of it.”1379613797When Harriet had closed her evidence, she appealed to her dear Miss13798Woodhouse, to say whether she had not good ground for hope.1379913800“I never should have presumed to think of it at first,” said she, “but13801for you. You told me to observe him carefully, and let his behaviour13802be the rule of mine--and so I have. But now I seem to feel that I may13803deserve him; and that if he does chuse me, it will not be any thing so13804very wonderful.”1380513806The bitter feelings occasioned by this speech, the many bitter feelings,13807made the utmost exertion necessary on Emma's side, to enable her to say13808on reply,1380913810“Harriet, I will only venture to declare, that Mr. Knightley is the last13811man in the world, who would intentionally give any woman the idea of his13812feeling for her more than he really does.”1381313814Harriet seemed ready to worship her friend for a sentence so13815satisfactory; and Emma was only saved from raptures and fondness, which13816at that moment would have been dreadful penance, by the sound of her13817father's footsteps. He was coming through the hall. Harriet was too13818much agitated to encounter him. “She could not compose herself--13819Mr. Woodhouse would be alarmed--she had better go;”--with most ready13820encouragement from her friend, therefore, she passed off through another13821door--and the moment she was gone, this was the spontaneous burst of13822Emma's feelings: “Oh God! that I had never seen her!”1382313824The rest of the day, the following night, were hardly enough for her13825thoughts.--She was bewildered amidst the confusion of all that had13826rushed on her within the last few hours. Every moment had brought a13827fresh surprize; and every surprize must be matter of humiliation to13828her.--How to understand it all! How to understand the deceptions she had13829been thus practising on herself, and living under!--The blunders, the13830blindness of her own head and heart!--she sat still, she walked about,13831she tried her own room, she tried the shrubbery--in every place, every13832posture, she perceived that she had acted most weakly; that she had13833been imposed on by others in a most mortifying degree; that she had13834been imposing on herself in a degree yet more mortifying; that she13835was wretched, and should probably find this day but the beginning of13836wretchedness.1383713838To understand, thoroughly understand her own heart, was the first13839endeavour. To that point went every leisure moment which her father's13840claims on her allowed, and every moment of involuntary absence of mind.1384113842How long had Mr. Knightley been so dear to her, as every feeling13843declared him now to be? When had his influence, such influence begun?--13844When had he succeeded to that place in her affection, which Frank13845Churchill had once, for a short period, occupied?--She looked back;13846she compared the two--compared them, as they had always stood in her13847estimation, from the time of the latter's becoming known to her--and as13848they must at any time have been compared by her, had it--oh! had it, by13849any blessed felicity, occurred to her, to institute the comparison.--She13850saw that there never had been a time when she did not consider Mr.13851Knightley as infinitely the superior, or when his regard for her had not13852been infinitely the most dear. She saw, that in persuading herself,13853in fancying, in acting to the contrary, she had been entirely under a13854delusion, totally ignorant of her own heart--and, in short, that she had13855never really cared for Frank Churchill at all!1385613857This was the conclusion of the first series of reflection. This was13858the knowledge of herself, on the first question of inquiry, which13859she reached; and without being long in reaching it.--She was most13860sorrowfully indignant; ashamed of every sensation but the one revealed13861to her--her affection for Mr. Knightley.--Every other part of her mind13862was disgusting.1386313864With insufferable vanity had she believed herself in the secret of every13865body's feelings; with unpardonable arrogance proposed to arrange every13866body's destiny. She was proved to have been universally mistaken; and13867she had not quite done nothing--for she had done mischief. She had13868brought evil on Harriet, on herself, and she too much feared, on Mr.13869Knightley.--Were this most unequal of all connexions to take place, on13870her must rest all the reproach of having given it a beginning; for his13871attachment, she must believe to be produced only by a consciousness of13872Harriet's;--and even were this not the case, he would never have known13873Harriet at all but for her folly.1387413875Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--It was a union to distance every13876wonder of the kind.--The attachment of Frank Churchill and Jane Fairfax13877became commonplace, threadbare, stale in the comparison, exciting no13878surprize, presenting no disparity, affording nothing to be said or13879thought.--Mr. Knightley and Harriet Smith!--Such an elevation on her13880side! Such a debasement on his! It was horrible to Emma to think how it13881must sink him in the general opinion, to foresee the smiles, the sneers,13882the merriment it would prompt at his expense; the mortification and13883disdain of his brother, the thousand inconveniences to himself.--Could13884it be?--No; it was impossible. And yet it was far, very far, from13885impossible.--Was it a new circumstance for a man of first-rate abilities13886to be captivated by very inferior powers? Was it new for one, perhaps13887too busy to seek, to be the prize of a girl who would seek him?--Was13888it new for any thing in this world to be unequal, inconsistent,13889incongruous--or for chance and circumstance (as second causes) to direct13890the human fate?1389113892Oh! had she never brought Harriet forward! Had she left her where she13893ought, and where he had told her she ought!--Had she not, with a13894folly which no tongue could express, prevented her marrying the13895unexceptionable young man who would have made her happy and respectable13896in the line of life to which she ought to belong--all would have been13897safe; none of this dreadful sequel would have been.1389813899How Harriet could ever have had the presumption to raise her thoughts to13900Mr. Knightley!--How she could dare to fancy herself the chosen of such13901a man till actually assured of it!--But Harriet was less humble, had13902fewer scruples than formerly.--Her inferiority, whether of mind or13903situation, seemed little felt.--She had seemed more sensible of Mr.13904Elton's being to stoop in marrying her, than she now seemed of Mr.13905Knightley's.--Alas! was not that her own doing too? Who had been at13906pains to give Harriet notions of self-consequence but herself?--Who but13907herself had taught her, that she was to elevate herself if possible,13908and that her claims were great to a high worldly establishment?--If13909Harriet, from being humble, were grown vain, it was her doing too.13910139111391213913CHAPTER XII139141391513916Till now that she was threatened with its loss, Emma had never known13917how much of her happiness depended on being _first_ with Mr. Knightley,13918first in interest and affection.--Satisfied that it was so, and feeling13919it her due, she had enjoyed it without reflection; and only in the13920dread of being supplanted, found how inexpressibly important it had13921been.--Long, very long, she felt she had been first; for, having no13922female connexions of his own, there had been only Isabella whose claims13923could be compared with hers, and she had always known exactly how far13924he loved and esteemed Isabella. She had herself been first with him for13925many years past. She had not deserved it; she had often been negligent13926or perverse, slighting his advice, or even wilfully opposing him,13927insensible of half his merits, and quarrelling with him because he would13928not acknowledge her false and insolent estimate of her own--but still,13929from family attachment and habit, and thorough excellence of mind, he13930had loved her, and watched over her from a girl, with an endeavour to13931improve her, and an anxiety for her doing right, which no other creature13932had at all shared. In spite of all her faults, she knew she was dear13933to him; might she not say, very dear?--When the suggestions of hope,13934however, which must follow here, presented themselves, she could not13935presume to indulge them. Harriet Smith might think herself not unworthy13936of being peculiarly, exclusively, passionately loved by Mr. Knightley.13937_She_ could not. She could not flatter herself with any idea of13938blindness in his attachment to _her_. She had received a very recent13939proof of its impartiality.--How shocked had he been by her behaviour to13940Miss Bates! How directly, how strongly had he expressed himself to her13941on the subject!--Not too strongly for the offence--but far, far too13942strongly to issue from any feeling softer than upright justice and13943clear-sighted goodwill.--She had no hope, nothing to deserve the name13944of hope, that he could have that sort of affection for herself which was13945now in question; but there was a hope (at times a slight one, at13946times much stronger,) that Harriet might have deceived herself, and be13947overrating his regard for _her_.--Wish it she must, for his sake--be the13948consequence nothing to herself, but his remaining single all his life.13949Could she be secure of that, indeed, of his never marrying at all, she13950believed she should be perfectly satisfied.--Let him but continue the13951same Mr. Knightley to her and her father, the same Mr. Knightley to13952all the world; let Donwell and Hartfield lose none of their precious13953intercourse of friendship and confidence, and her peace would be13954fully secured.--Marriage, in fact, would not do for her. It would be13955incompatible with what she owed to her father, and with what she felt13956for him. Nothing should separate her from her father. She would not13957marry, even if she were asked by Mr. Knightley.1395813959It must be her ardent wish that Harriet might be disappointed; and she13960hoped, that when able to see them together again, she might at least13961be able to ascertain what the chances for it were.--She should see them13962henceforward with the closest observance; and wretchedly as she had13963hitherto misunderstood even those she was watching, she did not know how13964to admit that she could be blinded here.--He was expected back every13965day. The power of observation would be soon given--frightfully soon it13966appeared when her thoughts were in one course. In the meanwhile, she13967resolved against seeing Harriet.--It would do neither of them good,13968it would do the subject no good, to be talking of it farther.--She was13969resolved not to be convinced, as long as she could doubt, and yet had13970no authority for opposing Harriet's confidence. To talk would be only to13971irritate.--She wrote to her, therefore, kindly, but decisively, to beg13972that she would not, at present, come to Hartfield; acknowledging it to13973be her conviction, that all farther confidential discussion of _one_13974topic had better be avoided; and hoping, that if a few days were allowed13975to pass before they met again, except in the company of others--she13976objected only to a tete-a-tete--they might be able to act as if they13977had forgotten the conversation of yesterday.--Harriet submitted, and13978approved, and was grateful.1397913980This point was just arranged, when a visitor arrived to tear Emma's13981thoughts a little from the one subject which had engrossed them,13982sleeping or waking, the last twenty-four hours--Mrs. Weston, who had13983been calling on her daughter-in-law elect, and took Hartfield in her13984way home, almost as much in duty to Emma as in pleasure to herself, to13985relate all the particulars of so interesting an interview.1398613987Mr. Weston had accompanied her to Mrs. Bates's, and gone through his13988share of this essential attention most handsomely; but she having then13989induced Miss Fairfax to join her in an airing, was now returned with13990much more to say, and much more to say with satisfaction, than a quarter13991of an hour spent in Mrs. Bates's parlour, with all the encumbrance of13992awkward feelings, could have afforded.1399313994A little curiosity Emma had; and she made the most of it while her13995friend related. Mrs. Weston had set off to pay the visit in a good deal13996of agitation herself; and in the first place had wished not to go at all13997at present, to be allowed merely to write to Miss Fairfax instead, and13998to defer this ceremonious call till a little time had passed, and Mr.13999Churchill could be reconciled to the engagement's becoming known; as,14000considering every thing, she thought such a visit could not be paid14001without leading to reports:--but Mr. Weston had thought differently; he14002was extremely anxious to shew his approbation to Miss Fairfax and her14003family, and did not conceive that any suspicion could be excited by it;14004or if it were, that it would be of any consequence; for “such things,”14005he observed, “always got about.” Emma smiled, and felt that Mr. Weston14006had very good reason for saying so. They had gone, in short--and very14007great had been the evident distress and confusion of the lady. She had14008hardly been able to speak a word, and every look and action had shewn14009how deeply she was suffering from consciousness. The quiet, heart-felt14010satisfaction of the old lady, and the rapturous delight of her14011daughter--who proved even too joyous to talk as usual, had been a14012gratifying, yet almost an affecting, scene. They were both so truly14013respectable in their happiness, so disinterested in every sensation;14014thought so much of Jane; so much of every body, and so little of14015themselves, that every kindly feeling was at work for them. Miss14016Fairfax's recent illness had offered a fair plea for Mrs. Weston to14017invite her to an airing; she had drawn back and declined at first, but,14018on being pressed had yielded; and, in the course of their drive,14019Mrs. Weston had, by gentle encouragement, overcome so much of her14020embarrassment, as to bring her to converse on the important subject.14021Apologies for her seemingly ungracious silence in their first reception,14022and the warmest expressions of the gratitude she was always feeling14023towards herself and Mr. Weston, must necessarily open the cause; but14024when these effusions were put by, they had talked a good deal of the14025present and of the future state of the engagement. Mrs. Weston was14026convinced that such conversation must be the greatest relief to her14027companion, pent up within her own mind as every thing had so long been,14028and was very much pleased with all that she had said on the subject.1402914030“On the misery of what she had suffered, during the concealment of so14031many months,” continued Mrs. Weston, “she was energetic. This was one14032of her expressions. 'I will not say, that since I entered into the14033engagement I have not had some happy moments; but I can say, that I have14034never known the blessing of one tranquil hour:'--and the quivering lip,14035Emma, which uttered it, was an attestation that I felt at my heart.”1403614037“Poor girl!” said Emma. “She thinks herself wrong, then, for having14038consented to a private engagement?”1403914040“Wrong! No one, I believe, can blame her more than she is disposed14041to blame herself. 'The consequence,' said she, 'has been a state of14042perpetual suffering to me; and so it ought. But after all the punishment14043that misconduct can bring, it is still not less misconduct. Pain is no14044expiation. I never can be blameless. I have been acting contrary to all14045my sense of right; and the fortunate turn that every thing has taken,14046and the kindness I am now receiving, is what my conscience tells me14047ought not to be.' 'Do not imagine, madam,' she continued, 'that I was14048taught wrong. Do not let any reflection fall on the principles or the14049care of the friends who brought me up. The error has been all my own;14050and I do assure you that, with all the excuse that present circumstances14051may appear to give, I shall yet dread making the story known to Colonel14052Campbell.'”1405314054“Poor girl!” said Emma again. “She loves him then excessively, I14055suppose. It must have been from attachment only, that she could be14056led to form the engagement. Her affection must have overpowered her14057judgment.”1405814059“Yes, I have no doubt of her being extremely attached to him.”1406014061“I am afraid,” returned Emma, sighing, “that I must often have14062contributed to make her unhappy.”1406314064“On your side, my love, it was very innocently done. But she14065probably had something of that in her thoughts, when alluding to the14066misunderstandings which he had given us hints of before. One natural14067consequence of the evil she had involved herself in,” she said, “was14068that of making her _unreasonable_. The consciousness of having done14069amiss, had exposed her to a thousand inquietudes, and made her captious14070and irritable to a degree that must have been--that had been--hard for14071him to bear. 'I did not make the allowances,' said she, 'which I ought14072to have done, for his temper and spirits--his delightful spirits, and14073that gaiety, that playfulness of disposition, which, under any other14074circumstances, would, I am sure, have been as constantly bewitching to14075me, as they were at first.' She then began to speak of you, and of the14076great kindness you had shewn her during her illness; and with a blush14077which shewed me how it was all connected, desired me, whenever I had14078an opportunity, to thank you--I could not thank you too much--for every14079wish and every endeavour to do her good. She was sensible that you had14080never received any proper acknowledgment from herself.”1408114082“If I did not know her to be happy now,” said Emma, seriously, “which,14083in spite of every little drawback from her scrupulous conscience, she14084must be, I could not bear these thanks;--for, oh! Mrs. Weston, if there14085were an account drawn up of the evil and the good I have done Miss14086Fairfax!--Well (checking herself, and trying to be more lively), this14087is all to be forgotten. You are very kind to bring me these interesting14088particulars. They shew her to the greatest advantage. I am sure she is14089very good--I hope she will be very happy. It is fit that the fortune14090should be on his side, for I think the merit will be all on hers.”1409114092Such a conclusion could not pass unanswered by Mrs. Weston. She thought14093well of Frank in almost every respect; and, what was more, she loved him14094very much, and her defence was, therefore, earnest. She talked with a14095great deal of reason, and at least equal affection--but she had too much14096to urge for Emma's attention; it was soon gone to Brunswick Square or14097to Donwell; she forgot to attempt to listen; and when Mrs. Weston ended14098with, “We have not yet had the letter we are so anxious for, you know,14099but I hope it will soon come,” she was obliged to pause before she14100answered, and at last obliged to answer at random, before she could at14101all recollect what letter it was which they were so anxious for.1410214103“Are you well, my Emma?” was Mrs. Weston's parting question.1410414105“Oh! perfectly. I am always well, you know. Be sure to give me14106intelligence of the letter as soon as possible.”1410714108Mrs. Weston's communications furnished Emma with more food for14109unpleasant reflection, by increasing her esteem and compassion, and her14110sense of past injustice towards Miss Fairfax. She bitterly regretted14111not having sought a closer acquaintance with her, and blushed for the14112envious feelings which had certainly been, in some measure, the cause.14113Had she followed Mr. Knightley's known wishes, in paying that attention14114to Miss Fairfax, which was every way her due; had she tried to know her14115better; had she done her part towards intimacy; had she endeavoured14116to find a friend there instead of in Harriet Smith; she must, in all14117probability, have been spared from every pain which pressed on her14118now.--Birth, abilities, and education, had been equally marking one as14119an associate for her, to be received with gratitude; and the other--what14120was she?--Supposing even that they had never become intimate friends;14121that she had never been admitted into Miss Fairfax's confidence on this14122important matter--which was most probable--still, in knowing her as14123she ought, and as she might, she must have been preserved from the14124abominable suspicions of an improper attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she14125had not only so foolishly fashioned and harboured herself, but had so14126unpardonably imparted; an idea which she greatly feared had been made a14127subject of material distress to the delicacy of Jane's feelings, by the14128levity or carelessness of Frank Churchill's. Of all the sources of evil14129surrounding the former, since her coming to Highbury, she was persuaded14130that she must herself have been the worst. She must have been a14131perpetual enemy. They never could have been all three together, without14132her having stabbed Jane Fairfax's peace in a thousand instances; and on14133Box Hill, perhaps, it had been the agony of a mind that would bear no14134more.1413514136The evening of this day was very long, and melancholy, at Hartfield.14137The weather added what it could of gloom. A cold stormy rain set in, and14138nothing of July appeared but in the trees and shrubs, which the wind was14139despoiling, and the length of the day, which only made such cruel sights14140the longer visible.1414114142The weather affected Mr. Woodhouse, and he could only be kept tolerably14143comfortable by almost ceaseless attention on his daughter's side, and by14144exertions which had never cost her half so much before. It reminded14145her of their first forlorn tete-a-tete, on the evening of Mrs. Weston's14146wedding-day; but Mr. Knightley had walked in then, soon after tea,14147and dissipated every melancholy fancy. Alas! such delightful proofs of14148Hartfield's attraction, as those sort of visits conveyed, might shortly14149be over. The picture which she had then drawn of the privations of the14150approaching winter, had proved erroneous; no friends had deserted them,14151no pleasures had been lost.--But her present forebodings she feared14152would experience no similar contradiction. The prospect before her now,14153was threatening to a degree that could not be entirely dispelled--that14154might not be even partially brightened. If all took place that14155might take place among the circle of her friends, Hartfield must be14156comparatively deserted; and she left to cheer her father with the14157spirits only of ruined happiness.1415814159The child to be born at Randalls must be a tie there even dearer than14160herself; and Mrs. Weston's heart and time would be occupied by it.14161They should lose her; and, probably, in great measure, her husband14162also.--Frank Churchill would return among them no more; and Miss14163Fairfax, it was reasonable to suppose, would soon cease to belong to14164Highbury. They would be married, and settled either at or near Enscombe.14165All that were good would be withdrawn; and if to these losses, the14166loss of Donwell were to be added, what would remain of cheerful or14167of rational society within their reach? Mr. Knightley to be no longer14168coming there for his evening comfort!--No longer walking in at all14169hours, as if ever willing to change his own home for their's!--How was14170it to be endured? And if he were to be lost to them for Harriet's sake;14171if he were to be thought of hereafter, as finding in Harriet's society14172all that he wanted; if Harriet were to be the chosen, the first,14173the dearest, the friend, the wife to whom he looked for all the best14174blessings of existence; what could be increasing Emma's wretchedness but14175the reflection never far distant from her mind, that it had been all her14176own work?1417714178When it came to such a pitch as this, she was not able to refrain from14179a start, or a heavy sigh, or even from walking about the room for a14180few seconds--and the only source whence any thing like consolation14181or composure could be drawn, was in the resolution of her own better14182conduct, and the hope that, however inferior in spirit and gaiety might14183be the following and every future winter of her life to the past, it14184would yet find her more rational, more acquainted with herself, and14185leave her less to regret when it were gone.14186141871418814189CHAPTER XIII141901419114192The weather continued much the same all the following morning; and14193the same loneliness, and the same melancholy, seemed to reign at14194Hartfield--but in the afternoon it cleared; the wind changed into a14195softer quarter; the clouds were carried off; the sun appeared; it was14196summer again. With all the eagerness which such a transition gives, Emma14197resolved to be out of doors as soon as possible. Never had the exquisite14198sight, smell, sensation of nature, tranquil, warm, and brilliant after14199a storm, been more attractive to her. She longed for the serenity they14200might gradually introduce; and on Mr. Perry's coming in soon after14201dinner, with a disengaged hour to give her father, she lost no time14202in hurrying into the shrubbery.--There, with spirits freshened, and14203thoughts a little relieved, she had taken a few turns, when she saw Mr.14204Knightley passing through the garden door, and coming towards her.--It14205was the first intimation of his being returned from London. She had14206been thinking of him the moment before, as unquestionably sixteen miles14207distant.--There was time only for the quickest arrangement of mind. She14208must be collected and calm. In half a minute they were together. The14209“How d'ye do's” were quiet and constrained on each side. She asked after14210their mutual friends; they were all well.--When had he left them?--Only14211that morning. He must have had a wet ride.--Yes.--He meant to walk with14212her, she found. “He had just looked into the dining-room, and as he was14213not wanted there, preferred being out of doors.”--She thought he neither14214looked nor spoke cheerfully; and the first possible cause for it,14215suggested by her fears, was, that he had perhaps been communicating his14216plans to his brother, and was pained by the manner in which they had14217been received.1421814219They walked together. He was silent. She thought he was often looking14220at her, and trying for a fuller view of her face than it suited her to14221give. And this belief produced another dread. Perhaps he wanted to14222speak to her, of his attachment to Harriet; he might be watching for14223encouragement to begin.--She did not, could not, feel equal to lead the14224way to any such subject. He must do it all himself. Yet she could14225not bear this silence. With him it was most unnatural. She14226considered--resolved--and, trying to smile, began--1422714228“You have some news to hear, now you are come back, that will rather14229surprize you.”1423014231“Have I?” said he quietly, and looking at her; “of what nature?”1423214233“Oh! the best nature in the world--a wedding.”1423414235After waiting a moment, as if to be sure she intended to say no more, he14236replied,1423714238“If you mean Miss Fairfax and Frank Churchill, I have heard that14239already.”1424014241“How is it possible?” cried Emma, turning her glowing cheeks towards14242him; for, while she spoke, it occurred to her that he might have called14243at Mrs. Goddard's in his way.1424414245“I had a few lines on parish business from Mr. Weston this morning, and14246at the end of them he gave me a brief account of what had happened.”1424714248Emma was quite relieved, and could presently say, with a little more14249composure,1425014251“_You_ probably have been less surprized than any of us, for you have14252had your suspicions.--I have not forgotten that you once tried to give14253me a caution.--I wish I had attended to it--but--(with a sinking voice14254and a heavy sigh) I seem to have been doomed to blindness.”1425514256For a moment or two nothing was said, and she was unsuspicious of having14257excited any particular interest, till she found her arm drawn within14258his, and pressed against his heart, and heard him thus saying, in a tone14259of great sensibility, speaking low,1426014261“Time, my dearest Emma, time will heal the wound.--Your own excellent14262sense--your exertions for your father's sake--I know you will not allow14263yourself--.” Her arm was pressed again, as he added, in a more14264broken and subdued accent, “The feelings of the warmest14265friendship--Indignation--Abominable scoundrel!”--And in a louder,14266steadier tone, he concluded with, “He will soon be gone. They will soon14267be in Yorkshire. I am sorry for _her_. She deserves a better fate.”1426814269Emma understood him; and as soon as she could recover from the flutter14270of pleasure, excited by such tender consideration, replied,1427114272“You are very kind--but you are mistaken--and I must set you right.--14273I am not in want of that sort of compassion. My blindness to what was14274going on, led me to act by them in a way that I must always be ashamed14275of, and I was very foolishly tempted to say and do many things which may14276well lay me open to unpleasant conjectures, but I have no other reason14277to regret that I was not in the secret earlier.”1427814279“Emma!” cried he, looking eagerly at her, “are you, indeed?”--but14280checking himself--“No, no, I understand you--forgive me--I am pleased14281that you can say even so much.--He is no object of regret, indeed! and14282it will not be very long, I hope, before that becomes the acknowledgment14283of more than your reason.--Fortunate that your affections were not14284farther entangled!--I could never, I confess, from your manners, assure14285myself as to the degree of what you felt--I could only be certain that14286there was a preference--and a preference which I never believed him to14287deserve.--He is a disgrace to the name of man.--And is he to be rewarded14288with that sweet young woman?--Jane, Jane, you will be a miserable14289creature.”1429014291“Mr. Knightley,” said Emma, trying to be lively, but really confused--“I14292am in a very extraordinary situation. I cannot let you continue in your14293error; and yet, perhaps, since my manners gave such an impression, I14294have as much reason to be ashamed of confessing that I never have been14295at all attached to the person we are speaking of, as it might be natural14296for a woman to feel in confessing exactly the reverse.--But I never14297have.”1429814299He listened in perfect silence. She wished him to speak, but he would14300not. She supposed she must say more before she were entitled to his14301clemency; but it was a hard case to be obliged still to lower herself in14302his opinion. She went on, however.1430314304“I have very little to say for my own conduct.--I was tempted by his14305attentions, and allowed myself to appear pleased.--An old story,14306probably--a common case--and no more than has happened to hundreds of my14307sex before; and yet it may not be the more excusable in one who sets up14308as I do for Understanding. Many circumstances assisted the temptation.14309He was the son of Mr. Weston--he was continually here--I always found14310him very pleasant--and, in short, for (with a sigh) let me swell out the14311causes ever so ingeniously, they all centre in this at last--my vanity14312was flattered, and I allowed his attentions. Latterly, however--for some14313time, indeed--I have had no idea of their meaning any thing.--I thought14314them a habit, a trick, nothing that called for seriousness on my side.14315He has imposed on me, but he has not injured me. I have never been14316attached to him. And now I can tolerably comprehend his behaviour. He14317never wished to attach me. It was merely a blind to conceal his real14318situation with another.--It was his object to blind all about him; and14319no one, I am sure, could be more effectually blinded than myself--except14320that I was _not_ blinded--that it was my good fortune--that, in short, I14321was somehow or other safe from him.”1432214323She had hoped for an answer here--for a few words to say that her14324conduct was at least intelligible; but he was silent; and, as far as she14325could judge, deep in thought. At last, and tolerably in his usual tone,14326he said,1432714328“I have never had a high opinion of Frank Churchill.--I can suppose,14329however, that I may have underrated him. My acquaintance with him has14330been but trifling.--And even if I have not underrated him hitherto, he14331may yet turn out well.--With such a woman he has a chance.--I have no14332motive for wishing him ill--and for her sake, whose happiness will be14333involved in his good character and conduct, I shall certainly wish him14334well.”1433514336“I have no doubt of their being happy together,” said Emma; “I believe14337them to be very mutually and very sincerely attached.”1433814339“He is a most fortunate man!” returned Mr. Knightley, with energy. “So14340early in life--at three-and-twenty--a period when, if a man chuses a14341wife, he generally chuses ill. At three-and-twenty to have drawn such14342a prize! What years of felicity that man, in all human calculation,14343has before him!--Assured of the love of such a woman--the disinterested14344love, for Jane Fairfax's character vouches for her disinterestedness;14345every thing in his favour,--equality of situation--I mean, as far as14346regards society, and all the habits and manners that are important;14347equality in every point but one--and that one, since the purity of her14348heart is not to be doubted, such as must increase his felicity, for it14349will be his to bestow the only advantages she wants.--A man would always14350wish to give a woman a better home than the one he takes her from;14351and he who can do it, where there is no doubt of _her_ regard, must,14352I think, be the happiest of mortals.--Frank Churchill is, indeed, the14353favourite of fortune. Every thing turns out for his good.--He meets14354with a young woman at a watering-place, gains her affection, cannot even14355weary her by negligent treatment--and had he and all his family sought14356round the world for a perfect wife for him, they could not have found14357her superior.--His aunt is in the way.--His aunt dies.--He has only to14358speak.--His friends are eager to promote his happiness.--He had used14359every body ill--and they are all delighted to forgive him.--He is a14360fortunate man indeed!”1436114362“You speak as if you envied him.”1436314364“And I do envy him, Emma. In one respect he is the object of my envy.”1436514366Emma could say no more. They seemed to be within half a sentence14367of Harriet, and her immediate feeling was to avert the subject, if14368possible. She made her plan; she would speak of something totally14369different--the children in Brunswick Square; and she only waited for14370breath to begin, when Mr. Knightley startled her, by saying,1437114372“You will not ask me what is the point of envy.--You are determined, I14373see, to have no curiosity.--You are wise--but _I_ cannot be wise. Emma,14374I must tell you what you will not ask, though I may wish it unsaid the14375next moment.”1437614377“Oh! then, don't speak it, don't speak it,” she eagerly cried. “Take a14378little time, consider, do not commit yourself.”1437914380“Thank you,” said he, in an accent of deep mortification, and not14381another syllable followed.1438214383Emma could not bear to give him pain. He was wishing to confide in14384her--perhaps to consult her;--cost her what it would, she would listen.14385She might assist his resolution, or reconcile him to it; she might give14386just praise to Harriet, or, by representing to him his own independence,14387relieve him from that state of indecision, which must be more14388intolerable than any alternative to such a mind as his.--They had14389reached the house.1439014391“You are going in, I suppose?” said he.1439214393“No,”--replied Emma--quite confirmed by the depressed manner in which14394he still spoke--“I should like to take another turn. Mr. Perry is not14395gone.” And, after proceeding a few steps, she added--“I stopped you14396ungraciously, just now, Mr. Knightley, and, I am afraid, gave you14397pain.--But if you have any wish to speak openly to me as a friend, or14398to ask my opinion of any thing that you may have in contemplation--as14399a friend, indeed, you may command me.--I will hear whatever you like. I14400will tell you exactly what I think.”1440114402“As a friend!”--repeated Mr. Knightley.--“Emma, that I fear is a14403word--No, I have no wish--Stay, yes, why should I hesitate?--I14404have gone too far already for concealment.--Emma, I accept your14405offer--Extraordinary as it may seem, I accept it, and refer myself to14406you as a friend.--Tell me, then, have I no chance of ever succeeding?”1440714408He stopped in his earnestness to look the question, and the expression14409of his eyes overpowered her.1441014411“My dearest Emma,” said he, “for dearest you will always be, whatever14412the event of this hour's conversation, my dearest, most beloved14413Emma--tell me at once. Say 'No,' if it is to be said.”--She could14414really say nothing.--“You are silent,” he cried, with great animation;14415“absolutely silent! at present I ask no more.”1441614417Emma was almost ready to sink under the agitation of this moment. The14418dread of being awakened from the happiest dream, was perhaps the most14419prominent feeling.1442014421“I cannot make speeches, Emma:” he soon resumed; and in a tone of14422such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably14423convincing.--“If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it14424more. But you know what I am.--You hear nothing but truth from me.--I14425have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other14426woman in England would have borne it.--Bear with the truths I would14427tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The14428manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have14429been a very indifferent lover.--But you understand me.--Yes, you see,14430you understand my feelings--and will return them if you can. At present,14431I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.”1443214433While he spoke, Emma's mind was most busy, and, with all the wonderful14434velocity of thought, had been able--and yet without losing a word--to14435catch and comprehend the exact truth of the whole; to see that Harriet's14436hopes had been entirely groundless, a mistake, a delusion, as complete a14437delusion as any of her own--that Harriet was nothing; that she was every14438thing herself; that what she had been saying relative to Harriet14439had been all taken as the language of her own feelings; and that her14440agitation, her doubts, her reluctance, her discouragement, had been all14441received as discouragement from herself.--And not only was there time14442for these convictions, with all their glow of attendant happiness; there14443was time also to rejoice that Harriet's secret had not escaped her, and14444to resolve that it need not, and should not.--It was all the service14445she could now render her poor friend; for as to any of that heroism of14446sentiment which might have prompted her to entreat him to transfer his14447affection from herself to Harriet, as infinitely the most worthy of the14448two--or even the more simple sublimity of resolving to refuse him at14449once and for ever, without vouchsafing any motive, because he could not14450marry them both, Emma had it not. She felt for Harriet, with pain and14451with contrition; but no flight of generosity run mad, opposing all that14452could be probable or reasonable, entered her brain. She had led her14453friend astray, and it would be a reproach to her for ever; but her14454judgment was as strong as her feelings, and as strong as it had ever14455been before, in reprobating any such alliance for him, as most unequal14456and degrading. Her way was clear, though not quite smooth.--She spoke14457then, on being so entreated.--What did she say?--Just what she ought,14458of course. A lady always does.--She said enough to shew there need not14459be despair--and to invite him to say more himself. He _had_ despaired at14460one period; he had received such an injunction to caution and silence,14461as for the time crushed every hope;--she had begun by refusing to hear14462him.--The change had perhaps been somewhat sudden;--her proposal of14463taking another turn, her renewing the conversation which she had14464just put an end to, might be a little extraordinary!--She felt its14465inconsistency; but Mr. Knightley was so obliging as to put up with it,14466and seek no farther explanation.1446714468Seldom, very seldom, does complete truth belong to any human disclosure;14469seldom can it happen that something is not a little disguised, or a14470little mistaken; but where, as in this case, though the conduct is14471mistaken, the feelings are not, it may not be very material.--Mr.14472Knightley could not impute to Emma a more relenting heart than she14473possessed, or a heart more disposed to accept of his.1447414475He had, in fact, been wholly unsuspicious of his own influence. He had14476followed her into the shrubbery with no idea of trying it. He had come,14477in his anxiety to see how she bore Frank Churchill's engagement, with no14478selfish view, no view at all, but of endeavouring, if she allowed him an14479opening, to soothe or to counsel her.--The rest had been the work of14480the moment, the immediate effect of what he heard, on his feelings. The14481delightful assurance of her total indifference towards Frank Churchill,14482of her having a heart completely disengaged from him, had given birth14483to the hope, that, in time, he might gain her affection himself;--but14484it had been no present hope--he had only, in the momentary conquest of14485eagerness over judgment, aspired to be told that she did not forbid his14486attempt to attach her.--The superior hopes which gradually opened were14487so much the more enchanting.--The affection, which he had been asking14488to be allowed to create, if he could, was already his!--Within half14489an hour, he had passed from a thoroughly distressed state of mind, to14490something so like perfect happiness, that it could bear no other name.1449114492_Her_ change was equal.--This one half-hour had given to each the same14493precious certainty of being beloved, had cleared from each the same14494degree of ignorance, jealousy, or distrust.--On his side, there had been14495a long-standing jealousy, old as the arrival, or even the expectation,14496of Frank Churchill.--He had been in love with Emma, and jealous of Frank14497Churchill, from about the same period, one sentiment having probably14498enlightened him as to the other. It was his jealousy of Frank Churchill14499that had taken him from the country.--The Box Hill party had decided14500him on going away. He would save himself from witnessing again14501such permitted, encouraged attentions.--He had gone to learn to be14502indifferent.--But he had gone to a wrong place. There was too much14503domestic happiness in his brother's house; woman wore too amiable a form14504in it; Isabella was too much like Emma--differing only in those striking14505inferiorities, which always brought the other in brilliancy before14506him, for much to have been done, even had his time been longer.--He had14507stayed on, however, vigorously, day after day--till this very morning's14508post had conveyed the history of Jane Fairfax.--Then, with the gladness14509which must be felt, nay, which he did not scruple to feel, having never14510believed Frank Churchill to be at all deserving Emma, was there so much14511fond solicitude, so much keen anxiety for her, that he could stay no14512longer. He had ridden home through the rain; and had walked up directly14513after dinner, to see how this sweetest and best of all creatures,14514faultless in spite of all her faults, bore the discovery.1451514516He had found her agitated and low.--Frank Churchill was a villain.--14517He heard her declare that she had never loved him. Frank Churchill's14518character was not desperate.--She was his own Emma, by hand and word,14519when they returned into the house; and if he could have thought of Frank14520Churchill then, he might have deemed him a very good sort of fellow.14521145221452314524CHAPTER XIV145251452614527What totally different feelings did Emma take back into the house from14528what she had brought out!--she had then been only daring to hope for14529a little respite of suffering;--she was now in an exquisite flutter of14530happiness, and such happiness moreover as she believed must still be14531greater when the flutter should have passed away.1453214533They sat down to tea--the same party round the same table--how often14534it had been collected!--and how often had her eyes fallen on the same14535shrubs in the lawn, and observed the same beautiful effect of the14536western sun!--But never in such a state of spirits, never in any thing14537like it; and it was with difficulty that she could summon enough of her14538usual self to be the attentive lady of the house, or even the attentive14539daughter.1454014541Poor Mr. Woodhouse little suspected what was plotting against him in the14542breast of that man whom he was so cordially welcoming, and so anxiously14543hoping might not have taken cold from his ride.--Could he have seen the14544heart, he would have cared very little for the lungs; but without the14545most distant imagination of the impending evil, without the slightest14546perception of any thing extraordinary in the looks or ways of either,14547he repeated to them very comfortably all the articles of news he had14548received from Mr. Perry, and talked on with much self-contentment,14549totally unsuspicious of what they could have told him in return.1455014551As long as Mr. Knightley remained with them, Emma's fever continued;14552but when he was gone, she began to be a little tranquillised and14553subdued--and in the course of the sleepless night, which was the tax14554for such an evening, she found one or two such very serious points14555to consider, as made her feel, that even her happiness must have some14556alloy. Her father--and Harriet. She could not be alone without feeling14557the full weight of their separate claims; and how to guard the comfort14558of both to the utmost, was the question. With respect to her father,14559it was a question soon answered. She hardly knew yet what Mr. Knightley14560would ask; but a very short parley with her own heart produced the most14561solemn resolution of never quitting her father.--She even wept over14562the idea of it, as a sin of thought. While he lived, it must be only an14563engagement; but she flattered herself, that if divested of the danger of14564drawing her away, it might become an increase of comfort to him.--How14565to do her best by Harriet, was of more difficult decision;--how to spare14566her from any unnecessary pain; how to make her any possible atonement;14567how to appear least her enemy?--On these subjects, her perplexity14568and distress were very great--and her mind had to pass again and14569again through every bitter reproach and sorrowful regret that had ever14570surrounded it.--She could only resolve at last, that she would still14571avoid a meeting with her, and communicate all that need be told by14572letter; that it would be inexpressibly desirable to have her removed14573just now for a time from Highbury, and--indulging in one scheme14574more--nearly resolve, that it might be practicable to get an invitation14575for her to Brunswick Square.--Isabella had been pleased with Harriet;14576and a few weeks spent in London must give her some amusement.--She did14577not think it in Harriet's nature to escape being benefited by novelty14578and variety, by the streets, the shops, and the children.--At any rate,14579it would be a proof of attention and kindness in herself, from whom14580every thing was due; a separation for the present; an averting of the14581evil day, when they must all be together again.1458214583She rose early, and wrote her letter to Harriet; an employment which14584left her so very serious, so nearly sad, that Mr. Knightley, in walking14585up to Hartfield to breakfast, did not arrive at all too soon; and half14586an hour stolen afterwards to go over the same ground again with him,14587literally and figuratively, was quite necessary to reinstate her in a14588proper share of the happiness of the evening before.1458914590He had not left her long, by no means long enough for her to have the14591slightest inclination for thinking of any body else, when a letter was14592brought her from Randalls--a very thick letter;--she guessed what it14593must contain, and deprecated the necessity of reading it.--She was now14594in perfect charity with Frank Churchill; she wanted no explanations, she14595wanted only to have her thoughts to herself--and as for understanding14596any thing he wrote, she was sure she was incapable of it.--It must be14597waded through, however. She opened the packet; it was too surely so;--a14598note from Mrs. Weston to herself, ushered in the letter from Frank to14599Mrs. Weston.1460014601“I have the greatest pleasure, my dear Emma, in forwarding to you the14602enclosed. I know what thorough justice you will do it, and have scarcely14603a doubt of its happy effect.--I think we shall never materially disagree14604about the writer again; but I will not delay you by a long preface.--We14605are quite well.--This letter has been the cure of all the little14606nervousness I have been feeling lately.--I did not quite like your looks14607on Tuesday, but it was an ungenial morning; and though you will never14608own being affected by weather, I think every body feels a north-east14609wind.--I felt for your dear father very much in the storm of Tuesday14610afternoon and yesterday morning, but had the comfort of hearing last14611night, by Mr. Perry, that it had not made him ill.1461214613“Yours ever,14614“A. W.”1461514616[To Mrs. Weston.]146171461814619WINDSOR-JULY.14620MY DEAR MADAM,1462114622“If I made myself intelligible yesterday, this letter will be14623expected; but expected or not, I know it will be read with candour and14624indulgence.--You are all goodness, and I believe there will be need of14625even all your goodness to allow for some parts of my past conduct.--But14626I have been forgiven by one who had still more to resent. My courage14627rises while I write. It is very difficult for the prosperous to be14628humble. I have already met with such success in two applications for14629pardon, that I may be in danger of thinking myself too sure of yours,14630and of those among your friends who have had any ground of offence.--You14631must all endeavour to comprehend the exact nature of my situation when I14632first arrived at Randalls; you must consider me as having a secret which14633was to be kept at all hazards. This was the fact. My right to place14634myself in a situation requiring such concealment, is another question.14635I shall not discuss it here. For my temptation to _think_ it a right,14636I refer every caviller to a brick house, sashed windows below, and14637casements above, in Highbury. I dared not address her openly; my14638difficulties in the then state of Enscombe must be too well known to14639require definition; and I was fortunate enough to prevail, before we14640parted at Weymouth, and to induce the most upright female mind in the14641creation to stoop in charity to a secret engagement.--Had she refused, I14642should have gone mad.--But you will be ready to say, what was your14643hope in doing this?--What did you look forward to?--To any thing, every14644thing--to time, chance, circumstance, slow effects, sudden bursts,14645perseverance and weariness, health and sickness. Every possibility of14646good was before me, and the first of blessings secured, in obtaining her14647promises of faith and correspondence. If you need farther explanation,14648I have the honour, my dear madam, of being your husband's son, and14649the advantage of inheriting a disposition to hope for good, which no14650inheritance of houses or lands can ever equal the value of.--See14651me, then, under these circumstances, arriving on my first visit to14652Randalls;--and here I am conscious of wrong, for that visit might have14653been sooner paid. You will look back and see that I did not come till14654Miss Fairfax was in Highbury; and as _you_ were the person slighted, you14655will forgive me instantly; but I must work on my father's compassion, by14656reminding him, that so long as I absented myself from his house, so long14657I lost the blessing of knowing you. My behaviour, during the very14658happy fortnight which I spent with you, did not, I hope, lay me open to14659reprehension, excepting on one point. And now I come to the principal,14660the only important part of my conduct while belonging to you, which14661excites my own anxiety, or requires very solicitous explanation. With14662the greatest respect, and the warmest friendship, do I mention Miss14663Woodhouse; my father perhaps will think I ought to add, with the deepest14664humiliation.--A few words which dropped from him yesterday spoke his14665opinion, and some censure I acknowledge myself liable to.--My behaviour14666to Miss Woodhouse indicated, I believe, more than it ought.--In order to14667assist a concealment so essential to me, I was led on to make more than14668an allowable use of the sort of intimacy into which we were immediately14669thrown.--I cannot deny that Miss Woodhouse was my ostensible object--but14670I am sure you will believe the declaration, that had I not been14671convinced of her indifference, I would not have been induced by any14672selfish views to go on.--Amiable and delightful as Miss Woodhouse is,14673she never gave me the idea of a young woman likely to be attached; and14674that she was perfectly free from any tendency to being attached to me,14675was as much my conviction as my wish.--She received my attentions with14676an easy, friendly, goodhumoured playfulness, which exactly suited me.14677We seemed to understand each other. From our relative situation, those14678attentions were her due, and were felt to be so.--Whether Miss Woodhouse14679began really to understand me before the expiration of that fortnight,14680I cannot say;--when I called to take leave of her, I remember that I was14681within a moment of confessing the truth, and I then fancied she was not14682without suspicion; but I have no doubt of her having since detected me,14683at least in some degree.--She may not have surmised the whole, but her14684quickness must have penetrated a part. I cannot doubt it. You will find,14685whenever the subject becomes freed from its present restraints, that it14686did not take her wholly by surprize. She frequently gave me hints of it.14687I remember her telling me at the ball, that I owed Mrs. Elton gratitude14688for her attentions to Miss Fairfax.--I hope this history of my conduct14689towards her will be admitted by you and my father as great extenuation14690of what you saw amiss. While you considered me as having sinned against14691Emma Woodhouse, I could deserve nothing from either. Acquit me here, and14692procure for me, when it is allowable, the acquittal and good wishes14693of that said Emma Woodhouse, whom I regard with so much brotherly14694affection, as to long to have her as deeply and as happily in love as14695myself.--Whatever strange things I said or did during that fortnight,14696you have now a key to. My heart was in Highbury, and my business was to14697get my body thither as often as might be, and with the least suspicion.14698If you remember any queernesses, set them all to the right account.--Of14699the pianoforte so much talked of, I feel it only necessary to say, that14700its being ordered was absolutely unknown to Miss F--, who would never14701have allowed me to send it, had any choice been given her.--The14702delicacy of her mind throughout the whole engagement, my dear madam,14703is much beyond my power of doing justice to. You will soon, I earnestly14704hope, know her thoroughly yourself.--No description can describe her.14705She must tell you herself what she is--yet not by word, for never14706was there a human creature who would so designedly suppress her own14707merit.--Since I began this letter, which will be longer than I foresaw,14708I have heard from her.--She gives a good account of her own health; but14709as she never complains, I dare not depend. I want to have your opinion14710of her looks. I know you will soon call on her; she is living in dread14711of the visit. Perhaps it is paid already. Let me hear from you without14712delay; I am impatient for a thousand particulars. Remember how few14713minutes I was at Randalls, and in how bewildered, how mad a state: and14714I am not much better yet; still insane either from happiness or14715misery. When I think of the kindness and favour I have met with, of her14716excellence and patience, and my uncle's generosity, I am mad with joy:14717but when I recollect all the uneasiness I occasioned her, and how little14718I deserve to be forgiven, I am mad with anger. If I could but see her14719again!--But I must not propose it yet. My uncle has been too good for me14720to encroach.--I must still add to this long letter. You have not heard14721all that you ought to hear. I could not give any connected detail14722yesterday; but the suddenness, and, in one light, the unseasonableness14723with which the affair burst out, needs explanation; for though the event14724of the 26th ult., as you will conclude, immediately opened to me the14725happiest prospects, I should not have presumed on such early measures,14726but from the very particular circumstances, which left me not an hour to14727lose. I should myself have shrunk from any thing so hasty, and she14728would have felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and14729refinement.--But I had no choice. The hasty engagement she had entered14730into with that woman--Here, my dear madam, I was obliged to leave off14731abruptly, to recollect and compose myself.--I have been walking over14732the country, and am now, I hope, rational enough to make the rest of14733my letter what it ought to be.--It is, in fact, a most mortifying14734retrospect for me. I behaved shamefully. And here I can admit, that14735my manners to Miss W., in being unpleasant to Miss F., were highly14736blameable. _She_ disapproved them, which ought to have been enough.--My14737plea of concealing the truth she did not think sufficient.--She was14738displeased; I thought unreasonably so: I thought her, on a thousand14739occasions, unnecessarily scrupulous and cautious: I thought her even14740cold. But she was always right. If I had followed her judgment, and14741subdued my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper, I should have14742escaped the greatest unhappiness I have ever known.--We quarrelled.--14743Do you remember the morning spent at Donwell?--_There_ every little14744dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis. I was late;14745I met her walking home by herself, and wanted to walk with her, but she14746would not suffer it. She absolutely refused to allow me, which I then14747thought most unreasonable. Now, however, I see nothing in it but a very14748natural and consistent degree of discretion. While I, to blind the14749world to our engagement, was behaving one hour with objectionable14750particularity to another woman, was she to be consenting the next to a14751proposal which might have made every previous caution useless?--Had we14752been met walking together between Donwell and Highbury, the truth must14753have been suspected.--I was mad enough, however, to resent.--I doubted14754her affection. I doubted it more the next day on Box Hill; when,14755provoked by such conduct on my side, such shameful, insolent neglect14756of her, and such apparent devotion to Miss W., as it would have been14757impossible for any woman of sense to endure, she spoke her resentment in14758a form of words perfectly intelligible to me.--In short, my dear14759madam, it was a quarrel blameless on her side, abominable on mine; and14760I returned the same evening to Richmond, though I might have staid with14761you till the next morning, merely because I would be as angry with14762her as possible. Even then, I was not such a fool as not to mean to14763be reconciled in time; but I was the injured person, injured by her14764coldness, and I went away determined that she should make the first14765advances.--I shall always congratulate myself that you were not of14766the Box Hill party. Had you witnessed my behaviour there, I can hardly14767suppose you would ever have thought well of me again. Its effect upon14768her appears in the immediate resolution it produced: as soon as she14769found I was really gone from Randalls, she closed with the offer of that14770officious Mrs. Elton; the whole system of whose treatment of her, by the14771bye, has ever filled me with indignation and hatred. I must not quarrel14772with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended towards14773myself; but, otherwise, I should loudly protest against the share of it14774which that woman has known.--'Jane,' indeed!--You will observe that I14775have not yet indulged myself in calling her by that name, even to you.14776Think, then, what I must have endured in hearing it bandied between14777the Eltons with all the vulgarity of needless repetition, and all the14778insolence of imaginary superiority. Have patience with me, I shall soon14779have done.--She closed with this offer, resolving to break with me14780entirely, and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet14781again.--_She_ _felt_ _the_ _engagement_ _to_ _be_ _a_ _source_ _of_14782_repentance_ _and_ _misery_ _to_ _each_: _she_ _dissolved_ _it_.--This14783letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt's death. I14784answered it within an hour; but from the confusion of my mind, and the14785multiplicity of business falling on me at once, my answer, instead of14786being sent with all the many other letters of that day, was locked up in14787my writing-desk; and I, trusting that I had written enough, though but14788a few lines, to satisfy her, remained without any uneasiness.--I was14789rather disappointed that I did not hear from her again speedily; but I14790made excuses for her, and was too busy, and--may I add?--too cheerful14791in my views to be captious.--We removed to Windsor; and two14792days afterwards I received a parcel from her, my own letters all14793returned!--and a few lines at the same time by the post, stating her14794extreme surprize at not having had the smallest reply to her last; and14795adding, that as silence on such a point could not be misconstrued,14796and as it must be equally desirable to both to have every subordinate14797arrangement concluded as soon as possible, she now sent me, by a safe14798conveyance, all my letters, and requested, that if I could not directly14799command hers, so as to send them to Highbury within a week, I would14800forward them after that period to her at--: in short, the full direction14801to Mr. Smallridge's, near Bristol, stared me in the face. I knew the14802name, the place, I knew all about it, and instantly saw what she had14803been doing. It was perfectly accordant with that resolution of character14804which I knew her to possess; and the secrecy she had maintained, as to14805any such design in her former letter, was equally descriptive of its14806anxious delicacy. For the world would not she have seemed to threaten14807me.--Imagine the shock; imagine how, till I had actually detected my14808own blunder, I raved at the blunders of the post.--What was to be14809done?--One thing only.--I must speak to my uncle. Without his sanction I14810could not hope to be listened to again.--I spoke; circumstances were14811in my favour; the late event had softened away his pride, and he was,14812earlier than I could have anticipated, wholly reconciled and complying;14813and could say at last, poor man! with a deep sigh, that he wished I14814might find as much happiness in the marriage state as he had done.--I14815felt that it would be of a different sort.--Are you disposed to pity14816me for what I must have suffered in opening the cause to him, for my14817suspense while all was at stake?--No; do not pity me till I reached14818Highbury, and saw how ill I had made her. Do not pity me till I saw her14819wan, sick looks.--I reached Highbury at the time of day when, from my14820knowledge of their late breakfast hour, I was certain of a good chance14821of finding her alone.--I was not disappointed; and at last I was not14822disappointed either in the object of my journey. A great deal of very14823reasonable, very just displeasure I had to persuade away. But it is14824done; we are reconciled, dearer, much dearer, than ever, and no moment's14825uneasiness can ever occur between us again. Now, my dear madam, I will14826release you; but I could not conclude before. A thousand and a thousand14827thanks for all the kindness you have ever shewn me, and ten thousand for14828the attentions your heart will dictate towards her.--If you think me in14829a way to be happier than I deserve, I am quite of your opinion.--Miss14830W. calls me the child of good fortune. I hope she is right.--In one14831respect, my good fortune is undoubted, that of being able to subscribe14832myself,1483314834Your obliged and affectionate Son,1483514836F. C. WESTON CHURCHILL.14837148381483914840CHAPTER XV148411484214843This letter must make its way to Emma's feelings. She was obliged, in14844spite of her previous determination to the contrary, to do it all the14845justice that Mrs. Weston foretold. As soon as she came to her own name,14846it was irresistible; every line relating to herself was interesting,14847and almost every line agreeable; and when this charm ceased, the subject14848could still maintain itself, by the natural return of her former regard14849for the writer, and the very strong attraction which any picture of14850love must have for her at that moment. She never stopt till she had gone14851through the whole; and though it was impossible not to feel that he had14852been wrong, yet he had been less wrong than she had supposed--and he had14853suffered, and was very sorry--and he was so grateful to Mrs. Weston, and14854so much in love with Miss Fairfax, and she was so happy herself, that14855there was no being severe; and could he have entered the room, she must14856have shaken hands with him as heartily as ever.1485714858She thought so well of the letter, that when Mr. Knightley came again,14859she desired him to read it. She was sure of Mrs. Weston's wishing it to14860be communicated; especially to one, who, like Mr. Knightley, had seen so14861much to blame in his conduct.1486214863“I shall be very glad to look it over,” said he; “but it seems long. I14864will take it home with me at night.”1486514866But that would not do. Mr. Weston was to call in the evening, and she14867must return it by him.1486814869“I would rather be talking to you,” he replied; “but as it seems a14870matter of justice, it shall be done.”1487114872He began--stopping, however, almost directly to say, “Had I been offered14873the sight of one of this gentleman's letters to his mother-in-law a few14874months ago, Emma, it would not have been taken with such indifference.”1487514876He proceeded a little farther, reading to himself; and then, with a14877smile, observed, “Humph! a fine complimentary opening: But it is his14878way. One man's style must not be the rule of another's. We will not be14879severe.”1488014881“It will be natural for me,” he added shortly afterwards, “to speak my14882opinion aloud as I read. By doing it, I shall feel that I am near you.14883It will not be so great a loss of time: but if you dislike it--”1488414885“Not at all. I should wish it.”1488614887Mr. Knightley returned to his reading with greater alacrity.1488814889“He trifles here,” said he, “as to the temptation. He knows he is wrong,14890and has nothing rational to urge.--Bad.--He ought not to have formed the14891engagement.--'His father's disposition:'--he is unjust, however, to his14892father. Mr. Weston's sanguine temper was a blessing on all his upright14893and honourable exertions; but Mr. Weston earned every present comfort14894before he endeavoured to gain it.--Very true; he did not come till Miss14895Fairfax was here.”1489614897“And I have not forgotten,” said Emma, “how sure you were that he might14898have come sooner if he would. You pass it over very handsomely--but you14899were perfectly right.”1490014901“I was not quite impartial in my judgment, Emma:--but yet, I think--had14902_you_ not been in the case--I should still have distrusted him.”1490314904When he came to Miss Woodhouse, he was obliged to read the whole of it14905aloud--all that related to her, with a smile; a look; a shake of the14906head; a word or two of assent, or disapprobation; or merely of love, as14907the subject required; concluding, however, seriously, and, after steady14908reflection, thus--1490914910“Very bad--though it might have been worse.--Playing a most dangerous14911game. Too much indebted to the event for his acquittal.--No judge of14912his own manners by you.--Always deceived in fact by his own wishes, and14913regardless of little besides his own convenience.--Fancying you to have14914fathomed his secret. Natural enough!--his own mind full of intrigue,14915that he should suspect it in others.--Mystery; Finesse--how they pervert14916the understanding! My Emma, does not every thing serve to prove more14917and more the beauty of truth and sincerity in all our dealings with each14918other?”1491914920Emma agreed to it, and with a blush of sensibility on Harriet's account,14921which she could not give any sincere explanation of.1492214923“You had better go on,” said she.1492414925He did so, but very soon stopt again to say, “the pianoforte! Ah! That14926was the act of a very, very young man, one too young to consider whether14927the inconvenience of it might not very much exceed the pleasure. A14928boyish scheme, indeed!--I cannot comprehend a man's wishing to give a14929woman any proof of affection which he knows she would rather dispense14930with; and he did know that she would have prevented the instrument's14931coming if she could.”1493214933After this, he made some progress without any pause. Frank Churchill's14934confession of having behaved shamefully was the first thing to call for14935more than a word in passing.1493614937“I perfectly agree with you, sir,”--was then his remark. “You did behave14938very shamefully. You never wrote a truer line.” And having gone through14939what immediately followed of the basis of their disagreement, and his14940persisting to act in direct opposition to Jane Fairfax's sense of right,14941he made a fuller pause to say, “This is very bad.--He had induced her14942to place herself, for his sake, in a situation of extreme difficulty and14943uneasiness, and it should have been his first object to prevent her from14944suffering unnecessarily.--She must have had much more to contend14945with, in carrying on the correspondence, than he could. He should have14946respected even unreasonable scruples, had there been such; but hers were14947all reasonable. We must look to her one fault, and remember that she14948had done a wrong thing in consenting to the engagement, to bear that she14949should have been in such a state of punishment.”1495014951Emma knew that he was now getting to the Box Hill party, and grew14952uncomfortable. Her own behaviour had been so very improper! She was14953deeply ashamed, and a little afraid of his next look. It was all read,14954however, steadily, attentively, and without the smallest remark; and,14955excepting one momentary glance at her, instantly withdrawn, in the fear14956of giving pain--no remembrance of Box Hill seemed to exist.1495714958“There is no saying much for the delicacy of our good friends, the14959Eltons,” was his next observation.--“His feelings are natural.--What!14960actually resolve to break with him entirely!--She felt the engagement to14961be a source of repentance and misery to each--she dissolved it.--What a14962view this gives of her sense of his behaviour!--Well, he must be a most14963extraordinary--”1496414965“Nay, nay, read on.--You will find how very much he suffers.”1496614967“I hope he does,” replied Mr. Knightley coolly, and resuming the letter.14968“'Smallridge!'--What does this mean? What is all this?”1496914970“She had engaged to go as governess to Mrs. Smallridge's children--a14971dear friend of Mrs. Elton's--a neighbour of Maple Grove; and, by the14972bye, I wonder how Mrs. Elton bears the disappointment?”1497314974“Say nothing, my dear Emma, while you oblige me to read--not even of14975Mrs. Elton. Only one page more. I shall soon have done. What a letter14976the man writes!”1497714978“I wish you would read it with a kinder spirit towards him.”1497914980“Well, there _is_ feeling here.--He does seem to have suffered in14981finding her ill.--Certainly, I can have no doubt of his being fond of14982her. 'Dearer, much dearer than ever.' I hope he may long continue to14983feel all the value of such a reconciliation.--He is a very liberal14984thanker, with his thousands and tens of thousands.--'Happier than I14985deserve.' Come, he knows himself there. 'Miss Woodhouse calls me the14986child of good fortune.'--Those were Miss Woodhouse's words, were they?--14987And a fine ending--and there is the letter. The child of good fortune!14988That was your name for him, was it?”1498914990“You do not appear so well satisfied with his letter as I am; but still14991you must, at least I hope you must, think the better of him for it. I14992hope it does him some service with you.”1499314994“Yes, certainly it does. He has had great faults, faults of14995inconsideration and thoughtlessness; and I am very much of his opinion14996in thinking him likely to be happier than he deserves: but still as he14997is, beyond a doubt, really attached to Miss Fairfax, and will soon, it14998may be hoped, have the advantage of being constantly with her, I am very14999ready to believe his character will improve, and acquire from hers the15000steadiness and delicacy of principle that it wants. And now, let me talk15001to you of something else. I have another person's interest at present15002so much at heart, that I cannot think any longer about Frank Churchill.15003Ever since I left you this morning, Emma, my mind has been hard at work15004on one subject.”1500515006The subject followed; it was in plain, unaffected, gentlemanlike15007English, such as Mr. Knightley used even to the woman he was in love15008with, how to be able to ask her to marry him, without attacking the15009happiness of her father. Emma's answer was ready at the first word.15010“While her dear father lived, any change of condition must be impossible15011for her. She could never quit him.” Part only of this answer, however,15012was admitted. The impossibility of her quitting her father, Mr.15013Knightley felt as strongly as herself; but the inadmissibility of any15014other change, he could not agree to. He had been thinking it over most15015deeply, most intently; he had at first hoped to induce Mr. Woodhouse to15016remove with her to Donwell; he had wanted to believe it feasible, but15017his knowledge of Mr. Woodhouse would not suffer him to deceive himself15018long; and now he confessed his persuasion, that such a transplantation15019would be a risk of her father's comfort, perhaps even of his life, which15020must not be hazarded. Mr. Woodhouse taken from Hartfield!--No, he felt15021that it ought not to be attempted. But the plan which had arisen on the15022sacrifice of this, he trusted his dearest Emma would not find in any15023respect objectionable; it was, that he should be received at Hartfield;15024that so long as her father's happiness--in other words, his life--required15025Hartfield to continue her home, it should be his likewise.1502615027Of their all removing to Donwell, Emma had already had her own passing15028thoughts. Like him, she had tried the scheme and rejected it; but such15029an alternative as this had not occurred to her. She was sensible of all15030the affection it evinced. She felt that, in quitting Donwell, he must15031be sacrificing a great deal of independence of hours and habits; that15032in living constantly with her father, and in no house of his own, there15033would be much, very much, to be borne with. She promised to think of it,15034and advised him to think of it more; but he was fully convinced, that no15035reflection could alter his wishes or his opinion on the subject. He had15036given it, he could assure her, very long and calm consideration; he had15037been walking away from William Larkins the whole morning, to have his15038thoughts to himself.1503915040“Ah! there is one difficulty unprovided for,” cried Emma. “I am sure15041William Larkins will not like it. You must get his consent before you15042ask mine.”1504315044She promised, however, to think of it; and pretty nearly promised,15045moreover, to think of it, with the intention of finding it a very good15046scheme.1504715048It is remarkable, that Emma, in the many, very many, points of view in15049which she was now beginning to consider Donwell Abbey, was never15050struck with any sense of injury to her nephew Henry, whose rights as15051heir-expectant had formerly been so tenaciously regarded. Think she must15052of the possible difference to the poor little boy; and yet she only15053gave herself a saucy conscious smile about it, and found amusement in15054detecting the real cause of that violent dislike of Mr. Knightley's15055marrying Jane Fairfax, or any body else, which at the time she had15056wholly imputed to the amiable solicitude of the sister and the aunt.1505715058This proposal of his, this plan of marrying and continuing at15059Hartfield--the more she contemplated it, the more pleasing it became.15060His evils seemed to lessen, her own advantages to increase, their mutual15061good to outweigh every drawback. Such a companion for herself in the15062periods of anxiety and cheerlessness before her!--Such a partner in15063all those duties and cares to which time must be giving increase of15064melancholy!1506515066She would have been too happy but for poor Harriet; but every blessing15067of her own seemed to involve and advance the sufferings of her friend,15068who must now be even excluded from Hartfield. The delightful family15069party which Emma was securing for herself, poor Harriet must, in mere15070charitable caution, be kept at a distance from. She would be a loser in15071every way. Emma could not deplore her future absence as any deduction15072from her own enjoyment. In such a party, Harriet would be rather a15073dead weight than otherwise; but for the poor girl herself, it seemed a15074peculiarly cruel necessity that was to be placing her in such a state of15075unmerited punishment.1507615077In time, of course, Mr. Knightley would be forgotten, that is,15078supplanted; but this could not be expected to happen very early. Mr.15079Knightley himself would be doing nothing to assist the cure;--not15080like Mr. Elton. Mr. Knightley, always so kind, so feeling, so truly15081considerate for every body, would never deserve to be less worshipped15082than now; and it really was too much to hope even of Harriet, that she15083could be in love with more than _three_ men in one year.15084150851508615087CHAPTER XVI150881508915090It was a very great relief to Emma to find Harriet as desirous as15091herself to avoid a meeting. Their intercourse was painful enough by15092letter. How much worse, had they been obliged to meet!1509315094Harriet expressed herself very much as might be supposed, without15095reproaches, or apparent sense of ill-usage; and yet Emma fancied there15096was a something of resentment, a something bordering on it in her style,15097which increased the desirableness of their being separate.--It might be15098only her own consciousness; but it seemed as if an angel only could have15099been quite without resentment under such a stroke.1510015101She had no difficulty in procuring Isabella's invitation; and she was15102fortunate in having a sufficient reason for asking it, without resorting15103to invention.--There was a tooth amiss. Harriet really wished, and15104had wished some time, to consult a dentist. Mrs. John Knightley was15105delighted to be of use; any thing of ill health was a recommendation to15106her--and though not so fond of a dentist as of a Mr. Wingfield, she was15107quite eager to have Harriet under her care.--When it was thus settled15108on her sister's side, Emma proposed it to her friend, and found her15109very persuadable.--Harriet was to go; she was invited for at least a15110fortnight; she was to be conveyed in Mr. Woodhouse's carriage.--It was15111all arranged, it was all completed, and Harriet was safe in Brunswick15112Square.1511315114Now Emma could, indeed, enjoy Mr. Knightley's visits; now she could15115talk, and she could listen with true happiness, unchecked by that sense15116of injustice, of guilt, of something most painful, which had haunted her15117when remembering how disappointed a heart was near her, how much might15118at that moment, and at a little distance, be enduring by the feelings15119which she had led astray herself.1512015121The difference of Harriet at Mrs. Goddard's, or in London, made perhaps15122an unreasonable difference in Emma's sensations; but she could not think15123of her in London without objects of curiosity and employment, which must15124be averting the past, and carrying her out of herself.1512515126She would not allow any other anxiety to succeed directly to the place15127in her mind which Harriet had occupied. There was a communication before15128her, one which _she_ only could be competent to make--the confession of15129her engagement to her father; but she would have nothing to do with it15130at present.--She had resolved to defer the disclosure till Mrs. Weston15131were safe and well. No additional agitation should be thrown at this15132period among those she loved--and the evil should not act on herself15133by anticipation before the appointed time.--A fortnight, at least, of15134leisure and peace of mind, to crown every warmer, but more agitating,15135delight, should be hers.1513615137She soon resolved, equally as a duty and a pleasure, to employ half an15138hour of this holiday of spirits in calling on Miss Fairfax.--She ought15139to go--and she was longing to see her; the resemblance of their present15140situations increasing every other motive of goodwill. It would be a15141_secret_ satisfaction; but the consciousness of a similarity of prospect15142would certainly add to the interest with which she should attend to any15143thing Jane might communicate.1514415145She went--she had driven once unsuccessfully to the door, but had not15146been into the house since the morning after Box Hill, when poor Jane had15147been in such distress as had filled her with compassion, though all the15148worst of her sufferings had been unsuspected.--The fear of being still15149unwelcome, determined her, though assured of their being at home, to15150wait in the passage, and send up her name.--She heard Patty announcing15151it; but no such bustle succeeded as poor Miss Bates had before made so15152happily intelligible.--No; she heard nothing but the instant reply of,15153“Beg her to walk up;”--and a moment afterwards she was met on the stairs15154by Jane herself, coming eagerly forward, as if no other reception of her15155were felt sufficient.--Emma had never seen her look so well, so lovely,15156so engaging. There was consciousness, animation, and warmth; there was15157every thing which her countenance or manner could ever have wanted.--15158She came forward with an offered hand; and said, in a low, but very15159feeling tone,1516015161“This is most kind, indeed!--Miss Woodhouse, it is impossible for me15162to express--I hope you will believe--Excuse me for being so entirely15163without words.”1516415165Emma was gratified, and would soon have shewn no want of words, if the15166sound of Mrs. Elton's voice from the sitting-room had not checked15167her, and made it expedient to compress all her friendly and all her15168congratulatory sensations into a very, very earnest shake of the hand.1516915170Mrs. Bates and Mrs. Elton were together. Miss Bates was out, which15171accounted for the previous tranquillity. Emma could have wished Mrs.15172Elton elsewhere; but she was in a humour to have patience with every15173body; and as Mrs. Elton met her with unusual graciousness, she hoped the15174rencontre would do them no harm.1517515176She soon believed herself to penetrate Mrs. Elton's thoughts, and15177understand why she was, like herself, in happy spirits; it was being in15178Miss Fairfax's confidence, and fancying herself acquainted with what was15179still a secret to other people. Emma saw symptoms of it immediately in15180the expression of her face; and while paying her own compliments to Mrs.15181Bates, and appearing to attend to the good old lady's replies, she saw15182her with a sort of anxious parade of mystery fold up a letter which she15183had apparently been reading aloud to Miss Fairfax, and return it into15184the purple and gold reticule by her side, saying, with significant nods,1518515186“We can finish this some other time, you know. You and I shall not want15187opportunities. And, in fact, you have heard all the essential already. I15188only wanted to prove to you that Mrs. S. admits our apology, and is15189not offended. You see how delightfully she writes. Oh! she is a sweet15190creature! You would have doated on her, had you gone.--But not a word15191more. Let us be discreet--quite on our good behaviour.--Hush!--You15192remember those lines--I forget the poem at this moment:1519315194“For when a lady's in the case,15195“You know all other things give place.”1519615197Now I say, my dear, in _our_ case, for _lady_, read----mum! a word to15198the wise.--I am in a fine flow of spirits, an't I? But I want to set15199your heart at ease as to Mrs. S.--_My_ representation, you see, has15200quite appeased her.”1520115202And again, on Emma's merely turning her head to look at Mrs. Bates's15203knitting, she added, in a half whisper,1520415205“I mentioned no _names_, you will observe.--Oh! no; cautious as a15206minister of state. I managed it extremely well.”1520715208Emma could not doubt. It was a palpable display, repeated on every15209possible occasion. When they had all talked a little while in harmony of15210the weather and Mrs. Weston, she found herself abruptly addressed with,1521115212“Do not you think, Miss Woodhouse, our saucy little friend here is15213charmingly recovered?--Do not you think her cure does Perry the highest15214credit?--(here was a side-glance of great meaning at Jane.) Upon my15215word, Perry has restored her in a wonderful short time!--Oh! if you had15216seen her, as I did, when she was at the worst!”--And when Mrs. Bates15217was saying something to Emma, whispered farther, “We do not say a word15218of any _assistance_ that Perry might have; not a word of a certain young15219physician from Windsor.--Oh! no; Perry shall have all the credit.”1522015221“I have scarce had the pleasure of seeing you, Miss Woodhouse,” she15222shortly afterwards began, “since the party to Box Hill. Very pleasant15223party. But yet I think there was something wanting. Things did not15224seem--that is, there seemed a little cloud upon the spirits of some.--So15225it appeared to me at least, but I might be mistaken. However, I think15226it answered so far as to tempt one to go again. What say you both to our15227collecting the same party, and exploring to Box Hill again, while the15228fine weather lasts?--It must be the same party, you know, quite the15229same party, not _one_ exception.”1523015231Soon after this Miss Bates came in, and Emma could not help being15232diverted by the perplexity of her first answer to herself, resulting,15233she supposed, from doubt of what might be said, and impatience to say15234every thing.1523515236“Thank you, dear Miss Woodhouse, you are all kindness.--It is impossible15237to say--Yes, indeed, I quite understand--dearest Jane's prospects--that15238is, I do not mean.--But she is charmingly recovered.--How is Mr.15239Woodhouse?--I am so glad.--Quite out of my power.--Such a happy little15240circle as you find us here.--Yes, indeed.--Charming young man!--that15241is--so very friendly; I mean good Mr. Perry!--such attention to15242Jane!”--And from her great, her more than commonly thankful delight15243towards Mrs. Elton for being there, Emma guessed that there had been a15244little show of resentment towards Jane, from the vicarage quarter,15245which was now graciously overcome.--After a few whispers, indeed, which15246placed it beyond a guess, Mrs. Elton, speaking louder, said,1524715248“Yes, here I am, my good friend; and here I have been so long, that15249anywhere else I should think it necessary to apologise; but, the truth15250is, that I am waiting for my lord and master. He promised to join me15251here, and pay his respects to you.”1525215253“What! are we to have the pleasure of a call from Mr. Elton?--That will15254be a favour indeed! for I know gentlemen do not like morning visits, and15255Mr. Elton's time is so engaged.”1525615257“Upon my word it is, Miss Bates.--He really is engaged from morning to15258night.--There is no end of people's coming to him, on some pretence or15259other.--The magistrates, and overseers, and churchwardens, are always15260wanting his opinion. They seem not able to do any thing without15261him.--'Upon my word, Mr. E.,' I often say, 'rather you than I.--I do15262not know what would become of my crayons and my instrument, if I had15263half so many applicants.'--Bad enough as it is, for I absolutely neglect15264them both to an unpardonable degree.--I believe I have not played a bar15265this fortnight.--However, he is coming, I assure you: yes, indeed, on15266purpose to wait on you all.” And putting up her hand to screen her15267words from Emma--“A congratulatory visit, you know.--Oh! yes, quite15268indispensable.”1526915270Miss Bates looked about her, so happily--!1527115272“He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself15273from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep15274consultation.--Mr. E. is Knightley's right hand.”1527515276Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, “Is Mr. Elton15277gone on foot to Donwell?--He will have a hot walk.”1527815279“Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting. Weston and15280Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who15281lead.--I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way.”1528215283“Have not you mistaken the day?” said Emma. “I am almost certain that15284the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow.--Mr. Knightley was at15285Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday.”1528615287“Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day,” was the abrupt answer, which15288denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Elton's side.--“I do15289believe,” she continued, “this is the most troublesome parish that ever15290was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove.”1529115292“Your parish there was small,” said Jane.1529315294“Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject15295talked of.”1529615297“But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard15298you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge; the15299only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children.”1530015301“Ah! you clever creature, that's very true. What a thinking brain you15302have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if we15303could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would produce15304perfection.--Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that _some_15305people may not think _you_ perfection already.--But hush!--not a word,15306if you please.”1530715308It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words,15309not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.15310The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very15311evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.1531215313Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her15314sparkling vivacity.1531515316“Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an15317encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!--But15318you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with. You knew I should15319not stir till my lord and master appeared.--Here have I been sitting15320this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal15321obedience--for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?”1532215323Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.15324His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent15325object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and the15326walk he had had for nothing.1532715328“When I got to Donwell,” said he, “Knightley could not be found. Very15329odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and the15330message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one.”1533115332“Donwell!” cried his wife.--“My dear Mr. E., you have not been to15333Donwell!--You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown.”1533415335“No, no, that's to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley15336to-day on that very account.--Such a dreadful broiling morning!--I went15337over the fields too--(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,) which made15338it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home! I assure you15339I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message for me. The15340housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected.--Very15341extraordinary!--And nobody knew at all which way he was gone. Perhaps15342to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods.--Miss15343Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!--Can you explain it?”1534415345Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary,15346indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.1534715348“I cannot imagine,” said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife15349ought to do,) “I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of15350all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect to15351be forgotten!--My dear Mr. E., he must have left a message for you, I am15352sure he must.--Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;--and his15353servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and very likely15354to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have often observed,15355extremely awkward and remiss.--I am sure I would not have such a15356creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any consideration. And15357as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap indeed.--She promised15358Wright a receipt, and never sent it.”1535915360“I met William Larkins,” continued Mr. Elton, “as I got near the house,15361and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not15362believe him.--William seemed rather out of humour. He did not know what15363was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever get the15364speech of him. I have nothing to do with William's wants, but it really15365is of very great importance that _I_ should see Knightley to-day; and it15366becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious inconvenience that I should15367have had this hot walk to no purpose.”1536815369Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly. In15370all probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr.15371Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards15372Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.1537315374She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to15375attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her15376an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,1537715378“It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility. Had you15379not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to15380introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might15381have been strictly correct.--I feel that I should certainly have been15382impertinent.”1538315384“Oh!” cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought15385infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual15386composure--“there would have been no danger. The danger would have15387been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than15388by expressing an interest--. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more15389collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very15390great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those15391of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not15392disgusted to such a degree as to--I have not time for half that I could15393wish to say. I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for15394myself. I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately--in short, if your15395compassion does not stand my friend--”1539615397“Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are,” cried Emma warmly, and15398taking her hand. “You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you15399might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted15400even--”1540115402“You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you.--So15403cold and artificial!--I had always a part to act.--It was a life of15404deceit!--I know that I must have disgusted you.”1540515406“Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.15407Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done15408quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there. I hope you15409have pleasant accounts from Windsor?”1541015411“Very.”1541215413“And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you--just as15414I begin to know you.”1541515416“Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet. I am here15417till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”1541815419“Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps,” replied Emma,15420smiling--“but, excuse me, it must be thought of.”1542115422The smile was returned as Jane answered,1542315424“You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I15425am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill15426at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of15427deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing15428more to wait for.”1542915430“Thank you, thank you.--This is just what I wanted to be assured15431of.--Oh! if you knew how much I love every thing that is decided and15432open!--Good-bye, good-bye.”15433154341543515436CHAPTER XVII154371543815439Mrs. Weston's friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the15440satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by15441knowing her to be the mother of a little girl. She had been decided in15442wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with15443any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabella's15444sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both father15445and mother best. It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew15446older--and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence--to15447have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks15448and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston--no15449one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it would be15450quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach, should not have15451their powers in exercise again.1545215453“She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me,” she15454continued--“like La Baronne d'Almane on La Comtesse d'Ostalis, in Madame15455de Genlis' Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little15456Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan.”1545715458“That is,” replied Mr. Knightley, “she will indulge her even more than15459she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all. It will15460be the only difference.”1546115462“Poor child!” cried Emma; “at that rate, what will become of her?”1546315464“Nothing very bad.--The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable15465in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my15466bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma. I, who am owing all15467my happiness to _you_, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me to be15468severe on them?”1546915470Emma laughed, and replied: “But I had the assistance of all your15471endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people. I doubt whether15472my own sense would have corrected me without it.”1547315474“Do you?--I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:--Miss Taylor15475gave you principles. You must have done well. My interference was quite15476as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to say, what15477right has he to lecture me?--and I am afraid very natural for you to15478feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did15479you any good. The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the15480tenderest affection to me. I could not think about you so much without15481doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors,15482have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least.”1548315484“I am sure you were of use to me,” cried Emma. “I was very often15485influenced rightly by you--oftener than I would own at the time. I15486am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be15487spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her15488as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is15489thirteen.”1549015491“How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your15492saucy looks--'Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I15493may, or I have Miss Taylor's leave'--something which, you knew, I15494did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad15495feelings instead of one.”1549615497“What an amiable creature I was!--No wonder you should hold my speeches15498in such affectionate remembrance.”1549915500“'Mr. Knightley.'--You always called me, 'Mr. Knightley;' and, from15501habit, it has not so very formal a sound.--And yet it is formal. I want15502you to call me something else, but I do not know what.”1550315504“I remember once calling you 'George,' in one of my amiable fits, about15505ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as15506you made no objection, I never did it again.”1550715508“And cannot you call me 'George' now?”1550915510“Impossible!--I never can call you any thing but 'Mr. Knightley.' I15511will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by15512calling you Mr. K.--But I will promise,” she added presently, laughing15513and blushing--“I will promise to call you once by your Christian name.15514I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;--in the building in15515which N. takes M. for better, for worse.”1551615517Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important15518service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the15519advice which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly15520follies--her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender a15521subject.--She could not enter on it.--Harriet was very seldom mentioned15522between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from her not being15523thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy,15524and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their friendship were15525declining. She was aware herself, that, parting under any other15526circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more, and that15527her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did, on15528Isabella's letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain of being15529obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little inferior to15530the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.1553115532Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be15533expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits, which15534appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be consulted; but,15535since that business had been over, she did not appear to find Harriet15536different from what she had known her before.--Isabella, to be sure,15537was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had not been equal to playing15538with the children, it would not have escaped her. Emma's comforts and15539hopes were most agreeably carried on, by Harriet's being to stay longer;15540her fortnight was likely to be a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John15541Knightley were to come down in August, and she was invited to remain15542till they could bring her back.1554315544“John does not even mention your friend,” said Mr. Knightley. “Here is15545his answer, if you like to see it.”1554615547It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage. Emma15548accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to know15549what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that her15550friend was unmentioned.1555115552“John enters like a brother into my happiness,” continued Mr. Knightley,15553“but he is no complimenter; and though I well know him to have,15554likewise, a most brotherly affection for you, he is so far from making15555flourishes, that any other young woman might think him rather cool in15556her praise. But I am not afraid of your seeing what he writes.”1555715558“He writes like a sensible man,” replied Emma, when she had read the15559letter. “I honour his sincerity. It is very plain that he considers the15560good fortune of the engagement as all on my side, but that he is not15561without hope of my growing, in time, as worthy of your affection, as15562you think me already. Had he said any thing to bear a different15563construction, I should not have believed him.”1556415565“My Emma, he means no such thing. He only means--”1556615567“He and I should differ very little in our estimation of the two,”15568interrupted she, with a sort of serious smile--“much less, perhaps, than15569he is aware of, if we could enter without ceremony or reserve on the15570subject.”1557115572“Emma, my dear Emma--”1557315574“Oh!” she cried with more thorough gaiety, “if you fancy your brother15575does not do me justice, only wait till my dear father is in the secret,15576and hear his opinion. Depend upon it, he will be much farther from doing15577_you_ justice. He will think all the happiness, all the advantage, on15578your side of the question; all the merit on mine. I wish I may not15579sink into 'poor Emma' with him at once.--His tender compassion towards15580oppressed worth can go no farther.”1558115582“Ah!” he cried, “I wish your father might be half as easily convinced as15583John will be, of our having every right that equal worth can give, to be15584happy together. I am amused by one part of John's letter--did you notice15585it?--where he says, that my information did not take him wholly by15586surprize, that he was rather in expectation of hearing something of the15587kind.”1558815589“If I understand your brother, he only means so far as your having15590some thoughts of marrying. He had no idea of me. He seems perfectly15591unprepared for that.”1559215593“Yes, yes--but I am amused that he should have seen so far into my15594feelings. What has he been judging by?--I am not conscious of any15595difference in my spirits or conversation that could prepare him at15596this time for my marrying any more than at another.--But it was so, I15597suppose. I dare say there was a difference when I was staying with them15598the other day. I believe I did not play with the children quite so much15599as usual. I remember one evening the poor boys saying, 'Uncle seems15600always tired now.'”1560115602The time was coming when the news must spread farther, and other15603persons' reception of it tried. As soon as Mrs. Weston was sufficiently15604recovered to admit Mr. Woodhouse's visits, Emma having it in view that15605her gentle reasonings should be employed in the cause, resolved first to15606announce it at home, and then at Randalls.--But how to break it to her15607father at last!--She had bound herself to do it, in such an hour of Mr.15608Knightley's absence, or when it came to the point her heart would have15609failed her, and she must have put it off; but Mr. Knightley was to come15610at such a time, and follow up the beginning she was to make.--She was15611forced to speak, and to speak cheerfully too. She must not make it a15612more decided subject of misery to him, by a melancholy tone herself.15613She must not appear to think it a misfortune.--With all the spirits she15614could command, she prepared him first for something strange, and then,15615in a few words, said, that if his consent and approbation could be15616obtained--which, she trusted, would be attended with no difficulty,15617since it was a plan to promote the happiness of all--she and Mr.15618Knightley meant to marry; by which means Hartfield would receive the15619constant addition of that person's company whom she knew he loved, next15620to his daughters and Mrs. Weston, best in the world.1562115622Poor man!--it was at first a considerable shock to him, and he tried15623earnestly to dissuade her from it. She was reminded, more than once, of15624having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would be15625a great deal better for her to remain single; and told of poor Isabella,15626and poor Miss Taylor.--But it would not do. Emma hung about him15627affectionately, and smiled, and said it must be so; and that he must15628not class her with Isabella and Mrs. Weston, whose marriages taking them15629from Hartfield, had, indeed, made a melancholy change: but she was not15630going from Hartfield; she should be always there; she was introducing15631no change in their numbers or their comforts but for the better; and she15632was very sure that he would be a great deal the happier for having Mr.15633Knightley always at hand, when he were once got used to the idea.--Did15634he not love Mr. Knightley very much?--He would not deny that he did,15635she was sure.--Whom did he ever want to consult on business but Mr.15636Knightley?--Who was so useful to him, who so ready to write his letters,15637who so glad to assist him?--Who so cheerful, so attentive, so attached15638to him?--Would not he like to have him always on the spot?--Yes. That15639was all very true. Mr. Knightley could not be there too often; he should15640be glad to see him every day;--but they did see him every day as it15641was.--Why could not they go on as they had done?1564215643Mr. Woodhouse could not be soon reconciled; but the worst was overcome,15644the idea was given; time and continual repetition must do the rest.--To15645Emma's entreaties and assurances succeeded Mr. Knightley's, whose fond15646praise of her gave the subject even a kind of welcome; and he was soon15647used to be talked to by each, on every fair occasion.--They had all15648the assistance which Isabella could give, by letters of the strongest15649approbation; and Mrs. Weston was ready, on the first meeting, to15650consider the subject in the most serviceable light--first, as a settled,15651and, secondly, as a good one--well aware of the nearly equal importance15652of the two recommendations to Mr. Woodhouse's mind.--It was agreed15653upon, as what was to be; and every body by whom he was used to be15654guided assuring him that it would be for his happiness; and having some15655feelings himself which almost admitted it, he began to think that some15656time or other--in another year or two, perhaps--it might not be so very15657bad if the marriage did take place.1565815659Mrs. Weston was acting no part, feigning no feelings in all that she15660said to him in favour of the event.--She had been extremely surprized,15661never more so, than when Emma first opened the affair to her; but she15662saw in it only increase of happiness to all, and had no scruple in15663urging him to the utmost.--She had such a regard for Mr. Knightley, as15664to think he deserved even her dearest Emma; and it was in every respect15665so proper, suitable, and unexceptionable a connexion, and in one15666respect, one point of the highest importance, so peculiarly eligible,15667so singularly fortunate, that now it seemed as if Emma could not safely15668have attached herself to any other creature, and that she had herself15669been the stupidest of beings in not having thought of it, and wished it15670long ago.--How very few of those men in a rank of life to address Emma15671would have renounced their own home for Hartfield! And who but Mr.15672Knightley could know and bear with Mr. Woodhouse, so as to make such15673an arrangement desirable!--The difficulty of disposing of poor Mr.15674Woodhouse had been always felt in her husband's plans and her own, for15675a marriage between Frank and Emma. How to settle the claims of Enscombe15676and Hartfield had been a continual impediment--less acknowledged by Mr.15677Weston than by herself--but even he had never been able to finish15678the subject better than by saying--“Those matters will take care of15679themselves; the young people will find a way.” But here there was15680nothing to be shifted off in a wild speculation on the future. It was15681all right, all open, all equal. No sacrifice on any side worth the name.15682It was a union of the highest promise of felicity in itself, and without15683one real, rational difficulty to oppose or delay it.1568415685Mrs. Weston, with her baby on her knee, indulging in such reflections15686as these, was one of the happiest women in the world. If any thing could15687increase her delight, it was perceiving that the baby would soon have15688outgrown its first set of caps.1568915690The news was universally a surprize wherever it spread; and Mr. Weston15691had his five minutes share of it; but five minutes were enough to15692familiarise the idea to his quickness of mind.--He saw the advantages15693of the match, and rejoiced in them with all the constancy of his wife;15694but the wonder of it was very soon nothing; and by the end of an hour he15695was not far from believing that he had always foreseen it.1569615697“It is to be a secret, I conclude,” said he. “These matters are always a15698secret, till it is found out that every body knows them. Only let me be15699told when I may speak out.--I wonder whether Jane has any suspicion.”1570015701He went to Highbury the next morning, and satisfied himself on that15702point. He told her the news. Was not she like a daughter, his eldest15703daughter?--he must tell her; and Miss Bates being present, it passed,15704of course, to Mrs. Cole, Mrs. Perry, and Mrs. Elton, immediately15705afterwards. It was no more than the principals were prepared for; they15706had calculated from the time of its being known at Randalls, how soon it15707would be over Highbury; and were thinking of themselves, as the evening15708wonder in many a family circle, with great sagacity.1570915710In general, it was a very well approved match. Some might think him, and15711others might think her, the most in luck. One set might recommend their15712all removing to Donwell, and leaving Hartfield for the John Knightleys;15713and another might predict disagreements among their servants; but yet,15714upon the whole, there was no serious objection raised, except in one15715habitation, the Vicarage.--There, the surprize was not softened by any15716satisfaction. Mr. Elton cared little about it, compared with his wife;15717he only hoped “the young lady's pride would now be contented;” and15718supposed “she had always meant to catch Knightley if she could;” and,15719on the point of living at Hartfield, could daringly exclaim, “Rather15720he than I!”--But Mrs. Elton was very much discomposed indeed.--“Poor15721Knightley! poor fellow!--sad business for him.”--She was extremely15722concerned; for, though very eccentric, he had a thousand good15723qualities.--How could he be so taken in?--Did not think him at all in15724love--not in the least.--Poor Knightley!--There would be an end of all15725pleasant intercourse with him.--How happy he had been to come and dine15726with them whenever they asked him! But that would be all over now.--Poor15727fellow!--No more exploring parties to Donwell made for _her_. Oh!15728no; there would be a Mrs. Knightley to throw cold water on every15729thing.--Extremely disagreeable! But she was not at all sorry that15730she had abused the housekeeper the other day.--Shocking plan, living15731together. It would never do. She knew a family near Maple Grove who15732had tried it, and been obliged to separate before the end of the first15733quarter.15734157351573615737CHAPTER XVIII157381573915740Time passed on. A few more to-morrows, and the party from London would15741be arriving. It was an alarming change; and Emma was thinking of it one15742morning, as what must bring a great deal to agitate and grieve her, when15743Mr. Knightley came in, and distressing thoughts were put by. After the15744first chat of pleasure he was silent; and then, in a graver tone, began15745with,1574615747“I have something to tell you, Emma; some news.”1574815749“Good or bad?” said she, quickly, looking up in his face.1575015751“I do not know which it ought to be called.”1575215753“Oh! good I am sure.--I see it in your countenance. You are trying not15754to smile.”1575515756“I am afraid,” said he, composing his features, “I am very much afraid,15757my dear Emma, that you will not smile when you hear it.”1575815759“Indeed! but why so?--I can hardly imagine that any thing which pleases15760or amuses you, should not please and amuse me too.”1576115762“There is one subject,” he replied, “I hope but one, on which we do not15763think alike.” He paused a moment, again smiling, with his eyes fixed on15764her face. “Does nothing occur to you?--Do not you recollect?--Harriet15765Smith.”1576615767Her cheeks flushed at the name, and she felt afraid of something, though15768she knew not what.1576915770“Have you heard from her yourself this morning?” cried he. “You have, I15771believe, and know the whole.”1577215773“No, I have not; I know nothing; pray tell me.”1577415775“You are prepared for the worst, I see--and very bad it is. Harriet15776Smith marries Robert Martin.”1577715778Emma gave a start, which did not seem like being prepared--and her eyes,15779in eager gaze, said, “No, this is impossible!” but her lips were closed.1578015781“It is so, indeed,” continued Mr. Knightley; “I have it from Robert15782Martin himself. He left me not half an hour ago.”1578315784She was still looking at him with the most speaking amazement.1578515786“You like it, my Emma, as little as I feared.--I wish our opinions were15787the same. But in time they will. Time, you may be sure, will make one15788or the other of us think differently; and, in the meanwhile, we need not15789talk much on the subject.”1579015791“You mistake me, you quite mistake me,” she replied, exerting herself.15792“It is not that such a circumstance would now make me unhappy, but I15793cannot believe it. It seems an impossibility!--You cannot mean to say,15794that Harriet Smith has accepted Robert Martin. You cannot mean that he15795has even proposed to her again--yet. You only mean, that he intends it.”1579615797“I mean that he has done it,” answered Mr. Knightley, with smiling but15798determined decision, “and been accepted.”1579915800“Good God!” she cried.--“Well!”--Then having recourse to her workbasket,15801in excuse for leaning down her face, and concealing all the exquisite15802feelings of delight and entertainment which she knew she must be15803expressing, she added, “Well, now tell me every thing; make this15804intelligible to me. How, where, when?--Let me know it all. I never was15805more surprized--but it does not make me unhappy, I assure you.--How--how15806has it been possible?”1580715808“It is a very simple story. He went to town on business three days ago,15809and I got him to take charge of some papers which I was wanting to send15810to John.--He delivered these papers to John, at his chambers, and was15811asked by him to join their party the same evening to Astley's. They were15812going to take the two eldest boys to Astley's. The party was to be our15813brother and sister, Henry, John--and Miss Smith. My friend Robert could15814not resist. They called for him in their way; were all extremely amused;15815and my brother asked him to dine with them the next day--which he15816did--and in the course of that visit (as I understand) he found an15817opportunity of speaking to Harriet; and certainly did not speak15818in vain.--She made him, by her acceptance, as happy even as he is15819deserving. He came down by yesterday's coach, and was with me this15820morning immediately after breakfast, to report his proceedings, first15821on my affairs, and then on his own. This is all that I can relate of15822the how, where, and when. Your friend Harriet will make a much15823longer history when you see her.--She will give you all the minute15824particulars, which only woman's language can make interesting.--In our15825communications we deal only in the great.--However, I must say, that15826Robert Martin's heart seemed for _him_, and to _me_, very overflowing;15827and that he did mention, without its being much to the purpose, that15828on quitting their box at Astley's, my brother took charge of Mrs. John15829Knightley and little John, and he followed with Miss Smith and Henry;15830and that at one time they were in such a crowd, as to make Miss Smith15831rather uneasy.”1583215833He stopped.--Emma dared not attempt any immediate reply. To speak, she15834was sure would be to betray a most unreasonable degree of happiness.15835She must wait a moment, or he would think her mad. Her silence disturbed15836him; and after observing her a little while, he added,1583715838“Emma, my love, you said that this circumstance would not now make you15839unhappy; but I am afraid it gives you more pain than you expected. His15840situation is an evil--but you must consider it as what satisfies your15841friend; and I will answer for your thinking better and better of him15842as you know him more. His good sense and good principles would delight15843you.--As far as the man is concerned, you could not wish your friend15844in better hands. His rank in society I would alter if I could, which is15845saying a great deal I assure you, Emma.--You laugh at me about William15846Larkins; but I could quite as ill spare Robert Martin.”1584715848He wanted her to look up and smile; and having now brought herself not15849to smile too broadly--she did--cheerfully answering,1585015851“You need not be at any pains to reconcile me to the match. I think15852Harriet is doing extremely well. _Her_ connexions may be worse than15853_his_. In respectability of character, there can be no doubt that they15854are. I have been silent from surprize merely, excessive surprize. You15855cannot imagine how suddenly it has come on me! how peculiarly unprepared15856I was!--for I had reason to believe her very lately more determined15857against him, much more, than she was before.”1585815859“You ought to know your friend best,” replied Mr. Knightley; “but I15860should say she was a good-tempered, soft-hearted girl, not likely to be15861very, very determined against any young man who told her he loved her.”1586215863Emma could not help laughing as she answered, “Upon my word, I believe15864you know her quite as well as I do.--But, Mr. Knightley, are you15865perfectly sure that she has absolutely and downright _accepted_ him.15866I could suppose she might in time--but can she already?--Did not you15867misunderstand him?--You were both talking of other things; of business,15868shows of cattle, or new drills--and might not you, in the confusion of15869so many subjects, mistake him?--It was not Harriet's hand that he was15870certain of--it was the dimensions of some famous ox.”1587115872The contrast between the countenance and air of Mr. Knightley and Robert15873Martin was, at this moment, so strong to Emma's feelings, and so strong15874was the recollection of all that had so recently passed on Harriet's15875side, so fresh the sound of those words, spoken with such emphasis,15876“No, I hope I know better than to think of Robert Martin,” that she was15877really expecting the intelligence to prove, in some measure, premature.15878It could not be otherwise.1587915880“Do you dare say this?” cried Mr. Knightley. “Do you dare to suppose me15881so great a blockhead, as not to know what a man is talking of?--What do15882you deserve?”1588315884“Oh! I always deserve the best treatment, because I never put up with15885any other; and, therefore, you must give me a plain, direct answer. Are15886you quite sure that you understand the terms on which Mr. Martin and15887Harriet now are?”1588815889“I am quite sure,” he replied, speaking very distinctly, “that he15890told me she had accepted him; and that there was no obscurity, nothing15891doubtful, in the words he used; and I think I can give you a proof that15892it must be so. He asked my opinion as to what he was now to do. He knew15893of no one but Mrs. Goddard to whom he could apply for information of15894her relations or friends. Could I mention any thing more fit to be done,15895than to go to Mrs. Goddard? I assured him that I could not. Then, he15896said, he would endeavour to see her in the course of this day.”1589715898“I am perfectly satisfied,” replied Emma, with the brightest smiles,15899“and most sincerely wish them happy.”1590015901“You are materially changed since we talked on this subject before.”1590215903“I hope so--for at that time I was a fool.”1590415905“And I am changed also; for I am now very willing to grant you all15906Harriet's good qualities. I have taken some pains for your sake, and for15907Robert Martin's sake, (whom I have always had reason to believe as much15908in love with her as ever,) to get acquainted with her. I have often15909talked to her a good deal. You must have seen that I did. Sometimes,15910indeed, I have thought you were half suspecting me of pleading poor15911Martin's cause, which was never the case; but, from all my observations,15912I am convinced of her being an artless, amiable girl, with very good15913notions, very seriously good principles, and placing her happiness in15914the affections and utility of domestic life.--Much of this, I have no15915doubt, she may thank you for.”1591615917“Me!” cried Emma, shaking her head.--“Ah! poor Harriet!”1591815919She checked herself, however, and submitted quietly to a little more15920praise than she deserved.1592115922Their conversation was soon afterwards closed by the entrance of her15923father. She was not sorry. She wanted to be alone. Her mind was in a15924state of flutter and wonder, which made it impossible for her to be15925collected. She was in dancing, singing, exclaiming spirits; and till she15926had moved about, and talked to herself, and laughed and reflected, she15927could be fit for nothing rational.1592815929Her father's business was to announce James's being gone out to put the15930horses to, preparatory to their now daily drive to Randalls; and she15931had, therefore, an immediate excuse for disappearing.1593215933The joy, the gratitude, the exquisite delight of her sensations may be15934imagined. The sole grievance and alloy thus removed in the prospect of15935Harriet's welfare, she was really in danger of becoming too happy for15936security.--What had she to wish for? Nothing, but to grow more worthy of15937him, whose intentions and judgment had been ever so superior to her own.15938Nothing, but that the lessons of her past folly might teach her humility15939and circumspection in future.1594015941Serious she was, very serious in her thankfulness, and in her15942resolutions; and yet there was no preventing a laugh, sometimes in the15943very midst of them. She must laugh at such a close! Such an end of the15944doleful disappointment of five weeks back! Such a heart--such a Harriet!1594515946Now there would be pleasure in her returning--Every thing would be a15947pleasure. It would be a great pleasure to know Robert Martin.1594815949High in the rank of her most serious and heartfelt felicities, was the15950reflection that all necessity of concealment from Mr. Knightley would15951soon be over. The disguise, equivocation, mystery, so hateful to her to15952practise, might soon be over. She could now look forward to giving him15953that full and perfect confidence which her disposition was most ready to15954welcome as a duty.1595515956In the gayest and happiest spirits she set forward with her father; not15957always listening, but always agreeing to what he said; and, whether in15958speech or silence, conniving at the comfortable persuasion of his15959being obliged to go to Randalls every day, or poor Mrs. Weston would be15960disappointed.1596115962They arrived.--Mrs. Weston was alone in the drawing-room:--but hardly15963had they been told of the baby, and Mr. Woodhouse received the thanks15964for coming, which he asked for, when a glimpse was caught through the15965blind, of two figures passing near the window.1596615967“It is Frank and Miss Fairfax,” said Mrs. Weston. “I was just going to15968tell you of our agreeable surprize in seeing him arrive this morning. He15969stays till to-morrow, and Miss Fairfax has been persuaded to spend the15970day with us.--They are coming in, I hope.”1597115972In half a minute they were in the room. Emma was extremely glad to15973see him--but there was a degree of confusion--a number of embarrassing15974recollections on each side. They met readily and smiling, but with a15975consciousness which at first allowed little to be said; and having all15976sat down again, there was for some time such a blank in the circle, that15977Emma began to doubt whether the wish now indulged, which she had long15978felt, of seeing Frank Churchill once more, and of seeing him with Jane,15979would yield its proportion of pleasure. When Mr. Weston joined the15980party, however, and when the baby was fetched, there was no longer a15981want of subject or animation--or of courage and opportunity for Frank15982Churchill to draw near her and say,1598315984“I have to thank you, Miss Woodhouse, for a very kind forgiving message15985in one of Mrs. Weston's letters. I hope time has not made you less15986willing to pardon. I hope you do not retract what you then said.”1598715988“No, indeed,” cried Emma, most happy to begin, “not in the least. I am15989particularly glad to see and shake hands with you--and to give you joy15990in person.”1599115992He thanked her with all his heart, and continued some time to speak with15993serious feeling of his gratitude and happiness.1599415995“Is not she looking well?” said he, turning his eyes towards Jane.15996“Better than she ever used to do?--You see how my father and Mrs. Weston15997doat upon her.”1599815999But his spirits were soon rising again, and with laughing eyes, after16000mentioning the expected return of the Campbells, he named the name of16001Dixon.--Emma blushed, and forbade its being pronounced in her hearing.1600216003“I can never think of it,” she cried, “without extreme shame.”1600416005“The shame,” he answered, “is all mine, or ought to be. But is it16006possible that you had no suspicion?--I mean of late. Early, I know, you16007had none.”1600816009“I never had the smallest, I assure you.”1601016011“That appears quite wonderful. I was once very near--and I wish I16012had--it would have been better. But though I was always doing wrong16013things, they were very bad wrong things, and such as did me no16014service.--It would have been a much better transgression had I broken16015the bond of secrecy and told you every thing.”1601616017“It is not now worth a regret,” said Emma.1601816019“I have some hope,” resumed he, “of my uncle's being persuaded to pay a16020visit at Randalls; he wants to be introduced to her. When the Campbells16021are returned, we shall meet them in London, and continue there, I trust,16022till we may carry her northward.--But now, I am at such a distance from16023her--is not it hard, Miss Woodhouse?--Till this morning, we have not16024once met since the day of reconciliation. Do not you pity me?”1602516026Emma spoke her pity so very kindly, that with a sudden accession of gay16027thought, he cried,1602816029“Ah! by the bye,” then sinking his voice, and looking demure for the16030moment--“I hope Mr. Knightley is well?” He paused.--She coloured and16031laughed.--“I know you saw my letter, and think you may remember my wish16032in your favour. Let me return your congratulations.--I assure you that16033I have heard the news with the warmest interest and satisfaction.--He is16034a man whom I cannot presume to praise.”1603516036Emma was delighted, and only wanted him to go on in the same style; but16037his mind was the next moment in his own concerns and with his own Jane,16038and his next words were,1603916040“Did you ever see such a skin?--such smoothness! such delicacy!--and16041yet without being actually fair.--One cannot call her fair. It is a16042most uncommon complexion, with her dark eye-lashes and hair--a most16043distinguishing complexion! So peculiarly the lady in it.--Just colour16044enough for beauty.”1604516046“I have always admired her complexion,” replied Emma, archly; “but16047do not I remember the time when you found fault with her for being so16048pale?--When we first began to talk of her.--Have you quite forgotten?”1604916050“Oh! no--what an impudent dog I was!--How could I dare--”1605116052But he laughed so heartily at the recollection, that Emma could not help16053saying,1605416055“I do suspect that in the midst of your perplexities at that time, you16056had very great amusement in tricking us all.--I am sure you had.--I am16057sure it was a consolation to you.”1605816059“Oh! no, no, no--how can you suspect me of such a thing? I was the most16060miserable wretch!”1606116062“Not quite so miserable as to be insensible to mirth. I am sure it was a16063source of high entertainment to you, to feel that you were taking us16064all in.--Perhaps I am the readier to suspect, because, to tell you the16065truth, I think it might have been some amusement to myself in the same16066situation. I think there is a little likeness between us.”1606716068He bowed.1606916070“If not in our dispositions,” she presently added, with a look of true16071sensibility, “there is a likeness in our destiny; the destiny which bids16072fair to connect us with two characters so much superior to our own.”1607316074“True, true,” he answered, warmly. “No, not true on your side. You can16075have no superior, but most true on mine.--She is a complete angel. Look16076at her. Is not she an angel in every gesture? Observe the turn of her16077throat. Observe her eyes, as she is looking up at my father.--You will16078be glad to hear (inclining his head, and whispering seriously) that my16079uncle means to give her all my aunt's jewels. They are to be new set.16080I am resolved to have some in an ornament for the head. Will not it be16081beautiful in her dark hair?”1608216083“Very beautiful, indeed,” replied Emma; and she spoke so kindly, that he16084gratefully burst out,1608516086“How delighted I am to see you again! and to see you in such excellent16087looks!--I would not have missed this meeting for the world. I should16088certainly have called at Hartfield, had you failed to come.”1608916090The others had been talking of the child, Mrs. Weston giving an account16091of a little alarm she had been under, the evening before, from the16092infant's appearing not quite well. She believed she had been foolish,16093but it had alarmed her, and she had been within half a minute of sending16094for Mr. Perry. Perhaps she ought to be ashamed, but Mr. Weston had been16095almost as uneasy as herself.--In ten minutes, however, the child had16096been perfectly well again. This was her history; and particularly16097interesting it was to Mr. Woodhouse, who commended her very much for16098thinking of sending for Perry, and only regretted that she had not done16099it. “She should always send for Perry, if the child appeared in the16100slightest degree disordered, were it only for a moment. She could not be16101too soon alarmed, nor send for Perry too often. It was a pity, perhaps,16102that he had not come last night; for, though the child seemed well now,16103very well considering, it would probably have been better if Perry had16104seen it.”1610516106Frank Churchill caught the name.1610716108“Perry!” said he to Emma, and trying, as he spoke, to catch Miss16109Fairfax's eye. “My friend Mr. Perry! What are they saying about Mr.16110Perry?--Has he been here this morning?--And how does he travel now?--Has16111he set up his carriage?”1611216113Emma soon recollected, and understood him; and while she joined in the16114laugh, it was evident from Jane's countenance that she too was really16115hearing him, though trying to seem deaf.1611616117“Such an extraordinary dream of mine!” he cried. “I can never think of16118it without laughing.--She hears us, she hears us, Miss Woodhouse. I see16119it in her cheek, her smile, her vain attempt to frown. Look at her. Do16120not you see that, at this instant, the very passage of her own letter,16121which sent me the report, is passing under her eye--that the whole16122blunder is spread before her--that she can attend to nothing else,16123though pretending to listen to the others?”1612416125Jane was forced to smile completely, for a moment; and the smile partly16126remained as she turned towards him, and said in a conscious, low, yet16127steady voice,1612816129“How you can bear such recollections, is astonishing to me!--They16130_will_ sometimes obtrude--but how you can court them!”1613116132He had a great deal to say in return, and very entertainingly; but16133Emma's feelings were chiefly with Jane, in the argument; and on leaving16134Randalls, and falling naturally into a comparison of the two men, she16135felt, that pleased as she had been to see Frank Churchill, and really16136regarding him as she did with friendship, she had never been more16137sensible of Mr. Knightley's high superiority of character. The happiness16138of this most happy day, received its completion, in the animated16139contemplation of his worth which this comparison produced.16140161411614216143CHAPTER XIX161441614516146If Emma had still, at intervals, an anxious feeling for Harriet, a16147momentary doubt of its being possible for her to be really cured of her16148attachment to Mr. Knightley, and really able to accept another man from16149unbiased inclination, it was not long that she had to suffer from the16150recurrence of any such uncertainty. A very few days brought the party16151from London, and she had no sooner an opportunity of being one hour16152alone with Harriet, than she became perfectly satisfied--unaccountable16153as it was!--that Robert Martin had thoroughly supplanted Mr. Knightley,16154and was now forming all her views of happiness.1615516156Harriet was a little distressed--did look a little foolish at first:16157but having once owned that she had been presumptuous and silly, and16158self-deceived, before, her pain and confusion seemed to die away with16159the words, and leave her without a care for the past, and with the16160fullest exultation in the present and future; for, as to her friend's16161approbation, Emma had instantly removed every fear of that nature, by16162meeting her with the most unqualified congratulations.--Harriet was16163most happy to give every particular of the evening at Astley's, and the16164dinner the next day; she could dwell on it all with the utmost delight.16165But what did such particulars explain?--The fact was, as Emma could now16166acknowledge, that Harriet had always liked Robert Martin; and that his16167continuing to love her had been irresistible.--Beyond this, it must ever16168be unintelligible to Emma.1616916170The event, however, was most joyful; and every day was giving her fresh16171reason for thinking so.--Harriet's parentage became known. She proved16172to be the daughter of a tradesman, rich enough to afford her the16173comfortable maintenance which had ever been hers, and decent enough to16174have always wished for concealment.--Such was the blood of gentility16175which Emma had formerly been so ready to vouch for!--It was likely to16176be as untainted, perhaps, as the blood of many a gentleman: but what16177a connexion had she been preparing for Mr. Knightley--or for the16178Churchills--or even for Mr. Elton!--The stain of illegitimacy,16179unbleached by nobility or wealth, would have been a stain indeed.1618016181No objection was raised on the father's side; the young man was treated16182liberally; it was all as it should be: and as Emma became acquainted16183with Robert Martin, who was now introduced at Hartfield, she fully16184acknowledged in him all the appearance of sense and worth which could16185bid fairest for her little friend. She had no doubt of Harriet's16186happiness with any good-tempered man; but with him, and in the home he16187offered, there would be the hope of more, of security, stability, and16188improvement. She would be placed in the midst of those who loved her,16189and who had better sense than herself; retired enough for safety,16190and occupied enough for cheerfulness. She would be never led into16191temptation, nor left for it to find her out. She would be respectable16192and happy; and Emma admitted her to be the luckiest creature in the16193world, to have created so steady and persevering an affection in such a16194man;--or, if not quite the luckiest, to yield only to herself.1619516196Harriet, necessarily drawn away by her engagements with the Martins,16197was less and less at Hartfield; which was not to be regretted.--The16198intimacy between her and Emma must sink; their friendship must change16199into a calmer sort of goodwill; and, fortunately, what ought to be,16200and must be, seemed already beginning, and in the most gradual, natural16201manner.1620216203Before the end of September, Emma attended Harriet to church, and saw16204her hand bestowed on Robert Martin with so complete a satisfaction, as16205no remembrances, even connected with Mr. Elton as he stood before them,16206could impair.--Perhaps, indeed, at that time she scarcely saw Mr. Elton,16207but as the clergyman whose blessing at the altar might next fall on16208herself.--Robert Martin and Harriet Smith, the latest couple engaged of16209the three, were the first to be married.1621016211Jane Fairfax had already quitted Highbury, and was restored to the16212comforts of her beloved home with the Campbells.--The Mr. Churchills16213were also in town; and they were only waiting for November.1621416215The intermediate month was the one fixed on, as far as they dared, by16216Emma and Mr. Knightley.--They had determined that their marriage ought16217to be concluded while John and Isabella were still at Hartfield, to16218allow them the fortnight's absence in a tour to the seaside, which was16219the plan.--John and Isabella, and every other friend, were agreed in16220approving it. But Mr. Woodhouse--how was Mr. Woodhouse to be induced16221to consent?--he, who had never yet alluded to their marriage but as a16222distant event.1622316224When first sounded on the subject, he was so miserable, that they were16225almost hopeless.--A second allusion, indeed, gave less pain.--He16226began to think it was to be, and that he could not prevent it--a very16227promising step of the mind on its way to resignation. Still, however, he16228was not happy. Nay, he appeared so much otherwise, that his daughter's16229courage failed. She could not bear to see him suffering, to know16230him fancying himself neglected; and though her understanding almost16231acquiesced in the assurance of both the Mr. Knightleys, that when16232once the event were over, his distress would be soon over too, she16233hesitated--she could not proceed.1623416235In this state of suspense they were befriended, not by any sudden16236illumination of Mr. Woodhouse's mind, or any wonderful change of his16237nervous system, but by the operation of the same system in another16238way.--Mrs. Weston's poultry-house was robbed one night of all her16239turkeys--evidently by the ingenuity of man. Other poultry-yards in16240the neighbourhood also suffered.--Pilfering was _housebreaking_ to Mr.16241Woodhouse's fears.--He was very uneasy; and but for the sense of his16242son-in-law's protection, would have been under wretched alarm every16243night of his life. The strength, resolution, and presence of mind of the16244Mr. Knightleys, commanded his fullest dependence. While either of them16245protected him and his, Hartfield was safe.--But Mr. John Knightley must16246be in London again by the end of the first week in November.1624716248The result of this distress was, that, with a much more voluntary,16249cheerful consent than his daughter had ever presumed to hope for at the16250moment, she was able to fix her wedding-day--and Mr. Elton was called16251on, within a month from the marriage of Mr. and Mrs. Robert Martin, to16252join the hands of Mr. Knightley and Miss Woodhouse.1625316254The wedding was very much like other weddings, where the parties have16255no taste for finery or parade; and Mrs. Elton, from the particulars16256detailed by her husband, thought it all extremely shabby, and very16257inferior to her own.--“Very little white satin, very few lace veils; a16258most pitiful business!--Selina would stare when she heard of it.”--But,16259in spite of these deficiencies, the wishes, the hopes, the confidence,16260the predictions of the small band of true friends who witnessed the16261ceremony, were fully answered in the perfect happiness of the union.16262162631626416265FINIS16266162671626816269162701627116272End of the Project Gutenberg EBook of Emma, by Jane Austen1627316274*** END OF THIS PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK EMMA ***1627516276***** This file should be named 158-0.txt or 158-0.zip *****16277This and all associated files of various formats will be found in:16278http://www.gutenberg.org/1/5/158/1627916280Produced by An Anonymous Volunteer1628116282Updated editions will replace the previous one--the old editions16283will be renamed.1628416285Creating the works from public domain print editions means that no16286one owns a United States copyright in these works, so the Foundation16287(and you!) can copy and distribute it in the United States without16288permission and without paying copyright royalties. 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